Chapter 7 Chapter 7 Who Can Avoid Falling

Gan Lu went upstairs and entered her room.The entire second floor is only designed as a spacious suite, and the study is connected to the bedroom, and the decoration is comfortable and low-key.After she moved in, the only change she made was to add a desk in the study, which occupied a window with Shang Xiuwen's desk.There is nothing on her desk except for a laptop, and Shang Xiuwen's desk is almost equivalent to a small office, complete with computers, fax machines, and printers, everything is neatly placed, but the fax machine is not usually connected , Shang Xiuwen would only occasionally stand by to receive documents.

She sat down on the sofa against the wall, threw down her purse, stretched her legs, and stared at the front in a daze.The mobile phone received a call back from Shang Xiuwen again. "Lulu, why didn't you answer the phone?" "I went to sing with Jiaxi and the others, but I didn't notice that the phone rang." "Have fun, how does your wrist feel?" "It's okay, the medicine feels a little numb and swollen after applying it, and it doesn't hurt much. I just got home. Xiuwen..." She called his name in a loud voice, but didn't know what to say next.

Shang Xiuwen waited for a while, then smiled softly: "Miss me?" "Well, I missed you. When will you be back?" "I have to fly to Beijing tomorrow morning. I think I will stay there for two or three days. When I come back, check your hands carefully. Don't force yourself these days, do you hear me?" Gan Lu said "hmm" again: "You didn't travel so often before." "Yes, there have been a lot of things recently, and I have too little time with you. After I have been busy for a while, I will make up for it and try to take you out for vacation during the winter vacation. Where do you want to go?"

"Can you go anywhere you want?" "As long as it's not outer space." There was a smile in Shang Xiuwen's voice. She thought for a while, "Actually, I have always wanted to go to England to see the places where crimes occurred in classic mystery novels, such as small villages, manors, castles, and the foggy streets of London." "It's really the strangest reason to travel I've ever heard." Shang Xiuwen was amused and laughed again. Gan Lu could imagine that the corners of his mouth must be twitching at this time, and his eyes were slightly narrowed, revealing the charm that always fascinated her. There was a slight pain in my heart. "Well, as long as there is enough time, we will go to England."

"But it's expensive to go to England." "It's not cheap, but I think we should still be able to afford it. And Shaokun has a house over there. He runs around the world, and it's vacant for at least ten months a year. We can live in his house." side." Shang Shaokun is his distant cousin. His parents died when he was more than ten years old. Shang Xiuwen's father adopted him. He is only a few months older than Shang Xiuwen.When Shang Xiuwen took Gan Lu to the Maldives for their honeymoon two years ago, Shang Shaokun went to meet them on purpose. In Gan Lu's impression, he was a silent and handsome man.

Gan Lu remained silent for a while, then changed the subject: "Mom doesn't seem to be in good spirits or appetite these days. Remember to call her tomorrow to see if she needs to go to the hospital for a check-up. I can accompany her there." "Okay, I will remember to tell her tomorrow, Lulu, my mother has a strong personality, and probably won't take the initiative to say anything, please help me pay more attention to her, and call me immediately if there is anything, I have to worry about you at home .” "Both husband and wife, are you still so polite?" "Well, you go to bed early." He paused for a while, then added softly, "I miss you."

After putting down the phone, Gan Lu felt tired, so she went directly to take a shower, and then went to bed.She picked up the one on the bedside table, turned to the page with the bookmark, read a few lines, then closed it and put it back.She is in a mess today, and she is really not in the mood to read. If the mystery novel she often read was spread out in front of her, when a suspicious case appeared, everyone would have a motive, everyone would be suspicious, and every character would be destined to leave more or less clues.Readers, like the detectives in the book, have equal opportunities to get close to the final answer. Although it is written by a good writer, it is unlikely that readers will beat the detectives in this quiz and get the answer in advance, but readers enjoy reading One is to analyze and sort out those clues simultaneously with the detectives, and carry out logical reasoning in order to find the truth.

Gan Lu found bitterly that doubts appeared in her life, and she had various clues: Nie Qian's warning, her mother-in-law Wu Lijun's recent abnormal mood, Shang Xiuwen's erratic whereabouts, his ex-girlfriend He Jingyi's Strange and provocative, the news that Qin Zhan just revealed... Yet no one can abstract life into a simple reasoning. More importantly, there is a rule of reasoning novels, which is to avoid adding love elements to the story, so as to prevent irrational emotional factors from interfering with the purely rational deduction process.But now, the mystery Gan Lu is facing comes from her closest lover. She doesn't know what the mystery she wants to explore, let alone whether she needs to explore it. Even in novels, the truth is often ugly and ruthless. of.

