Chapter 20 the beauty of forgiveness

On the basketball court, the boys are scrambling. Their skin tanned by the sun exudes vigorous vitality. Even the occasional swear words make people want to smile. This is a unique gesture of youth. On the sidelines of the basketball court, there are groups of girls, shouting and applauding as they run on the court. Luo Qiqi looked at them and smiled, but could they also lie?Obviously caring about him, but cheering for another person.Just deliver a bottle of drink, but it's like spy work, trying to avoid everyone's attention. The basketball rolled to Luo Qiqi's feet, and a boy strode to chase the ball.When Luo Qiqi bent over to pick up the ball, she suddenly remembered that this scene had happened before. The striking similarity made her think that when she straightened up to send the basketball out, she would see Zhang Jun. She understood that he deliberately hit the ball flying, and he also knew that she understood, his eyes were secretly sweet, as if he had the happiest secret in the world.

But no! There is no boy who does not watch football but keeps watching her.The same venue, the same hustle and bustle, the same basketball, but ten years have passed. She handed the basketball to the strange boy. The boy smiled, expressed his thanks, and strode back to the court. Luo Qiqi silently left the basketball court and walked out of the campus. When leaving the school gate, the young guard greeted Luo Qiqi: "Get off work? I left very early today." "Yeah, go back early to buy vegetables and cook." Standing outside the school gate, Luo Qiqi looked at the bustling traffic and people on the street, thinking that the last time she stood here was ten years ago, she suddenly felt sad, was it because of the people who passed away, or because of the time that passed away?she does not know.

Looking back, the setting sun was shining on the school gate, and the students came and went in and out in twos and threes. Two girls in high school uniforms pushed their bicycles out of the school gate, talking and laughing, discussing where to meet at night. Luo Qiqi kept staring at them, knowing that they were gone. Are they really close, or superficially intimate?Can they admire each other and be jealous of each other?Ten years later, when they look back on their youth, is it warm or bitter when they think of each other? Qi Qi hailed a taxi and left the hotel, and called Yang Jun as soon as she entered.

Yang Jun asked: "When will you arrive in Beijing? The house has already been packed for you, so I'm waiting for you to move in and have a long talk with you all night long." "It will be over in a few days. I want to trouble you." "Say!" "I know that you have a close relationship with your high school classmates, can you help me find Guan He's contact information?" "No problem, she is from Class 4, right? I have quite a few buddies from Class 4, let me check for you. I will call you when I find out." Qiqi didn't have a mobile phone, so she didn't dare to go out to eat in order to wait for the call, so she ordered dinner to the room and waited for the call while watching TV.

More than three hours later, after eleven o'clock, Yang Jun's call did not arrive. "After graduating from high school, Guan He seldom contacted her high school classmates. I asked several classmates, and the classmates asked classmates again. I only found one of her email addresses. I don't know if it can be used. You send an email first. Give it a try, if it doesn’t work, I’ll help you find a way.” "Thank you." "Don't pretend to be polite, you have fun, take a few more photos, and we will talk after we get to Beijing." "Ok." After hanging up the phone, Qiqi immediately turned on the computer and logged into the mailbox, but stared at the email screen in a daze.

At that time, she was young, high-spirited, only looking forward, and did not carefully understand Guan He's thoughts. In fact, she wrote that letter with deep guilt and asked for forgiveness, but because she was too proud, she put herself first. Unforgivable position, it seems that in this way, it doesn't matter whether Qiqi forgives her or not.But can you really not care?If you don't care, why bother to stay with Qiqi the day the college entrance examination results are announced?Why bother to write that letter to analyze your own feelings? Qiqi's failure to reply to her letter is just a way of wanting to abandon the unhappy past for Qiqi, but for Guan He?

