Chapter 15 Chapter Thirteen

I went to work as usual, and I saw Chuan Otter standing there with an extremely rare displeasure on his face. "Good morning!..." I greeted him casually, but he grabbed me and said, "I want to ask you something." Then he pulled me to the corner. "What... what's wrong?" I opened my eyes wide in surprise. "I want to ask you something." Chuan Otter brought his face that seemed about to burst into tears in front of me, "What the hell did you do?" I didn't know what was going on, I kept blinking and shaking my head desperately.Chuan Otter let out a long breath, let go of me, and drooped his head listlessly.

"This morning, the head of the section suddenly ordered me to fire you today—and he hasn't given me any reason yet. What's the matter? Can you imagine why?" I shake my head.But, if I tell the truth, it will generally make sense.Probably because I sneaked into the "special business department" last night, right? Of course, I put everything in the house back where it belonged, even the pin, I didn't take it, I put it back.It's hard to see that anyone has been in there.But, other than that, I really can't think of any other reasons for being fired. "Is it true that you can't remember at all? Then you should talk to the head of the class. I will go with you too."

Chuan Otter's proposal was very grateful, but I still politely declined. On the second day of sneaking into the "Special Business Department", it was quickly announced that he was fired.This must be showing that I am getting closer to the truth. Maybe the enemy is already in a hurry.It seems that if I continue to work like this and continue to investigate Bian Qu at the same time, it is definitely not the best policy.It's better to just pretend to give up like this, and the enemy will relax their vigilance. While I was sorting things out, the head of the section called me over, saying that the former Minister of Finance wanted to see me.I feel a little nervous.

In a month and a half, I already knew the names and responsibilities of the employees like the back of my hand.Cai Qianjun is the head of the "Special Business Department". "Oh, what have you done?" Chuan Otter was more panicked than I was, and asked me non-stop. "I'll just go." I lightly pressed around my chest, walked out of the "First Business Department", and walked towards the fifth floor where the "Special Business Department" was located. Led by a woman who looked like a secretary, I walked into the minister's office.It was here last night that I found the long-lost pin.

Caiqianjun is an ordinary-looking man with a flat and expressionless face.Although he is close to retirement age, he still has a lot of hair, and basically there is no gray hair mixed in.Wearing a neat black suit. "It's our first time meeting, Shoko Matsui!..." Minister Caiqian put his hands behind his back, forced a smile, and said to me, "Why did you call me here, do you know?" I've heard that rather polite tone.He was the man who argued with Eiichiro Katsuta yesterday. "Well, maybe..." I stood still, looking into Cai Qianjun's eyes. "In that case, let's talk about it quickly!..."

He got up from his chair and drew the shades on the windows.The room suddenly became very dark, and at the same time, a large screen was lowered from the ceiling. "The 'Special Business Department' keeps the secrets of many customers. Therefore, unlike other floors, the anti-theft facilities here are very complete." He aimed the remote control in his hand at the projector on the table.Then I appeared on the screen, which was the video of me sneaking into this room last night. "Yes. After you sneaked in, I knew it right away. I happened to be in the monitoring room at that time. But when I knew that the thief who appeared on the monitor was you, I didn't plan to catch you Yes. Because, I am very interested in what you want to find."

"You know me?..." I felt incredible. When I asked, Zaizen nodded happily. "But, I've never talked to you. Can you even know the temporary workers you recruit here?" "No, I know your mother very well." "My mother?" "yes!……" Caiqian slightly tilted his mouth.Maybe he was smiling, but to me it was just a twitch of the muscles at the corners of his mouth. "You look a lot like Shen Jiang when you were young, whether it's the dimple, or the character that looks docile at first glance but is actually very strong inside..."

Zaizen stopped playing the video, and then began to move the projector next to him.An ancient monastery appeared on the screen.The black-and-white picture seems to be a very old video tape, and it has been covered with bruises. I, with fair skin and a hat with a wide brim, walked lightly past the gate of the temple... No, that's not me.That was my mother when I was young.Mother looked up at the blooming cherry blossoms and smiled happily. "This was more than 30 years ago, and you were not born yet. We met Shen Jiang on the way of travel. This is the video tape taken at that time." The former Minister of Finance said with emotion, "Seeing your appearance Afterwards, I couldn’t help but feel nostalgic. So, I dug out the videotape from the warehouse again and enjoyed it.”

