Chapter 20 Chapter19 Heart Knots・Emotional Tide

Zhu and Wen are back from their honeymoon, and Zhan and Bo's wedding is coming soon. Zhou Xiangling closed the newspaper in his hand with rich pictures and extensive reports, looked up at Sister Huan, "Where is Nanxian?" "I went into the audio-visual room after get off work and didn't come out. It's been like this every day for more than half a month." Sister Huan was not without worry, "It seems that there is nothing wrong, except that she rarely talks, and eats and rests normally, but I don't know why. , it's been weird since the day he moved back in."

Zhou Xiangling sighed softly, "This kid has been around for ten years, and he hasn't changed a bit." "Is he really going to marry Miss Bo?" "It may not be true in his heart, I'm afraid he will make things true." Zhou Xiangling picked up the phone, "Go and see him again." Sister Huan responded and left. She dialed Nuan's number, "Xiao Nuan?" "Mother Zhan?" Hearing the other party's voice, Nuan Nuan, who was tidying up things at home, unconsciously raised her lips. That kind and loving old man was her only living elder.

"I'm going back to the old house in a while, can you come over and let's meet?" Nuan hesitated for a moment. "Why, it's not convenient for you?" She thought for a while, then smiled and said, "Okay, Mommy Zhan, I'll be there in a quarter of an hour." After putting down the phone, she sat warmly on the sofa quietly. Some people get rich overnight, some grow gray overnight, and some grow up overnight. If it is said that her mind has been sleeping in stillness for the past ten years, then in the past few months after reuniting with Zhan Nanxian, it seems that the closed force can no longer suppress something breaking out of the cocoon, like a vine Climbing wildly, she was pulled until she was weightless and dizzy, and it seemed that the continuous impact of waves made her feel as if she was thrown on the cusp of the waves, unable to return to the ground after ups and downs.

Until I went abroad, wandered for half a month, changed the space of the world, and slowly calmed down the complicated and unadaptable emotions. In the past, the authorities were unconsciously fascinated and disturbed. It was not until I finally got out of the situation that I was able to calm down and think. About the past, about now. Taking a long breath, she got up and went out. It was the same old neighborhood, the same tree-lined roads she had been familiar with ten years ago. It was still on the sixteenth floor, and it was still the same iron door that she had knocked and kicked before. It didn't seem to have changed much, but it couldn't withstand a closer look. As long as the eyes stayed for a few seconds, it was not difficult to find that there were everywhere. It shows the old mottled by the passage of time.

Things are different, what is possible eternal?Even if there is love in the sky, it will also grow old. When Zhou Xiangling opened the door in response, Wen Nuan had no idea that he would see Chi Bika sitting inside. The two smiled at each other in unison. Zhou Xiangling led her to sit down, "Xiao Nuan, are you really married?" She seemed a little puzzled, and a little bit unbelieving. Wen Nuan smiled, "Yes, I will send wedding candy to Zhan's mother another day." Zhou Xiangling, who thought she was joking, was hit all of a sudden. She was stunned, and looked at Chi Bika, "How could this be? Didn't Miss Ding say that they were already doing well? I thought they were unhappy a while ago. The young couple were just bickering, why did they suddenly...become like this?"

Chi Bika looked at the frowned and puzzled Wen Nuan in embarrassment, "Please don't blame me for being troublesome, Mr. Zhou has always wanted to get you and Zhan Zong back together, so—" Warm was taken aback. A question that had been unresolved flashed at that moment, and the gears of memory turned back a hundred years. It was as if someone had knocked on her head with a sap, and she was shaken out of her wits. Two people. Zhou Xiangling sighed softly, "Although Nanxian has been unwilling to say anything to me these years, I know he has never forgotten you. About two years ago, one day I accidentally saw him looking at your photo, and he said you I was about to graduate, and then I moved my mind and asked Bika to find a way to recruit you into his company."

