Chapter 14 Counterclockwise: if you can not grow up

It's already 7 o'clock after finishing the company's affairs. I missed the dinner time, so let's go to the fast food restaurant I often go alone to solve it.She thought, closed the computer, took a sip, poured out the water in the glass, tidied up the desk briefly, locked the door and left. She is the last to leave almost every day, which seems to have become an established pattern, and it seems difficult for new employees to get used to it, but as time goes by, they are no longer so restrained.Mi Xiang is still wearing her favorite beige top today. She has never bought clothes of other colors since she was in middle school, maybe even earlier, except for formal clothes for certain occasions, but those are "handed down" by her father. "For her, she just acted as a hanger.

Evenings at the end of summer are still very attractive.She stopped at the entrance of the store, as if to confirm that through the glass window, there were not many people inside. At this time, almost no one would choose to eat out. "One serving," she paused, "Garlic and Spicy Bone Rice." "13 yuan." Mi Xiang took out the money from her bag and paid for it, and then chose a seat she liked, but there was a child sitting in the seat she usually sat in, and when she looked at it again, her heart seemed to be pulled by something. They came with their father, and there was an older brother or younger brother beside them. Because they were twins, they couldn't tell the difference. Even for their parents, this was not an easy matter.

After a while, the food was delivered, which was not bad. There were not many guests at this time, and the chefs could cook the food more slowly.Take out the chopsticks, very light metal texture, this is one of the reasons why Mi Xiang likes this place; there is also the non-glare light, which separates many separate spaces, just like in an office, it seems that I am really suitable for this place Such an environment, if it is like Xia Tian who indulges her freedom too much, then... She can't think of what the result will be. Such thoughts have never formed a cognition in her mind, because it is impossible.

There is a large transparent glass window in front of him, looking at the outside world so close to him, but he can't hear any voice from the other party.Mi Xiang deliberately tapped the porcelain tableware with her chopsticks, trying to test whether the passers-by who passed by the window could hear her, but it soon proved how stupid and hopeless her idea was. medicine.It's better to concentrate on eating, even though you're not at home, it's better not to be so rude.Thinking of the large dining table like a conference table at home, Mi Xiang's appetite suddenly seemed to be suppressed by something.Looking at the green chili and the red dried chili, they deeply stimulate a certain part of the body but... how should I put it, I just don’t want to eat my chopsticks, I’m hungry but I don’t have an appetite.

But she was still very hungry. She knew this very well, so she ate a few more mouthfuls, then took out a tissue from her bag and wiped her mouth.Looking back at the twin boys, how troublesome it would be to have another identical self in the world.Mi Xiang tidied up her clothes, then opened the door and went out. The car was parked not far away. The red a6 was very beautiful, but not so attractive. If this car is given to Xia Tian, ​​he must be able to run farther, right?But maybe he won't like this kind of car that can only drive softly on the road. What he needs is strength and speed, right?I heard from Aoi that he has traveled all over the country in recent years, but he is still alone.

It seems that he is always alone, just like himself, will he become two people one day? A touch of red in the dusk looks really discordant, but there are still many people who choose to like to disappear into the sunset in a flash.Mi Xiang raised her head and looked in the direction she was walking. It was a coincidence that the sky was burning red, but she seemed to be the only one who noticed this scene. Walking together and talking about irrelevant things. Maybe I'm not in the mood to care about these things that don't hurt or itch to me.The first teaching I got as a girl is to concentrate on the things in front of me and not to be distracted by tediousness.At any time, you must keep a clear head, even when you are angry, you must count to 30 before speaking. This method is very practical and can avoid a lot of unnecessary friction.As people grow older, the relationship between people becomes more harmonious, but what is buried under this, no one can predict.

Although it was just written down as a promise at that time, but today, I can understand a little bit. The car is driving on a straight road, and the season is still very warm.It was daylight, and the road conditions were good, at least it wasn't congested, but occasionally I would stay a few seconds longer at intersections, so I didn't have to rush home for dinner, so it wasn't a big deal. If you don’t have to go to work or go home every day, you can follow this road—it doesn’t matter if you change to another road. This is not the point of the matter. If you keep driving, where can you go?Mi Xiang took off the GPS and looked at it. Go east, go east again, and you can reach Maicheng after passing through two cities.Although the land we live in is much more prosperous than Maicheng, and the population is several times larger, but we can't feel too much warmth, the kind of warmth that comes from the hearts of people, not absorbed and then emitted by the asphalt road. The kind of naked heat.

"If the assumption is not true, then everything after that is useless." Thinking of her father's words, Mi Xiang subconsciously bit her lips.In her impression, her father was an image of few words. If he spoke, it must be a useful instruction or an order that had to be carried out.She is like this, and the memories left by her since she was a child are very real. When I got home, as expected, my parents were sitting on the sofa watching TV. As for what was playing, it didn’t matter that much, they just didn’t want to let themselves be surrounded by so much silence. "Working overtime again?" After saying hello, the father asked.