If it was a video tape from 30 years ago, under normal circumstances, it would naturally be very different from the current one. However, my mother, who is as introverted as I am and has not a wide range of interests, has the same face on the screen as she did in her later years. time, there is no difference.Perhaps only the wrinkles at the corners of the eyes, there is a slight difference. "This... where is this?" I asked in disbelief. "Kyoto!..." "However, I heard from my mother that she had been working as a nurse in Wakayama before coming to this city. Why is it in Kyoto..."

"Well, your mother also knows how to go sightseeing!" said the former Minister of Finance with a strange smile on his face. "You said it was a tape from more than 30 years ago. Do you know when exactly?" "Hey, hey, I should be the one who asked the question!..." The former Minister of Finance said with a sneer, "Forget it, I'll tell you. Is it before I joined this company? It's been 32 years ?” "32 years ago..." I celebrated my 31st birthday in December last year.If you do the reverse calculation, you can know that my mother conceived me in the spring 32 years ago.If this video tape, as Zazen said, was filmed in the spring of 32 years ago, then, at exactly this time, my mother conceived me.

"What is the relationship between you and my mother?" At this unexpected time, I got unexpected inspiration.Perhaps, he will know something about my real father.As I thought about it, my heart was pounding. "What's the relationship? There's no relationship at all!... We just met in Kyoto, and in only one day, we filmed this video for Shen Jiang—it's just such a little friendship." The former Minister of Finance showed a wry smile and scratched the tip of his nose with his middle finger. "I fell in love with your mother at first sight. She matches the cherry blossoms in full bloom. No matter what, I want to keep a picture of her, so I stalked and begged hard, and finally I can help her Take a picture." "Do you like my mother because she can be used as a photography model?" I asked suddenly. "No... no. I like her because she is a woman. However, your mother already has a man who travels with her. So, I had to tell her that I wanted to take pictures of her, I really like her as a model." Saying this, Zaizen suddenly stopped playing the projector.The sound of the video tape turning stopped suddenly, and the surroundings were immersed in a frightening silence. "Who is that man who went on a trip with my mother...with my mother?" I asked excitedly. My intuition tells me that that mysterious man must be my biological father. What kind of person is the man my mother loves?I'd really like to know - oh, would like to know anyway.I involuntarily held my hands tightly.When I opened my fist, my palms were covered with sweat. "I want to advise you on one thing!..." In the dim room, the former Minister of Finance stared at the projector on the table, and replied, "Although I don't know what you are looking for, don't search here it is good!" Caiqian opened the drawer on the table and took out the pin that I knew well. "I'll return this to you. Be sure to keep the relics left by your mother. Oh, yes! This should also be returned to you." The former Minister of Cai opened the filing cabinet in the corner of the room and took out a pure white wedding dress from it.That wedding dress, torn to shreds and already appalling, must have been left to me by my mother. I snatched the wedding dress from his hand and hugged it tightly to my chest together with the brooch. "I've already returned it all to you. Well, forget everything!..." the former Minister of Finance said calmly. "Who are you? . . . " I cried, through tears, "how did you have these things? . . . Ah, you were a part of that, too. I won't let you go—I won't Let you off!... I can bear being attacked. Because I was also at fault, and let others take advantage of it. But, because of this, my lover died. No matter what, I can't Let it go. For him, I must put you..." "I'm doing it for you!..." The former Minister of Finance suddenly interrupted me.Changing his previous attitude, he said in a dignified tone, "Even if you go to the police, there is no evidence." "But, pins and wedding dresses..." "Those things belong to you, who can prove it? You can only bring shame on yourself. Forget it! It's best to forget everything, you have to do it!..." "Bastard, stop talking sarcastic here!..." I yelled excitedly. Caiqian changed his previous tone and said in a low voice: "We can hand you over to the police for illegal infiltration! The evidence is clearly recorded on the video tape." I had nothing to say, Zaizen's expression softened a little, and he opened the blackout curtain. "I believe you are not a stupid woman. We will never meet again, goodbye!  …" He pointed to the door with his right hand and let me out.I left the "Special Business Department" without answering anything.Although he was still a little unwilling, he had no choice but to leave here obediently. I returned to the familiar office.During this one and a half months, the colleagues who worked with me in the "First Business Department" were very busy today in order to complete the quota workload, and no one had spare time to take a look at me. "What did I tell you?" Chuan Otter was the only one who spoke to me, but I only answered him vaguely, and then started to organize things again. After I finished the remaining work and received the daily salary from the section manager, I left "Sansheng Company" without hesitation.While in the elevator, I looked at the salary and it was more than I expected. I went to the beauty salon, dyed my hair red, and bought a new suit.In this way, all the salaries of the ship were spent, but I didn't feel it was a pity. The next day, it took me more than 30 minutes to put on my makeup, put on my newly bought suit, and walked into the entertainment building opposite the "Sansheng Company". I took the elevator directly to the fifth floor and ran to the lounge in front of the toilet.As I thought, the office of "Sansheng Company" can be seen from the window.Directly opposite is the fifth floor - "Special Business Department".Although, with the blackout curtains drawn, it is impossible to see what the people inside the room are doing; however, people walking through the corridor can be seen clearly with the naked eye.It seems that it is very easy to check the people in and out of the "special business department". The lounge on the fifth floor is next to the game center, and there are a lot of young people bustling around during the day.Even sitting on a bench in the lounge all day is not so conspicuous. Since that day, I have been monitoring the office on the fifth floor of "Sansheng Company".I recorded all the visits in my notebook without omission.From the time the entertainment building opens to the time it closes—except for bathroom time, I never leave it.For food, I bought bread and coffee from the convenience store.What is the significance of these things I did - although I don't even know this, but now, I can only do such a little thing. Five days have passed since the monitoring started, maybe it's because of the difference between me and the people around me?Intermittently, young people began to cast strange glances at me.If I were younger and more beautiful, maybe they would talk to me and move closer to me?However, they all just cast a slightly fearful look at me, and no one approached me actively. Bastard, is my expression really that ugly? At noon on the seventh day—I was chewing bread and looking across the way through a small telescope. "Auntie, are you a policeman?..." Suddenly a little boy spoke to me. When I looked up, there was a pimple-ridden teenager standing eating a chocolate bar.Short hair, but dyed golden yellow, looks a little bad, but the face still retains a youthful atmosphere, which is quite attractive. "Who are you spying on? You've been here lately!..." Maybe he likes sports very much and has a strong body, but the words that come out of his pierced mouth still look very childish.This disproportionate appearance gave people a very strange feeling. "There have been many rumors about you between us." I originally wanted to try my best not to attract too much attention, but it's normal for others to have doubts if I only do this one thing in a week.Lurking here, it is estimated that it will end soon. "What, I'm not a policeman!..." I puffed out my chest, playing a very strong woman. At this time, what kind of attitude will Risako adopt?I tried desperately to hide my unease, imagining myself as Risako, weaving the right words.My different attire than usual also began to work, allowing me to successfully adopt the current attitude without being so awkward. "You little kid, why are you wandering here in broad daylight? Are you still a high school student?" "It's really nosy. I dropped out of school in July. Can't I have fun? I have to work soon. Why do you want you, an aunt, to meddle in my affairs here?" He wore baggy trousers with several pockets, from which he took out a box of chocolate bars and put another one in his mouth as if he were smoking a cigarette.I saw his triumphant behavior and felt that he was very cute. "So, what are you doing? Auntie, are you a policeman? Is there any case in the building next door?" He said, chewing a chocolate bar with his big teeth, "It's not appropriate Well, if you really aren't a cop." "Ah, what?..." I was so asked that I didn't know how to answer.Seeing that I had nothing to answer, the boy guessed wildly and started chattering nonsense. "Is that so... Auntie, have you been fired? That's why you have free time to wander around every day. Did I guess it?" I shrugged my shoulders and replied, "Well, that's exactly what it looks like!  …" "But why did you focus on 'Sansheng Company'?...Ah, do you want to be discovered as an actor?" He rubbed his nose and laughed. "If you want to be an actress, I can introduce you. I have a friend who is a senior, and his girlfriend is an actress, Asami Aeda, do you know?" I basically don't watch TV, so I shook my head. "It's a pity. Maybe she's not that famous yet? . . . Just in time, her video is on sale. It's called "The Thirteenth Offering," a videotape, you know?" As the boy spoke, he took out another chocolate bar and put it in his mouth. "Of course you don't know, she's filming an AV!" "What, AV?" "It's an adult movie." "Of course I knew it was an adult movie." In order not to be underestimated by him, I continued to use a very strong attitude to talk to him, but before I knew it, I still felt a bit like being led by the nose by a teenager. "Next time, do you want to watch it together?..." The child said to me with a smile on his face, "This is a story about a man who tortured 13 beauties to death one by one." "do not bother me!……" I sat on the bench again, and moved my gaze to the building next to me again.I don't have time to chat with this brat any more. "It's the first time I've seen such an exciting scene of rape." From his mouth, Auntie said "rape" with a smile, and I started to hate him a little bit. "Is that kind of vulgar videotape worth your money?" I criticized him impatiently. "What?... There are still people who like this kind of movie so much that they actually buy it in group purchases. I'm not that fanatical, but I just asked them to copy it. The CD has been copied many times, so the picture is a bit blurry, but It's still very fascinating. It's even better on a hot summer night. Although it's quite popular, but I'm enough to watch it once. Guys who get erections by watching this are too perverted. " I ignored what the boy said, and looked at the office on the fifth floor with a small telescope. "Really. If you want to be an actress, I'll tell that friend." The boy smiled innocently and sat down beside me.Seeing that I ignored him, he leaned closer to me more and more. "I'm not interested in being an actress." "Then why are you peeking at 'Sansheng Company'? Ah... I see." He clapped his hands excitedly. "Auntie, is it your husband who flirts with women?" You beast, why did you think of coming here?This young man's words are really too jumpy. "Well, it seems that this time it must be right. Is that so? On the fifth floor of that building, there is the 'Special Business Department'! Could it be that you want to entrust the 'Special Business Department' to investigate this matter? But I couldn’t make up my mind, so I came here to observe its actual situation. Although it’s not a bad thing, let’s forget it. It seems that there will be random money. If it’s investigating prostitution, I’ll I can pick it up for you.” "What did you say?" My gaze shifted from the binoculars to the boy next to me. "Isn't the 'Sansheng Company' a production company? How could it even do business like investigating prostitution?" "What?...Don't you know anything about it?" The boy played with the ring on his lips with a surprised expression. "The 'Special Business Department' actually caters to individual customers and undertakes the business of videotape shooting." "I know these. Isn't it just shooting and editing wedding ceremonies, children's sports games, or videotapes of growing up?" I shook my head strangely. "Originally these were the main businesses. But now, home cameras are very popular. For this little thing, many people no longer spend a lot of money. They can find professional people to do it, and they can easily Is it easy to shoot and edit? For recent customers, if you want to entrust the 'special business department' to do something, it must be something that is difficult to shoot by yourself." "It's hard for me to take good pictures?" I tilted my head, wondering what it meant. "So, let's say investigate the prostitution thing." The little kid answered me as he walked around. "Nowadays, images can be easily processed using a computer, and photos are no longer of such high value as evidence. Even if you took a photo of your husband being promiscuous and showed it