Chapter 18 Chapter17 Breaking Up・Leaving

After being discharged from the hospital, Wen Nuan returned to his normal routine, and his whole body also returned to calmness. He got up early every morning and painted in the study, brush strokes and ink strokes, each step meticulous and focused. Because of being gentle and busy, Zhu Linlu took the time to come and see her in the first few days. Seeing that her house is clean and her expression is peaceful, even if she eats alone, she cooks three dishes and one soup carefully every day. Talking and laughing with her, until I went out, I couldn't help but sigh softly, I insisted on going forward when I shouldn't let it go, but I was so self-controlled when I should be vulnerable, what people can say about her.

Nuannuan was taking vitamin pills when she received a call from Zhou Xiangling. The pills accidentally fell from between her fingers, and the yellow grains rolled into the bottom of the sofa. She was stunned for a small piece of paper, picked it up gently, and brushed off the dust on it. Turning his head to look at the jigsaw puzzle hanging on the wall that seemed to be missing a heart, he stood there for a while. How many times have people looked for him, but it turns out that it has always been there, but she has not seen it. Before he could recover, the phone rang. The old man invited her to sit down on Luoyang Road, she originally wanted to change the appointment to meet outside, but then she felt that it would be rude to bother her elders, so she agreed softly.

Luoyang Road is still hidden in the quiet forest, when she parked the car outside the carved ancient silver gate, she felt a terrified sense of desolation. In the past, no matter how early or late, going or leaving Zhan Nanxian's home, he would always be responsible for it. Door pick-up to the door, up to now, every time there can only be such a person walking alone. She honked the horn, and a few seconds later the gate opened automatically. The scenery receded slowly outside the car window. Even though it was the third time, the vastness and majesty of this private mansion still brought a subtle shock to her vision.

Zhou Xiangling personally opened the door and led her in, "Sister Huan, bring a bowl of rock sugar and white fungus." She took out an exquisite tea box, "Mother Zhan, it's for you." "I'm already very happy that you are willing to come, what gift do you want to buy?" Zhou Xiangling looked at her carefully, and after a while, she said regretfully, "Why is your hair cut so short?" Warm squinted his eyes, turned his head to the left and right to show off his new hairstyle, "Isn't it very similar to when you were a teenager?" Her naughty appearance made Zhou Xiangling laugh, "It's very similar."

After finishing speaking, I felt a little embarrassed. The warmth of youth is a pistachio, simple and innocent, Zhan Nanxian likes to tease her very much, the two of them are like a pair of little friends, he is always so angry with her that he will not stop jumping, every time he sees her screaming and screaming Chasing and beating her smiling son, Zhou Xiangling felt happy from the bottom of her heart. During the period after they broke up, when she got up in the middle of the night, she still had an illusion in a trance, as if the silver bell-like laughter of the two children chasing each other was still left in some corners of the dark night.

Then, when her husband passed away and Nuan Nuan left, Zhan NanXian completely changed. He seemed to have grown up overnight, and at some point on his face, which was still young, there was a calmness and coldness that was completely incompatible with his age. In the next ten years, she never saw the cheerful smile on his face again , as if something had completely disappeared from him. After graduating from university, he moved out. If she hadn't insisted on refusing to leave the old house, she would have been resettled elsewhere by him. In the end, he couldn't resist, and moved in after the mansion on Luoyang Road was completed, because he said it was his. The house built for her daughter-in-law, let her live in it and wait for him to marry a wife.

She had always thought that the person he was going to marry would be Wen Nuan, but she didn't expect to find out from the newspaper that there was such a complicated relationship between several young people, and that the person he publicly declared to marry was Bo Yixin. She has no ill feeling towards Bo Yixin, no matter who her son wants to marry, she will not object. What she worries about is, is that what he really wants?After all, young people are still too persistent. Many things are hard to see through. In fact, the world is like floating clouds. When the white fungus was served, warm spoonfuls were poured into the mouth. It was sweet and refreshing, and he couldn't help saying, "Mom Zhan, do you still remember that I like to eat this?"

