Chapter 3 Chengbi in the third night

The pattering autumn rain fell all night, and the next day, the sky was still cloudy.The entire Yanxi Lake was shrouded in rain and mist, and even the lanterns in front of the boathouse seemed listless, emitting a faint turbid light. Jin Zhi kept picking the curtain to look out, anxiously said: "Will Gong Qi really come?" "He will." Facing the mirror, I put a phoenix hairpin on my hair. This is a very special phoenix hairpin. I spent a whole thousand taels of silver to hire the most outstanding thief in the world to steal it from the treasure house of Lord Hou's mansion. I stole its sketch, and asked the world's most skilled craftsman to create an identical one. For this reason, my plan was postponed for three months.In a blink of an eye, it was Qingqiu.

Jin Zhi was still worried: "It's raining so much, maybe he won't come." "Don't worry, he will definitely come." I pushed down the bronze mirror, stood up gracefully, put on my skirt and walked to the piano case beside me, "He will come here every year on the first day of October. It has been seven years, and I haven't forgotten a year. .” A gust of cool wind blows into the cabin, the cotton curtains are flying, and you can see the line of water and sky outside. It is not a beautiful scene, but it is different because of a legend—— Seven years ago, the seventh son of the palace and his wife Zhu Yun met here for the first time.

What kind of person is Gong Qi? I knew him well before I took over the business.He is the younger brother of the current empress, a hereditary first-class Marquis of Changle. He is not only a handsome man recognized by the world, but also an infatuated man known all over the world. Mrs. Zhu disappeared on the night of her wedding. Since then, Gong Qi has never remarried. She sent people everywhere to search for his wife's whereabouts, but there was no news of her.And every year on the first day of October, he would come to Yanxi Lake to wait for Zhu Yun. As long as it is a human being, there are more or less things that can be criticized and blamed, but he tends to be perfect, and even the most vicious people can't find any excuse to attack him.Such a person really looks quite... not pleasing to the eye.

I hate this kind of person who is born with everything. When others are struggling for life, he is blessed with everything. Even the little setback he suffers makes him gain more sympathy and love. Why? Therefore, I took this deal that no one else dared or would accept—killing Gong Qi before the winter solstice.The people who bought the murder were Concubine Jiang's family members, who tried to eradicate his power to attack the queen.Dirty politics is indeed the most unreasonable and principled thing in the world, but it is precisely because of its unreasonableness that I can survive. I'm a killer, and I support myself by taking people's lives for payment.Three years ago, after I killed the senior brother, my ranking in the organization rose to second, second only to the master who trained me.

Now is the time, I will continue to be patient.Be patient until the moment Gong Qi appears. At Xu time, the sky became darker and darker, and the light of the painting boat reflected the dark blue lake surface, sparkling. Jin Zhi's doubts had already turned into anxiety, and he began to pace up and down in the cabin, frowning and said: "I said, if he really doesn't come, why are you waiting like this? I really don't understand why there is a shortcut You refuse to go, you have to go around the corner. Isn’t the housekeeper of the palace already bought by us, and is willing to assist us in assassinating Gong Qi with all his strength? Rather than waiting on a broken boat in this hellish weather, it’s better to hide in the beam of Gong Qi’s bedroom more chances!"

I sighed in my heart, it's no wonder that Jin Zhi's martial arts are obviously higher than mine, but she can only be ranked tenth in the organization forever - she can't hold her breath, and a person who can't hold her breath, no matter how good her martial arts is, she can't is a good killer. At this moment, there was more drumming outside, seven long beeps and three short beeps, Jin Zhi's body tensed instantly, and I also lifted the cloth cover from the strings. ——Gong Qi is here. Those three short beeps were the signal my companion gave me. I plucked the strings and started to play.Although I have always been good at the piano, the piece I am playing now has taken me a lot of effort.It has a beautiful name called "Looking at Zhu Chengbi". It is said that seven years ago, Gong Qi, who was out for an outing, was attracted by this song. With a pair of foggy eyes and a horrified expression...

That is Zhu Yun, the blind girl Zhu Yun, a prodigal wild flower who makes a living by playing the piano. Regardless of everyone's opposition, Gong Qi married her, and their union became the most sensational event at that time.Laughing, admiring, admiring, and regretful, but no one expected the ending. The bride escaped on the wedding night and disappeared from the world.The palace has been looking for it for seven years, looking forward to it every day, waiting every day, but Zhu Yun never appeared again. Today, six years and eleven months later, the person who appeared was me. "Who... are you?" Qingyue Qingyue's clear and moist voice, like a peerless fine wine, penetrated the rain curtain and entered the cabin.

My fingers paused, and the strings of the zither broke due to the unbearable pressure. At the same time, Jin Zhi was about to go out with the lantern in his hand, and said with a smile: "The night is cold and rainy, why is your son standing alone on the shore and soaking in the rain? How about Come on board for a cup of hot tea?" When Gong Qi came in, I was changing the strings of the piano.I heard his footsteps, and I knew he had come in, and I knew he was watching me all the time, but I didn't look up, and concentrated on unloading the old strings, tightening the new strings, winding them, and adjusting the sound.