Tongue warm, "I... I always thought it was Nan Xian..." Chi Bika shook her head, "It's none of Zhan Zong's business, it was Teacher Zhou who instructed me in private, and he didn't know about it." "Including letting me go up to the sixty-sixth floor—and you too?!" "Yes, Mr. Zhou thinks it's time for you to be together after being separated for so many years." Nuan Nuan was stupid on the spot. Wasn't Zhan Nanxian the person behind the scenes who prompted her to embark on Qianyu's journey?Wasn't it as she originally thought, that he had deliberately planned to tease her from the very beginning?The original determined result was overturned all of a sudden, and she was in a state of confusion.

Zhou Xiangling looked extremely worried, "Nan Xian's state during this period is very strange, just like when you broke up before, every day except for work, he shut himself in the audio-visual room during the rest of the day, and he didn't even talk much." The long eyelashes trembled uncontrollably, Wen Nuan could no longer listen to what she was saying, "Mother Zhan, I...I want to be quiet." After speaking, he got up and walked subconsciously to Zhan Nanxian's original room. Sitting on the edge of the bed with her head down, she felt her mind was blank. She thought about something, but she couldn't think of anything. She lay down, leaned on the pillow, kicked off her shoes and curled up with a thin quilt.

Chi Bika's voice came from outside the door, "Warm, Teacher Zhou has an appointment with a doctor, I will accompany her there now, please lock the door when you leave, if it is convenient, you--go to Luoyang Road to see Zhan Zong .” She buried her face in the pillow, and she said nothing. Why?Why isn't it the him she always thought? She turned over restlessly, pulled up the quilt and wanted to cover her head, but she touched a hard object under the pillow, groped and pulled it out, her eyes and heart trembled slightly, she was no stranger to the cover of the album, opened it, page by page , all of them were group photos back then.

Slowly reading the last page, closing the album, turning his eyes to the room, he finally understood why Zhou Xiangling always wanted her to come back and take a look. Behind the door was the tennis racket he had bought for her. On the wall is her clumsy work when she was just learning Chinese painting. At that time, he snorted and said that even if the crow was soaked in ink and smeared on paper, it would look better than her painting. A landscape study that she thought was the most proud was pasted in the most conspicuous place in his room. There is a small pink pig on each of the two top corners of the TV body. They were originally a pair of kissing pigs, and they were always placed in the middle right above the TV. The two little pigs were far apart at the two ends of the plane, threatening him that if he bullied her again, she would never see him again.

The last time she saw this pair of piglets in her memory, they were still kissing each other, but now they are not seeing each other... I don’t know if it has been ten years since they have been separated... She got up and walked over, pitifully They return to their kissing pose. Half of the bookshelves are books and half are CDs. Her piano score is randomly placed on a certain shelf, and her old hair tie is still placed on the score. The gray and purple color does not tell how long it has been used. It lay idle, as if the hostess would come back at any moment and take it away. On the computer desk, there are paper snapshots of the two people pasted all around the screen, all kinds of strange looks, he secretly kissed her, she bumped his chin when she turned around, and someone fought with the tip of their nose and compared who Long eyelashes, and he hugged her from behind, the two of them clasped their fingers and smiled like flowers. She looked over every part of the room. Gently wiped the desk surface with his fingers, and it was spotlessly clean. This room is like a small museum, keeping everything from ten years ago as before, nothing has changed, even the two pairs of Mickey slippers in front of the bed are exactly the same but the numbers are different, they are from the distant past . The place that should have passed, changed, and annihilated long ago has completely preserved the time and space ten years ago. At this moment, it gave her a strong illusion, as if the past time did not exist, and she just went out to the living room Turned around and came back. However, there was no one on the bed, the one who would always fix her eyes with a pair of dark starry eyes when she pushed the door and came in, even if she had already walked in front of him, he still couldn't bear to look away for a long time. Suddenly she wanted to know, did she love him more, or did he love her more?The idea of ​​wanting to know the answer immediately spread to every cell in the brain after it was born, so strong that she couldn't