"Why don't you remember?" Zhou Xiangling looked at her lovingly, and then he was a little puzzled, "How did you and Nanxian get into this?" Wasn't it fine before?Although she doesn't care about her on the surface, it doesn't mean she doesn't care about her only son. In fact, she can see the behavior of these two people in her eyes. mutation. Wen Nuan smiled lightly, "Mother Zhan, I haven't congratulated you yet, you will soon be hugged by a grandson." Zhou Xiangling's kind eyes flashed a clear light, "I saw that said in the newspaper, but Nanxian didn't mention it to me."

Nuan Nuan didn't reply. As far as the grand wedding is going to be held in two months, preparations should start now, but there is no trace of celebration in this room. She doesn't know why, and she doesn't want to ask. She no longer wanted to ask why. After taking the last sip of dessert, she put down the bowl in her hand, her eyes half-closed, "Zhan's mother, Zhan's father's death... have you ever blamed me?" Seeing Zhou Xiangling shake her head lightly, she almost had a sore nose. "You silly children, you just like to think wildly. In fact, life and death are short-lived, good and bad are in the sky, how much a person eats, wears, and lives in a lifetime is predestined."

Nuan Nuan's eyes were red, I don't know if it was because she was finally forgiven and relaxed a heartstring that had been tense for many years, or she hoped that Zhou Xiangling might as well scold her, so maybe she would feel better. "You were only a teenager at that time, how would you know that things would develop like that later? I can only say that everything is God's will." Zhou Xiangling took her hand and sighed, "I really want to blame the first one Could it be me? If I hadn't urged Nan Xian's father time and time again, he wouldn't be in a hurry to come back."

Warm and speechless. I don’t know how many men and women in this world are separated and reunited every day. I just don’t know what she is capable of, but she was chosen by God to bear the butterfly effect. It should be a very simple thing, but it brings people around one after another Casualties and catastrophes. "Xiao Nuan, can you tell me why you broke up with Nan Xian?" Zhou Xiangling asked. Nuan Nuan let out a long breath, recalling the past ten years later, her heart was sour and hard to argue, it was the most stupid thing she had done so far-every night she dreamed of doing it all over again. "It was Saturday, the day before the Dragon Boat Festival. Nan Xian stayed at my house until ten o'clock in the evening. After I sent him out, I found out that he forgot to bring a reference book. When I chased him downstairs with the book—— I saw him and Wenrou standing in the corner." On a whim, she wanted to scare them, so she sneaked over and hid behind the old banyan tree not far from them, and at that moment, "I heard Wenrou talking to him." Zhou Xiangling was surprised, "What did they say?" Warm and wry smile, "She likes Nanxian, and she has been in love since we met in the first year of high school." She was a single-celled creature when she was young, and she never imagined that Wenrou had been secretly in love with Zhan Nanxian for three years. Only then did she understand why Wenrou would go out every weekend and never stay at home, and why she would be cold and cold to her sometimes. She thought it was because of her gentle personality, but she didn't know that she had such a heavy heart. "You didn't know that before?" "She conceals herself very well." Ren Shi saw Zhan Nanxian being intimate with her day and night, and Wenrou never showed any emotion in front of her. Wenrou was only seventeen years old at the time, and she didn't know who her sister was. How did you do it. That night Gentle drank wine, she was not drunk, but suppressed the love and unattainable pain for three years, and rarely met him downstairs when she returned home, taking advantage of the dark night and drunkenness, she finally broke out, All the thoughts poured out in front of him. How he chooses is his business, and she has the right to let him know her feelings. It's not wrong to love someone, right? Zhou Xiangling frowned, "You don't have a city in your heart, so you don't know your sister's heart, I can understand that, but three years is so long, what about Nan Xian, doesn't he know?" "That's why I get carried away with anger and insist on breaking up with him." Zhan Nanxian was not at all surprised by Gentle's sudden confession at the time, and her refusal was also very euphemistic and easy, as if she had already prepared a draft, although she was hiding behind a tree and watching, she was innocent but not dull, and immediately understood his obvious intention for Gentle Already noticed it. He knew it, but never mentioned it to her. If he had said it earlier instead of keeping her in the dark all the time, she wouldn't have been disregarding tender feelings for three years, at least she