Qiqi doesn't know whether Guan He will still think of the past. If she still remembers, then when she hears "Seeing the Cooking Smoke" again and sees other people roller skating, the memories will be bitter, but in At that time, they wanted to engrave that as the best memory in their minds, and it was a beautiful story that they could gently tell their daughters. Qiqi started typing. Guan He: I am Luo Qiqi, just a letter that is many years late.Maybe it's not necessary anymore, but if I don't do it, I can't feel at ease. After Zhang Jun broke up with me back then, I seemed to be indifferent and suppressed the sadness with loud laughter. In fact, I had a hatred for him that I didn't even realize in my heart. I hated him for failing my feelings. He doesn't like me anymore, and hates that his promises have become lies, so I will deliberately smile in front of him as if nothing had happened, deliberately go home with Shen Yuanzhe, and deliberately let others misunderstand that Shen Yuanzhe and I are in a relationship.Tell him with actions, who cares if you like me?Without you, I am happier, without you, there are others to care about me.

However, because the sadness that was forcibly suppressed has never been released, as time slowly ferments, the more I want to forget, the more I can't forget, but I don't have the courage to look back, so I can only go forward. In the past few days, I was in my hometown, sitting on the campus where we used to study together, thinking about these past events, and I found that my resentment and sadness were slowly calming down. My breakup with Zhang Jun is indeed related to you, but it has nothing to do with you.Maybe ten years ago, when I said this sentence, you would not understand, but now I think you should understand what I mean.The love when I was young was very sincere, but the sincere corporal was clumsy, because of immature clumsiness caused injury and being hurt.The older you get, the more mature you will be in dealing with love, but the sincerity and clumsiness unique to those first loves are only once, so, as the years go by, all Shanghai will be gradually forgotten, and only the beauty will be remembered.

The more I recall the past few days, the more certain I am that Zhang Jun once loved me wholeheartedly. I am very lucky to be loved by him like that.I lost him because I loved him clumsily back then, and my pride, inferiority, sensitivity, stubbornness hurt him, not because of you. Guan He, you don't have to blame yourself for the reason why Zhang Jun and I broke up, please forgive yourself. I also want to tell you a secret.Back then, I was not only envious of you, I was also very jealous of you, and I also had a lot of dark psychology, although I did not cause much harm, in essence it is no different from you.

We are not angels, and we are not perfect, but we still have to love and love ourselves, who has many shortcomings. Sincerely hope you live happily, because you are the most special existence in my heart, forever! Luo Qiqi After clicking the send button, Qiqi smiled at the screen, and only hoped that when Guan He received this letter, he could also smile knowingly at the screen.From then on, when I can think of the past, even if there is melancholy, it is just melancholy about the fleeting years. Qiqi fell asleep very peacefully. After waking up the next day, she began to look up Teacher Gao's contact information.

