Chapter 4 Chapter two

A month ago, I was thinking about proposing.I seldom use my brain, but this time I really racked my brains.After a few rounds of searching, I finally designed this set of lines that was almost perfect, and I was full of confidence. Everything should be going according to plan.At least, I haven't made any mistakes yet.However, the western restaurant, which had been reserved three weeks ago, closed without even saying hello—this was quite beyond my expectation. This morning, I rescued an old man who accidentally slipped and slipped into the sea.At that time, the wedding ring that had already been prepared was washed away by the sea.

The old man was concentrating on fishing.He caught a big guy, and he was a little carried away with joy. As a result, he was careless for a while, and fell into the sea with a "plop".He gave me the six-line fish he just caught to express his gratitude, but I don't know anything about eating fish, so it's useless to give it to me. Initially, I wanted to ask him to pay for my missing wedding ring.However, as soon as I saw this kind old man bowing and apologizing, I was at a loss for words. Usually, I am straightforward and decisive, but at this time, why can't I be hardened? ...

Oh, really, since I was a child, my personality has not changed. At one point I wanted to change my plans.However, there seems to be an invisible force that makes me unable to help myself.Perhaps, it was the gods who were advising me: "Your plan should be postponed." However, if you give up today, you don't know when you will have to wait until the next time.I'm afraid I won't be able to make up my mind. Both the Italian restaurant and the wedding ring were ruined.However, these external conditions should not affect her answer.In all kinds of troubles, I finally made up my mind and proposed as scheduled according to the original plan.

"Ah, marry me!..." I said while eating the dinner Xiangzi made, these words changed our destiny. Originally, I was afraid that such an abrupt marriage proposal would suddenly scare her, so I thought about it a lot.However, in a moment of impatience, I said this sentence very abruptly. Xiangzi stopped her hand while eating, and she looked at me with wide eyes, like a French doll. I waited for her to speak.However, Xiangzi just kept staring at me—the time around her seemed to freeze, and she sat there like a statue with a "plop". I scratched my scalp and looked down at the spaghetti on the table.My mouth was dry, and the noodles in my mouth were tasteless.

"You haven't considered it yet, have you?" I said helplessly. The pasta was neither soft nor hard. I swallowed a big mouthful of pasta and looked at Xiangzi's face.Xiangzi put down the fork suddenly, wiped the corner of his mouth, and slowly moved his face closer.Her lips were murmuring, not knowing what to say. "Huh? What?..." I was about to ask, at this moment, a teardrop fell from my eyes and fell onto the table with a "click". I looked up and saw Xiangzi frowning, her expression was like that of a newborn baby, and suddenly she began to sob pitifully.

"Fool!..." I smiled and wiped her eyes with my hands. "But...but..." Xiangzi was sobbing like a child. That day, I lived in Xiangzi's apartment.Her bed, two people sleep, although it is a bit cramped, but I feel satisfied, because even in my own bed, I have never slept so soundly. Xiangzi's quilt has a special smell, making love on it always makes me extremely excited, and after intercourse, I can comfortably fall into a deep sleep. "Mr. U!..." The whisper in my ear made me wake up suddenly.I opened my eyes and saw Xiangzi looking at me pitifully.

I stroked her shoulders and twisted her neck slightly: "Huh?..." "Are you awake? ... Dreaming?" "Really?..." I patted my head, feeling blank in my brain. "About the matter of getting married," Xiangzi asked hesitantly, "...are...are you serious?" "Ah? Of course I'm serious!..." I lifted my upper body slightly, stretched my back vigorously, and suddenly woke up. "If you are joking with me, that would be too much!..." Xiangzi suddenly said to me seriously. "Are you kidding me? How is it possible? All this time, all this time... I've been very distressed, I don't know how to speak, I've always wanted to marry you!..." I said with a smile on my face.

"Why?..." Xiangzi's reaction was beyond my expectation, and I looked at her in surprise. "Oh, what's the matter? I thought you would be very happy!..." I looked at Xiangzi with a face full of surprise and asked, "What's the matter?...I know, I never said before that I want to marry you , caught you off guard... But, don't you hate getting married?" "It's not what you said, I just want to hear your reasons. Isn't it important? I want to understand why you want to marry me?" she asked incredulously. I sighed.Alas, she is like this sometimes, she likes to dig into corners.I don't dislike her at all.In any case, I like Xiangzi more than those mentally handicapped girls who are dazzled by the atmosphere of the marriage proposal.