stay longer for a second. Running downstairs, she flew away. When Sister Huan came out in a hurry to open the door, Zhan Nanxian was coming down from the second floor. The first thing she saw when Nuan Nuan walked in was to look behind Sister Huan involuntarily. Zhan Nanxian leaned against the wall and stood at the stairs. After closing the door, Sister Huan retreated quietly, leaving only two people looking at each other from a distance in the quiet space. He didn't come over, and neither did she. Luxurious sofas, exquisite floor lamps, blue-glazed high-necked vases filled with dried flowers, and wide marble tiles constitute the water surface broken from the center of Kloveniersburgwal Avenue. Time has long separated them at both ends of the world. He lowered his head, took out a cigarette, and had a lighter in his hand. With a click, the blue light lit up. The light of the fire clearly reflected his finely carved facial features. Exhaling a mouthful of transparent mist, he put the lighter into his trouser pocket, turned around and went upstairs step by step. She watched his back as he climbed up the stairs, until he stepped on the last flight of stairs, turned into the corridor, and disappeared from her sight. It was only at this moment that she was willing to truly admit how much she had hurt him. For the sake of tenderness, she didn't want to make sandwich biscuits, so she broke up with him without giving any reason. After leaving for so many years, he refused to come back, and refused to give him any news. Even after he came back, he always believed that he used bad methods against Zhu Linlu without asking for proof, and he didn't trust him at all. Because of Bo Yixin, even if she was in his company until she was transferred to his side, she still refused to take the initiative to talk to her. He is close. And because he refused to see her, she cut off her long hair in anger. In fact, she didn't give up at that time. She didn't believe that he really broke up with her like this. She was just... afraid that she would be the first to be hurt. , so he took the lead in raising the banner of starting from scratch, and declared to him that his love would be broken in the future. Even when he said he wanted to get married, she acted preemptively. Because I don't want to hurt myself more, so I let him take care of all the pain. But in fact, she loves him so...so much. If there was anything unfinished when she came back this time, it was that she still owed him some necessary explanations. No one owes him much, and it's not over, so I don't plan to pay it back. Who made him fall in love with her... But, if he also has a huge black hole like her in his heart, even if he can't heal it, she should pay it back before leaving. Do your best to untie some dead knots for him, and return him the peace he should have since then. Going up the stairs step by step, into the master bedroom, through the living room and the living room, she pushed open the door of the bedroom. He was lying on the bed with all his clothes on, with one hand behind his head and one long leg resting on the ground beside the bed. She went to the imperial concubine's couch next to her and sat down. The breathing of two people can be heard in the silence. "Do you remember that you said I didn't love you enough?" She opened her lips and sighed softly, breaking the silence, "Renrou used to be like you, thinking that I didn't love her." In Wen Rou's eyes, she can give everything for him, but she is very stingy with her sister.And he, she knew, had roughly the same thoughts as Gentle, thinking that she didn't even want this relationship for her sister, so she could just throw him into the abyss of hurt without any explanation. "I don't know what the reason is, but I think there must be something I did wrong." That's why the two people who are closest to her in this world think that she doesn't love her or him. After a long time, he finally spoke slowly, "I never expected a fifteen-year-old girl to handle things better than you." "If you don't blame me for this, tell me, what did I do that bothered you so much?" He turned over and lay on his side, his eyes fell on her face, dim and sad. "After you left, I entrusted a detective agency to search all high schools in the UK, and they all said that there was no one like you." After she left, he once frantically wanted to find her all over the world. In the end, there was nothing he could do. As a young man, he didn’t have enough money, and he didn’t have the power to command the world. That’s why he created Qianyu. He doesn’t ask to be the richest man in the world, but he must be able to do what he wants to do. do it. She wanted to speak, but her throat was blocked by soreness, and she couldn't make a sound. She was full of apologies and finally turned into the most common but also the most difficult three words, "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry." "You just disappeared, leaving