Gan Lu turned off the bedside lamp and lay down.The floor lamp was dimly lit, making the darkness in the room not seem dense.At first she moved back reluctantly. She didn't like the light very much, and complained coquettishly to Shang Xiuwen: "This light interferes with my sleep." Shang Xiuwen hugged her and turned her over, and let her lie on his right side: "I will let you focus on me on the bed, and you won't realize the existence of the light at all. When you wake up, this light will be very useful." Indeed, lying on his right side, he couldn't see the ground lamp, and when his body covered him and kissed one after another, it completely covered that little light.

When she occasionally woke up in the middle of the night, she also realized the benefits of having a floor lamp. However, now that she is alone, she has lost the enjoyment and composure she once had. The disordered state of mind at this moment made her involuntarily think of the beginning with Shang Xiuwen again. Although the deep kiss at the back mountain of the mining area museum in the outskirts of J city was long and passionate, the two of them didn't seem to be in a state of love logically. After Shang Xiuwen let go of Gan Lu, his expression was serious, and he seemed to be a little absent-minded. His appearance managed to free Gan Lu from the emotional state of confusion, and the two separated a little distance. He didn't say anything after getting in the car.

Gan Lu leaned her head on the back of the chair, just looking out of the car window, without a single thought forming in her head.It wasn't until the car drove past the same place for the third time that she couldn't help asking, "Do you like this street very much?" "I don't like it, I'm just looking for a place to eat." His voice was calm, the same as usual. In small cities during the Spring Festival, everyone goes to enjoy the holidays, and no one takes a possible business seriously. Most of the stores are closed, and the roads are deserted. "I'm afraid it's hard to find a restaurant that's open today." "No wonder my cousin said we came to eat, he had to tell the hotel in advance." Gan Lu suggested: "It's better to go to the supermarket to buy something, and then go home and make it yourself." Shang Xiuwen smiled slightly: "It is reasonable to say that this is a good opportunity for me to show off, but I have to confess that I have never cooked before." "I'll do it. Don't expect too much. It's okay to fill your stomach." The crazy shopping time before the festival has passed, and there are not many people in the supermarket.The two of them walked leisurely between the shelves pushing the shopping cart. Gan Lu asked Shang Xiuwen for advice when choosing food. He smiled and said, "I'm not picky about food. I basically eat everything." Gan Lu thinks that people who answer like this are usually more picky, but she doesn't think about it too much, she just plans to finish the evening meal quickly and go back to their rooms. When we got back to the villa, it was already dark. After turning on the lights, we saw that the large kitchen was mainly decorated in Chinese style. The floor was covered with bluestone slabs, and the central island-style bar and cabinet panels were all made of logs. The texture is delicate and thick, so extravagant that it is unnecessary. The whole set of brand-new kitchen facilities are shining brightly, and it doesn't look like there has been fireworks in the world at all.Gan Lu was glad that she didn't plan to show off her cooking skills in a strange place, and bought the most basic ingredients. She found all the kitchen utensils, washed and cut vegetables neatly, Shang Xiuwen let her be busy, and didn't even ask politely if there was anything he could do to help.She ignored him, and first made a simple assorted casserole to stew, and then fried frozen dumplings in a pan. When she turned her head, she saw Shang Xiuwen leaning against the door and looking at her. His focused expression was somewhat different from usual. Can't help wondering: "What's wrong?" Shang Xiuwen smiled, looking at him from a distance of a huge kitchen, he looked relaxed, not as tense as when he was in the car: "It's nothing." Gan Lu shrugged her shoulders in her heart, concentrated on the fried dumplings, turned them over and fried them until they were slightly browned, put them on a plate, and turned off the gas stove at the same time: "Where to eat?" "That's all right here. If the two of us go to that restaurant, it will look even bigger and useless." Shang Xiuwen finally walked over and brought the casserole to the central bar. Sit across from a high bar chair. "It's better for me to turn the customer into the master, please don't be polite and eat." Three low-hanging tube lights illuminate the bar, and the steaming food looks more attractive under the lights.Gan Lu was determined not to let her appetite be affected, she didn't even look at Shang Xiuwen who was opposite, she filled