"Not really." "What's that?" He continued to ask. "I read a few more materials after get off work, and there is a big order recently." Mi Xiang replied. Any carefully woven lies are so vulnerable in front of him, just like a sentence he himself said, some things are watertight in the eyes of ordinary people, but after careful reasoning and analysis, they will be full of loopholes.So to be honest, this can be regarded as one of her weaknesses. "Then why don't you finish it during working hours," he took a sip from the teacup in front of him.

In this season of heat, he is not afraid of being scalded, as it always seems to be. "Working overtime is stupid. You are not an employee, so there is no need for it. All you have to do is better allocate other people's time and make better decisions." "But Dad, I haven't taken the position of general manager yet." "You don't want to come to your own company. What can you do? You can only start from the same starting line as others. But you should be lucky, you are much better than when I started out!" He looked away from his daughter Kai, and then continued, "If there are no accidents, I plan to completely dismiss my position in the company after a while. Time is not forgiving, no matter how reluctant I am, I can't turn its wheels."

"If there are no accidents." She repeated mechanically, then put on her slippers and went upstairs to her bedroom.I vaguely heard my mother complaining in a low voice: "She is still so young, why do you always mention these things, and say things like 'no accident'..." He never gave a clear reply to his mother's words, and never refuted them. It was like a gust of wind passing by his ears, which could not reach his heart. Did all men do this after success?Mi Xiang thought about it, but she couldn't get the answer now, and the future is still very long. Whether she wants to or not, it's the same thing as her father not being able to hide from old age. He took off his clothes one by one, first the skirt, then the underwear, and after putting on his pajamas, he lay down on the soft bed for a while.The ceiling is carefully made of log materials, which looks so soft under the fine warm-colored light. She turned sideways and looked at the surroundings almost every night, which was the same as when she left here to study in Maicheng a few years ago. Compared to, there is no big difference, but more traces of years have been infiltrated in the color, and there are more things that mature women need to use, and there are documents or professional books needed for work, which have not been deliberately preserved. Old things, because "excessive nostalgia will prevent you from success". Even though he is about to reach the age of Er Shun, he still likes to educate people so much. Maybe it has something to do with his leadership career in the first half of his life?Now he doesn't need to worry too much about the company's affairs, everything is running in an orderly manner under the team and system he leads.According to his original conception, Mi Xiang should have been trained under his own staff early on, starting as an assistant, and at this time he can almost be able to take charge of himself.However, there are always those things that cannot be developed according to people's subjectivity. Going out alone is not bad for growing up. Probably this is one of the reasons why her father didn't stop her. Forget it, I still don't want to.She sat up slowly, and then stepped into the bathroom with her slippers.The temperature of the water is just right, and it leaks softly from the hood. In this house, almost everything is carefully selected.She took off her pajamas and hung them on the hooks on the wall.Exhausted, taking a bath every day is what she looks forward to the most. Not only can she relax physically, but also the sound of running water in this quiet space can also take her to far away places, no matter where she is all good. Looking at myself in the mirror is not perfect, but at least it can satisfy me. Maybe it was because I was a boarding student in Maicheng in high school and didn't get enough nutrition, so compared to other parts of the body, the breasts are a little shriveled, soft, and the shape is not so good-looking. When she was just beginning to develop, she would always choose some loose clothes to wear to cover up her "weirdness". Over time, she understood something. Thinking about it, I laughed out loud unconsciously.Laughter mixed with the sound of running water collided back and forth in the isolated space of the bathroom.Only at this time can she laugh from the bottom of her heart, so that in the eyes of others, Mi Xiang seems to be a person who has a special way of speaking and never smiles. When she first joined the company, her colleagues always tried to make her laugh, but every time they were stunned by her "So that's the case", although it was a little embarrassing, it could still be regarded as a small episode in life Come and treasure it.It can't be put in a drawer, so put it in a soft corner of my heart, together with the memories about sunflower and wheat, and summer.It seems that she can cherish only these. In a few days, I have to go to Maicheng quietly. Although I am extremely reluctant, there is nothing I can do.No matter what price she paid, she was unwilling to get involved in such a troublesome matter. But facts are facts, and this cannot be argued.Go after finishing this list. Some things are better resolved earlier. If you procrastinate, it will be of no benefit to anyone. After simply applying some body wash, I rinsed it off with water, and my skin was slippery, as if the foam hadn't been rinsed off.Wipe off the excess moisture on the body, put on the pajamas again, wrap the hair in a towel, and look like a nobleman who fled from an Arab country. Nobility?Probably also hate the big red tide before sunset. 