to him, he would say ' You bastard, this is a composite'. If it is made into a video, it will be more believable. Most of the commissioned 'Special Business Department' to shoot is this kind of investigation video, right?" "How do you know these things?" I looked surprised. "Everyone knows. These rumors are widely spread!... I have some friends who earn some pocket money by doing work with an uncle who holds an important position in the company to assist in communication, because of the 'special business department' The investigation revealed the matter." Listening to what the boy said, I remembered what the former head of the "Special Project Department" said. "The 'Special Business Department' keeps many secrets of customers. The people who visited the fifth floor were all worried and flustered. Maybe they all have secrets that they don't want to disclose to the public?" "In addition to investigating the matter of promiscuity, I also..." "Wait a minute!..." I blocked the boy's words.Holding the binoculars in his hand, he cast his gaze out the window. In the corridor on the fifth floor, a familiar man was walking slowly.According to a certain rhythm, the left shoulder goes up and down.Maybe something is wrong with the right foot?His back-to-back white hair was glossy. It must be the man in the car following me. I looked through binoculars and confirmed the appearance of the man several times.There was something that looked like an envelope under his arm.He looked at the small package from time to time, and stepped into the elevator. "Sorry, goodbye!..." I was about to stand up from the bench when the boy grabbed my arm firmly. "What are you doing here?..." "Are you trying to follow the man who just entered the elevator? If you go downstairs in the usual way, you will definitely miss it. Come with me quickly!  …" The boy pulled me hard and ran. "Go this way, where are you going? That's the roof..." I asked in surprise. "My motorcycle is in the rooftop parking lot. Hurry up!  …" As if I had been kidnapped, my arms were pulled and I ran towards the roof.In the basket of the teenager's straddle motorcycle, there were 5 boxes of chocolate bars.He straddled the motorcycle and threw me a helmet. "Sit behind me and grab me hard. You can close your eyes." I sat on it as he said, and suddenly heard a loud engine sound, and in the next moment, the motorcycle was already galloping out.The strong wind was about to blow me down, so I quickly hugged his waist tightly. "It's already here, and I haven't introduced myself yet. My name is Kakuro Kishino. How about you, Auntie?" I was so engrossed in keeping myself from falling that I had no time to answer. "It's here, the timing is just right!..." The wheels creaked and the motorcycle finally stopped. When I opened my eyes, I found that I was right in front of "Sansheng Company".The middle-aged man just came out sneakily and hunchbacked. "What should I do with that guy? Catch him and beat him up, or follow him?" "Come here, thank you!" I took off the helmet and gave it back to him, and got off the motorcycle.The man had left the building quickly and entered the post office three houses away. "Hey, don't bring such a thing. I've helped you up to this point, and you just say 'bye, goodbye', that's not going to work!..." "But, I didn't come out to play!..." I shook my head helplessly. "I know!... It's work? Auntie, you are actually a detective or something, right? I have dreamed of doing such a job since I was a child. Then, let me help you a little bit!" Bastard, what are you talking about dreaming of since childhood, I think he is still a child now.I threw him away, trying to catch up with the middle-aged man in front. Just then, I saw Chuan Otter walking towards me.Oops! ... I returned to the boy again, snatched the helmet that had been returned to him, and put it on my head. "What's the matter? Changed your mind?" the boy said with a playful smile on his face. "Well, can you help me with something else?" "No problem! Sit up quickly!..." The boy started the engine with a "bang" and started the motorcycle. "Please, be a little quieter! ... Can you walk slowly? This is too eye-catching." "Ah, this is not good!..." He scratched his head and shrugged slightly. The motorcycle stopped in front of the post office, and I looked inside wearing a helmet. The middle-aged man was taking out a small parcel-like thing from his personal mailbox. He looked around in a panic, closed the door of the mailbox, walked towards the door with a package the size of a bento box in his arms.I hurriedly sat on the motorcycle and hid behind the boy. As soon as the man walked out of the post office, he quickly opened