I want him to speak first. "Who are you...?" He really couldn't hold back, he took a few steps forward and grabbed my hand. I raised my head, and the white clothes were like frost in my eyes. His eyes were as clear as glass, and my face was reflected in the depths of his pupils. His brows were light and his mouth was small. On the lower third of his right eye, there was a black mole shaped like a tear-stain—— This is not my appearance, but Zhu Yun's.Just like the hairpin on my head, it's not mine, it's also Zhu Yun's. I planned for half a year for this moment.

"The lights are dim, the moon is white and the shadows are cold. This is the way of the old days. It's hard to sober up from the mandarin mandarin dream. How can we look forward to the cloud tree on the Mo? Laughing at it's heroic appearance, the gull league looks old, but forgets the way back... Xijun , you say, who am I?" Gong Qi's eyes suddenly became blurred. I don't believe you can't remember this half-word and this Xijun.Xijun Xijun, the former Zhu Yun, used these two words to call him, and the sound was heartbroken. "You..." The trembling spread from his fingertips to his whole body, he held me tightly, with three parts of surprise, three parts of joy, three parts of melancholy and still one point of hesitation, "How is it possible... how is it possible! You, what you look like ……your eyes……"

I laughed, three points of love, three points of resentment and three points of sadness condensed into a sadness: "Yes, Xi Jun, I am back. But, I am no longer the original me..." When I knew that I looked very similar to Zhu Xing, I drew up this murder plan - pretending to be Zhu Xing and approaching Gong Qi, waiting for an opportunity to poison him to death.In this way, if I disappear after the event is completed, the world will only regard Zhu Yun as disappearing again. I have been in this business for ten years, and the number of times I have actually used martial arts is very seldom. My strength is strategy, and the more seemingly absurd and reckless the risk, the higher the chance of success.Because this world is inherently upside-down and bizarre, just like a treasure map or a peerless sword manual, the more mysterious it is, the more people believe it. Will Gong Qi believe it? Gong Qi stared at me for a long, long time, giving me the illusion that he might continue to look at me like this forever, but at this moment, he opened his arms, hugged me, and said with an extremely low but The pleasant voice said word by word: "I have finally waited for you... Ah Yung." I followed Gong Qi back to the palace. As soon as the front foot stepped into the gate of the mansion, a man in green robes about forty years old came to send a message: "Master wants to see... Madam." I noticed that his eyes flickered when he said the word "Madam" and his tone was hesitant, so I wanted to come here The invitation is by no means ordinary, it may be a grand banquet. And when I get to this point, I can only go. The nine-turn corridor leads to the end, and the luxurious and lofty main house appears in front of you.In fact, I once visited the palace at night, without disturbing anyone, and thoroughly explored all the paths and structures.Therefore, I know that the housekeeper is taking me to the palace's meeting hall, where the old Hou usually receives important guests.He chose to meet me in the meeting hall, showing that I was just a "guest" and not his daughter-in-law. I lowered my eyes and entered the room with a humble expression.The four doors closed immediately.The place I was in was a big square room with a screen in the middle, and at this moment, all the lights were focused on me, so I could only vaguely see a person sitting behind the screen of carved jade and red sandalwood. "Please sit down." An old and majestic voice came from there faintly. There are four chairs on the left and right sides. I thought about it and sat down on the one at the end of my left hand.Because, if the family meeting is being held at this moment, then, as the daughter-in-law of the seventh son of the Gong family, I can only take the last seat. A little maid in red clothes served me a cup of tea, and then the old voice said: "Drink tea." "Yes." Lifting the tea cover, the scent of wolfberry and ginseng scented tea is fragrant.After counting five times silently in my heart, I raised my head and smiled apologetically, "Thank you, father-in-law, for your love, but...this tea has ginseng added to it, and I can't eat ginseng, and I get a rash when I eat it." "Because of this, I want you to drink even more." I knew what he meant right away—if I don't get a rash after drinking this cup of tea, then I'm not the real vermilion.So I pretended to be embarrassed but compromised, and drank the tea slowly. It didn't take long for small red spots to appear on my neck, but because the ginseng content is not heavy, the rash is relatively mild. There was nothing behind the screen. I sneered in my heart: Jiang Lao Mila, as