herself a bowl of assorted soup and started eating. "Your cooking skills are very good. I saw your cooking movements just now. I think if I go up to help you, I will definitely hinder you." Shang Xiuwen also started to eat, and he seemed to be eating deliciously. Gan Lu smiled: "There is a favor you can do, wash the dishes later." Shang Xiuwen was stunned for a moment, swallowed half of the dumpling, put down his chopsticks and wiped his mouth with a paper towel, he moved gracefully, and then smiled silently, the heat lingered between the two of them, his smile seemed a little erratic, Gan Lu However, he was hit by this warm smile again, so he had to lower his head to deal with the dumplings and assorted soup in front of him, trying to frighten his shaking heart, telling himself that he probably had too many thoughts, and that he would die for washing the dishes. It's a little bit of a hell of a laugh. Shang Xiuwen applauded the venue and ate up the food in front of him, then packed up his things and went to wash the dishes.Gan Lu walked alone to the glass greenhouse built in the garden of the villa.The night before, she and Feng Yian's girlfriend Xin Chen lived in the same guest room on the second floor. Xin Chen casually mentioned that the conservatory in this house is really luxurious. The irises and rhododendrons in it bloom beautifully, and there are many rare orchids. have a look. The door of the greenhouse opened as soon as it was pushed, and she casually pressed one of the switches beside it, only a few lights on one side were turned on, the light was not bright, but it was enough for her to see clearly. This flower room is about 100 square meters. On one side are various orchids placed on high and low wooden shelves. On the other side, a blue-purple flower in full bloom is probably the iris that Xin Chen mentioned. In the middle is a lively red flower. Rhododendrons are very pleasing to the eye, but the temperature in the greenhouse is high and the humidity is high. After the airtight flower fragrance is mixed with the slightly corrupt soil smell, it forms a strange and unpleasant smell, which makes people feel a little dizzy. It is really not a place for leisurely strolling. places in between. Gan Lu turned her hand back to turn off the light, intending to leave, but her fingers touched a warm hand. She turned her head suddenly in fright. Shang Xiuwen stood behind her at some point and held her hand tightly. Flicked a few switches.All of a sudden, soft music sounded in the greenhouse, and all the lights scattered around were turned on, the light was soft, and several windows around them opened automatically at the same time, allowing the fresh air to flow in.Gan Lu stared wide-eyed as if watching magic, and was about to speak when Shang Xiuwen gently pulled her into his arms with his hand, and his lips covered her slightly parted lips in surprise. This kiss was more tossed and deeper than the one after the mine during the day, the surrounding flowers were faintly scented, and the music was finely fragmented.The influence of the environment on people's emotions is very subtle. Gan Lu only vaguely realized that at least a few minutes ago, she still decided to keep a distance from this man, but in the blink of an eye, she kissed so fascinatedly that she completely forgot herself. Suddenly, two bright pillars of light swept into the greenhouse, and a car drove into the yard.Gan Lu was startled, and hurriedly broke away from the kiss, turned her head to look outside, the lights flashed, the car drove straight to the garage, and then stopped abruptly with a screeching brake sound. Shang Xiuwen still embraced her, she turned her head to look, his eyes looked outside, a faint smile hung on the corner of his mouth, under the light, he looked extremely warm, as if there was brilliance flowing, she was stunned for a moment, stopped for a while, then Think of what to ask yourself: "Who?" "It can only drive at this speed after coming in. It can only be my flirtatious cousin. Don't pay attention to him." There was a burst of indulgent male and female laughter from a distance outside, and then it was quiet. Shang Xiuwen let her go, pressed a few switches again, the greenhouse windows were closed, and only a few lights in the four corners were left on, and then hugged a little girl. Gan Lu, who was cramped, sat on a rattan recliner on one side. This intimate position of cuddling her whole body made Gan Lu feel nervous. sit." "Don't you want your cousin to see it?" Gan Lu laughed. Shang Xiuwen smiled lightly, and said in a relaxed tone: "No, I can come and live here at any time, and he also knows that I am here. However, he rarely comes to the villa. I guess it is not my cousin who he brought back. Go in later to avoid embarrassing encounters." Gan Lu didn't expect him to reveal the privacy of the family so frankly, so she had no choice but to refuse to comment.He hugged her, lying quietly, without any other movements, she