no room for my imagination." She lowered her eyes. When he spoke again, his voice was already slightly sandy, "I know you hate me... but you don't know that I hate you too, I hate you to the bone, so much that... I can't face you." The cigarette stagnated between his fingers, he settled down, and then slowly flicked off the ash, the corners of his slightly curved lips were filled with indescribable bitterness, "Are you finally willing to say it?" She wants to love him, but resists subconsciously, wants to let him go, but can't see him being with other women, all her contradictory actions, what else can be explained besides hatred? "You know... why my dad was on that plane?" He fixed his eyes on her. "He had a good time with his friends in Switzerland... It was you, it was you who kissed me in front of me during the day... So when Dad called home at night..." When the receiver heard the familiar and friendly voice of his father, Her voice, her excessive depression during that period of time finally had a basis for her collapse, "I can't say anything, just...just crying into the phone, crying all the time...you know how much he loves me and how gentle he is, He was terrified at the time and said he was going to come back on the fastest flight right away..." She covered her face tightly, unable to speak any more. He slowly twisted out the cigarette. "I just found out that something happened to my father... Before I could really accept that he was no longer alive, Wen Rou actually... actually committed suicide. When Lin Lu knocked the door open, I saw blood all over the ground... She was lying on the ground with half of her face Soaked in blood, but...but her eyes were wide open, she looked at me motionlessly, as if...as if she was saying, it's all me, and it's all because of me, the culprit..." He sat up from the bed, walked over and half squatted in front of her, gently holding her hand. Her tears fell drop by drop on the backs of the two people's clasped hands. "When Dad passed away, I really hated you, I hated you so much... But I didn't expect God to trick people like this. After I knew that Dad Zhan was also on the plane that crashed, I never thought I could still contact you... …Sometimes I miss you like crazy at night, but I don’t dare to call you. I’m afraid…I’m afraid you won’t forgive me, I…I…I don’t want to forgive you either… " He raised his hand and gently wiped the tears on her face, but he couldn't stop the continuous and turbulent tears in her eyes. "No one noticed that I stopped talking. I didn't say a word at my father's memorial service, and I couldn't shed a tear...As soon as the memorial service was over, I was arranged to leave. I went to the UK, but first Not there in 2009, in Ireland...remember? I love Irish music and you said you would take me to that place one day...I don't know how I got there by myself, just remember...I was in Saw a psychiatrist in Dublin for a whole year." Her boyfriend fell in love with her best friend, her father died because of her phone call, and then her sister committed suicide in front of her, and the world collapsed without even the tiniest pillar left. And all of this is because of her. "I couldn't find you. At that time, I couldn't bear the weight of being resented by you even if it was as light as a strand of hair... It took half a year for me to speak again. After a year, my emotions finally stabilized, and I left I left Dublin, wandering aimlessly around castles, manors and some music festivals all over Ireland." He carried her off the chaise longue, sat together on the white cashmere pure wool floor, embraced her whole body, patted her sobbing back tenderly, and pampered her with comforting lips. She gently rubbed and sucked her ears quietly and long. "Later, Linlu arranged for me to return to London to re-study high school. I devoted myself wholeheartedly to my studies. When I was about to graduate from university, one day, Linlu told me that the news of your engagement to Bo Yixin had been published in the newspaper. I heard that I was terrified... terrified, didn't know what to do with myself, and I ended up going back to Dublin... to my old psychiatrist." The psychiatrist helped her do a deep image mapping. Let her enter her inner world that was forcibly closed by consciousness, and present her most genuine desire in front of her out-of-body soul. Under hypnosis, she came to a place. It was a two-story uninhabited swimming pool built by the mountains and the sea. She had never seen pure blue water like the sky, flowing from the high pool to the low pool, and then merged into the boundless sea. The surrounding scenery was as beautiful as ever. When you are in heaven, the flowing transparent water cleanses the soul, every cell in the body is filled with peace and joy, and the whole person is full of comfort from every hair to toe. At this time, Zhan Nanxian appeared by the sea. His face and figure are so clear that she can see