could go out with him to spend time, without him coming to stay with her house all day long and leaving tender Forced to go out to wander. If he had told her early in the morning, she wouldn't have crawled into her sister's bed in the middle of the night, chirping with her about his sweetness, wanting to share the ups and downs of his love with her with great joy. She couldn't imagine what kind of cruel torment those years were for Wen Rou. Seeing Wenrou lying on his chest with her own eyes, crying heartbreakingly, her original intact heart hiding behind the tree was completely shattered, she didn't know when they separated, and when Wenrou When I went upstairs, I don't know when Zhan Nanxian left. Crouching under the tree, she only had the only scene in her consciousness, which was her sister hugging her deeply in love boyfriend tightly, crying until her heart broke. That scene was something she would never forget. She didn't even know how she got back upstairs, and she didn't know what excuse she used to evade the gentle and suspicious questioning. That night was the first time in her life that she suffered from insomnia, and as soon as she closed her eyes, she would cry softly in her mind. A face of helplessness and despair. The next day, the Dragon Boat Festival, she and Zhan Nanxian broke up. Zhou Xiangling pondered for a while, then said: "Nan Xian didn't tell you, I don't think he did anything wrong about this." "Yes." In fact, he did nothing wrong. It wasn't until she grew up that she realized that he had his reasons. Before Rourou confessed to him, he couldn't be sure whether his feelings were true. If not, he would be a villain in vain if he said it, and even if he said it, she might not believe it. Gentleness, on the contrary, will make gentleness more embarrassing. And even if his feeling is true, even if she believes it, she will definitely not be able to face tenderness naturally at that time, she may become worried and never be happy again, and once sensitive tenderness feels her tenderness Change will definitely not be easy. Zhan Nanxian understands her character better than she does. He doesn't want the pressure on her purely, and he is even more afraid that she will overreact. It can be seen from the fact that she broke up with him immediately after she knew about it. What kind of radical and lame way she will use to deal with this. It's just that she was not only pampered and pampered from a small coat, but she was spoiled by him in those three years, so that she didn't know the sufferings of the world. How could she understand that he always protected her in a bright and happy halo, and took away all the things that might cause her unhappiness? It was a painstaking effort to isolate everything from the two of them. She just felt that he kept hiding such an important matter from her, and made her a sinner who put pain on tenderness. This made her very angry, and she didn't even want to hear an explanation, so she directly condemned him as an unforgivable crime. "Why did you insist on not telling Nan Xian the reason?" "Mom Zhan, you also know his character well. If you let him know, he will definitely not agree to break up, and he will definitely go to Wenrou and ask her to clarify the matter with me face to face." If he is allowed to do that, it means that she and Zhan Nanxian joined hands to push tenderness to an end. She knew that the breakup broke his heart, and she was also very sad during that time, but she thought, she thought——Renrou is a girl and he is a boy, it is better for him to bear it than to let Wenrou continue to hurt, and subconsciously , she wanted to make up for something gentle by herself. "You want to give Nanxian to Wenrou?" Warm shook his head. "No, I never thought about giving him to anyone, but I couldn't bear the accident for a while, I couldn't figure out why things turned out like that, and after knowing how painful my sister was, I couldn't do it—— Live happily alone." With a gentle temperament, if Zhan Nanxian's girlfriend were someone else, she would have fought openly with him for 300 rounds, and because she was warm and loved her, no matter how her only sister let her go in front of her for three years, she always Grit your teeth and bear it alone. After knowing what's on her sister's mind, how could she do it and only care about continuing to be happy heartlessly? She naively thought that breaking up could make up for tenderness. She thought that no matter how painful Zhan Nanxian was, things would pass. She thought that doing that would be good for everyone, and that time would heal all sorrows. She had no life experience and she didn't expect it at all. She thought that God would play the saddest joke in the world with her. Although she never mentioned the reason for the breakup, Wenrou still sensitively grasped the clues from her language and emotions. Wenwen was on vacation in Switzerland at the time, probably out of uneasiness