However, after all, I never thought that she would ask me at this time: "Why do you want to get married?" I hesitated and confessed my true thoughts. "Xiangzi, because I love you!..." "This reason is untenable. Before you met me, didn't you like many girls? But you didn't marry them!...So, why did you marry me?" Xiangzi insisted insisted on asking. "Because, I think being with you will make me happy for the rest of my life." I wiped my nose vigorously. "No, no...that's not what I meant. I must be with you, Xiangzi!..." I suddenly shouted, "Maybe you don't believe what I say, but I know that I can't live without you! ..." I threw my arms around Xiangzi and yelled excitedly at her, "Xiangzi, you are right. I have dated a few girls before. Sometimes I also wondered indifferently whether I want to be with this girl. The girl got married. But anyway, at that time I just wanted to go with the flow. Because everyone around me was married one by one, so I should have thought at the time, don’t hold on like this.” I smiled wryly I whispered to her, "Before I met you, I was not particularly anxious. I think that the matter of marriage will be settled sooner or later. No matter what, I want to be with you. I just want to marry you ——Ah, only looking at you made me think this way for the first time.”

Normally, I would never be able to say these words - it sounds so nasty.However, only by telling Xiangzi what is in her heart can she understand my feelings. "Is there any difference between me and the girl you dated before?" Xiangzi suddenly asked me curiously. "Well...it can't be explained clearly in one or two sentences." I smiled and shook my head. "So, let me ask you another question: what do you like about me?" "What's wrong with you today? You always grab me." I suddenly looked at Xiangzi curiously. Hearing what I said, her shoulders shook slightly.