the starlight in his eyes even standing on the mountain. She ran towards him ecstatically stepping on the pool water, but before she ran in front of him, she had already watched him helplessly. He walked into the sea, and the water flooded from his ankles to his knees, and then spread from his waist to his shoulders. Her liver and gallbladder were torn, but no matter how much she yelled, he still refused to turn back. Her heart felt like a triangular blood hole was pierced by a sharp awl, and it hurt. indescribable. At this moment, she was awakened by the doctor, and in the few seconds when she was out of sleep, she heard her heartbroken yelling his name, and when she opened her eyes, her whole body was still convulsing violently, and tears were streaming down her face at some point, the doctor said Her imagery was not finished, because her reaction in the hypnosis was too intense, and he worried that she would be in danger if it continued, so he decided to temporarily stop it. After listening to her dream, the doctor pondered for a long time, and finally suggested that she follow her heart, go back to the place she wanted to go, and meet the person she wanted to see. After returning to London, she applied to be an exchange student and finally showed up on the day of his engagement party. Although he was very sad that he had another woman by his side, she unconsciously breathed a sigh of relief. The heavy life and guilt were burned in her heart, and the past was entangled in the most bleak knot. At that time, she really didn't know how to face it. he. She just thought that it would be a great gift for her to be able to see him in this life. He held her tightly in his arms, stroked her back gently, and remained silent for a long time. After a while, his lips rubbed against her ear, "Gentle said...you had a child?" He asked the slight uneasiness that had been hanging in his heart for a long time. "No, she just wants to stimulate you." Knowing that those words were not true, but still confirming it from her mouth, he could truly let go of his heart. "How did Zhan's mother know Chi Bika?" she asked. "After my father passed away, I was afraid that she would think wildly when she was alone at home, so I asked her to open a talent hall to teach flower arrangement. Bika was a student in her class. Later, she introduced Bika to Qianyu." He said, persistently Picking up her hand, turning the ring shaped like a crescent moon between her fingers, a soft starlight flashed in her eyes, "I have never heard you admit that you are Zhu Linlu's girlfriend on any occasion." "Linlu took me to your engagement banquet on purpose to mislead the reporters." She didn't deny it at the time, and Zhu Linlu didn't clarify afterwards, because the outside world always thought she was his regular girlfriend, "One day he accompanied me to the street, I didn't mean to Seeing this ring, he said that no woman would buy a ring for him, so he paid for it for me." He held her hand high, and bit her finger, she resisted it, and finally couldn't help it, she let out a slight cry of pain, her ring finger was red, and a shocking tooth mark had been left, and a thin thread was oozing from the edge Bloodshot. She explained weakly, "The reason I got married—" "For tenderness again?" He slightly hooked the corners of his lips. The newspapers were full of her and Zhu Linlu's honeymoon trip in a foreign country. She bowed her head, if her happiness was the only reason for Gentleness to let go, then she was willing to use this to make her only sister let her go and fly away, "I have dragged her down to live with me in the past for too long." His eyes dimmed, and he sneered, "I will never be number one in your heart?" Her eyes turned red, and she shook her head, "You've been wrong about one thing." "what?" "You are closer than anyone else in my life, and you are the part of my heart that is most connected by blood, so I will sacrifice you." Because, it was as if she was sacrificing herself, with her arms around his neck, she fell on the His shoulder pit, "I can't be with you, I have to hate you, do you understand? Forgiving you means forgiving myself, but I killed my father, what qualifications do I have for happiness?" Her words became indistinct due to choking, "I'm sorry, Nan Xian, I'm sorry... Please believe me, in this world... No, really not... There are people who love you more than me... " There was a flash of shock in his pupils, and he suddenly pressed her down on the carpet, with his thin lips hanging on her lips, "Say more." The trembling voice seemed to reveal the fear that could no longer be endured, and seemed to be filled with urgent feelings. In order to lure more anxiety, every inch of his body was condensed with high fever, accumulating a powerful aura, as if any more touches of fire would explode violently. "Linlu sent you a courier? He deliberately angered you, and he and I didn't..." "I know that." He squeezed between