Chapter 9 Section 8

Monday 4th July sunny and windy I slept drowsily all day, and when I woke up, it was already five o'clock in the morning the next day.It seems that expired milk may become my intimate companion on the long journey of life in the future. I sat on the bed, leaning against the window, and had a long stay.I imagined myself as a moss-covered rock from a billion years ago, without thinking, without pretending, and without pretending to be auspicious to please everyone. I'm just a rock and I don't even have to breathe. This rambling meditation has put me in a much better mood.In the blink of an eye, eight days have passed. During these eight days, I could obviously hold onto the hem of his clothes and cry, or pour acid on the face of my best friend, or kill myself with a knife.But I didn't do anything, I restrained myself even in recollection, my emotions were more cautious and orderly than ever, I did the first step, not giving face to this pair of drama lovers who wrote and acted themselves, not giving Any feedback that gets them excited, this step, I did.

But it took all my strength. Just like the gecko's escape instinct, when it encounters danger, it will never struggle with it, and immediately cuts off its tail and runs away.But the real torment may be the process of the tail growing back. I was clueless and didn't know how to move forward.If I expect him to turn back, even the most unbearable dirt on my body may look down on me; but the result of trying my best to hold on is that my body betrays me. I want to hide, no matter how sunny and sunny outside, in my eyes, it is just a miserable wind and rain, I just want to hide at home and wait for my tail to grow back.From a technical point of view, there are no obstacles that cannot be realized, because now, even sanitary napkins can be sold on Taobao.

I took out my phone and wanted to make a call to Pharaoh and ask for a few days off. The big old king was on the other end of the phone, silent for a long time, and then said, come out, come out and have a meal with me. When I looked at myself in the mirror, it wasn't just unkempt, to put it mildly, the person in the mirror was a drug-addicted woman with an unattractive appearance, her whole body was full except for bags under her eyes. Seeing that I hadn't spoken for a long time, the old man became impatient, and shouted on the phone, "Fumen Restaurant, 12 o'clock, wages will be deducted for being late!"

I was completely depressed, really, the changing life is inevitable, if you want to lie to yourself, there will be people watching you with cameras. I mustered up the courage to look at myself in the mirror again, and then completely gave up the idea of ​​improving myself a little bit, because I thought it was a treat from the boss. Wearing toothpaste, I still went out calmly. The waiter in a tuxedo pretended to open the door for me, and there was a burst of sparkle, and the sound of tinkling silver tableware was all around, men and women, all dressed like Barbie and her plastic boyfriend Ken Ni, I have sweatpants on my lower body and a big red Nike jumper on my upper body. At the end of the tail of the checkmark, because toothpaste dripped when brushing my teeth, the long strip looks like the checkmark is about to melt.

The old man stared at me from a distance, with a shocking expression on his face.I thought to myself, it’s not good, Da Lao Wang invited me to eat at a place where the per capita consumption exceeds 100 yuan, either to fry me or to pick me up. I stood opposite the big old king and said respectfully, Mr. Wang, I'm here.The big old king wrinkled his face, looked at me from top to bottom, and said, "Hey, I really want to pretend that I don't know you." The waiter who walked silently like a ghost stood behind me, sneaking to help me pull the chair, I almost slapped him in the face with a wave of my hand, "No, I will do it myself."

The waiter guessed that my number would not be able to come again, so he bravely gave me a blank stare and left. I sat down terrified, and then looked at the big old king stupidly, waiting for him to speak, because I was nervous, so I looked around and there was nothing but soldiers.I'm not at all afraid that he will fire me, anyway, the tragedy has reached the bottom, no matter how big the tragedy is, it's just dessert after dinner for me.What I'm afraid of is that the old man suddenly opened his mouth and said to me, "Little Xian'er, in fact, I have always been to you..."

I made a good plan to tell him that once the big old king said such a thing, I would tell him that I was actually gay. But the old man calmed down, stretched out his hand and made a beautiful gesture, and the ghost waiter appeared behind me again, filling the glass in front of me with red wine. "This wine is from Chile. Try it. It tastes like cherry and dark chocolate." I obediently raised my cup and tasted it. Sure enough, it was a higher-end product than my homemade Great Wall Dry Red and Sprite. When I sipped it carefully, my mouth was filled with the new and fragrant flavor of RMB.