expected of the old master who has been in power for thirty years, actually thought of using this trick to test—you must know that a person's appearance can change, and his personality can change, but only his physique , especially allergies, because there is no cure, so it will never change. Unfortunately, it was me who met. As the best assassin of the Night League, how could he impersonate him without doing his homework?I know everything about Zhu Yun, and it can be said that I know maybe even more than Gong Qi.Vermilion can cause red rashes, so just in case, I always carry a poisonous powder and hide it in my bracelet. When I raise my glass, I gently twist it open and sniff it into my nose, and it will have the same effect . This trick will fail me, old master. The hall was quiet for a while, Gong Laohou coughed a few times, and said again: "Where did you go on your wedding night seven years ago?" In fact, I have been preparing for someone to ask me this question, but Gong Qi didn't mention it. Just when I was depressed that my homework was for nothing, he asked me.So I lowered my head, and fluently recited the answer that I had rehearsed and considered countless times in advance: "Back to Eunuch...Actually, I don't know exactly what happened that night...I just sat in the bridal chamber, Then I passed out, and when I woke up again, I was already on an isolated island. The spring water on the island was very magical, and it slowly healed my eyes, and I struggled for another seven years before the boat passed by and returned to the imperial capital .” Gong Lao Hou Ye snorted coldly: "Do you think I will believe such an outrageous thing?" I smiled sadly: "I know that my experience over the years is indeed outrageous, and no one will believe it if I tell it, but why should I lie to you? If I really want to deceive, I should be able to make up a better one without Use such a clumsy story that even children won't believe it? Or, in fact... Eunuch, you don't want me to reappear at all, do you?" There was silence behind the screen. This is the tactic I use to put it to death and live later—because it is impossible for me to fabricate a flawless lie, so it is better to be full of loopholes from the beginning than to forcefully fabricate one that will reveal flaws in time.The most important thing is that I know that Lord Hou doesn't like Zhu Yun, except for Gong Qi, no one in the whole mansion likes Zhu Yun.Even if I am the real Zhu Yun, I will suffer from many suspicions and doubts, so there is no need to worry about it at all, as long as Gong Qi believes that I am, it doesn't matter whether other people believe me or not. Because, in the Gong family, the one who really keeps his word is Gong Qi. And this, I was bet on. Because, the old Hou Ye didn't ask any more questions, so he ordered the housekeeper to take me back. Walking out of the gate of the meeting hall, I saw Gong Qi standing in front of the white jade railing with his hands behind his back, looking at the autumn rain outside, wondering what he was thinking.Hearing the sound, he turned around and reached out to me: "Are you all right?" His eyebrows and eyelashes were deep, showing deep concern, so I smiled sweetly: "Yes. It's okay." "That's good. You know my father has always had a problem with you. If you come back this time, if he doesn't ask you clearly, he won't feel at ease. No matter what he said, don't take it to heart... " I stretched out my index finger to touch his lips: "Shh, needless to say. I understand, everything... I understand." I threw myself into his arms, behaved intimately, but glanced at his shoulders, and began to relax. very far away—— Everything has just begun, Gong Qi, let me play with you a game of chrysanthemums blooming and old friends coming. It was raining heavily outside the window, but inside the window was moist and warm like spring. I soaked comfortably in the wooden barrel, crossed my legs, and let the petals swim on my body with the ripples.There is nothing more enjoyable than taking a fragrant hot bath on a rainy autumn night.But compared to my comfort, Jin Zhi, who served me as a "servant" while taking a bath, hated her teeth and couldn't help snorting: "You are really not afraid! Are you not worried?" "What are you worried about?" I put the hot towel soaked in water on my forehead, squinted my eyes and said leisurely, "We have already entered the palace, and the old man's test has been passed for the time being. What do I have to worry about?" "You!" She stomped her feet, "I mean tonight! Night! What if Gong Qi comes in later and wants to have sex with you, with you?" I chuckled and stared at her intently. I saw her pink face getting redder and redder, and finally said gruffly: "What are you looking at? Are my questions ridiculous?" "No, it's not funny..." I lowered my eyes, but my smile deepened, "Actually, there's nothing wrong with that." Jin Zhi jumped up, "Hey! We are killers, not prostitutes!" Jin Zhi always believes that