"For a woman, getting married is a major event that affects her life!..." Xiangzi smiled and shook his head. "It's the same for men." "I just want to ask you this, what do you like about me?" "Your big eyes are like a doll. The cute little wine writing on one cheek, the way you greet the flowers and plants on the side of the road, and no matter what you do, you are dull and stupid... " "What, you?...Are you mocking me?" Xiangzi suddenly became annoyed. "No way!...Although you always look silly, you have been working hard all the time!...Xiangzi, I love you the most!..." I smiled and bowed my head close to her. Finally, a smile appeared on Xiangzi's face. "By the way, on this romantic proposal night, there are still cake crumbs around the corner of your mouth, what's the point?" "Huh?..." He covered his mouth in a panic. "Idiot, I'm lying to you! I like the way you believe in everything you say, I like it better." I stuck out my tongue and made a face.Yes, I am not lying. "It's so nasty." She lowered her eyes and thumped my back hard. "Thank you! . . . " she said suddenly. "I'm so happy, Mr. U!..." "Then you promised me?" I pushed back the quilt and sat up, sticking close to Xiangzi. "Of course I agree!... What are you thinking? Do you think I will refuse your marriage proposal?" "No, no, of course not..." I'm deceiving myself on purpose.Actually, I'm not confident. Although we've been dating for three months, I'm still not sure whether Xiangzi loves me or not.I want to prove what Xiangzi really thinks—this is the main reason that drives me to propose to her. Xiangzi is not good at speaking, and she doesn't like to be sociable-in any case, she always likes to close herself up.However, in front of me, Xiangzi always showed a cheerful and lively appearance.It seemed that she was the only one who could open up to me. However, sometimes I suddenly feel that her heart seems to fly to an extremely distant world. When chatting with me, Xiangzi certainly enjoyed it very much.However, why is only her heart attracted to another, completely different world?Until now, this feeling of loneliness and uneasiness still lingers in Xiangzi's heart from time to time. Perhaps, Xiangzi has some big worries in his heart. "Would you really promise someone like me?" "Hate it! This time, how did you become timid?" He smiled brightly.However, for some reason, the inexplicable emotion hidden in the depths of her pupils made me worried. "Now, it's my turn to ask. What do you like about me?" I asked Xiangzi against her forehead. "I hate it, your expression is so scary!..." Xiangzi looked away coquettishly. "I want to hear you tell the truth." "What? Are you still drunk?" While saying this, Xiangzi put his index finger on his lower lip and fell into deep thought. "You have a lot of things that people like. If I had to name one, it would be the nose." "nose?……" "Yes, it's your big nose." She pressed my nose with her index finger. When it comes to appearance, in this world, I am really ordinary.Although he didn't grow into a crooked melon, he was by no means as handsome as a movie actor.In my extremely ordinary face, only the shape of the nose has any personality. My aquiline nose resembles my dad's, and all the women I've ever dated say my nose "gets in the way" when they kiss. "A man with a big nose has a big thing underneath. Even though that's the case, it's not always true." This was what a young lady said when my seniors took me to the red light district for the first time in college. "It's really enviable for someone who others have but lacks. You see, isn't my nose flat and flat? Therefore, I have always had low self-esteem since I was a child. Just like "Little Like the character Amy in The Woman, I even slept with my nose in the clip of the farm clothes.” "If you really like my nose, then my brother is also very suitable for you." I said jokingly. "Oh, yes, you are right. Besides, if you don't live with your parents-in-law, choose the eldest son, and you will take advantage of everything in the future." "It's too much, you!..." My arms wrapped around Zizi's neck, and I pressed her hard. He knocked his head on the pillow and kept begging for mercy. "I'm kidding, I'm just kidding!... Your brother, haven't I met him once? No matter how much you look alike, you brothers are not alone!... I guess he and Mr. U, you must be completely different!..." After all this lingering, both of us were drenched in sweat.We got up from the bed together and wanted to drink something to moisten our throats. "Your brother has no contact with you at all?" Xiangzi asked suddenly, pouring mineral water into the glass slowly. "That's right!..." I opened the curtains and nodded in response. "How long has it been since your brother left?" "It has been more than ten months since June last year." As I spoke casually, I looked out the window and saw the cherry blossom trees shining under the streetlights.At this time, the cherry blossoms are half in bloom.By the end of the week, it should be in full bloom. "Last year, around this time, my brother and I went to enjoy the cherry blossoms. I don't know where, but suddenly a lot of people came out, and there was a lot of noise, which is really surprising." "Just you two men going out?" "Yeah!..." I nodded in a matter of course. "It's too cold please." "I can't help it. Because at that time, I hadn't met you, Shoko, and my brother—he also just lost his girlfriend. Both of us like to drink. After get off work, we often hang out at the izakaya in front of the station. Meet up and drink until the sun shines. So it would be a shame not to enjoy a drink under the cherry trees during the cherry blossom season. We bought cans of beer at the convenience store and some simple snacks, so we went straight to the out." Come to think of it, this was also the last night that my brother and I drank together.Since that night, my brother has been alone, and I don't know where he went.He always went out in the middle of the night and came back less and less frequently.When asked about his brother, he always replied with a smile: "Recently, work has suddenly become busy." We are two brothers, we have been together for so many years, whether he is lying to me, I will be able to see right away.However, I don't want to delve into it.Because, for my brother who just lost love, I don't want to be as unrestrained as before. The number of times my brother did not go home became more and more. On the day when the weather forecast announced that Tokyo was entering the rainy season, my brother suddenly