9 o'clock, not too late, maybe for someone like Maizi who likes the night, it's just afternoon.Lying on the bed, she likes this position. Outside the window is the distant light, the light of the whole city, recalling the GPS that she saw when she went home, she thought about it, then ran to the balcony on the other side, and looked eastward hard.In summer, it would be nice if we didn't grow up.Only the words formed in the mind can be so clearly punctuated. The language barrier in childhood may accompany her for the rest of her life. Miller's worry is not unreasonable. After all, the person she will become must be looked up to. If you can not grow up.She whispered it again, but it was of no avail. In the face of time, you will find that the world has been infinitely shrunk.Mi Xiang remembered the globe she used in elementary school geography class. It was only the size of a goose egg, but it was rounder. It was covered with colorful colors, as if people in different colors were standing in different positions. The boys and girls in the class are always separated on the left and right sides with their own differences. A little sleepy, the night wind blows on the body which is only wrapped in a layer of cloth, it is very comfortable, but it should not be blown for too long, it will easily catch a cold.Her tonsils are slightly larger than the average person's, so every cold will spread to that sensitive part, and it is not uncommon to have a fever of 40 degrees. Even the best doctor my father could do was helpless. He often gave one arm an injection until it swelled up. Only through suffering can we understand what is good.These are not the exact words of my father. His preaching is always inextricably linked with the business world he has spent his entire life in. "Only when you have experienced failure can you redouble your desire for success." Wrong, the more details, the stricter the requirements. Back into the room, the heat flow wrapped her body tightly as if it was welcoming her.Warmth seeped in from every open pore and quickly spread to every corner, like the temperature difference between two different seasons.It's time to rest. There are still many things to do tomorrow. I can't be like the stars in the sky, twinkling and twinkling until dawn.That's not the life I should be living.She thought, and then shed the last of her disguise, embracing sleep in her birth position. The night is very late, and everything around is quiet. Occasionally, I can hear the chirping of cicadas. No matter how hard I struggle, it won't last long, right?Mi Xiang turned over, obviously very sleepy, but it was difficult to fall asleep, and counting sheep was of no help.I didn't drink coffee, not even tea, I only consumed 3 bottles of pure water in the office, and I didn't touch any refreshing substances.To make matters worse, my stomach gradually became hungry over time, and I had already forgotten about it. She sat up, and the shape of her body was reflected on the wall under the soft light.It's better to find some food, and sleep on an empty stomach is even more difficult to approach easily. The pajamas are made of silk, very comfortable to wear, touching the skin naked, as soft as a gentle embrace, no one gave her this feeling except her mother. Walking through the long corridor, the oil paintings hanging on the walls have lost their luster at night, like patches of rough skin appearing in inappropriate places.The refrigerator in the living room is usually full of drinks and wine, let's go to the kitchen, there may be bread for breakfast, whatever it is, as long as it can fill her stomach and let her sleep peacefully is enough. Bread and milk, she took enough, and tiptoed back to her room.The lights in the distance are still on. It is the same city, but the feelings it brings to people during the day and night are different. Perhaps the people who are busy during the day are asleep at this time, leaving behind those who need the night.If you say that, then you are an outlier, right?It is necessary to quickly integrate into sleep, as if only in this way can we not be isolated. Bite open the milk package with your teeth.The third tooth from the middle to the two sides looks like a carnivore’s. It is very sharp. When I was in school, I often used them to bite through the pages of the book. The thickest one can bite through dozens of pages, leaving only small scars , Mi Xiang likes to do this, just out of boredom. The taste of the bread is good, at least better than what I ate in the morning. It seems that this is the first time, the first time eating at home without restraint.She ate with great gulps, and the crumbs fell on the floor and onto the sheets.In a certain fairy tale, a little girl uses bread crumbs as a signpost and is eaten by a witch's crow. She can't remember what the final ending of that story was like, but all fairy tales are destined to have a particularly happy ending, aren't they?she asked herself, questioning with a period. Finally, my stomach was full, but the drowsiness disappeared along with the hunger.Looking out the window, she suddenly thought of the twin boys she saw in the evening.What would have happened had the sun not ruled the day and the moon ruled the night.She closed her eyes, imagining the scene of the sun and the moon shining together, but she couldn't find the direction. If you are sleepy, go to sleep. On such a night, no matter how much you think about it, it will not help. Just go wherever you go.Has Xia Tian's life never had any goals?Maybe there was, but he didn't want to say it. I took off my pajamas again, I don’t remember how many times this is the first time tonight, I seem to be able to clearly feel the bread crumbs falling on the sheets, and I can also feel the heat from my lips, very familiar, as if I used to be A part of my body had to be separated due to various reasons, and I embarked on a completely different life from then on.However, meeting again is not a bridge that can be seen in every story, but every kind of encounter will be vigorous. Fate forces them to have an intersection again, and what will happen next must be arranged. That's right, right, Bean.