and worry, Wenrou called Zhu Linlu, her best friend in the university, to accompany her. At such a sensitive moment, it is inevitable that Zhan Nanxian will become suspicious. Although he might not believe that she would betray the relationship between the two of them, even though he might have guessed that the reason for her breakup was because of tenderness, but after he saw her get into Zhu Linlu's car, and then stayed downstairs at her house for four or five years When she waited for her return for an hour, she still refused to speak about the kind of determination that no matter how distrusted he was, finally exploded the depression and anger he had endured for a long time. That night was the first quarrel in their lives. She bit her lip and kept silent, allowing him to perform a one-man show. Perhaps no matter how hurt a heart is, it can't compare to the despair of her self-esteem being torn apart inch by inch by her silence. For the first time in his life, he swears ruthlessly in front of her. He vowed to be richer than Zhu Linlu, and he vowed to let her return to him by herself one day. For the first time in his life, he turned around in front of her without hesitation, and left without looking back. Not long after, he and Bo Yixin got back together. Even though she knew that he was using Bo Yixin to stimulate her, but she had become a tiger riding a tiger, plus she was always proud and arrogant, and had been used to his pampering for a few years, but suddenly he changed his face, which made her very uncomfortable , and the more he did that, the more she couldn't let go of her self-esteem and look back. Until Bo Yixin was abused by her classmates, he warned her not to go too far, she immediately publicly stated that she had changed her mind first, until, when she saw him kissing Bo Yixin with her own eyes, at that moment, she felt so painful that she was so numb. His feelings were shattered on the spot. Unexpectedly, it was that night that... both of their fathers passed away. The young and proud heart didn't know how to cherish or tolerate, and the great pain of losing his father made him and her at a loss. In each of his sorrows, the sweet but immature relationship finally broke down irretrievably, and never returned. stranger. What she thought was good, became the culprit who caused huge trauma to Wen Rou and Zhan Nanxian. How many nights have I woke up in a regretful dream and quietly wiped my tears, clutching my painful heart and silently asking myself to the ceiling, if she hadn't been so unfeeling and willful back then, if she hadn't persisted despite his begging again and again Ken reconciles, if she is willing to lower her proud head when he and Bo Yixin spread the gossip, will everything be different? If so, give her a chance to start over. No matter how much you pay and how much damage you suffer, even if you have to give up everything in your life, if you can give her a chance to start over. "Did Nan Xian know why you broke up later?" Zhou Xiangling asked. She was silent for a moment before saying, "I think he knows." This is part of the reason why he hates her. He hates her for giving up too easily. He hates that she can sacrifice for others and would rather make the innocent him despair and sad. In the final analysis, he hates her for not loving him enough. This relationship was a disaster for him, and the pain was indelible for many years. Zhou Xiangling stared at her, "It is said that knowing a son is better than a mother. I know Nan Xian's character very well. He has always loved you very much. Even when his father died, he never angered you, but why——at the press conference? Do? My old brain really can’t figure it out.” Nuan bowed his head and didn't speak. Zhou Xiangling's gaze rested on her short black-haired ear, and she probed softly, "Did you do something to provoke him?" Wen Nuan bit her lower lip, but still remained silent. "Xiao Nuan, there is one thing that I have never figured out after all these years, your father—how could he be on that plane?" Nuannuan's eyes turned red, she turned her head away gently, and forced back the tears. Zhou Xiangling sighed, stopped talking, and only patted her hand pitifully. After thinking about it, she turned around and told Sister Huan to fetch a bunch of keys. "This is the key to our old house. Go back and have a look when you have time." Nuan Nuan didn't pick it up, and it took a while before he said in a low voice, "Mom Zhan, it's hard for us to turn back." "It doesn't matter if you can't turn back. If you find time to go, just treat it as a memory." Zhou Xiangling forced the key into her hand, with kind eyes, "Xiao Nuan, I know you have always been very smart, you need to know Extreme hatred will hurt. Listen to Zhan’s mother’s advice, life is too short, and there are still a few decades for you to waste? Is it worth it?” Eye sockets flushed again, Wen Nuan leaned over and hugged Zhou Xiangling, buried