killers should also have principles, so she studies martial arts diligently, and she hopes to solve everything with a sword.What a naive but beautiful idea, I am sincerely envious in my heart, but I still sneered and said: "However, there are so many women in this world who long to have sex with Gong Qi. Thinking about it this way, shouldn't I feel that Are you honored?" She opened her mouth wide, looked at me blankly for a long time, and finally flung the towel away. I pulled the wipe off my forehead, covered my face, and leaned my head against the side of the barrel.The water vapor steamed up, and it felt stuffy, like suffocation. In fact, there is no difference between a killer and a prostitute. If there is any hope in life, no one will engage in these two industries.However, after engaging in this kind of occupation, you will find that the life you continue to live is still dark, with no light in sight.Why would I be a killer?What happened at that time?Why can't I remember at all?When I deliberately recalled, there was only a messy darkness in my mind. That is, a deep, deep kind of... despair. Jin Zhi's worries turned out to be completely unnecessary. Because Gong Qi did not come that night. When I got up to comb my hair the next day, he just appeared, came over, took the comb in my hand, and helped me to tie my hair.His hands are warm and light, and his expression is very gentle and intimate, and there is nothing unusual about him.However, he didn't touch me last night. As if seeing my doubts, he stretched his arms around me, smiled at me in the mirror and said, "I want to give you a brand new wedding and start everything over again." I said "Oh" and raised my eyebrows: "So have you chosen a date yet?" "I've chosen. November 21st is the winter solstice. It's an auspicious day for everything. What do you think?" My heart twitched, but an incomparably charming smile appeared on my face: "Of course, it's really great." It's really... great. —I was suspected. Who betrayed me?Who leaked the news?Or is it really just a coincidence to pick the winter solstice?I stared at the mirror and saw him smiling, with a gentle expression on his face, but in the shadow of the streamer, it seemed to be just an illusion. This man seems easy to understand at first glance, but after a long time, you will feel that, in fact, you can't understand anything about him. That's right, the game is too easy, so it's boring. Today is the second day of October, and there are still fifty days before the winter solstice.And fifty days is enough for me to put a newly developed chronic poison in his tea and let him take it once a day. Before the last dose, the poisoned person will not notice anything, and when he finds out, there is no medicine left. untie. I gave this poison a name, and it's called - see Zhu Chengbi. "Aunt Luo, have you heard? There are rumors outside now that our new wife is resurrected from a dead body. Not only has her appearance changed, but her eyes are no longer blind." "Mother Zhang, you've been in the mansion the longest, have you ever seen the young lady? Do you think that's really her?" "I'm not sure about this, but her diet and daily life are the same as in the past. But if you don't tell me in advance, I will definitely think there are two people." "Speaking of which, our young lady is really weird. She disappeared on the wedding night out of nowhere, and then reappeared out of nowhere, as long as her eyes are still out of nowhere..." The voice was suppressed and lowered a little, "I Tell me, it might really be a ghost." I coughed, and the discussion in the kitchen suddenly stopped.I just opened the door and went in, and the cooks inside were really embarrassed. I smiled at them: "Earlier, Xi Jun said that he wanted to eat crystal dumplings filled with shrimps, are they ready?" A cook hurriedly handed over the food box: "Okay, okay! We just wanted to send it over, how can I trouble you, Young Madam, to pick it up in person?" "Anyway, it's on the way. I won't delay your work, I'm leaving." I took the food box, put up my skirt and turned around, just stepped over the threshold, but turned back, "By the way, I have a shadow in the sun, So, I'm not a ghost." Their faces turned red all of a sudden. I laughed and walked towards the back garden with the food box. Gong Qi was waiting for me to play chess in the Liuli Pavilion. Seeing me, he raised his eyebrows and said, "What's so interesting? You can't stop laughing." "Well, how should I put it..." I took out the dumplings, shared the food with him, and said slowly, "Do you believe in ghosts?" His eyes changed slightly, and he looked at me fixedly: "Did someone talk nonsense to you?" It seemed that he really knew about those rumors. I laughed, tilted my head and asked again: "If I'm really a ghost, are you afraid?" As soon as the words fell, he suddenly stretched out his arms, hugged me around the waist, and sat on his lap. I couldn't help being startled, he hugged me tightly, buried