her legs restlessly, pressing out the meager air in her stomach with his strong body, his cold and fading charming eyes were full of messiness and urgency, "Other things, baby, I want Listen to what you just said, and say a little more." There was a corner of her heart full of sourness of love and pity, and she shed tears and kissed his chest under the white shirt. "Your heart is the place where I go to the end of the world and want to come back." Satisfied, he closed his eyes that suddenly shone with starlight, as if the wonderful feeling was so good that he couldn't bear to think about it all at once. Thin lips gently covered her tear-stained soft pink lips, and he kissed her so lightly, so delicately, calming her sour emotions with incomparable patience, and gradually eliciting her barely noticeable shy response. When he leaned down, her body moved in an imperceptible babble, and he grasped the back of his hand in a helpless way with his hands clasped on the pillow. She couldn't open her eyes in a daze. At this moment, he softened the lonely half of his heart into water, sucked her biting lip again, and pried open her white teeth to kiss her deeply. "I've always fantasized about being with you like this unreservedly." He whispered. Slowly, the delicate body under him lost control and greeted softly, and he gradually increased his strength and speed. He raised his head while struggling to control his breath, his dark eyes reflecting her beautiful face were fanatical and focused, and he captured every moving expression of hers, the depression that he couldn't express in the past ten years, and the love that he had been waiting for almost a lifetime, At this very moment, he deliberately eclipsed her soul, wanting to make her whole body and every inch of her soul be permanently branded. She was restless in a daze, and he completely suppressed her and enjoyed it to the fullest. She was soft and beautiful as if she had been taken to heaven. In this kind of bewilderment, a subtle and sharp touch of coldness cut through the continuous heat on her skin, and in a split second, the token on his ring finger jumped out of her mind, and she stuck it to his hairline lips before pulling her. Not even a smile. His hands were conscious, just like before, they gently embraced his soothing body. The man crawling on her body, some innocent things have been frozen, hidden under the darkness of the glacier for thousands of years and will never be revealed, the only one just wants to search endlessly to make up for the lack of his heart many years ago, Even though the two bodies are wrapped around their necks and waists at this moment, they are so deeply entangled that they cannot be dismantled, but as time goes by, I'm afraid...she is no longer the person he loves so much that he wants to marry. I don't know how long it has passed, but the moon is already in the sky outside the window. She curled up on the bed and was as limp as mud, the blush on her cheeks spread to her eyelashes that couldn't be opened and her temples soaked in sweat, her physical strength and spirit were exhausted to the point of near collapse. Zhan Nanxian got out of bed, and brought the snacks that the maid had left in the living room into the bedroom. "Get up and eat something." "No." The sleepy she directly refused, murmuring softly to make him smile. He picked her up, and within ten seconds the white wrist hanging on his neck was no longer able to sag. He tightened her tight waist, lent her chest to let her lean against her back, and adjusted her sitting posture so that she was standing next to him. Leaning in his arms was more comfortable, all movements were skillful and natural, and then he picked up the cup. With his hand, she took a sip of the milk, and then the half piece of blueberry dessert that he bit off was also handed to her lips.Many years ago, on weekends, he always sat on the edge of her bed like this, eating breakfast with her, his head resting on his shoulder slid sideways to his arms, and when she looked back, his long-lost crystal light flashed. "I'll feed you too, okay?" A wait-and-see smile appeared on his lips, and he handed her the pastry in his hand. She didn't take it, but bowed her head and took a bite, and suddenly pushed him down, and her stuffed mouth pressed directly on his lips. He dodged in a hurry, but with milk in one hand and snack in the other, no matter how he turned his head, he couldn't resist her attack. Clinging tightly to her body, her chin and ear bases were already lost, seeing that her water chestnut lips were about to lose her protection, he was so desperate that he leaned down and lay down, sucking her on one side of his lips. Biting between his teeth in annoyance, he warned her not to act rashly again. Being suddenly countered, she let out a soft breath under her smiling face, took the cup in his hand and drank all the milk, this way of ignoring him caused a slight pain in her chest, she had