the small package and took out the contents.All I saw was a red paper bag with popular illustrations printed on it.But unfortunately, I can't confirm what the innermost content is.The man peeped at the contents of the paper bag and smiled with satisfaction. The man threw the torn wrapping paper into an empty can on the side of the road, and walked again.He tucked the letter under his armpit, put the red paper bag in his right hand for a while, put it in his left hand for a while, and put it back in his right hand for a while... He repeated this several times, and looked at the contents from time to time, and then revealed A smug smile. "I always feel something is wrong, I just keep laughing there!..." "Ah, turn right." "understood." The man entered a family restaurant.We have been following him like this, but his heart doesn't seem to be here, and he doesn't seem to notice us at all. "What should I do?..." When the motorcycle stopped in front of the family restaurant, the delinquent boy turned his head and looked at me and asked. I have decided.Now that we have reached this point, we can only go in. "Then go in!..." Hearing what I said, the boy whistled and said, "It happens that I'm hungry too." He got off the motorcycle with a smile. "Although this is the case, I don't have any money. I want a treat from you, Auntie!..." "Don't call me auntie anymore, I have a name." I said dissatisfied. "But, I don't know yet." I told him my real name and pushed open the door of the restaurant. "Xiaoxiang, treat yourself!..." I could only think he was joking, but he still pouted and nodded reluctantly. The middle-aged man sat down at the table farthest from the window.It was lunch time, so the shop was very noisy.We sat by the window far away from the man and watched him furtively. The waiter came over quickly.I ordered a cup of coffee, and the teenager ordered a hamburger set and a chocolate ice cream.As soon as I confirmed the menu, I noticed a chocolate bar inserted on top of the chocolate parfait. "Little Xiangzi, what do you really want to know about that man?" He drank the glass of water that was served in one gulp and asked, "First of all... oh, it's that man, the one he's holding in his hand. The envelope, and the contents of the paper bag?" "What, what are you talking about?" The boy laughed. "It's nothing, I'll let you see what's inside soon." "What do you want to do?" "Just watch it!" The boy patted his chest, and ran out of the restaurant in an instant.What on earth is he going to do? ... I was sweating, but I could only watch the development of things. In less than 10 minutes, the boy ran back.I saw what he was holding in front of his feet, and I understood.It was the same envelope and paper bag as the middle-aged man was holding.The size is basically the same as that of men. The boy walked towards the middle-aged man's seat like that, and when he was about to get close, he quickly exchanged the two things.It's not a good thing, but it's really amazing, superb technology. "Successful, successful!..." The boy smiled and returned to my side, "Hurry up, run away before he finds out that the bag has been dropped!..." "escape?!……" I was led by the boy and ran out of the restaurant.He was completely led by the nose. "It's over, I finally got a lunch, and I can't eat it." He said naively. "Where did you get the exact same paper bag?" "The envelope is at the post office, and the paper bag is at the stationery counter in the entertainment building. The things painted on the paper bag, though not exactly the same, look very similar at first glance. I also brought the receipt and returned the money to me! … " "What did you put in there?" "Inside each, there are two empty boxes of chocolate bars. They are about the same size." I see.I took a look at the basket of the motorcycle and the number of boxes is indeed less. "But, does this count as a thief?" "After we see what's inside, why don't we quickly change it back? When the man finds out that something is wrong and looks around, he has already been unknowingly swapped. At that time, we just have to hold back our laughter and pretend to be confused. That's it. Quick, look what's in there." Urged by him, I looked at the contents of the paper bag. "Sachiko!..." The name is engraved in pink POP fat font on the white packaging with red lace.I took that thing out of the bag. "Hey, hey, take it easy, the bag is about to burst." What came out was a video tape.The front and back are blank, nothing is printed, just "SACHIKO" is written on the back. I took the videotape out of the box.It's just a non-surprising, commonplace videotape with a sticker that says "SACHIKO". "What, this is..." As