Chapter 18 Section VIII

It feels like the body has become an empty shell.Leaning forward, relying on the reaction force to barely step out, while walking on the way to the station, the phone rang. Numb fingers took out the phone from the purse, looked at the screen, it was Guihui calling. "--Hey." Even if I don't want to, I realize that my heart is now unconsciously expecting a certain name.Then he called several times.As if in an obligatory ritual to keep in touch, the phone calls were kept at regular intervals.Although I don't answer it now, but it won't take long, I will definitely... Even if he didn't answer the phone or text message, he would never come directly to Sa Jiangzi.He only acts within the scope of not destroying the life of County F, and will never go beyond.

She didn't understand how she fell in love so deeply.He didn't even know whether it was what he wanted or not. 'Hey?Sha Jiangzi?it's me. ' Head hurts.I really want to ask for leave tomorrow.The body weighs like hell.I don't want to think about anything. "Hmm. What's wrong? Gui—" Trying to sound okay.Just at this time.In order to get rid of the headache, I pressed my forehead and raised my eyes, and caught the giant billboard hanging high in the building.Promotional board for cosmetics.Kyoko, who was sitting in the same place as me until just now, was there.Wearing a bright red dress, facing the wind, looking straight ahead with a resolute expression.

KYOKO is free——Thinking of this, there was a rush in the chest, as if pierced by something cold.Looking up at her from the ground, own feet bound by gravity. I like.What is it that I like, that I keep looking at? Bright red dress.Just by jumping into it, wouldn't it be possible to get the same skin and bones as hers?Giant flat photos that bring out dreams.What Saeko pursued from Masaki.A dream that is clearly guarded against, but cannot be extricated from. He is my window to lost time and the past.is its symbol, is everything.Who is the little guy?Who is chasing after whom? Don't want to be pitied.I don't want to lose.She just wants them to look good.

As if surprised by the sudden silence of Saeko, Takae said anxiously: 'You are so busy at work and still call, sorry.I'm wondering when I can meet KYOKO, because I have to leave the baby to my mother, if you know when it is, can you tell me?I'm going to take the tram. A crying baby will disturb people, so I can't take the child with me. ' Swish, swish, she heard a sound. Guihui's small hands.if.If you don't tear up the letter that day. "Guihui." So sad. No ups and downs, no regrets.For the first time, she knew that beyond anger and pain, there was such a calm and steady mood.Never get rid of a man, you must hold on tightly.My own cleanliness in my teens taught me to cherish.

There is a feeling of trampling on a pure and flawless snowfield.She wanted to see how her docile best friend was hurt.I've realized it.Recognize that you are so unbearable. What?An innocent voice sounded on the other end of the phone. "May I ask a weird question? I didn't have any friends before, you know that? A long time ago, in elementary school. Before you came to talk to me, I was alone." There was a panicked silence.After a while, Guihui said in a very soft tone: 'Have it?You have been very smart since before, so everyone thinks you are a bit difficult to get close to.But I don't remember much. '

"Don't be sloppy." I really want to close my eyes.She knew Guihui's tone.It was the voice she would put on when dodging awkward questions and lying. 'Because people really don't remember.Sae, what happened to you all of a sudden?You are weird. ' "Why did you talk to me at that time?" It was clearly not cold, but the hand holding the phone seemed to be frozen.She was afraid of knowing the complete answer.Guihui's bewilderment was transmitted, and she stalked and asked: "If you say you don't remember, I'll tell you. Because everybody hates me. I'm fat, dark, funny, and think I'm smart. Yes, everybody says that and laughs at me that way. I take it for granted. I'm more precocious than the people around me, so I think everyone else is a bunch of idiots. And I don't hide my thoughts."

As if frightened, the other end of the phone was silent.After pouring out in one breath, I was out of breath.Bite your lips.I feel useless, I just feel extremely unwilling. "Why do you want to talk to me like this? You who originally blended into the group of people I despised." Someone asked you, right? — the voice slipped out like a sigh. "My parents, teachers, etc. please. You think I'm very pitiful, so I'm just so confused..." 'Sajiang, what's wrong with you? ' the voice was about to cry. "Answer me!" Sa Jiangzi yelled, almost whimpering.

"This is important! Why? Why must I be pitied?" ' Not pity.You misunderstood, Sa Jiangzi. ' Misunderstand.Misunderstand.Misunderstand. Is this even a misunderstanding? KYOKO is not its own fellow traveler.So what is the revolution that has taken place in me?Its value and significance are blurred even now.Now that I have realized it, how can I act as if there is no such thing at all? "When you called last time, Axiu was with me." She has no intention of letting go of the offensive.She wants to taste the last fun thoroughly and thoroughly.After she finished speaking, she found out.My long-cherished wish has finally come true today.

'what? ' "It started a long time ago. I'm dating Ashiu." 'Liar! ' Guihui's voice froze as if tense. "It's true." Sa Jiangzi replied.That's it?Is that the end? She still wants to hide it deeper and longer.I want to use a more suitable form to crush Guihui severely.She wants to hurt her, destroy her.As long as possible, as deeply as possible. "It's true. No one, whether it's you or anyone, will talk to me about men. Everyone thinks I'm not a man, and it's stupid to be polite to me." 'Erika she...'

The name of Masaki's wife.There was a lack of coolness in the viciousness that intimately called her. "She doesn't know." Sa Jiangzi replied. "Axiu did a great job. But that has nothing to do with me. Tell you, Guihui, Axiu has compared me to you several times and praised me high. I am extremely proud and happy as hell. I think I--" Isn't there a better way to say it? Obviously, I can't wait for this moment to come, but when things come to an end, I find myself unprepared, which makes people angry.Sucks. "I think I've won you, so I'm proud. Well, that's the kind of relationship I have with Axiu. ——I can't stand being looked down upon by you all the time."

'Shajiang!What are you talking about...' "Stupid, really." Confirming that Guihui's voice is full of anger, I feel very happy.You get mad like that. Sa Jiangzi hung up the phone.Long press the switch to cut off the power.He put his phone in his pocket and walked out with his eyes downcast.Even though he gritted his teeth and closed his lips tightly, the voice still escaped.Sound without content.Only moans, ahhh. Finally able to lose.she thinks.