his head on my right shoulder, his voice was as low as a sigh, but his words were firm: "Don't be afraid. To me, it doesn't matter whether you are a human or a ghost, whether you are blind or not , are not important. The important thing is that you are back, now, by my side. This is enough." I retracted my hands into my sleeves and pinched my palms with my fingertips. The pain clearly reminded me that everything in front of me was just a dream, but...it was so beautiful. Such a love story is so beautiful. I slowly put my hand on his, stared at the sunset outside the pavilion, and finally smiled lightly: "How lucky is Zhu Yun, I have to meet Xijun in this life." The lucky person is not me, Zhu Yun is the only one who is loved so deeply by Gong Qi. It's a pity that she was also an unlucky woman who disappeared inexplicably just like that.In fact, I have also mobilized the forces in the organization to search for her whereabouts, but to no avail.If a person can't even find the government and the killer organization, then it can basically be regarded as dead. I hope she is dead.Because no woman in the world is qualified to bear such a blessing.Those who covet what they shouldn't have will lose their lives.Zhu Xi is a good example.I have to remind myself all the time, remember this. In sight, the sunset on the horizon is bright red. Gong Qi made good tea.Every day at Shen Shi, I would go to his study and drink tea with him.The smooth sapphire porcelain utensils, the new tea that has just arrived as a tribute, and his hand holding the spoon are even more as beautiful as jade. This man is blessed by nature, more beautiful than anyone I have ever seen, even the gesture of putting down the lid of the cup is extremely elegant.I watched his movements almost obsessively, and I always kept my cheeks silent at this time. Once he jokingly tapped the tip of my nose with a teaspoon: "So pretty?" "Yeah." I confessed it bluntly, but when I looked at it, it was only the lid of the cup. Gong Qi and I have the same cup, the difference is that his color is red and mine is green.And the poison of "Looking at Zhu Chengbi" was smeared on the red cup lid, and every time he put the tea spoon into the cup and put the lid on again, he was one step closer to the Palace of Hades. How could it not fascinate me to approach death so gracefully? Gong Qi didn't notice at all, she drank up every cup, not a single drop was left.Jin Zhi stood behind me, watching all this silently, with a serene expression. From a certain day onwards, she told me that she didn't want to accompany me to the study room anymore, because she hated the kind of slow, undisturbed, killing a person sitting opposite you and smiling at you. Feelings of the person speaking.She kills, and she has always been aboveboard. In a way, she is more like a swordsman than a killer. I smiled, not reluctantly.In fact, she didn't hate it, she just couldn't bear it: after a long time, she developed a good impression of Gong Qi, so she became soft-hearted and didn't want to kill him again.However, she will never admit it. What about me?Have I softened my heart? Sitting in front of Gong Qi, watching him make tea for me again with great care and tenderness, I asked myself this question.Forty days have passed, today is November 11th, there are still ten days before the wedding, and there are still ten days before his death. Am I willing to let him die?Or, do I want him dead? As I was thinking, I looked at it lightly, with a habitual expression of indifference, until he handed the cup to me: "You are in a trance again." "No, I'm just too fascinated." "Ahing..." He called me suddenly, his eyes were deep, and he seemed to have a thousand words, but in the end he just patted my hand, "Will you believe me?" "Of course I believe you." He walked around the long table, came over to hug me, and said in a deep voice: "Then, from now on, don't worry about anything, don't think about anything, leave everything to me, you just need to wait to marry me." "Okay." I responded gently, closing my eyes in his arms.Things have come to this point, I don't have to worry or think about it, I just need to wait. There are still ten days.Ten days... I suddenly feel that time flies like an arrow, and it flies by like this. On the first day, he played chess with me and allowed me to regret the game. After losing to me, he was forced to draw a turtle on his face. It happened that an old friend came to visit, and he forgot to wipe it off for a while, which made everyone laugh; On the second day, he taught me to fly the paper kite. When I put it halfway, he deliberately broke the rope with a stone. The kite fell into the lake. I was angry and forced him to pick it up. He dived into the water for a long time and did not float up. When Bian raised his head and was worried, he suddenly jumped out of the water and hugged me, and dragged me into the lake, and the two of them became drowned chickens together; On the third day, we avoided