Chapter 6 live elsewhere

It was already six o'clock when I got home, my mother was sitting at the table making dumplings, and Yu Zhouzhou turned on the TV to watch cartoons. "It's freezing today, I've walked so far." "No." She shook her head.She herself couldn't remember how she walked that way, she wasn't tired at all, and only had two big dies of rabbits in her mind. The mother didn't know that her daughter had given up the chance to be a queen for herself, and she remained steadfast in the face of prosperity and wealth. "It's too unsafe around here recently, otherwise I wouldn't let you run around with me in the winter, I'm sorry Zhou Zhou," mother's thumb and index finger pinched the side of the dumpling's apron together, her eyes were a little red again, "this There is no nursery nearby at all, if only I could go to the provincial government kindergarten back then."

Every time Yu Zhouzhou mentioned the provincial government kindergarten, he felt embarrassed and blamed himself.I remember that when kindergarten was recruiting students, my mother led her there. Many parents and children lined up to meet the three aunts who were in charge of recruiting students. When it was her turn, a round-faced aunt asked her, kid, what are your specialties? specialty? What do you know? Yu Zhouzhou thought for a while calmly. She just heard several girls performing singing and dancing. She can sing and dance, but she really can't do dancing. But those talents are too common, and she wants to do something special.

"I know martial arts." The mother was still in a daze when she saw her daughter squatting on a horse and waving her hands "Hey!" "Ha!" and shot at the teacher... Later, of course, he was not admitted.A generation of heroine Yu Zhouzhou has since retired from the world, deeply ashamed. In fact, she didn't know that these so-called "interviews" were just a formality. The real interview was based on the background and gift money of the parents. She was rejected because the interviewing teacher didn't like her martial arts. Regarding this matter, Yu Zhouzhou and her mother felt guilty because of different thoughts.What’s more, Yu Zhouzhou didn’t feel regretful. Although she passed by the kindergarten and saw the beautiful little slides in the yard, and the beautiful children sitting at the small colorful tables competing who could eat faster and more, she It's not that I'm not envious.But once she heard that the children in the kindergarten had to take a nap at noon every day, she was very happy.

It’s just that she didn’t know that once her mother took her to the dormitory of a certain factory for a massage. She hugged the stray cat in the factory and slept soundly next to the boiler, but her mother looked at her sleeping soundly and wondered The ability to let her go to a better kindergarten, crying with guilt until she choked up. Many years later, when she grew up, what she remembered was the scene of herself as a female warrior and the holy beast mount (the cat) fighting the big boss in the devil volcano (boiler).All that is joyful, without the slightest sign of hardship. For the young Yu Zhouzhou, life was never hard.The long journey, wind and snow, and scorching sun can all be transformed into some kind of magical background, but she has already left the real world, living in another country with a special identity.

Fantasy is her AT force field.She lives elsewhere, a magnificent "elsewhere", and nothing can hurt her. Even if you sometimes meet contemptuous and insulting gazes—for example, when you passed by a beautiful musical instrument store, your mother pointed to a white piano and asked the price, and the waiter looked at the mother and daughter from head to toe with naked eyes. , sneered and quoted a daunting price——Yu Zhouzhou could also keep the waitress’s face firmly in mind, then hang her face on the face of the big devil, and lift the sword of Shia to beat her A mess. Then An Ran sat at the table, imagining it as a beautiful white grand piano, raised his hands lightly, imitating Richard Clayderman on TV, knocked on the table with the most elegant posture, and finally stood up, Lifting the non-existent corner of the skirt, slightly bending the knees, with a perfect smile.

Yu Zhouzhou is very happy. It’s just that occasionally I feel lonely. Sometimes Duke Gregory and Viscount Kerry Kerry don’t speak. Athena and Seiya are silent together. The three-eyed child’s mouth is taped with cross tape, and her imagination also fails. when. In the rare loneliness, she was pleasantly surprised to find that the moon can be seen in the afternoon. There are a few days in every month when you can see a half moon in the clear blue sky in the afternoon, the edge is not clear, it seems to be translucent, pale and fuzzy, like a white watercolor accidentally smeared on a pure blue canvas.

Benben, look, there is a moon in the sky. "Yima" is a quantifier invented by six-year-old Yu Zhouzhou. Later, in the third grade of elementary school, he once used the phrase "Yimiaomoon" in a composition, which was circled by the teacher and corrected as a typo. When Yu Zhouzhou felt lonely when she was young, she would chat with Benben—although it was said to be a chat, but in fact she was the only one talking, and the timid Benben only knew how to listen quietly from the side.She told many stories to Benben, some of which were born out of cartoons, and some of which were simply made up by her.Those stories drilled out of the small hole in the heart, releasing the melancholy of youth.

Somehow, one day, the white piano suddenly came up. Benben, who had been silent on the sidelines, suddenly said, "I'll ask my mother to buy it for you." "your mom?" But Benben didn't know where she was.He thought, it doesn't matter, although he has never thought of looking for his mother like in the cartoon Yu Zhouzhou described, but if it is for Yu Zhouzhou, he is willing to find his mother, not asking her to take him in, but asking her to give him Yu Zhouzhou bought a white piano. Didn't they all say his mother was rich? Yu Zhouzhou touched Benben's face and said, "Well, I believe in you."

She thought that she and Benben really fell in love, she could give up Blue Water for him, and he could beg a mother who didn't know where for her. However, the "relationship" between her and Benben is not without crisis. It was already the early spring of 1994, and the spring breeze in February was like scissors—it was cold and painful when it was blown on the face, colder than the north wind in winter.But these children can't wait any longer. After a long winter at home, they can't wait to run out of the house to play in the snow that has not yet melted. "True and False Landmines"... All kinds of simple games made them flush in the cold wind, and they laughed the most crisply in their childhood under the blue sky.