relaxed: "After changing the air, I feel much better. I was just wondering, the greenhouse is so stuffy, and I can't stay there for a long time. Why did I put a chair here." "My cousin is very romantic, and my uncle is a bit literary and elegant. He often drinks here and recites poems like 'A jug of wine among the flowers, drinking alone without a blind date'." Shang Xiuwen's voice was a little teasing Say. "No wonder the home is decorated so classically, and there are so many calligraphy and paintings hanging there." "He likes to collect calligraphy and painting, but the works of modern calligraphy and painting that are not very valuable are displayed here. The truly valuable parts are kept in a special collection room in the city, and he refuses to show them when he is idle. This villa is bought. It’s not very expensive, but it cost a lot of money to hire someone to design and decorate. I joked with him that the new paintings on the small tree walls are not old, and it’s not like a family.” Gan Lu was a little amused: "If you continue to speak like this, it must be the tone of Mr. Beiwei Zhou." Shang Xiuwen was startled, and Gan Lu could clearly feel the rise and fall of his chest. He was obviously smiling happily, and couldn't help wondering: "Hey, my words are not so funny." He kissed her hair: "No, I think it's very interesting. It's true, there is no such thing as a family, but you can't put the signboard of the nouveau riche on your forehead. My uncle is okay, but he is a Confucian businessman, an amateur Time likes to attend calligraphy and painting auctions and raise signs, entertain painters, writers and scholars, and hang out in the literati circle, which is not too much, my cousin is really ostentatious in this small city." Gan Lu has known him for more than a year, but this is the first time he has heard him talk about family affairs, and the words seem to be a bit critical, but the tone is very relaxed, almost condescending and aloof, she doesn't know what to say, so she just Be quiet and listen. But Shang Xiuwen changed the topic: "It's a pity that you never drink, otherwise it would be nice for us to drink together here." "You can bring a drink over here." "Li Bai still wants to raise a glass to invite Mingyue, but if I drink it alone, it will become a boring drink, which is meaningless." Gan Lu doesn't like to discuss drinking with others: "Did your uncle grow these flowers?" "He doesn't have the time. There are gardeners here to take care of it. Now it's the Spring Festival, and the workers have gone back for vacation." There was a moment of silence, and the soft music made the surroundings quieter. They could hear each other's breathing and heartbeat.Gan Lu was almost a little afraid of the silence. She wanted to find something to talk about, but she didn't know where to start. She looked at the transparent roof of the glass greenhouse with nothing to do. Seeing a crooked moon hanging in the sky, with the music and the flowers blooming around, the music is soft and the flowers are delicate, no matter what you say, it can be called a beautiful day.No matter how chaotic Gan Lu's thoughts were, she gradually calmed down, lying in his arms peacefully, unexpectedly gradually becoming a little drowsy. She didn't know how long she had dozed off, but she opened her eyes after being startled suddenly, and looked at the man who was hugging her tightly with a little confusion. He also seemed to be asleep, breathing long and steadily.It was the first time for her to look at him so closely, his face looked relaxed in deep sleep, without the usual laziness and sense of distance, she could not help but be moved when she experienced the mutual dependence at this moment. In the past, she only hugged and kissed Nie Qian, but although she was jerky, Nie Qian was not much better. Two inexperienced boys and girls fell in love. In the limited time together, Nie Qian acted urgently and restrained. There is no such peaceful and serene time together in memory. The behavior of the man in front of her was a bit weird and unpredictable, but she was sure of one thing. He was not only good at kissing, but also good at controlling the situation, creating a suitable mood and atmosphere, and mobilizing her emotions calmly. It would probably be a very pleasant thing to fall in love with such a man, but she was a little confused.Of course, she had joked with Qian Jiaxi that she wanted to enjoy the man's pursuit, but she was not sure if she could get away with it if she continued to deal with him with her limited experience. She raised her eyes again and found that Shang Xiuwen had woken up at some point, looking at her thoughtfully, then raised her wrist to look at her watch: "It's getting late, let's go in." After leaving the greenhouse, the cold wind outside made Gan Lu shiver. Shang Xiuwen hugged her and walked quickly into the villa. As soon as they entered the door, the two of them were stunned at the same time. Throwing it