the servants and went to the suburbs to appreciate chrysanthemums. It rained suddenly on the way, so we ran to the farmhouse to take shelter from the rain. We changed into coarse clothes borrowed from the host’s house. We couldn’t help laughing at each other. It was night and the farmhouse lost a chicken. , in the middle of the night, everyone held torches to hunt for chickens in the fields, the scene was spectacular and interesting; On the fourth day, the moon was very round. When I raised incense and worshiped the moon, he asked me what wish I had made. I asked him back, "If it were you, what wish would you make?" The second is to attack other countries and hold their rulers to blame; the third is to marry all the most beautiful women in the world to be my wife." Seeing my surprise, he chuckled, his brows and eyes curved, "I'm lying to you. Me …Now I just hope that Anon is doing well, just like now, standing here, talking to me, and then laughing often. Anon, you have to smile more.” I couldn't sleep that night.Suddenly, I realized that my smiles in these four days were more than that in the previous seventeen years combined. On the fifth day, he went out on business, and I watched a chrysanthemum slowly wither in front of the window. The petals of the chrysanthemum had seventy-four petals in total.Time seemed to stand still, and it was terribly long, and I kept staring at the arch outside the courtyard until the white clothes appeared, and I let out a sigh of relief.He came over and handed me a maple leaf, which was already red and the veins were clearly visible. "The last red leaf of golden autumn on Wanning Mountain is for you." I was slightly surprised, but he said again: "This year is too late. But every year in the future, as long as the first drop of spring rain, the first summer lotus, the first I will bring you a red leaf and the first cluster of snowflakes. In this way, you collect the first season autograph every year until we grow old." I couldn't sleep that night again.The maple leaf became as heavy as a thousand catties in my hand.What a fool, between you and me, where is the year after year... On the sixth day, I went to the royal temple with him to ask for a lottery. I met an old woman in the backyard and gave him and me a flower. The old woman said: "This is the flower I just picked from the mountain. You can give it to me The person who is very important to you, you can never predict, maybe you will be separated for a long time." On the way down the mountain, I asked him: "Don't you give me flowers? Am I not your important person Is it?" He stopped, looked at me silently for a long time, and then smiled lightly: "But, I don't want to be separated from you." The speaker's sentence was just like that split into two halves by the listener.What I heard was "people who are important to you", what he heard was "maybe you will be separated". That night I lost sleep again.Reflecting on why I only heard the first half of the sentence, is it possible that subconsciously I have already started to look forward to something? On the seventh day, I locked myself in my room and didn't even see him when he came. I just said I was unwell.After he left, Jin Zhi walked to the side of the bed, looked at me with a very strange expression, and suddenly said: "Could it be that you are... a fake show and you really fell in love with him?" "He's going to die in three days." "You must be in love with him, otherwise you wouldn't be so coy, moody, worrying about gains and losses, and unable to sleep at night." "He's going to die in three days." "Although I also think it's really rare for a noble boy to have the character of Gong Qi, but don't forget, this is our mission. If your personal feelings affect the mission, you know what will happen." "He will die in three days." I buried my head in the pillow, unwilling to hear any more.There is a sense of desolation in my heart: I have fallen to the point where I need a golden branch to remind me and warn me... Since I was ten years old, I have been trained and become the most proud disciple of my master. He once commented on me in eight words: "How bold! Wisdom, cold-blooded and ruthless." Seven years, nineteen missions, never once let him down.I value my opponents like the most persevering wolf, enduring hunger, cold, and all sensory torture, in pursuit of the final blow.Therefore, this time, it was just a routine torment in the hunting process. Just be patient and it will end. As soon as I thought about it, I got up and dressed and dressed, Jin Zhi was surprised: "Where are you going?" I glanced at her lightly: "It's almost time for Shen." The skirt dragged to the ground, and I felt that every step I took was firm, yes, very good, just go on like this, very fast, very fast I can be relieved. Outside the window, the autumn rain adds to the sorrow. Curly water vapor rises from the spout of the purple sand pot of the best five-color bird's nest. Opposite the smog is the gentle and jade-like