When she was in college, she sent a New Year's card to Mr. Gao, but later, she lost contact for some reason. It is not difficult to get the contact information of Mr. Gao.When she was in high school, Teacher Gao's husband was already the vice-principal of the technical school, and now he must have a bigger official position. It is not easy to find ordinary people, but it is easy to find officials. Everything was as she expected, and without much difficulty, she got the office phone number of Teacher Gao's husband. She dialed the phone number: "Excuse me, is this Director Wang?" "I am." "Hello, my name is Luo Qiqi, and I am a student of Teacher Gao..." Before she finished speaking, the other party laughed heartily: "Luo Qiqi, the number one student in the city's college entrance examination, and later admitted to Tsinghua University?" "it's me." "Gao Hui must be so happy, I will give you her mobile phone number, you can contact her directly." "Ok, thank you." Luo Qiqi sat silently for a while, settled her mood, and then called Teacher Gao. She was nervous about how to greet her, but unexpectedly, Teacher Gao called out, "Qiqi, is that you? I said you're back." "Mr. Gao, it's me." Luo Qiqi's nose was sore, like a wanderer who had been wandering for many years, and finally heard the voice of his hometown. "Qiqi..." Teacher Gao confirmed that it was her, but she didn't know what to say. After a moment of silence, she said, "I think the caller ID is an indoor landline. Where are you?" "I'm at the hotel." Qiqi reported the name and address of the hotel, and after discussing with Teacher Gao, they decided to meet at a nearby western restaurant. They could drink some coffee and chat first, and then have dinner together. Qiqi felt the western restaurant half an hour earlier, and not long after, a woman with short hair came in, her figure was already fat, but her smile was very bright. Luo Qiqi stood up immediately, but because of the respect from the heart, she couldn't show her habitual smile at all, and was as nervous as a little girl. Teacher Gao also checked Luo Qiqi from head to toe as before, as if to check whether she had painted red nails or secretly wore jewelry. Teacher Gao asked Qiqi to sit down, frowned and said, "Why are you so thin? What do you eat every day? I heard that you have gone abroad. Are foreign foods bad? Are you in good health? Do you exercise regularly? ?” Luo Qiqi smiled, the shrewd and powerful Luo Qiqi was just a stinky kid who couldn't take care of herself in Teacher Gao's eyes. She softly asked about Teacher Gao's recent situation. After Mrs. Gao gave birth, her health was not good, so she retired from the front line of education and now works in the Academic Affairs Office.There is a six-year-old son who is learning the piano. Teacher Gao's main job every day is to fight wits with his son and let him practice the piano for a while. Qiqi was very happy to hear that, knowing that the happiness of the person she is most grateful and respected in her life is the greatest happiness. Qiqi and Teacher Gao chatted until after nine o'clock in the evening before parting reluctantly. When she left, she told Teacher Gao very solemnly: "Thank you, Teacher Gao, without you, my fate would be completely different." This is the first time Qiqi expresses her gratitude to Teacher Gao personally. Afterwards, she realized a truth, what was in her heart had to be spoken out, so that others would know. Teacher Gao was not used to this kind of straightforwardness, so she changed the topic in embarrassment, but it could be seen that she was very excited and happy.Some students are grateful to her for life, and some students have changed their fate because of her. This may be the most glorious crown in her teaching career. Qiqi was very happy that she told Teacher Gao about her gratitude. After returning to the hotel, the first thing Qiqi did was to check her mailbox. There was no reply from Guan He, and she didn't know whether she hadn't checked the mailbox or the mailbox had been invalidated. She was slightly disappointed, but then she thought, as long as she wanted to, she would definitely be able to contact Guan He, and she was not in a hurry. After taking a bath, Qiqi carried the cardboard box to the bed, staring at it in a daze, filled with all the laughter and crying of her childhood. Ten years ago, under the pain, she sealed up everything with resentment, wishing she would never think about it for the rest of her life, and firmly believed that on the road ahead, she would definitely meet more outstanding and wonderful people. Ten years later, after time, she She began to understand that these were the most beautiful things she had ever had in this life. Xiaobo has long forgotten her, and Zhang Jun has long since ceased to love her, but they have treated her very dearly, and that's the most important thing. I don't know when I fell asleep last night. When I woke up in the morning, Luo Qiqi found