to stop all movements, and smiled sweetly. Zhongjiao surrendered, "Okay, okay, I won't bother you anymore." He suddenly stuffed the snack into her empty left hand and pressed her against the bed, smiling arrogantly, "Honey, your enthusiasm tonight really surprised me." "No!" She hurriedly called to stop, but it was too late... She who caused trouble ended in complete failure, he opened his thin lips close to her heart, and he stopped at the last moment for some reason when the words came to his mouth. They didn't leave the room that night, and the ups and downs that took half their lives seemed to make both of them feel a little fear, fearing that the beautiful and beautiful time would just be a flash in the pan, which made them especially lingering. When the first ray of morning light entered the house through the window, Zhan Nanxian opened his eyes as usual, and saw the beautiful face in his arms at first sight, the mood in the morning was very strange, it was like a long-awaited dream finally came true, It made people unable to adapt for a while, and he was afraid that the dream would disappear as long as he moved, he held his breath, stared at her sleeping face, and there was a rare tenderness in his eyes. His eyes shifted to the corners of her slightly raised delicate lips, and he almost laughed. He didn't expect that even here, last night, he could not escape the malicious sucking of some scars. He lightly pressed a kiss on her lips, moved his arms away from her neck little by little, and turned over to get up. It wasn't until the sound of the bathroom door closing that Wen Nuan quietly opened his eyes. Just as a night of fun didn't mess with his biological clock, he still gets up early on time, and even having her in bed doesn't seem to change his routine a bit... If he can't even do this for her, let alone the other ? Since the reunion, he has an unbelievably strong desire for her, but other than that, she has seen his fierceness in business, his amazing coldness and rationality, his smooth control of his emotions, and more personally experienced His superb tricks to capture a woman's heart. But he never saw it again, the situation where he lost control because of her when they broke up. The means he used on her were almost fatal, she couldn't resist, but he always cleverly kept an invisible distance from her, unless he himself removed the fence in front of her, otherwise, about Whether there is a future between him and her, she can't open her mouth to ask, but he will never talk about it. He has been planning everything in his hands calmly and calmly. That ice-like willpower has already broken through the nine heavens, staying alone on the tenth floor, which is unmatched by anyone. It is as strong as steel, as indifferent as ice, as deep as an old monk, and will never be affected by anyone again. A little emotion or half a move. The sound of the glass door being pulled again made her quickly close her eyes. Zhan Nanxian wiped his black hair that was still dripping with water while walking, threw the white and large bath towel into the rattan basket in the dressing room, and the whole row of shelves along the wall were full of various textures, fabrics and fashion styles. French-style white shirts, all hand-stitched by famous Parisian designers, trousers from light to dark series in pearl, beige, gray and black are lined up on the trouser rack, and the suits, casual jackets and dresses next to them are all planted on the signs With an ultra-thin chip, the cuff sweeps the infrared device embedded in the wall, and the LCD screen will list the year, month, day, and occasions he has worn the clothes on. After getting dressed, he sat down beside the bed and looked at the curled up person who seemed to be still asleep. At the beginning, she forcibly instilled his harsh taste in clothing and even living in him. She likes all kinds of fashion, and can always keenly capture the cutting-edge trends. From clothing to interior decoration, she has her own unique insights and favorite styles. He was influenced by her and gradually formed his impressions. After she left, he seemed to want to miss her through something, follow the taste trajectory she left behind, and finally everything in daily life became a consciously ordinary habit. Unexpectedly, he was featured on the cover of the magazine, and he was amazed that no one could wear the pure and elegant white in a noble and dignified style like him. Bowing his head, resting his chin on her shoulder, he licked her sexy and deadly neck. She couldn't help itching, the corners of her mouth were slightly curved before her eyes were opened, and the fresh breath from all around penetrated into her nose, making people feel refreshed, and her intoxicated expression of taking a deep breath and not wanting to wake up flashed across his eyes. He had a gentle and warm look, but the moment he met her and opened his lazy eyes slightly, there was only a seductive