Chapter 30 2005 Summer Solstice·End (2)

SIDE C Lixia When I came to Asakawa again, I had no impression.After returning to Muro County from Beijing, I seldom go to Asakawa again.The people in my hometown and my former classmates were all wondering why I, who was from Peking University, would go back to the countryside. I didn't even try to explain it, I just waited for time to dilute everything. So the days really passed on insipidly.I found a job in an ordinary way, met a new boy in an ordinary way, and talked about marriage with him in an ordinary way.It's just that she will never have the kind of feelings she once had for Fu Xiaosi.

Such feelings, a lifetime, only once. In that hot summer in Beijing, it was completely consumed. I won't think about a person like that again.I will never miss someone like that again.I will not worry about whether a person has eaten or worn warm socks in winter.And he won't be overwhelmed with nervousness because of his frown again.No more staying up all night to make work easier for one person. There will never be a time like that again. It's like there will never be that Lixia who used to be desperate for love. Sometimes I go to Asakawa from Muro County to do some business, and every time I finish my work, I will stay in Asakawa for a day, walk the familiar streets, and take a look at the familiar scenery.

Many times I will see Encounter, but I dare not call her.In memory, she is like a gorgeous swallowtail butterfly, soaring above the spring water in the valley.Most of the time, I watched her quietly, watching her waiting on the side of the road, watching her go shopping, watching her and Qingtian walk through the dusk street together, just like watching them many years ago. I always pretend to enjoy these ordinary happiness with her, pretending that we are still together. Even though we're not together anymore. I didn't tell her I was back.In her heart, she must have thought that I was in a place that no one knew.

There are only some bright details left in the memory, and they returned to my dreams in countless rainy nights. In those dreams, you are still wearing CK’s white T-shirt, you are still accidentally stained with oil on the lunch box, and you are still staring at me with a pair of foggy eyes with no expression on your face. In those dreams, you still sharpened a pencil and handed it to me silently from the front, you still took me over the high school wall, and you were still the little painter who seemed to be known only to me in the whole of China priest. In those dreams, you are still standing in front of the apartment door waiting for me to go downstairs in the heavy rain, still happily eating the desserts I brought from my hometown, still wearing thin clothes in winter and not afraid of the cold, still being with you Together, I made the same choice on the form of arts and sciences.

In those dreams, you still surround me with a coat in the heavy snow, you still smile at me and say good morning, no matter how tired your face is, you still go to school seriously to check the map for my whim and then Take me to a country I've never been to. But you in those dreams died long ago in the summer of 2003.Died on that summer day when even the sun would feel hot. When I stood at the gate of Asakawa No. 1 Middle School again, I suddenly remembered that you once lay on my lap and said to me, Lixia, when, let's go back to Asakawa to see those camphors. But now, among the people who were talking and looking at the camphor together, I am the only one left to return to the place I used to be.Xiao Si, did you know that many of the girls who walked out of the school were holding your albums, and you could even hear them talking about you, who were already deified.It's hard to imagine that an ordinary boy in the school will become a legend passed down from generation to generation of students.You must be very happy to hear it.And I used to be a girl who fell asleep while holding your painting while sitting in the tree of Asakawa No. Breathe the same air, walk the same way.

I even slightly thought of your rare smile at that moment, and almost cried in front of my husband who was about to get married. He is also very gentle. He is also very considerate. He also buys me medicine when I am sick. But he can never give me those colors you once gave me.Sometimes I feel that you are too selfish, you took me to see such a beautiful scenery, but you left halfway, and my future journey has never had any surprises that can surpass the past. I'm getting married tomorrow. Come to Asakawa today to choose accessories for decorating your home.When I passed by an oil painting store, I was surprised to find so many of your paintings.So much, so much, before you became famous, and after you became famous.All the paintings were hung on the wall one by one. I looked at them one by one, and the time passed slowly in front of my eyes. I seemed to watch your past years rushing past me.Bring out the shocking power of shaking the earth.Just like when I saw you for the first time.

I told my husband that these paintings were all done by my favorite artist in high school.So he smiled and said to me, as long as you like, we can hang all these paintings in our house. I said yes, only these paintings are worthy of decorating my youth. When I said this, it was as if the curtains were drawn suddenly in my heart at dusk, and everything went dark all of a sudden. I suddenly remembered the play we watched together when we were in college, it was "Romeo and Juliet", and a line in it was, the sky outside is bright, and our hearts are dark. The owner of that store also joked that I was so young, because now those who like these paintings are those girls in high school.I just smiled and didn't speak, because I was afraid that if I spoke, they would hear the sadness in my voice.

I asked my husband to help me choose the first one, and he pointed me to the one in the corner, saying he liked it very much.I looked up and saw that "Landscape That Never Appeared".When I went to pay, the one on the top was this "Landscape That Never Appeared".What flashed through my mind at that moment was the girl on the picture who bent down from heaven to kiss the boy, the girl's white clothes, and the boy's eyes as bright as stars.And, on that New Year's Eve night, you said to me by the window: Lixia, let's kiss. All the past, all the years, all the test papers exuding the fragrance of ink, all the wet boys playing basketball in the summer rainstorm, all the girls quietly carrying long English entries by the lake, all the blooming The phoenix flower at the end of summer, all those who left, all those who returned, all the brilliant poems, all the dim diaries, all the separated times, all the rebuilt homes.All the fallen leaves festering in the rain, all the wishing bottles drifting away with the river, all the songs sung in the night, all the clouds drifting by in the day, all the happiness and tears, all the kindness and freedom.

In that summer many years ago, they rushed to the grand death together. There are only endless camphor trees left, covering the whole city like waves.They whisper silently when the annual wet monsoon blows over the treetops. You who recite the legend. The legend that will never fade away with you. Those boys, taught me to grow. Those girls, taught me to love. ※End of the full text※ abada.cn(txt sharing) next page back to catalog back to home page