that she had slept next to the box, and she couldn't help laughing. Put on contact lenses and put on light makeup.A suspender skirt with large flowers, a beige wide-brimmed summer hat, the most comfortable sandals, and a beige woven handbag with a subtropical style. Luo Qiqi looked at herself in the mirror, nodded with satisfaction, and walked out the door calmly. She walked to the karaoke bar where she and Xiao Bo had spent countless days like shopping, and it was completely expected that the karaoke bar was gone.All the surrounding shops were demolished, and unified planning became a snack street. Luo Qiqi walked and watched, bought some snacks from time to time, and walked to the end. After leaving the pedestrian street, many taxi drivers squatted on the side of the road and asked her if she wanted a car.She shook her head politely, walking and strolling along the three-point familiar and seven-point unfamiliar road. She got lost in the middle, but she went around and got out. After more than two hours, she walked to the location of the former dance hall. It has changed beyond recognition, and I can't find the "on the water side" of the day. Because everything was within expectations, Luo Qiqi was not too disappointed. Following the flow of people, she walked slowly and looked around every corner with a smile, but there was always a lingering melancholy in her heart.The ancients lamented that things are right and people are wrong, but they don’t know that the greatest sorrow is that things are wrong and people are different. Modern people often have difficulty in having even a little memory for lingering. The four big characters "on the side of the water" suddenly jumped into her eyes when she was completely unprepared. At that moment, her breathing almost stopped. After a while, she returned to normal.It's just the same name.The "On the Water Side" in front of you is a book bar with antique decoration, not a ballroom for luxury and money.However, she couldn't help but opened the glass door, opened the bamboo curtain, and walked into the bookstore. The room is cool and cool, and it is a completely different world from the outside. I don't know if it's because of the time, or the business is not good. There are not many customers in the store, and the two shop assistants also have a kind of lazy leisure. When they saw her coming in, they just smiled. Luo Qiqi walked while looking at the books on the shelf. The decoration style of the book bar is particularly like the winding paths of Chinese gardens. The bookshelves and books are used to naturally divide the space into small private places. greenery and no other decorations. Unlike general bookstores that mainly focus on literature and art books, this store has many books on financial management, including boring microeconomics. What surprised Luo Qiqi the most was that in the innermost part of the bookstore, there was a square space with a billiard table.At this time, the chandelier hanging from the ceiling was not turned on, and it was dark and silent, like another world. She walked over, picked up the pool cue, and fiddled with it unconsciously in her hand, memories of the past flooded into her mind like a flood. The waiter turned on the switch, and the lights on the pool table came on, interrupting the picture in Luo Qiqi's mind. The girl smiled and said, "If you need anything, please call me anytime." "Bring me a cup of Longjing tea, can you?" "OK." Luo Qiqi bent down, took aim for a while, and hit the stick with a snap, all the balls scattered on the table.She is not unfamiliar with the skills Xiaobo taught her. After she played for a while, the waiter came over with green tea and put it on the high corner round table in the corner: "Your tea is here, please use it slowly." Luo Qiqi asked softly: "What's your boss's name, do you know?" The girl smiled apologetically: "I don't know, it's Sister Wang who manages the day-to-day, and the real boss is a friend of Sister Wang's husband, who occasionally comes back to play." "What does he look like?" "Thirty years old, not very tall, about 1.78 meters, looks very gentle..." The girl smiled and said, "Hey, I can't tell, but he is quite energetic anyway." "Does he have a tattoo on his back? In summer, even with clothes on, if you look carefully, you can see a little bit." The girl thought for a while, "Oh, yes, but I can't tell what it is." "Do you have his contact information?" The girl smiled honestly: "How could I have it?" "Is Miss Wang there?" "she is not here." "Do you know when she will come?" "She usually comes here in the morning, but sometimes after we get off work, Brother Zhai—just Sister Wang's husband—comes back to play billiards." Brother Zhai?The surname of squid is Zhai.Qiqi thought for a while, and suddenly remembered that Yao Yao's surname is Wang, but what are the real names of Squid and Yao Yao?She couldn't remember it at all, and it turned out that this time had changed her