her face in her shoulder, the palm of her right hand hurt from the tightly held key. "Hello, go back." Wen Nuan said to Wen Wen who was lying listlessly on the sofa. When the sun came out at the gate of the hospital, Rourou had a big fight with Ling Zhiyin, and he was so angry that he shook his hands and left, vowing that he would never see her, an unreasonable shrew, again in his life. Wenrou didn't groan, but just covered her head with a soft pillow. Wen Nuan packed the clothes and odds and ends into the suitcase, and inadvertently glanced at a bunch of old keys that had been lying quietly on the tea table for a few days, and the movements in his hands froze.She looked up and asked Wen Rou, "Why did you say that in the hospital?" She snorted softly, "Who told him to say he was your first man? I hate the two of them, and I just want to stimulate him!" Seeing his pale face on the spot really made her very happy, and she squinted at Wen Nuan , with some reluctance, "Let me tell you, he comes every night in the middle of the night, outside your ward." Wen Nuan's expression was as usual, he didn't say anything, and continued to organize the boxes. Rourou was a little annoyed, "Go, go, do you know how to go? It's been so many years, what do you want? What do you want from others? Although I hate that pig surnamed Zhan now, I can't deny it What he has done for you has surpassed most men, can you not always be so difficult to serve?!" Wen Nuan glanced at her, and suddenly asked, "Why have you been refusing to bring anyone to see me?" The gentle arrogance suddenly softened, and she hummed slightly under the pillow, "I'm afraid he will fall in love with you." Such a heart-piercing experience, once is enough. Warm smile, "He obviously wants me to disappear from this world, shouldn't you be relieved? Why are you arguing with him again?" Since birth, she has never met anyone who hates her more than Ling Zhiyin. Gentle turned over and sat up, hugging the pillow, with a kind of luster in her big crystal eyes that I only realized when I looked back at the road after many years, "Because I only understand when things happen to me... If I were to be with him and You choose one of the two, and I will choose you without hesitation." Nuannuan felt suffocated, stopped his movements, and looked at her sideways, "You—what did you say?" "I said, I finally understand." Wen Nuan went to the single sofa and sat down, burying her face deeply in her palm. "Gentle, you go back." She said in a deep voice. "What's wrong?" Wen Rou was surprised, what did she say wrong again? Wen Nuan suddenly got up, with a rare vague anger flowing under his face, he picked up the key on the coffee table, his tone was restrained and calm, "Come on, let's go together, you go home, I'll go somewhere." Just when Rourou was about to get angry, she saw the silent, depressing and depressing gaze in Nuannuan's eyes, she was stunned for a moment, and could not speak anymore, Wennuan grabbed her wrist and pulled her out, and slammed the door behind her. Both were silent in the elevator. Wen Nuan didn't speak until he entered the parking lot. "I have always regretted why I chose you instead of Nanxian. I really regret it. Why didn't I ask your opinion? Why didn't I ask if you want to be chosen by me? If I chose not You, Nanxian and I wouldn’t be here today. If I hadn’t chosen you, you wouldn’t have cut your pulse and been admitted to the hospital. It wasn't you who chose, neither Nan Xian nor our father would get on that damn plane!" She sat in the driver's seat of the car and bit her lip tightly. "I used to think that giving up meant fulfillment. I thought I had done nothing wrong, but the result and price were beyond everyone's expectations. I didn't understand until I met Nanxian again—you know why he treated me like that ?Because he wants me to understand! Sometimes unnecessary attachments are ridiculous! He wants me to understand how stupid I am to mistake selfishness for selflessness! He also wants me to understand! Peace of mind, and always put the person who loves me the most in the most miserable situation! Tell me, Gentleman, have you ever felt pain in these years? Have you ever hated me so much that you have not returned? " Wen Rou stared blankly at her expressionless profile, completely unable to make a sound. Turning the steering wheel in his hand, Nuan Nuan galloped away. One wrong step, one wrong step, no one knows what she has experienced. Yes, she is selfish, this time she is really selfish, she doesn't want to be selected by Gentle. She didn't want to bear the tremendous pressure that she had self-righteously imposed on Meek for no reason, the pressure that almost suffocated Meek. She didn't want Meek to follow in her footsteps. Those who haven't walked will never know. Every step will be inseparable from despair, a heart will not die in the endless loneliness. Driving the car into an old community with more than 20 