all the way, forming a messy and fragrant scene, Gan Lu slowly looked from the white cashmere coat and black windbreaker under her feet to the cashmere sweater, skirt, men's suit jacket, high-heeled leather boots, leather shoes, and underwear in front of her. ... When her eyes fell on the black fishnet stockings hanging on the handrail of the stairs, she couldn't help it anymore, and burst out laughing.Shang Xiuwen stroked his chin with a helpless expression on his face. After a while, he also smiled. "Don't go to the upstairs bedroom today, go to sleep in the room next to me." He pointed to the left, "The second door, go, I'll get you the travel bag." He walked upstairs with all kinds of clothes as if nothing had happened, without any intention of tidying up. Gan Lu entered the room he was pointing to. The interior was different from the simple Western-style layout of the bedroom upstairs. It was full of antique Chinese-style furniture. The most striking thing was a mahogany bed with intricate carvings. It was covered with a dark blue silk satin quilt, which was too gorgeous. She smiled wryly when she saw it, and felt that she would be a little apprehensive when she went to sleep, fearing that she would suffer from insomnia. A carved door on the side was pushed open, and Shang Xiuwen walked in with her travel bag. It turned out that there were two connected bedrooms sharing a bathroom.He smiled slightly: "You're not used to it, there's nothing you can do, it's better than going upstairs and bumping into an inappropriate scene." He pointed her to the location of the bathroom, and told her to just use the facilities here with confidence, he would go to the study to read a book first, and use the public bathroom.After saying goodnight to her, he went out. Gan Lu carries with her a copy of Agatha Christie's novels. This book is composed of independent short stories, the plot is not coherent, and the reasoning is not very strong, but the writing is light and humorous, not scary and tense. An unfamiliar environment with piecemeal time to read. After taking a bath, she leaned against the head of the bed and hugged the quilt to read a book, and was about to lie down when she fell asleep, but just a little sleepy, the door was pushed open suddenly, and a woman was wearing only a loose men's shirt and wavy curls. The young girl with long hair and two slender and straight legs looked at her face to face, and then exaggeratedly screamed: "Who are you?" This kind of Chinese-style decoration, classic furniture, and the beauties who suddenly appeared, it is a bit of the mysterious atmosphere of Liaozhai.Gan Lu thought, sitting with her brocade quilt in her arms, and falling into the eyes of the other party, it might be weird. She didn't know what to say, so she just smiled: "Please knock on the door before entering, thank you." The door connecting the two bedrooms was pushed open, Shang Xiuwen walked over upon hearing the sound, and glanced at the girl: "Miss, please go upstairs, don't just walk around in other people's homes." "I... just came down to find some water to drink." "The kitchen is obviously not here." "Can't I just walk around?" The girl was obviously annoyed by his cold tone, and raised her voice to ask, "Who are you, and why are you at Mr. Wu's house?" Shang Xiuwen frowned, and didn't look at her much: "Go and ask Wu Wei to come down, I have something to say to him." The girl looked suspiciously at him and then at Gan Lu, then turned and left.Shang Xiuwen went to close the door, showing a little helplessness for the first time: "Sorry, I made you laugh." Gan Lu thought that the villa was owned by his uncle, and he was just borrowing it. It was only natural for his cousin to come over. Although the woman he brought with him was obviously not his wife, it was just someone else's private matter, so there was no need to ask him to come down.However, she felt that she and Shang Xiuwen didn't have a friendship to talk about family affairs and give advice, so she just smiled slightly: "It's okay, I'm just going to sleep." Shang Xiuwen turned off the light for her, and went back to her room. Gan Lu lay down, ready to count sheep and go to sleep.But the carved door is not soundproof. After a while, she could clearly hear a man walk into the next room and said with a smile, "Xiuwen, so you are still here. I thought you went hiking with your friends, and you will come back tomorrow." , and asked the hotel to prepare dinner for you tomorrow." "Third brother, there has to be a limit to making trouble. You have only been married for half a year, and you bring women home. If you really want to be free, why do you need to marry a wife and go home?" "You don't need to teach me." The man laughed, "I heard that you also brought girls to live here. If you don't go enjoy yourself, you have time to reason with me." There was a moment of silence, and Shang Xiuwen's voice sounded again, "Third brother, I always feel that since we are