disappeared without a trace in front of me. "I want to invite my brother to come to our wedding ceremony." Having said that, I also realized this problem. "Where is that guy now? What are you doing?" "Aren't you worried about him?" "Of course I'm worried, all kinds of ominous things have been lingering in my mind. Did he get involved in some big trouble, or was in a traffic accident, lost his memory, or was taken away by aliens? Could it be that he was sucked into In the four-dimensional space?" As I was talking, I started joking, trying to break the dull atmosphere. "In this way, Mr. U, you like science fiction." Xiangzi asked me with a smile, "Do you believe in the existence of multiple universes?" "Qin?...Why are you suddenly talking about parallel worlds?" "Isn't that so?" Wang Xiang put his hand on my shoulder and said with a smile. "The world we live in is just one of countless parallel universes. There is another world beside us. It is similar to the real world, but it is different. Opposite it, there are also different worlds. world. Near this different world, there are other, still more different worlds..." "Hehe, there's no need to explain, I, a fan of science fiction, understand what you said." "If we were in another world, we might not know each other at all. Therefore, our meeting is the result of many, many accidental factors superimposed together." Why did Xiangzi suddenly start talking about this?I don't know much either. "Thinking about my life, it is full of "if" and "maybe". On the day of the college entrance examination, if I didn't sleep late, I would be able to successfully enter the ideal university. In that way, life may be It became brighter. I rejected the offer of a game software development company, and finally got a job in a large construction company, which also brought me a different life.” Xiangzi shook his head and sighed, “Speaking of which, if I enter My first choice university, I will leave this land to live; if I can work in a software development company, I won’t be laid off, and I must still work there now. If that’s the case, I won’t meet U It's yours. I think my choice is really good, and now, that's what I think in my heart." "Another Shoko who works in a software development company may meet a better man than me." I said with a smile. "Ah, is that right?... Something like that might happen. Alas, I made a wrong move after all." Xiangzi shook his head repeatedly with a regretful expression on his face. "Bastard, if you say it again, I'll beat you!..." I roared angrily, pretending to raise my hand. At this moment, Xiangzi's mobile phone next to his pillow rang, and the ringtone was "prohibited games".Xiangzi moved away from my back and grabbed the mobile phone.The moment she saw the screen, the corners of her mouth twitched slightly. "Hey, hello...ah, it's me." Xiangzi glanced at me and turned around.She did this, maybe because she didn't want me to hear the voice coming from the mobile phone. "I'm sorry, I'm already lying down. I'll call you tomorrow..." Xiangzi's complexion changed, he suddenly became nervous, and shook his head again and again, "No... no... no. It's not that... just I'm a little tired...Didn't I tell you before that I'm not free on Wednesday?...Well, ok...Sorry...bye." Xiangzi hung up the phone unceremoniously, and then tucked the mobile phone under his pocket. "Who is it?..." I asked casually. "Risako who works together." "Why did you suddenly call you at this time?" I asked with dissatisfaction. "It seems to be a little drunk. She has been complaining recently that I am estranged from her. If she knows that I am getting married, there will be a lot of trouble." "Really?..." I said, shaking my shoulders lightly.You bastard, Xiangzi is lying—after she answered the phone, she kept avoiding my eyes. "Hurry up, it's time to go to bed. Aren't you busy with work tomorrow?" Xiangzi slapped his palm, yawned and got under the quilt. "Good night, Mr. U!..." At this moment, she held my hand.The hand was cold and lifeless. "Mr. U!..." I looked up and saw Xiangzi staring at me intently. "I absolutely love you, absolutely, no one can compare to me." She may be sensitive to her appearance, and I have doubts about her in my heart. This time she did not avoid my sight, but just kept staring at me. "Once I have made up my mind, I am the kind of person who will go forward bravely and persist to the end. Maybe this kind of character will make people feel more and more paranoid." Xiangzi said to me suddenly. I smiled and hugged her tightly. "Oh, Mr. U, I love you very much." Xiangzi speaks without hypocrisy.Although I believed in her very much, there was always a kind of uneasiness condensed in my heart. After confirming that Xiangzi was in a deep sleep, I secretly reached out to her mobile phone.I know I can't do this, but no matter what, I can't help myself. I carefully checked her call log.The phone number you called just now should have records such as initials.I wrote down the phone number on a notepad, got off the bed and walked out. The sound of my closing the door is a bit loud, Xiangzi may wake up.However, when I can't sleep, I often go out to buy beer.She shouldn't be suspicious. As I came down the stairs from the public office, I took out my mobile phone and dialed the number I had just written down.Although it's past one o'clock in the middle of the night, I don't care about it. The other party probably wasn't asleep yet, because the phone rang twice and someone picked it up. The other party's voice was very rough, it was not a woman's voice.Although I was probably already mentally prepared, I was still shocked when I heard it. I stood there silent.For a while, only the other party's panting sound kept echoing in his ears. "Hello, hello?" The other party's voice sounded very unfriendly. "Sorry, I made the wrong number." As soon as I finished speaking, I ended the call immediately. The appointment with Xiangzi was always set on Wednesday, which was decided by Xiangzi.Because on Monday and Friday, she said that she was going to learn cooking, so even if she called, she couldn't be reached. ... Xiangzi once explained it this way. "Didn't I tell you before that I don't have time on Wednesday?" Xiangzi told the other party just now on the phone. "Maybe..." A sense of fear immediately passed through my brain, and I was panicked and afraid, and I didn't dare to think about it anymore. This evening, Xiangzi accepted my marriage proposal.However, I'm still not sure if she loves me. What is Xiangzi thinking?I have no idea at all.