I was restless, and finally couldn't help asking: "Mr. Wang, is there something wrong with calling me out for a drink at noon?" The old man avoided talking about other things, "This wine goes best with pork, aren't you a Muslim?" "Are you going to fire me?" "Don't fucking think about it, why do men and women in your generation have persecution paranoia?" "Then you want to pick me up?" The old man shook his hand, and the fork fell onto the plate with a crisp sound. "Huang Xiaoxian'er! You grew up on the same side as my daughter, and I'll fuck you? Am I crazy?"

Looking at the old man's expression, he was really shocked. I felt relieved, and before my shame grew, I hurriedly asked, "Then what are you doing? You made me very uneasy." The big old Wang rearranged the forks, his expression froze for a moment inexplicably, and then his eyes froze elsewhere, "Xiao Wang told me that you fainted when you saw a client that day, because you didn't rest recently and didn't eat well. ?” I nod. "Because of falling out of love?" I nod. "What a fucking big deal! It's so extreme. You two hundred and five, I really don't know what you think."

A wave of anger rose in my heart, it’s okay to be broken in love, it’s okay to be laughed at by others, why should the boss take the opportunity to lecture me. I lowered my head and didn't speak. "Nowadays, the little boys have a lot of affection, but they are no match for their chests! This is a species that loves the new and dislikes the old. Are you looking for life and death, are you worthy of yourself?" I couldn't help it, and glared at the big old king, you are just my boss, and you are not a big money to support me. After working hours, why should I teach you my rights and time, "Who is so and so, who is looking for death Huh? I’m so old that I’m not allowed to die suddenly? You also have a daughter. If she was about my age, she would probably have broken up with her once or twice, right? Call her two hundred and five?"

The big old king didn't speak, turned his head, and looked elsewhere. The grilled pork chops came up with lemon slices, and they looked very pleasant. The old man brought my share and helped me cut them into pieces with a knife. I don't know why, but after the breakup, the tears that I had been suppressing all this time suddenly flooded up, and I couldn't stop them no matter what. "I've tried my best to be the best..." I can't think of any strong reason for me to cry to my boss.I just couldn't help it anymore, watching the old man cut the pork chop with his thick fingers, I suddenly wanted to go home, go back to that small town in Shanxi, knock on the door, don't say anything, just hug my mother , Tell her I'm tired. I covered my face with a napkin, I knew I was out of control, at this moment I really wanted to find the weakness of this world, and then ruthlessly, with all my strength, kick it. The old man said slowly, "I have no chance to scold my daughter." The surrounding voices suddenly pulled away and became very quiet. "I thought at the time, this girl is so stupid, and she will be fooled when she falls in love in the future. How should I persuade him then? First of all, I must call that bastard home, give her a good beating, and then talk to her. He said, you are too blind, and you don't have much hope in your future life. Then he took his daughter out to have a good meal, and told her, look, good food and good wine will not stop just because you are broken in love Supply, yes, a toothache is unbearable, but it will kill you." I took my face out of the napkin and looked at the old man, who was still looking out of the French window. "As a result, my wife and I divorced when she was eleven years old. She went abroad with her mother, and I haven't seen her once in two or three years. Until now, she calls me, and I can't wait to talk about it." In seconds, I didn't even want to be polite, so I asked her, did the girl have a boyfriend recently? You know what she said, "What right do you have to ask me such a question. " The two of us fell into silence at the same time. The guests around us talked and laughed loudly, pushing and changing glasses. The big old king put the cut pork chops in front of me, "Eat it, a mouthful of wine and a mouthful of meat." I wanted to say thank you, but felt very hypocritical, so I ate meat and drank heavily, just like the old king asked. The old man looked at me and smiled. It was the smile of a very kind father. Before leaving, the elder king asked me, "Are you going to take a break?" Before I could say anything, the old man continued, "Let's talk after we finish this job, okay?" I nod. "Go home and take a shower, get a good night's sleep, tidy yourself up, and don't make a school-age girl look like a stock dump." I nod. On the subway home, I looked at my own face reflected in the glass, pale and bloated, expressionless, it was really not a pleasing face. I have to do something, yes, dying from a toothache makes headlines, but it's also really funny. When I got home, I immediately put myself in the bathroom and took a good shower from beginning to end.