married, we must respect marriage. Besides, this is a small city, you have to save some face for your cousin, her family is in J City She is also very respectable, and she is the only daughter. If you go on like this, you will cause trouble sooner or later. I don't want to say anything more, you should leave early tomorrow." "All right, all right, you've been more antique than my father these past few years. Hey, is the girl you brought this time a girlfriend? You should have a girlfriend too, otherwise..." Shang Xiuwen interrupted him: "Go up and rest, don't talk so much nonsense, and mind your own business." It was quiet over there, and the silence in the villa area was very complete. Gan Lu counted the sheep, and she fell asleep after counting the number of sheep, and she slept very restlessly.When she was in the same room with Xin Chen the night before, they fell asleep after a few conversations. She couldn't simply attribute the insomnia that night to a strange room and a strange bed. She clearly knew that Shang Xiuwen's kiss disturbed her heart. Whenever a girl has been in love, even if that experience is light, she can't help but compare it with her current relationship, especially in the uncertain stage at the beginning of the relationship, which is beyond the scope of reason. Gan Lu finds sadly that her love has never been complete. Nie Qian was too focused on his future and had no time to pay attention to her; Shang Xiuwen didn't seem to have much enthusiasm for his career, but was very interested in life. More importantly, she never saw him flirting with other people. When they were not getting too close, she saw a beautiful girl coquettish and flirtatious with him.Qian Jiaxi couldn't bear to look at her anymore, and bit her ear and said, "This girl is too coquettish." But she just thought it was funny, because Shang Xiuwen was indifferent to him, and there was no hint of flirting with ordinary men in that circle , it was this serious gesture that made her have an initial fondness for him. However, he was always a little distant from her, and he was never particularly close to her, even after the kiss. She doesn't think a man with this attitude is serious about a relationship. Qian Jiaxi tortured her: "This time, they must be really in love, and they are so intimate." She was referring to Shang Xiuwen's unabashed massage of Gan Lu's right shoulder in front of everyone. "This week, I substitute for two teachers' classes. It happens that these classes require non-stop writing on the blackboard. The right shoulder is really sore. Maybe I will get frozen shoulder." "Stop rambling on with me. When I asked you before, you always said that you are just ordinary friends. I haven't seen you asking other ordinary friends to give you a heterosexual massage." "He just squeezed my shoulder for me. You don't have to be so erotic." Qian Jiaxi smirked: "I don't know you yet? If it wasn't for a certain degree of intimacy, how could you let him pinch your shoulders. Come on, tell me frankly, what base are you at now?" Gan Lu's face was flushed, but she didn't confess anything.It's not that she's being hypocritical with her old friend, but that she really has nothing to report. After returning from J City, she and Shang Xiuwen only came on dates a little more frequently than before.He spoke as freely as ever, with a sort of unobtrusive slack, and he always listened to her with seriousness.Occasionally hugging and kissing, his kisses are still powerful and can make her heart sway, but he didn't make any further moves. Gan Lu didn't need to use reasoning to understand that this man, like herself, was uncertain about their relationship, so she was not in a hurry to advance. It's okay to go on like this. After all, Gan Lu is young and doesn't have any sense of urgency. However, a love without enthusiasm is not what she wants after all.Shang Xiuwen's calm attitude did not arouse her curiosity, but gradually made her a little impatient. That day Shang Xiuwen picked her up, saying that he was having dinner with Feng Yian and his girlfriend, but when he got there, he saw Feng Yian alone. "Where's Xin Chen?" Gan Lu asked casually, she had already had dinner with them several times, and she had a good impression of that beautiful and quiet girl. Feng Yi'an replied sullenly: "She went hiking in Xinjiang with her friends, and she will come back in half a month. I just called to find out." As a boyfriend, it is obviously not normal for him to receive the news after his girlfriend left.Gan Lu is curious, but she never gossips enough to get to the bottom of it.But during the meal, Feng Yi'an discussed with Shang Xiuwen while drinking: "I really don't understand this girl, since she agreed to go out on a blind date at home, she probably wants to have a boyfriend, but she is indifferent to everything, I don't think so. If you take the initiative to contact her, she will not contact me at all." Shang Xiuwen was funny: "Yi'an, you have good