years of history and green trees and green branches, she randomly picked a ground parking space and parked it, got out of the car, took the key that Zhou Xiangling gave her that day, and took the elevator up. Block B on the 16th floor. The corridor was empty, and she inserted the key into the lock. At that moment, I suddenly heard a very small voice from inside, it seemed that it was not far behind the door, someone said something, and then another person laughed slightly.Instinctively, she withdrew the key quickly, dodged and hid in the fire escape next to her. There are two panes of glass the size of a computer screen on the tightly closed yellow side door, through which she can clearly see Zhan Nanxian and Bo Yixin coming out of the room, waiting for the elevator with their backs to her. Bo Yixin seemed a little tired, took his arm, and leaned his head casually on his shoulder, "Nanxian, don't you really want to go to Nuannuan to explain?" Nuannuan clearly saw his side profile, and curled the corners of his lips casually in a faint smile. "What do you explain? You said that you joined forces with me just to see how embarrassing she was when she was frustrated? Or that the wedding on September 9 will never be rescheduled? Or that the child's name has already been chosen and is waiting for the birth Call her Auntie Sweetheart?" Bo Yixin giggled, punched him, and said coquettishly, "You are really bad." He looked at her sideways, "Aren't you bad?" Satisfied, she leaned her head back on his shoulder, "Who says we're not made for each other?" The two looked at each other and smiled, and walked into the elevator together. Wen Nuan, who was hiding at the top of the stairs, felt his hands trembling, the key in his palm almost slipped out of his fingertips, his whole body was limp and weak, his legs felt as if they had been amputated, before he tried to lift, he knelt limply , she sat slumped on the ground, her hand holding the key was tightly clenched into a fist and stuffed in her mouth, her teeth sunk deep into the back of her hand. The elevator went down to the first floor and felt a vibration, Zhan Nanxian took out the phone in his pocket. The red dot in the lower left corner was blinking, which meant there was a new message. He opened it with his fingers and walked towards the car. Halfway through the reception, the phone issued an alarm of insufficient power. He frowned slightly and touched his pocket to find that there was no With spare battery. "What's wrong? Is it an important message?" Bo Yixin asked. Zhan Nanxian smiled lightly, "It's nothing, just some pictures." Put the phone that had been automatically turned off back into his pocket, and sat in the driver's seat, "What do you want for dinner?" "I've been throwing up a lot lately, and I've lost my appetite. I'd better go home and ask Third Sister to cook some porridge." "There's a first-class chef in the club, why don't I accompany you to try it—" The sapphire blue sports car suddenly stopped like an arrow that flew more than ten meters away in three seconds, and Zhan Nanxian was tied to the safety net. The startled Bo Yixin said apologetically, "I'm sorry." But his eyes were fixed on the shadow of the car under the shade of the trees at the end of the road in the rearview mirror. "What's wrong?" Bo Yixin asked in surprise. He didn't answer, and reversed the car until he could clearly see the license plate in the rearview mirror, making sure that he was right, it was the warm car. Why is she here? He immediately opened the door and got out of the car, looking around, she was nowhere to be seen. After thinking for a while, he lowered his head and said to Bo Yixin, "Wait for me a moment." Walk back to the building in three steps and two steps, and take the elevator up. Habitually wanting to take out the phone, I put my palm in my pocket only to realize that it is out of battery. When he reached the sixteenth floor, there was no one in the corridor. He stood at the door of the house, concentrating for a moment, took out the key to open the door, and walked slowly from the living room to every room. . Everything is in its place, with no sign of having been visited. His eyes dimmed, he sat on the edge of the bed in his former room for a while, and then got up to go out. After locking the door, walked over to press the elevator, inadvertently turned his head, his eyes stopped on the tightly closed door at the entrance of the stairs, something flashed in his mind, and he subconsciously raised his leg and walked over.He raised his hand, and the moment his palm was pressed against the door, he felt an indescribable panic in his heart. This panic spread from his brain to his arm, and he subconsciously clenched his palm, and then opened it after a while. He gently pushed the door open, and the stairway was empty. Pushing it again, the fifteen steps, including the upper and lower corners, were all in view, and it was still empty. Taking