I spoke, I opened the envelope.The paste needs to be peeled off carefully, so it must be done slowly. Inside is also a video tape.It is also packed in a white box with "Shoko Matsui Bound Edition 4" printed on the back. "Why is my name..." I was taken aback. "Ah, it's broken. It seems to be discovered. Xiaoxiang, hide it. That man came out of the store..." I was pinned down by the boy, and I hid behind the motorcycle.The middle-aged man's face was ashen, he walked out of the meal, and returned back along the way he came. "What should I do? Do you want to return it to that guy?" I silently shook my head. You can't just give it back to him.Before you know what is recorded in the video tape, you must not let go. We kept a longer distance from the man than before, and we followed him quietly.The man panicked and hurriedly scanned the side of the road, walking on the road leading to "Sansheng Company", he looked up at the building, as if he was thinking about whether to go in, after hesitating for a while, he finally walked again dejectedly. back.That kind of depression is really extraordinary. "What is it? This video tape." The boy asked me curiously.Although I have roughly figured out what it is, I still can't tell him honestly. The man got on the bus and got off at the fifth stop.From there, he walked about 10 minutes into a large apartment building, checked his mail, and got into the elevator.On the box where the man took the letter, the words "Otsuki Keisuke" were pasted. At this point, you can no longer follow up, and the tracking ends here. "If that's the case, we've completely figured out that person's name." The boy rubbed his nose contentedly. "Thank you very much today, I really want to thank you." I expressed my thanks to the boy, but he scratched his head in embarrassment and said to me with a smile: "Isn't that just how I spend my time? ... But Xiaoxiang, I think you are very good. If you have If you have any difficulties, please contact me. This is my phone number..." As he said this, he handed me a piece of Yu Tiao, and with a strong engine sound, he disappeared into the distance in an instant. "However, Xiaoxiang, I think you are fine." The boy's words seemed to blow into my heart like a gust of warm wind. I went back to the apartment and quickly inserted the videotape written "Shoko Matsui·Bound Volume 4" into the projector. I appeared on the screen, drying the quilt on the balcony in the morning.In the lower right corner of the screen, the date and time written were about a month ago. Next, here's me out of the apartment, on my bike.How was this filmed?The camera has been following me.Could it be that some kind of telescope was installed on top of the tall building? The videotape shows my daily life for the last month.Although edited for up to 30 minutes, my life, it seems, is not much fun. After thinking about it, I put on another video tape - "SACHIKO". 我摁下了播放键，画面上的“SACHIKO”字样，慢慢地占据了整个屏幕，之后，很快又出现了一个女子。 与刚才的那盘录像带不同，这次这盘录像带，对我的冲击非常之大。在那个熟悉的、黑暗的地方，穿着婚纱、横躺在那里的女子——啊，那就是我。 或许是用家庭使用的摄像机拍摄的吧？画面质量并不是很好。但是，虽然是在很远的地方，秘密拍摄的录像带，也可以清晰地辨认出，画面上的人物是谁。 背景音乐开始响了起来，是枯燥乏味的廉价音乐，我躺在画面的中央，开始像虫子一样蠕动起来。厚厚的粉底将我脸部的阴影，全部掩盖了起来，很难看得出我的表情是什么样的。 拍摄的角度并没有改变，焦距虽然多少有些变化，但一直都是从屋子里面，向门口这边的方向拍摄。 我的嘴被胶带纸堵着，而且，手腕和脚腕也被很粗的、麻绳一样的东西捆绑着。虽然我拼命地挣扎着，也想要将胶带纸扯掉，但并不可能那么简单地做到。 不知不觉之间，我看着录像带中的我，开始使劲儿咬着自己的大拇指。 不久，传来一阵吱吱嘎嘎的响声，门被打开了。两个蒙着面的男子，走到了我的身边。 我的头开始剧烈地疼痛，那些不堪回首的记忆，全都鲜明地浮现在了脑际。我无法正视。我真想快点关掉电视的开关。 但是，也有另外一个声音，在跟我说：“看下去！……” 我必须战胜恐惧。为了将不堪回首的往事挥去，我必须接受这盘录像带的煎熬。 一个胖男人伏在我的身上，将我的婚纱撕破了，摄像机切换了镜头。 难道是那个皮肤白净的瘦男人，用手里的摄像机拍摄的镜头？或许是因为我的身体在扭动吧？摄像机不停地摇晃着向上面提升。 摄像机的位置，终于固定了下来，我的胸部从婚纱的掩盖下，一下子暴露了出来。 “啊呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀！啊呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀！啊呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀！……” 我的忍耐程度已经到了极限。我一直极力地控制着自己，不发出奇怪的声音来，但这时却大声地叫了起来。 “啊呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀！啊呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀！啊呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀！……” 我真的只剩下一个人了，我什么都失去了。当时的事情，就像是发生在现在的一样，将我整个儿的身体捆缚了起来。 我太迟纯了，直到现在，我一直都太迟钝了。难道是各种事情，一起向我涌来，我的情感已经麻木了？ 这也正常吧！……我必须将那些充满泥泞的、沾满黑色的情感，全都排挤出去。 “啊呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀！啊呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀！啊呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀呀！……” 这里虽说不是什么宜人的公寓，但是，隔音效果还是很好的。即便是我大声叫嚷，也不会打扰到别人。再说，即便是有别的居住者，听到了我怪异的声音，估计也不会有人过来一看究竟吧？ 为了将所有的愤懑都排出体外，我花了足够的时间。当我意识到的时候，我正在毫无光线的、昏暗的屋子里面，就像初生的婴儿一样，蜷缩着身子躺着。我想要坐起身来的时候，后脑勺和膀颈处传来隐隐的疼痛。 我看看手表，已是凌晨12点了。气温并没有那么髙，但是，我却全身大汗淋漓。 我扶着墙壁站了起来，迈着跌跌撞撞的脚步，走向冰箱，拿出一盒儿牛奶，倒进喉咙里一饮而尽。 我累到了极点，但我似乎感觉到心底有一丝光亮。似乎是摆脱了什么东西的困扰。 我擦拭掉残留在嘴角的牛奶，一只手拿起电视的遥控器，缓缓地对准了电视。 不能再逃避了，必须将一切都调查明白。线索就在这盘录像带之中。 我静静地摁下了播放键，摁键的手指再也没有发抖。