smile on his face. Staring at each other, neither of them opened their mouths, as if they were reluctant to break the blur of the bond between their hearts at this moment. In the end, she couldn't help but looked up at his thin cherry-like lips, "You're going to be late." She still remembered that he would definitely show up on the sixty-sixth floor at 8:30 every day. Bringing a thin quilt to carefully cover one of her jade feet exposed in the cool air, and then the other, he said: "Today I am going to fly to Hong Kong, and I have a contract to sign." In other words, he seemed to explain to her why he had to leave early in the morning. She smiled. This skillful movement has long been her best emotional cover. At this moment, he will not know that there is a little joy in her heart, but it is more of a loss. It is undeniable that she desires more, isn't it so simple and seemingly There seems to be no explanation that can satisfy. "Okay." She said softly, deliberately avoiding a goodbye. As if he didn't mind her lack of response at all, he kissed her on the lips, then stood up, looking at each other for the last time he didn't ask if she would stay here, and she didn't ask when he would be back. He goes out. Watching the door being silently closed behind him, she clearly knew how cowardly she had become... However, now she no longer has the courage to prove again that she would do anything for someone else . Outside the tightly closed door, Zhan Nanxian did not leave immediately, but stood there for a long time, this inadvertent stay finally revealed his subtle emotions. Turning around, he walked through the living room and the reception room. When he reached the door of the suite, he hesitated. He looked back at the door of the bedroom that he had closed with his own hands. A faint reminder quietly, there is a woman he cherishes extremely behind the door, who is in desperate need of comfort at this moment. Restraining his soft heart, he still raised his legs and walked out, but his steps became slower and slower, and he stopped before he reached the stairs. He sighed softly, with a helpless look on his lips, and he turned back. The warmth in the room was about to get up from the bed when suddenly they heard Bressanone's singing. She climbed over to get the phone. "I've settled the account." Gentle said. She smiled, "How about it, is the zero before the decimal point enough for you to be included in the list of top ten rich women?" Wen Rou was greatly surprised, "Look outside to see if the sun is coming out from the north, how could someone be in such a good mood early in the morning? He even made a joke with the old lady." It was really rare in ten thousand years. Wen Nuan laughed, and got up wrapped in a sheet. Zhan Nanxian stood quietly outside the door. He didn't let go of the hand holding the doorknob until he finished talking on the phone inside, slowly retracted it, turned around and left again. When he went down to the first floor, he called Gao Fang, "Help me with something." Sister Huan, who was waiting at the door, opened the door, handed the suitcase to the driver, and he got in the car and left. On the way, Gao Fang called back, "Renrou has cleared all warm stocks, funds, and bonds." He remained silent for a while, and then hung up the phone. His expression was as calm as still water, with almost no trace of waves. She loves him, she still loves him, but loves so conditionally. I have always loved so much that I have a way out. She clearly loves him, but she loves him so contradictory and cautiously, she never weighs his contribution and always only decides to advance or retreat based on her own repeated mood, so afraid to take him as her responsibility again, when he is like a moth to a flame again and again When chasing her like that, he was so stingy and unconditional to give him a little more happiness. When she came back, she actually planned to leave, but in the end, she let him down again. Once, when he was young, he loved the right person, but in the wrong way. After many years, he really comprehended a truth. Not asking for anything in return is the deadliest and most unwanted indulgence in love. If you love someone so much that you just give without asking for anything in return, are willing to sacrifice without wanting to own them, are too tolerant and never complain or hate, it only shows that the other person's love is not equal to your own, and in the process of giving, you are completely不计得失的纯净会令人快乐，当时他也确实十分快乐，然而，太多的悲惨实例从未间断地证明，像这样天平向一方过度倾斜的感情，往往最后都走到了结束。 因为不求回报，对方也就习惯了自己的付出，而没有意识去回报。 以至，当初她可以那样轻易地说出分手。 即便不是因为温柔，也肯定会有其他的导火线，她的轻易决定来自于完全没有珍惜的概念，只是未料由此衍生的代价一生也无法磨灭而已。 感情中两个人的付出孰多孰少无法精确量化，然而多少如同他们一样的恋人最后走到分手，原因恰恰正是其中某方一直不求回报——如果，从相恋最初就令对方也有付出的自觉，如果从一开始就潜移默化地令对方形成与自己同等的珍视意识，结局却极可能会截然不同。 所以在十年之后，他费尽苦心，只为要她给他一个公平对待。 宠她，是一件太轻易的事，但他不能，至少现在还不能。 因为已深深明白，只有当两个人之间的感情天平保持在相对平衡的状态，才能到达他想要的永恒长久。 如果他与她之间始终是一场博弈，那么这次她不能再拨乱棋子，不能再撒娇赖皮，而必须得把这迟了整整十年的棋局与他下完，战和方休。 不管是办法，还是手段，他一定，会令她如他所愿。