face of a man in simple clothes. He lowers his head slightly, and his eyes are bright and focused under the long eyelashes. . Focus on making tea, focus on dying. Reflected in my eyes, an extremely subtle picture scroll was formed, as if it had appeared in a dream, and was deeply imprinted in my mind by memory. Every movement was very familiar. Add this time, and two more times, the man died.After his death, the imperial court will definitely be in turmoil, the two factions will be re-divided, and the world will not be peaceful again—but, the world is too peaceful, so what does it have to do with me?This world has given me nothing, so no matter what it becomes, I don't care. That's right, it doesn't give me anything. I don't have a father, and my mother abandoned me as soon as I was born, and threw me into the cesspit in an attempt to drown. It was a man who poured night incense rescued me, fished me out of the pond, and brought me home to raise me.However, his purpose of raising me was only to be a child bride. As I got older, the way he looked at me became more terrifying.Once he rushed over drunk, I beat his head with a rice pestle and escaped, fell into the hands of human traffickers, was sold to the brothel to serve the most tyrannical girl, and whenever he was unhappy, he would stab me with a needle to vent his anger.So I ran away again.Hunger and cold, desperate, I met my senior brother. Ah, that's right, it's senior brother... I finally remembered, after the black shadow in my mind slowly disappeared, the past memories surfaced, and every scene was so clear. Brother used me to test poison, some of those poisons would cause long spots and some would vomit, but more of them were pain, the pain was so painful that I rolled all over the floor in pain, and I hit my head against the wall in pain, wishing I could die.There were a total of 20 children who were poison test subjects, and I was the only one who survived. My brother said he liked me the most because I was the most obedient, and I would do whatever he told me to do, without fear or begging for mercy.When I was fourteen years old, once he asked me to test the poison, but in the end I died of the poison with my eyes wide open. I smiled and asked him: "How is it? Listening to other people's reactions after being poisoned, no matter what The details are not as good as what I have personally experienced, right?" After I finished speaking, I dropped the antidote drop by drop on the ground, which was less than three inches away from him, but he couldn't reach it, and watched the antidote drop by drop. It is slowly absorbed by the soil. That scene was witnessed by Master.I thought he would kill me, but he just looked at me silently for a while, finally nodded and said: "Very good, from today onwards, you will replace Poison Eagle as the youngest of the Night League." Master saw my potential from that incident. I endured it for four years, secretly learned the skills of my senior brother, and finally killed him with the poison he was most proud of.The master said that he had never seen a child who was as patient as me. That's right, my greatest skill is not resourcefulness, but forbearance.I want to hold back and not let anything or anyone interfere with my decision. Gong Qi picked up the teacup, lifted the lid, lowered his head and took a sip: "This time I used spring water from Baotu Spring, which is clear and sweet. Try it and see if it tastes different from the water from the Yangtze River yesterday. ?” His Adam's apple slipped down slightly, like an invisible thread, tightening my heart. I thought that this man would die, his eyes would lose their current brilliance, his hands would gradually become cold and no longer warm, and he would die again. He can't smile or talk, he can no longer hold an umbrella for me, make me tea, put on my clothes and hold my hand to watch the stars in the middle of the night... My vision started to blur. He rested his index finger on the rim of the cup and rested his ring finger against the cup holder. His posture was infinitely elegant. In my eyes, it seemed as long as a lifetime. I watched him raise his cup again, ready to drink the tea. A hand suddenly appeared and pressed against the mouth of the cup. After I trembled, I was shocked to find that it was actually my hand.At the last moment, my hand betrayed my thinking and made a blocking movement. He raised his eyes and looked at me. I didn't dare to meet his gaze, so I could only lower my eyes and said in a low voice, "You know, Xi Jun, I actually don't like green at all..." "Ok?" "So, let's change the cup..." I almost desperately pulled out the cup of tea from his hand. What I took out was not only a cup of tea, but also the plan I had planned for half a year, the flawless murder of seven years. To record, and, my loyalty to the Night League. "If you affect the mission because of your personal feelings, you know what will happen." Jin Zhi's warning echoed in my ears at this