conditions, but she is also a beautiful woman, why should she throw herself on you like a ball of fire, you have been spoiled by the girls you used to date." "Isn't there too many beauties I've seen? She really isn't pretentious about her beauty. How to put it, she just doesn't have much interest in anything. No matter how romantic a show is given to her, she just expresses her appreciation and appreciation. Show surprise." Gan Lu couldn't help being a little surprised.Of course, she and Xin Chen only met each other a few times and did not have a deep friendship, but when everyone gathered together, Xin Chen behaved generously and cheerfully, and was very gregarious. Although she did not get along with others, she had never been lonely and self-admired. , doesn't look like a girl who can be so calm and indifferent. "You can stop it if you think it's inappropriate," Shang Xiuwen poured him a drink and said lazily, "I guess you hit the door panel, so you're not reconciled." "Wrong, she didn't reject me. She just has nothing to do. She can communicate with her, and she has no objection to stopping it. This makes me unacceptable." Gan Lu's heart skipped a beat, and she suddenly realized that the relationship between her and Shang Xiuwen seemed to be in the same state.She bowed her head and drank tea without saying a word, only listening to Shang Xiuwen say: "If you really think so, then I don't see the need to continue." "That's why I'm hesitant. I haven't contacted her these days. I'm going to think about it. I didn't expect her to be more ruthless. Instead of looking for me, she went directly to Xinjiang. When I called her to question her, she answered really. Simply say that the reporting is mutual, she thinks I should be able to understand." Shang Xiuwen laughed: "She's right. If you want to whet your appetite by playing vaping with others, you have to be prepared to be wowed by them. After all, this is a process of seeing who is more calm." .” Gan Lu didn't pay much attention to what they said next, and just ate lazily on the sidelines.Feng Yi'an was full of thoughts, and asked them to accompany him to the bar for a drink after dinner. She never drank alcohol, and every time she went to the bar, it was just for fun, and she was inexplicably depressed that day, so she directly said that she wanted to go home first, without hindering their side Drinking while denouncing women. Feng Yi'an laughed loudly: "Gan Lu is still sensible and considerate. Girls are too egotistical. Charming is charming, but it's also really terrible." Gan Lu didn't think it was a compliment to herself, but she didn't plan to argue with the broken-hearted.Shang Xiuwen glanced at her, said nothing, drove her home first, and then drove Feng Yi'an away. Although the hottest time in the area has passed, the heat has not disappeared and the weather is still hot.Gan Lu first changed into her jogging shoes and went for a jog along the lake. She came back to take a shower covered in sweat, put on her pajamas, and lay on the sofa to watch TV. Only then did she realize that most of the summer vacation had passed, and she had to go back to work soon. , to welcome the arrival of the new school year.And she and Shang Xiuwen have known each other for more than a year, and she suddenly lost the interest to continue. This man clearly sees love too clearly. If Feng Yi'an's description of his girlfriend Xin Chen is not exaggerated, then Shang Xiuwen's behavior is actually no different from Xin Chen. He has been in love before and can maintain a new relationship Being objective and calm, you can control the initiative in your own hands. Maybe love is just like what Shang Xiuwen said, if there is no love at first sight, then it is indeed a process of testing who is more calm, and whoever talks about love first will be at a disadvantage.But Gan Lu is not in the mood to play such a game of pretending to be calm, and she also believes that she can't play Shang Xiuwen. She began to seriously think about how to break up with Shang Xiuwen. However, she came to the conclusion almost without thinking about it, as long as she confessed to break up, Shang Xiuwen would probably just accept it calmly, and would definitely not be as angry and reluctant as Feng Yi'an. Thinking of his kissing his smile, she felt a little bit reluctant.In the melancholy, she can only comfort herself: If you are obsessed with a relationship that you can't control at all, it's tantamount to taking drugs. Fortunately, you haven't fallen into it yet, so that's fine. She planned to have a showdown with Shang Xiuwen the next day. That night, Gan Lu turned off the TV and went back to the bedroom to lean on the bed to read a book. The intercom in the living room suddenly rang. She went out to answer it, but it was Shang Xiuwen: "I'm outside your building now, and suddenly I really want to see you." He stayed in her rented place only to sit occasionally after sending her back. He never did this late at