Chapter 30 Section 28

Weekend family restaurants are not as loud as they used to be.It was completely dark outside the window. Mikami sat on the edge of the bar, his eyes fell on his watch.It was exactly half past five.The spiced rice and coffee that he ordered had already been served, but he didn't move, just staring at the letter paper on the table with folded arms.I bought the letter paper at a convenience store on the way here.I have smoked five of the cigarettes I bought together, but the letter paper is still blank.Fortunately, when he said goodbye to Riji's mother, he also said that he would throw the letter into the mailbox today, and asked her to hand it to Riji.

Mikami sighed and leaned back in the chair. want to contribute.Hiyoshi devoted himself to the police world with such a great ambition.For social justice.This sentence sounds great, but the reality is not so good.If I want to change the track after only staying for one year, I must have more complicated considerations in my heart.Although it can’t be said that it’s going smoothly, for Hiyoshi, the police’s lack of knowledge about computer crimes at the time just gave him an excellent excuse so that he could justifiably escape from his previous job? However, his self-esteem was shattered at the scene of the crime.

fucked up... i'm a piece of crap... He was thrown into the Amamiya House, which was extremely nervous at the time, made a major mistake there, and was finally pushed to the brink of collapse because of self-blame.Sure enough, they are flowers in the greenhouse, vulnerable to a single blow.Although it is almost inseparable to think so, his mother's accusation that someone has done cruel things to him should not be a completely false accusation.Someone caught his mistake and chased him fiercely, using cruel words and a tone that wanted to kill people, and sentenced Hiyoshi to "imprisonment for fourteen years" to death.

Was it Urushihara, the monitor at the time?If the elimination method is used, only this person is left.He didn't think the manly Kakinuma would catch the weak and hunt them down.Koda can also be eliminated.Because according to Ruixi, he also comforted the crying Hiji. What was Hiji's mistake? Considering the tasks he was in charge of at Yugong's house, it should be related to the recording equipment.The words recording failure first came to mind.The voice of the kidnapper on the phone was not recorded.If this is the case, it is indeed an irreparable failure.Even those who adopt Hiji without following the formal procedures are inseparable.But it's not right!There was no chance that Hiyoshi committed a recording failure at all.Because when the kidnapper called, none of the four members of the home team had arrived at Yugong's house.After sneaking in, the family never received threatening calls, so there was no chance of recording at all.

If it wasn't the recording that failed, what else might have failed?waste.The mistake that would have brought Hiyoshi down to such a low level...fatal mistake...no specific mistake came to mind.Or was he given other special tasks on set besides recording?Or is it an unexpected event that has nothing to do with the job content?It is also possible that the mistake itself was not serious, but because it involved kidnapping and tearing up tickets, so I blamed myself? The problem is...the mind goes backwards. What does Koda have to do with this?This most critical part is still clueless.Suppose Koda wrote down Hiyoshi's mistake in the codex, why would he do it?Is it based on righteous indignation?Because they were dissatisfied with the people above who wanted to suppress this matter, they planned to report the truth internally and write down the truth.Or is it because of repentance?The mistakes made by Hiyoshi are regarded as the joint responsibility of the entire self-house team.No matter which one, he should have imagined that the existence of the Codex might make the young Hiyoshi lose his foothold in society.Or did he think it was nothing more than a trivial matter compared with his lofty ideals?

He didn't know Koda well.How is his relationship with Hiji?Riji's mother suspects that someone is putting the blame on her son.Unpleasant thoughts come to mind.Could it be that Hiyoshi's mistake was caused by Koda's instructions?Koda pretended to comfort him, but actually wanted to gag Hiyoshi?Judging from Ruixi's long-lost memory, the possibility of Koda using verbal violence against Hiyoshi is extremely low. The answers are all hidden in Riji's heart.As long as he can open the door of his heart, he can know the whole picture related to Koda's manuscript. Mikami lit his sixth cigarette, took a sip of coffee, and meditated on the letter paper while holding a pen.How should I write it?What kind of content can move Riji's heart?He has been in self-imprisonment for fourteen years, not only blaming himself, but also terrified of the police.And maybe hate.Now it is the police who are ready to speak out, asking him not to worry about anything, and to tell all the secrets deep in his heart...