moment, it was terribly cold. I grabbed my skirt, stared at the light blue water in the cup, and saw my own face, reflected in strands of black shadows, twisted ugly.Why do you have to be softhearted?Why stop?And why waste all previous efforts? Hate... Hate... i hate... The huge and complex hatred drove me to pick up the cup, and when I was about to drink it down, Gong Qi suddenly reached out and snatched the teacup away: "The tea is cold, don't drink it." Then, I watched helplessly. Watching him spill the tea out the window. My pupils began to shrink, cold sweat ran down my spine, and a voice in my heart told me - it was over.I was suddenly cowardly, afraid to face the ending. At that moment, Gong Qi took my hand again, and said to me: "Take you somewhere, follow me." My hand was cold and cold, but his was warm and firm, as if only to be touched by such a hand. If you hold it by hand, you will never be abandoned. Abandoned... If my mother hadn't abandoned me back then... If she knew that I was born so smart and beautiful, would she regret abandoning me?若她知道我愿孝顺听话，敬她爱她侍奉终身，还会不会忍心抛弃我？我本可以是全天下最好的女儿，完全可以的……但，只因她的一念之差，从此，令我万劫不复。 还有那个救了我的男人，我甚至已经忘记了他的长相，他每天都用世上最恶毒的话羞辱我，他说：“你不过是对狗男女苟合生出来的孽种。”他说：“老子肯收养你你就得感恩，好好伺候老子。”他说：“除了老子这个世界上没有人会要你，听清楚了吗？”他说了好多好多话，那些话让我从小就心理扭曲，变得和正常人不再一样。 还有那个年华老去的妓女，她越来越苍老，因此就越嫉恨其他人的年轻。她说：“小妖精，像你这样的长大后必定也是个小妖精！看看你这眼，看看你这唇，看看你这腰，看看你这腿……”她每说一处，就用针狠狠扎那个地方。我从此变得厌弃自己，身体发肤，受之不爱我的父母，再被旁人所嫉妒诅咒，还要这具皮囊何用？ 最后是师兄。He is crazy.这个疯子教会了我很多本事，我开始用所学到的一切去害人，对我来说，这世间无不可杀之人，甚至包括我自己。 可是为什么—— 为什么这一次，我要去抢宫七的杯子？是因为他那句“我终于等到你了”？还是那句“你要多笑笑”？再或者，是“我不想和你分离”？那些话都那么美丽，那么那么美丽，但是，我却不应该忘记，它们都有一个主语——阿荇。 那些话，都不是对我说的，而是对阿荇说的。可是，我却为了那些不是对我说的话，放弃了我的生平。真……讽刺。 我像个木偶一样跟着宫七来到祭祖堂，里面供奉了宫家历代祖宗的牌位，一眼看过去，共有上千个之多。他为什么带我来这里？ 宫七将第三排第二个的牌位按倒，只听格格声响，前方的架子移开，露出后面的一扇暗门。宫七拉着我走进去，里面是狭窄的阴暗的台阶，盘旋着往下延伸，而台阶的尽头，是一道石门。他推开石门，里面豁然明亮。 那是一间极大的冰窖，堆放着上百块巨大的冰，而在那些冰中间，有一具水晶棺，里面平躺着一个人。 "who is it?" 宫七的表情变得有些古怪，缓缓道：“你为什么不走过去看一看？” 冥冥中有个声音叫我不要过去，可是双脚却又像是被什么东西牵引着，一步步朝它靠近。棺中之人乌黑的发，素白的肌肤，纤细的身躯和平静的面容，就那样一点点地呈现在了眼前。 那是我的眉我的眼我的肌肤我的发……但她不是我，她是……朱荇。 我们所有人都找不到的朱荇，原来在这里…… “这是怎么回事？”我听见自己用一种异常缓慢、平静的接近死亡般的声音，如此发问。 “我对自己说，如果你哪天肯放弃计划，为我心软，我就带你来这里，让你看看她。”宫七的声音比我更平静。 我转过身凝视着那个被所有人传诵为“温柔痴情”的男人，不知道自己该有什么表情：“你……你原来一早就知道了……” 朱荇在这里，世上不会有两个朱荇，所以，从一开始，他就知道，我是假的了。可他不说，居然陪我做戏，那些深情的凝视，那些温柔的关怀，那些宠溺的笑容……假的！通通都是假的！而我竟然为那样的假象所蒙蔽，放弃了我的一切！ "What do you know?" “我知道你是夜盟排名第一的杀手，收了江家的银子来杀我，跟你一起来的，还有排名第十的金枝。” “只有这些吗？”也许是真相来得太快，我反而开始变得冷静，又也许只不过是我早已预料到会有这样一天，因为，赌博本来就是不能赢，就会输。于是我朝他笑，和朱荇完全不一样的笑，我扬起眉梢轻眯双眼，笑得轻浮、嘲讽又妖娆，“你既然知道我的来历，那么也完全清楚了我是个怎么样的人喽？我曾在一夜间屠杀了云州成家全族三十九条人命。” “那是因为他们抛弃了你。他们连同你母亲，一起抛弃了你。” 云州，成家，成玉莲，我的生母，因和马夫偷尝禁果而生下我，被族人知晓后，连夜将我装进马桶丢到城外溺死。十四年后，我远远地站在成家门外，看见她丰容盛饰地领着女儿外出进香，那个女孩儿穿着绣着卷心莲的红裙子，蹦蹦跳跳，满脸笑容。 那一夜我在水井里投了毒。第二天，云州再没有成氏一族。 我继续笑，继续道：“我曾在一个人身上划了两千七百四十六刀，然后涂上蜂蜜，让他被虫蚁啃噬而死。” “那是因为他收养了你两千七百四十六日，而收养你的那九年里，他每天都在虐待你。” “我把一个女人的衣服扒光，关在猪笼里让她去游街。” “那个女人曾逼十岁都不到的你去接客。” 我停下笑，瞪着他，声音发抖：“你还知道什么？” 他明眸流转间，似有叹息：“我还知道你今年十七岁，你不叫朱荇，你叫阿碧。” 阿碧……没错，我不叫朱荇，我叫阿碧，贱女阿碧，被母亲遗弃，被收养者觊觎，被人犯拐卖，被主人打骂，被师兄下毒，现在，还在被师父利用……这才是我的人生。我不是那个幸运的盲女朱荇，虽然她也出身风尘，但白玉无瑕，虽然她双目失明，但得遇良人。也许，我唯一比她好的地方只在于她已经死了，而我还活着。可是谁又能说，我这样的活着，就一定比死更好？ “朱荇是怎么死的？” “七年前，新婚之夜，我在外陪客，宫中秘密来人，赐了她一杯毒酒。” “是你姐姐做的？” 宫七眼中起了些许迷离：“当时不知，为了引出幕后主使，我故意声称她失踪不见，四处寻找。” 好计，那人本以为一杯毒酒就万事了结，但如此一来，他会真以为朱荇怕死逃了，必将派人追杀。只要对方有所行动，就能顺藤摸瓜，查到元凶。 “那么，你找出来了吗？” “查到了。”他眼神闪烁。 “是……”我听出了画外音，“江家？” “他们也知道自己行迹可能败露，所以干脆一不做二不休，买凶杀我。” “所以，从一开始，你就知道了我的目的。”我忍不住苦笑，深吸口气，直直地看着他道，“最后一个问题——你想怎么处置我？” 他回视了我很长一段时间，脸上再次露出那种恍惚的表情，轻轻道：“我说过，在此过程里，只要你放弃杀我，我就带你来这里，把一切都告诉你。” "and then?" "there is none left." 我的身体一下子绷紧，然后又颓然松开，凄凉一笑道：“原来如此，你是想让我永远地在这里与朱荇相伴么？我明白了……”我扭开镯子，里面的最后一格里，装着我用来杀死师兄的那种毒药，只要一滴——一滴，就可以致人于死地。从一开始，我就是为自己准备的。在事情走到最糟糕的一步时，我会用它，结束自己这肮脏丑陋的一生。 母亲，我要去见你了。你抛弃了我，我杀死了你，我们扯平了。如果地府相遇，就好好相处吧。 我将镯子凑到唇边，眼看那滴毒药就要滑进我口中，一道白光突掠而至，当一声，我的手指被震开，镯子直飞出去，撞上墙壁，砰地炸开，碎裂成了千百片。 与此同时，一只手紧紧扣住我的肩膀，入眸处，是宫七惊慌而震怒的脸。我与他相处四十七天，从不知道，他居然会有这样的表情。 “为什么要救我？一切不都应该到结束的时候了么？” “我所说的没有，并不是指结束，而是开始。” “开始？” “是的，开始。”他的力度转轻，改为揽住我的腰，一字一字道，“一切都没有变，三天后，是我们的大婚之日，而你，是我的妻子。” 我呆住，僵了半天，然后失笑：“你傻了吧？看清楚点，我不是朱荇，我是阿碧，杀手，要杀你的杀手耶。既然游戏已经揭穿，就没有再玩下去的必要了。早点结束，于你于我都有好处。” “你在害怕。”他轻轻道。 我心中一悸，却板起脸：“不知道你在说什么。” “你不想我死，所以在最后一刻阻止了我继续喝那杯毒茶，你对我有情，你不敢承认，也不敢面对，所以企图以死逃避。为什么你们一个两个都是如此？”宫七脸上露出了悲伤之色，指着棺中的朱荇道，“她畏惧强权，不敢与我共同面对，所以选择怯懦的死亡，她从来不曾想过我的感受，不曾想我失去她会有多么痛苦……当我欢欢喜喜地穿着吉服走进洞房时，看见的却是原本要携手一生的妻子倒在床上七窍流血的模样！我做错了什么，为什么要遭受这样的打击？” I was stunned. 他上前一步，紧抓我手道：“她死了，但你还活着；她胆小懦弱，但你不是她，你不一样！你自信坚强，为什么不肯活下来？不许逃避！我不许你逃避！” 我的眼泪一下子掉了下来，颤抖地摊开双手：“活下去……西君啊，你看看我，且看我这双手，沾满血腥，我还能算是一个人吗？” “所以，更应该活下去。”他将我的手合拢，包住，柔声道，“你以前做了很多错事，如果你感到后悔，那么今后就用做好事去弥补。你做一件坏事，就用做十件好事去弥补。你才十七岁，错了十七年，以后还有八十三年可以重新来过，为何轻言死亡？” 我哽咽而几不能言：“我、我……我没能杀得了你，夜盟不会放过我的，而江家也不会放过你的，事情走到这一地步，后面已是无数个麻烦，我……” “所以，你更应该活着，然后走下去，”他说到这里停了一停，将我的手贴上他的胸口，“和我一起。将来的风风雨雨，我们两个人一起面对。别想一个人逃，别想再丢下我。” “可我……”我终于说出最关键的所在，“我不是朱荇啊……” 他长长地叹了口气，最后扬唇一笑：“我知道。从一开始，我就知道你是谁。” 冰窖中，水晶灯里灯光闪烁，映上他的脸庞，那是玉一般高洁的存在。 为什么像我这样的人能得到这样的救赎呢？根本不配啊，我不配，我不配！ 我跌坐于地，捂住脸开始哭。他没再说话，只是在一旁坐下，然后伸出一只胳膊搂住我，将我拉入他怀中，轻轻拍抚。 那一日，我哭了很久很久，将毕生的委屈通通哭出。从此，再不留恋，再不流泪。 “你会弹《看朱成碧》的曲子，那么你知不知道，它的后半阕词是什么？” “不知道。当年的阿荇，只唱前半曲。” “那么，让我来告诉你后面的吧……” “灯火阑残，月白影冷，消魂此处，原是旧时行路。鸳梦难醒酒难尽，岂望陌上云树？笑它英姿秀，鸥盟似旧，却忘归途。燕本多情子，穿帘入世，误生玉堂谢户。卿可有悔，瘦尽十宵花骨。留浮光变幻沧海，哀叹红颜无辜。一曲看朱成碧，年年季季，吾心良苦。”