night. Uninvited guests came unannounced. She was a little surprised and opened the door to let him in. A pair of trousers were added under the pajamas to prevent the spring from leaking out, and the air conditioner in the living room was turned on. After Shang Xiuwen came in, he sat lazily on the sofa: "Lulu, pour me some water, I'll listen to Yi An pour the bitter water and comfort him, I'm almost exhausted." Gan Lu went to the kitchen to get homemade summer tea from the refrigerator, poured a cup for him, and he took a big sip: "It's delicious, what kind of drink is this?" "I made my own honey mint tea." "Could it be the mint growing on your balcony?" When Shang Xiuwen came to pick her up one time, he saw that she had placed a few flower pots on the balcony connected to the living room, all of which were planted with neither flowering nor ornamental plants. He once asked her, and she told him that it was mint , not only easy to raise, but also has practical functions. "Yes, I want to collect it anytime, it's very fresh." "It's really capable." He admired, and patted the sofa beside him to signal her to sit down. "You didn't drink too much, did you?" Gan Lu felt that his expression was somewhat strange. He smiled and leaned back on the sofa: "Of course not. Now that the traffic is being rectified, there are policemen guarding the street every day to check for drunk driving. Besides, I have to send Yi'an home, who is very drunk. He really drank too much." , I took my mobile phone to call Xin Chen, but he kept dialing even though the phone was turned off, saying that he insisted on asking when she would come back, ha ha." Gan Lu frowned, she didn't think it was funny for Feng Yi'an to reveal his true feelings.Shang Xiuwen looked at her sideways, as if aware of her faint displeasure, and reached out to hold her hand: "No, I didn't mean to laugh at Yi'an, otherwise I wouldn't be patient and sit with him until so late. I I just think that he didn't really fall in love with Xin Chen, and that he's feeling so uncomfortable now is just a little unwilling." "In your opinion, what should it be like to truly fall in love?" Shang Xiuwen's eyes dimmed, and then he smiled wryly: "I dug a big hole for myself, no matter what I say, it will probably make you feel that I don't really love you anymore." Gan Lu smiled teasingly: "Don't worry, I'm very fair, and I won't force others to speak against their will." She reached for the glass, "Go get you another glass of water." 没等她起身，尚修文抱住了她，将她拖入怀中，开始吻她，她短暂的惊愕以后，第一个念头竟然是：如果享受了这个吻再说分手的话，会不会有点邪恶？ 然而天底下哪有免费的晚餐，最初尚修文和往常一样吻她，很快他的吻就来得不同于往常了。他撬开她的唇齿，舌头热烈交缠之外，手不知不觉中顺势滑入她薄薄的吊带睡衣内，在她光滑的背上游移抚摸，她一阵战栗，这才意识到穿着睡衣与准备分手的男人作告别吻果然非常愚蠢。 夜半时分，甘璐看着躺在她身边熟睡的男人，姿态坦然得如同已经在她的床上睡了无数夜晚。 她封闭完整的身体有了第一个入侵者，而她差不多没做抵抗便沦陷了。他先是侵占了她的身体，现在又侵占了她的床和本来属于她的睡眠。 这个念头一闪即逝，她微微苦笑了，明白为了刚刚过去的半个晚上迁怒于他是不公平的。 她不能说是自己被诱惑或者侵占了，以她对于尚修文的了解，她知道只要她叫停或者流露出不愿意，尚修文肯定不会继续。事实上他一直表现得克制有礼，与她交往快一年后才有了第一个吻，在今夜之前的接触仅限于拥抱接吻，吻得她情动了，也并没有趁势深入。 以前，她对男人的欲望只有一点相当有限的直观认识，来自于她的前男友聂谦。与一个忙碌而目标明确的男孩子谈两地恋爱，身体的需要似乎被忽略了，等他放假回来，也不过是在外面约会，并没有多少单独相对的时间和私密空间。 读大三时，她终于在十一长假期间与钱佳西一道坐火车去了聂谦读书的那个北方大城市，聂谦接了她们，安排在离学校不远的一家酒店住下，然后匆匆赶回兼职的某个地产公司售楼部上班。 钱佳西有点不可思议：“他经济状况应该不差呀，安排我们住星级酒店，一晚上四五百块，怎么会不陪好不容易过来一趟的女朋友，还要去上班？” 甘璐对她的疑问无言以对。聂谦的家境只是普通，但他告诉过她，他自从兼职上班后，销售业绩十分可观，收入颇丰。她知道他的目标从来不止于眼前的一点儿收入，按常理讲，她应该赞赏男朋友对工作的热情与投入，然而在坐了十来个小时的火车过来后，已经疲惫不堪，再面对钱佳西的诘问，她却实在提不起兴致为他辩解了。 钱佳西也有同学在那边读书，她一向精力充沛，稍事休息后就出去跟同学碰面。甘璐独自在酒店睡觉，黄昏时分，聂谦总算下班回来，带她出去吃饭，然后逛市区。她没怎么出过远门，看异地的风景不能不觉得新鲜，终于重新打起了精神，挽着聂谦的胳膊，直玩到深夜才回酒店。 聂谦问：“你的同学怎么还没回？你提醒她注意安全。” “她给我发了短信，今天晚上在同学宿舍住，不回来了。” 聂谦一怔，笑了：“你一个人住会不会害怕？” 甘璐倒没那么娇弱，可是对着好久不见的男朋友，很自然地撒娇：“你留在这里陪我好不好？”她只见聂谦眼睛有小小火花闪过，连忙说，“就是陪着我，不许做别的。” 她后面那句画蛇添足的解释逗乐了聂谦，可同时也令他心跳加快了，他再怎么冷峻，也是年轻男人，马上紧紧抱住了甘璐，开始吻她。 钱佳西第二天重新出现，一进门便诡秘地问她：“昨晚他在这里住的吧？” 她红着脸点头承认，钱佳西大笑，提醒她：“你们有采取措施吧，没有的话赶紧吃事后药。” 女生宿舍的集体娱乐活动便是讨论异性，不管有没有经验，拜互联网所赐，大家都有了丰富的理论知识，而且全都不肯示弱做清纯状，其实也只有极少部分人有实际的体验，其他人言谈的豪放与行为的谨慎形成了有趣的对比。 甘璐大窘：“我们没怎么样啊。” 钱佳西不可思议地啧啧称奇：“我这么善解人意，特意给你们腾地方，去挤学生宿舍的小床，他居然忍得住，简直是现代版柳下惠了。” 甘璐红着脸不说话，头天晚上，聂谦确实情热似火，她几乎不敢相信那个平时冷峻内敛、不动声色的男生会激动到如此急切的程度，那样反复热烈地爱抚她。 他们都是年轻的，没有经验，关了灯，在黑暗中带着笨拙与胆怯探索彼此，聂谦看出她的畏缩与胆怯，到底控制住了自己，小声在她耳边说：“璐璐，我不会伤害你的。”然后抱紧她，反复在她耳边跟她说，“我爱你。” 甘璐没法与好友分享这样私密的感受，钱佳西笑道：“得，我今天晚上还是就住这了，省得你们两个再彼此折磨。” 接下来的三天，他们再没那样整夜共对了。聂谦仍然忙碌，只在他们走之前请了一天假，带她们去郊外一处景点游玩了一天，然后送她们上火车。 这样的亲密在她心底留下了强烈的记忆，几乎抵消了两个人长久两地造成的距离感。她开始憧憬聂谦毕业后，两个人能在一起。然而她大三下学期将近结束时，聂谦便告诉她，他决定去深圳工作了。 她这时才知道，她的回忆与希冀都带着一厢情愿的味道。她的确想过，如果那晚将身体给了聂谦会是怎么样一个结果，然而这种假设注定推断不出什么。聂谦会对她负责，这是她能肯定的，不过她从来都觉得可以为自己的行为负责，并不稀罕男人的那点责任感。 继续两地拖下去，那一晚渐渐磨蚀在回忆里，没了任何曾经存在于他们之间的魔力，她终于提出了分手。 竟然在身边躺着一个男人时，控制不住地回忆起了前男友，甘璐不能不有强烈的罪恶感。她披了睡衣起身下床去厨房，给自己倒了一杯蜂蜜薄荷茶，大大地喝了一口，冰凉甘甜的茶水吞咽下去后，镇住了她心内翻涌的思绪。 客厅的空调仍然开着，借着月光，可以看到尚修文的衣服与她的扔得到处都是，她不期然想起春节时在J市尚修文舅舅别墅里看到的香艳场景，不禁哑然失笑。 在她卧室床上熟睡的男人不仅是个接吻高手，同时也有丰富的经验，他的举止没有任何笨拙之处。她清楚地意识到了这一点，他极尽温柔，消除了她的恐惧与犹疑，而且最大限度地激发起了她的热情跟快感，带给了她一个说得上完美的初夜。就她的理论知识和与钱佳西的交流来讲，她不可能期望更高。 然而她的确在那样极致的身体亲密后，只觉得空虚与彷徨。 几个小时前，她还下定决心与他分手，却这样不明不白地纠缠到了床上，其中的讽刺意味让她没法在身体倦极后安然入睡。 她一样样收拾好衣服，坐倒在沙发上，对自己说，好吧，你终于经历了男人，按钱佳西的说法，你的人生从此进入了新的阶段。对自己诚实一点，甘璐，你的确享受到了，继续享受下去不好吗？ 想到摊牌分手那个打算，她只得摊手，承认她远没特立独行到维持原来的想法，做到在他醒后请他穿上衣服走人，再别出现在她眼前。