Tired of playing, we sat together on the same cement pipe as in "Doraemon", and everyone obediently listened to Yu Zhouzhou telling stories.Yu Zhouzhou has a very high prestige among the children of different ages. Although she doesn't often show up to play with them, and there are many different gangs among the children, fighting in private, but Yu Zhouzhou Appeared, they were all willing to surround her and listen to her stories. She told them the story of the little angel who secretly cut off her blond hair and finally died in order to save the one she loved, and Andersen's "Little Cedar Tree"... It's just that when she told these stories, the ending was tampered with Great reunion, misunderstandings eliminated, and resurrection from the dead.

She remembered Chen An saying that a happy ending is boring. But Yu Zhouzhou likes a big reunion.Life is no longer reunited, so the story doesn't have to be broken anymore, right? When the story is told, the mouth is dry, but everyone still has more to say.Yu Zhouzhou suddenly had a flash of inspiration, and excitedly said to them, "Let's play the White Lady game!" All in awe. She snapped her fingers and said to the two little girls, "Now you are Bai Niangzi and Xiaoqing," and pointed to Benben, "You are Xu Xian," and then pointed to the oldest and biggest boy and said, "You are Fa ocean!" In addition to the main character, the other people are "sister", "brother-in-law", "master of the house", "little servant" and "girl in brothel"... Yu Zhouzhou arranged the plot for them, and the children quickly became crazy and no longer Even if she needs her guidance, she can perform like a storm.Yu Zhouzhou sat alone on the water pipe with his chin in his hands, watching them cheerfully performing illogical plots in front of his eyes, and often even stealing scenes, everyone talking to themselves, unwilling to be lonely. Only she watched quietly, only she was the most willing to be lonely.At that moment, she suddenly discovered that loneliness can give people a condescending attitude. She suddenly felt that she was different, more sober, and more helpless. Near the cement pipes is like an open-air mental hospital, staged a stage play of demons dancing wildly.The sky was getting late, and the moon in the sky sank, but it became clearer.Parents got off work and passed by the mental hospital one by one to pick up the "patients".The stage slowly cooled down, and finally only Benben, Yu Zhouzhou, and a little girl named Dandan were left. "Zhou Zhou, let's go, I have something to say to you." Dandan came close to him, took Yu Zhouzhou's arm, and said fiercely to Ben Ben, "Stay away from Zhou Zhou, be careful I will curse your rotten feet! " With illogical disgust, Yu Zhouzhou was dragged away by Dandan without knowing it, and when he turned around, he saw Benben blushing and standing alone. When they walked to the door of Dandan's house, Dandan looked around furtively, and then whispered to Yu Zhouzhou, "Zhou Zhou, do you like running around?" Yu Zhouzhou didn't know whether to nod or shake his head.She really wanted to say that she liked it—she did, but she also vaguely understood that the "like" these children said was not the same as what she liked. The liking Dandan mentioned is the kind of liking of adults.Yu Zhouzhou knew that Benben was very good-looking, many little girls liked to play with him, and he was different from those boys, he didn't swear or bully others.But that's exactly what puts him in a difficult position—girls pretend to hate him because they like him, and don't talk to him when other people are around; Not worthy to play with them. Yu Zhouzhou's loneliness comes from her imagination, but Ben Ben's loneliness is real. Dandan asked again anxiously, "Do you like running around?" In the end, Yu Zhouzhou still shook his head, no.Dandan let out a long breath when he heard the sound, as if he was finally relieved, he continued to whisper with his eyes rolling, "I'll tell you something, please don't tell others." Yu Zhouzhou thought to himself, nonsense, it must be something that everyone already knows, everyone will tell the other person, don't tell others. "That day, I went to play with Yueyue, but guess what I saw?" "what?" "Yueyue and Benben..." Dandan made a very embarrassed look, and paused for a while, "The two of them are on the bed with nothing on!" Yu Zhouzhou opened his mouth wide and stared at the nagging Dandan—even though these kids don’t know much about “sex” and even Yu Zhouzhou doesn’t even know what “kissing” is, They firmly believe in the statement that "I was picked up from the garbage station by my parents"-however, they all know vaguely that it is definitely a shameful thing for a man and a woman to be naked together. Things are very, very bad things. Dandan's small mouth is blah blah, talking endlessly, such as "Yueyue has always liked to run", "Yueyue thinks she is beautiful, and sometimes she runs outside wearing her mother's lipstick", "Everyone thinks you like Benben has never dared to tell you about this matter", "How can you still let Yueyue and Benben play the role of White Snake and Xu Xian together"... Yu Zhouzhou was walking home alone, and happened to see Benben standing timidly at the door, his eyes flickering, as if he knew what Dandan said to Yu Zhouzhou. A kind of unfamiliarity and embarrassment that had never happened before was born between the two people who were looking at each other. Yu Zhouzhou lowered his head, bypassed Benben, knocked on the door and shouted into the room, "Mom, I'm back." After my mother opened the door, she saw Benben standing stupidly at the door, and said with a smile, "Benben is here too, come in and watch TV for a while." Benben kept his head down, and his right toe knocked against the hard snow on the ground, poking out small holes in the shape of half moons, and whispered, "No need, Auntie, I'm going back." After entering the door, my mother looked at Yu Zhouzhou who was sitting on the bed watching TV, and asked a little worried, "Have you had a fight with Benben?" Yu Zhouzhou shook his head blankly, as if his soul had left his body, and turned to continue watching the advertisement. For the first time, she didn't know how to use fantasy to relieve the restlessness in her heart. It's like hearing Athena say to Seiya, I'm sorry Seiya, I like Ikki.