beyond recognition. The girl said: "Why don't you come tomorrow, Sister Wang usually comes to visit in the morning." Luo Qiqi smiled and nodded: "Thank you." Bending down to play billiards, I wondered while playing, why is it a bookstore?Could it be that after so many years, Xiaobo still can't let go of the fact that he didn't go to college? A picture, a few lines of dialogue suddenly jumped out. In Brother Li's office, Xiao Bo told her for the first time not to act impulsively, but to cherish herself.He smiled and asked her: "Qiqi, what do you want to do in the future?" "Hmmmm... I like reading books, maybe I can open a small bookstore, read books, and earn some money, enough to support myself." The moment she realized it, Qiqi only felt that there were thousands of fiery red flowers blooming one after another in front of her eyes, the whole world was lit up, and her whole body seemed to be bursting with joy. He did not forget!He did not forget! Caught off guard, drop after drop of water fell onto the pool table, printing dark green stains one by one.Luo Qiqi propped her hands beside the pool table, lowered her head, and let the tears fall wantonly, but grinning while crying, he still remembers me, and Xiaobo still remembers me! Xiaobo never forgot her! She realized a dream instead of him, so he also realized a dream instead of her.She took his dream to fly, and he guarded her dream and waited here quietly. But, Xiaobo, why don't you tell me?Why did I leave crying all those years ago? Luo Qiqi picked up her handbag and went to the counter to check out. "Can I leave a message for Sister Wang? Please pass it on to her as soon as possible." The cashier handed the change to Luo Qiqi: "No problem, I will call and tell Sister Wang." Luo Qiqi picked up a pen and wrote on the message paper: A beautiful and warm little bookstore, like a boy's dream.Dreamers have forgotten what they thought about in the turbulent world of mortals, but they didn't expect that when they suddenly looked back, their dreams had come true. Xiaobo, I will wait for you by the river tomorrow, see you soon. —— Qiqi It had already been handed to the cashier, but she felt worried again, took back the message paper, and added a sentence below: "I said see you or leave!" Luo Qiqi walked out of the bookstore with her handbag, walking and strolling along with the crowd, seeing exactly the same strange scene as before, but she lost the melancholy just now, and couldn't help laughing again and again. Over the years, she has been to many countries, seen many landscapes, and experienced many things, but the person she most wanted to share all this with is not there, and all the excitement is accompanied by a trace of regret. Tomorrow she will tell him everything, all these years The joys and sorrows. A couple walked by her side. The man had a very short body and was wearing a sleeveless vest. He was muscular. The muscles on his arms were tangled with strength. There were large tattoos on his back extending all the way to his arms. superior. He carried a little boy on his shoulders. The little boy grabbed his head and shouted "drive, drive". A beautiful woman with long curly hair walked beside the man, talking on the phone loudly while looking at her son from time to time . Luo Qiqi walked past them, and slowly stopped, but they walked straight past her. Qiqi turned her head and watched them pass by a shop and stopped in front of "on the side of the water". The man suddenly threw his son up and caught him again. The child laughed happily. The child is tucked under the arm and walks "on the water side".The hostess was still standing at the door of the store, talking on the phone. Across the crowd, Luo Qiqi kept looking at her. Her eyes swept over Luo Qiqi several times, but they never stopped. Qiqi laughed, enchanting and squid are really together!It doesn't matter what happened in the river of time. The man who was with Enchanting that year may be her relative, or it may be a life-saving straw that she grabbed when she was desperate, but no matter what, she finally chose squid . Luo Qiqi smiled at Yaoluo, turned around, and merged into the sea of ​​people, but the joy just now disappeared. If I told Cuttlefish and Yaoluo more than ten years ago that they would stand opposite Qiqi but didn't know each other, no one would believe it. memories, but could she blame them?Didn't she forget their names too?Isn't this acquaintance?While walking, while forgetting. For ten years, she knew nothing about Xiaobo's life, maybe Xiaobo didn't care about what she did long ago. "On the side of the water" must be related to the past, but not necessarily related to her. Perhaps it is just Xiaobo's commemoration of that period of time that passed away. As long as you are young, everyone will leave a little softness for the lost youth deep in their hearts.In a certain gap in the vicissitudes of life, an inexplicable sadness will suddenly pass through the eyes, and an