a deep breath, he couldn't tell whether he felt relieved or slightly lost. He retracted his arm, and the automatically closed door quickly closed in front of his eyes. open. On the ground next to the escalator at the corner of the stairs, lay a bunch of inconspicuous dark copper keys. He picked it up, looked upstairs, then looked downstairs, the previous panic in the emptiness filled his heart again, and his thin lips pursed.He opened the door and rushed to the elevator, pressing the down button which was already bright red repeatedly. Outside the arcade on the first floor, Bo Yixin, who was sitting in the car, quietly watched his figure rushing out of it, his face changed slightly when his eyes glanced at the empty parking space not far behind her, his emotions were unpredictable. The rocky man, from the time she knew him to the present, for ten years, his heart has only moved for one person from the beginning to the end. "She's gone." She said softly, "She came out shortly after you went up." Zhan Nanxian sat in the driver's seat, "I'll take you back." She glanced at him, "Didn't you say that there is a new chef in the clubhouse? I want to try it." "Okay." His expression remained unchanged, and the sports car was galloping on the road at an unusual speed. "You can accompany me back to get a mobile phone battery first." With one hand on the steering wheel and the other free elbow resting outside the car window, he focused on the road ahead, the eyes under his thick long eyelashes constantly flashing through the dark due to the ups and downs of his heart, as if he had fallen into some kind of distant thoughts and forgot Even though there was someone beside him, the corners of his lips that had been slightly pursed seemed strangely alienated. Bo Yixin pressed the car CD. He looked sideways, retracted his hand and raised the car window, and there was a hoarse and deep singing voice in the silent car, which was "Please Forgive Me" by Brian Adams. All the way back to the annex of Qianyu, Zhan Nanxian went to get the battery, switched it on and started to receive satellite information again. After reading all of them, he issued a new command, and then dialed Gao Fang's phone. "Has there been any movement over there recently?" "Not yet, don't worry, I've made arrangements, everything will be fine." "Well, sorry to trouble you." While talking, the phone vibrated, and he read the newly downloaded information. After finishing watching, he put the phone in his pocket, and silently looked at his own shadow in the elevator mirror. The hand in the pocket did not withdraw, but still held the phone, as if playing casually, or wanting to dial. a shortcut key. Ten years, in the past ten years, he has only called her twice not long ago. That night, he couldn't bear the deep thoughts anymore, so he called her to the Fujisue clubhouse. Another night, they met unexpectedly in the tennis court. Even though they were so far away, he still saw her sitting opposite her at a glance. Too long years have condensed certain things into barriers and taboos that he doesn't want to touch. It's not that he dare not break it at this moment, but that now, an unplanned change suddenly happened, which unexpectedly caused him to have Hesitating, not knowing what to do, and whether it is suitable to take that step. For too long, he has long been used to not explaining anything to anyone. Coming downstairs, after a little hesitation, he still accompanied Bo Yixin to the private club. Forest Road, Elegant Garden, warm home. When she closed the suitcase, she thought, does one need a reason to love another? After packing up all the documents and putting them in her carry-on bag, she took off the platinum chain she had been wearing around her neck even when she was sick, and put the Tianhuang Stone Seal, which was already a beautiful pendant, into the drawer. She dragged the suitcase out and gently closed the door. At that moment, she decided to marry Zhu Linlu. Many decisions in the world are often made in the blink of an eye. Originally, she just wanted to go out to relax, but now she finally realized that in fact, all kinds of things in life are often mediocre, and most of the time, there is no need to be very cautious, no need to think about things, no need to go back and forth, no need to hate yourself and others. Let it go, it turns out that there is no reason. Year after year, people come and go around me, time passes silently, yearning blooms in the wind and frost of a foreign land, but the happiness that she once tried so hard to pursue, has drifted to the edge of a strange road at some point, and belongs to her The fate with the first love, after going around for ten years, still can't bloom like a flower. In the end, it withered away. From now on, she only wants the years to be quiet and peaceful, and this world to be stable. Love and hate, those stories of vicissitudes, have nothing to do with her anymore.