Chapter 23 Chapter 21

After returning home after being hospitalized for a period of time, Xiao Zhong felt that his house was dark and old, as if it had grown old all of a sudden. After being discharged from Baifenghui Hospital, Xiao Zhong stood in front of the open-air iron ladder with his luggage in his hands and closed his eyes for a while.He could not muster the strength to go upstairs. The November wind was a bit chilly on my back. How many times can I climb this staircase in the future?Such a thought flashed through Xiao Zhong's mind.However, he has not had much time to immerse himself in sentimentality.The pain in the right side of the abdomen is coming and going.Tokunaga's words, "The metastasized tumor in the liver has grown larger", were stabbed in his chest like a poisonous needle.

Patients are always in a weak position, hurt by willful doctors, and even if their condition worsens, there is nothing they can do. Xiao Zhong exerted strength with both hands, stretched out his right foot and climbed up the stairs.As soon as he lifted his body like this, there was a burst of pain in the right side of his abdomen, which felt like a stick was poking out from the inside.He had to stand still, and then raised his left foot tremblingly, and then carefully changed to his right foot.With his elbows on his side, he walked up the stairs slowly as if practicing Tai Chi, and finally entered the house. , Pushing open the simple door made of plywood, various mail advertisements and letter paper fell out of the letter box and scattered all over the floor.Subscriptions to the newspaper had long since been closed, but there was nothing he could do about the mail.Walking into the house, as soon as he put down his luggage at the door, he rushed into the bedroom - really wanted to lie down early.

Lifting the quilt on the simple bed, a musty smell came out.As soon as he lay down, another pain came from his side.Xiao Zhong frowned, and pressed his stomach with both hands.Pain often occurred, which seemed to remind him repeatedly of the fact that the cancer had metastasized—I am here, you are doomed.It does not give you peace for a moment. It would be great if this pain disappeared.As long as the cancer can be cured, no matter how unfortunate it is.I don't know how many times I have longed for this.I really want to go back to the past when I was healthy. As long as this wish can be realized, I am willing to cut off my hands and feet.

In Xiao Zhong's mind, he couldn't tell whether it was fantasy or impulsive thoughts floating around.Are you really going to die?But isn't he still alive now?It is impossible to die after an hour, but you should still be alive tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow.But after a month, I don't know.The doctor at the Mitaka Medical Center said that I only had three months to live.It has been more than a month now, and there are still two months to live? What should I do if the pain gets worse and worse?Just rolling around all over the floor in this room?If this is really the case, there is no other way.Now I'm so tired that I don't even have the strength to fear.

The quilt gradually warmed up, and the pain in his side seemed to ease.Drowsiness sets in. It's not a bad thing to just close your eyes and never open them again.