The pen in my hand didn't move.My heart also seemed to freeze.Only time is passing by ten, twenty.Sweat oozes from his forehead, and the more anxious he feels, the more he feels the blankness in his head is constantly expanding. - What are you doing! Mikami finally put down the pen.The powerlessness of not being able to write a single word made him quite irritable.He thought it would be very easy for others to let go of their guards.In the interrogation room, he did not know how many criminals had let go of their guards. Whether it was lies, truth, scenes, or inner feelings, they all showed their true colors nakedly under repeated questioning.This depends on strength.It is the incomparable strength exuded by the golden signboard of the police.

Mikami returned his gaze to the letter paper. But what is needed now is not strength but vocabulary.Words that can truly convey to the heart of the other party... Have no idea.If Mikami could think of a few words, Ayumi's heart would not be so far away.Language is a weapon.It is a psychological warfare tool with a sharpened front end that can poke the opponent's heart full of holes.Even if you leave the scope of work, the truth remains the same.In his life from childhood to adulthood, has he ever seriously considered whose heart he wants to use words to impress? "Let me get you a cup of hot coffee!"

Mikami regained his senses and looked up, there was a waitress who looked like a work-study student looking sideways at him.Probably because she hasn't gotten used to the job yet, neither her gestures nor her smile look like the staff of a family-style restaurant. "Thank you, sorry for the trouble." Mikami inserted a spoon into the cold spiced rice.The waitress also seemed to find his spiced rice completely untouched.Every time he loses his appetite like this, Mikami always thinks of a sentence that his comrade-in-arms who came to find his father once blurted out: "Every time I eat, I feel like I'm alive again!" Put the food into his mouth Only then did I remember that I didn't have lunch today.No wonder there were dizzy symptoms at Hiyoshi's house.Put down the spoon after only eating half of it, and had to leave a bit of stomach to go home for dinner.

Mikami lit a cigarette again.Although I didn't feel like I was alive again, my whole body was a little more energetic than before.Breathe out the smoke ring and re-examine the reality in front of you with the thinking logic of work.Hiyoshi can't be defeated, so he completely forgets about him and then goes to Urushihara and Kakinuma, and at the same time asks for news about Koda.The blank letter paper pushed to the corner of the desk was an eyesore, but there was no time left.It’s fine if there’s still a little bit of hope, but sticking to tasks that you know are impossible is just a waste of time, not work.

Mikami stuffed the letter into his briefcase and reached for the bill. "Would you like another cup of coffee?" The established questions in the employee handbook came to my ears. "No thanks." Sanshang replied without looking back, only to hear a chuckle in his ear.Mikami was startled, thinking that someone was making fun of his appearance.He rolled his eyes calmly, and found that the waitress was standing beside him. "Then, call me when you want to drink." This time it is very general.Mikami turned his head and stared at her face carefully.With small eyes and an upturned nose, she is not considered a beauty in terms of appearance. "Ah! Am I being long-winded? But I'm so happy because this is the first time I've had someone say thank you to me since I've worked here." The waitress smiled again.Mikami couldn't react in time, he could only look at her back as she gradually went away.There is a strange feeling in my heart.She must be an incarnation of something, otherwise there would be no such thing. Another hour passed after that, and Mikami didn't leave his seat. He was facing the letter paper, the pen was still put aside, and he just closed his eyes and meditated for a long time.The head does not seem to be his own, completely stuck in a state of shutdown.Drowsiness kept coming, only some illusory pictures played out in my mind one after another.Hiyoshi wandered in a place as dark as a sea of ​​trees, and Ayumi could still be vaguely seen through the gaps in the trees.Both are lost in the forest.Probably even Sankami. Originally, I wanted to write a letter to persuade Hiji, but in the end there was only a short sentence. "Tell me where you are, and I'll find you if I can." The extravagant time is finally over. Mikami wrote down the phone numbers of her home and mobile phone, put the folded letter paper in the envelope, grabbed the bill and walked quickly to the cashier.I searched for the waitress from the corner of my eye, whether it was on the opposite side of the screen or the part-time job was over, but she was nowhere to be seen on the whole floor.

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