unknown melancholy will suddenly rise in the heart in front of the familiar scenery.But these sadness and melancholy do not mean that they want to reunite with those people in their memories. The past time is the past time, and it is impossible to go back. Friends from the past are friends from the past, and they are only beautiful in memory. Will Xiaobo make it to her date by the river? she does not know. In the early morning, after breakfast, Luo Qiqi was in a white T-shirt and denim shorts on the bed, carrying a big backpack, carrying water and bread, and walked to the river on foot. Last time, when she left, she thought that she could come back anytime she wanted, but unexpectedly, in the torrent of life, revisiting old places is a very luxurious thing, and the separation lasted ten years. After walking for more than an hour, I arrived at the green forest. Every tree grew tall and big. In my memory, it was just a small forest, but now it looks like a small forest. As Qiqi walked, she gently stroked the tree trunk. Many years ago, there was a young man in his prime in a white and blue T-shirt standing here, waiting for his beloved girl.That boy has been taken away by time, but they are still here. Luo Qiqi walked through the dense green forest and came to the river. "I'm back." She said silently in her heart. She put down the backpack on her shoulders, sat by the river, staring at the river, this is the place where she is haunted by dreams. In countless midnight dreams, she often dreamed that she was back by the river. In her dreams, there were Zhang Jun, Xiaobo, Xiaofei, and Guan He. They were still young, talking and laughing together, happily play. Sometimes, she would wake up from her dream with a smile, her heart filled with joy, but after a moment, she realized that they had already left her, like the youth that never came back. After sitting silently for a long time, Qiqi took out the cardboard box with her signature from her bag, and hugged it tightly in her arms. Ten years ago, she left them behind without hesitation and ran towards the future. Ten years later, she began to understand that she would never be able to part with those memories. Whether it is pain or laughter, they are her wealth and her life She is enriched by them, so this time, she will carry them into the future. She opened the box. The first thing that catches the eye is a small transparent plastic jar, which contains several bottles of dried nail polish and a few faded hairpins. After Xiaofei's accident, she cut off her hair, desperately dressed herself up like a boy, and gave her all the nail polish and hair clips she didn't use. Qiqi picked up the nail polish and played with it between her palms. In the summer vacation of the second year of junior high school, she went to see Xiaofei every day. The two of them painted nail polish on the sofa at Xiaofei's house. Goo talking, agreed to go to a university in the future, and will always be good friends.Xiaofei also laughed at her for not having grand ideals and not knowing how to make money, but she said it didn't matter, she would be responsible for making money to take care of the two of them. Luo Qiqi said softly to the nail polish: "Xiaofei, where are you? Do you know that I'm already very powerful and good at making money. No matter what you look like, I have the ability to take good care of you." After graduating from university, Luo Qiqi gave up her job opportunity in Beijing and went to Guangzhou. In a strange city, make new friends. After work, her favorite thing to do is to take advantage of various opportunities to go to bars in Guangzhou, Shenzhen, and Hong Kong.The singers in the bar are all young people who have gone south to pursue their music dreams. Many of them are similar to Wang Zheng, but they are not Wang Zheng. Luo Qiqi is the most serious and serious office white-collar worker during the day, but at night she becomes a night girl who hangs around sensual places. In all kinds of gossip, she dug out a little bit of news about Wang Zheng. He sang in a bar, organized a band with others, and seemed to have made a failed record. Then, he disappeared. The people here are all like this, suddenly, they pop up, using very literary pseudonyms, playing music, talking about ideals, and as the years pass, the ideals become weaker and weaker, but they drink more and more. It will disappear after a sudden epiphany, and some people will gradually transition from anesthetizing alcohol to poison, rotting day by day, wandering in the dark corners of the city like ghosts. The ending of Wang Zheng's disappearance is not the worst ending.But what about Xiaofei? Luo Qiqi almost went to Qiongbi and fell to Huangquan, but there was no news of her. She once stood on the flyover in Guangzhou at three o'clock in the morning and shouted to the whole city: "Ge Xiaofei, you still owe me a mutton skewer!" Over and over again, shouting at the top of her lungs, she answered with a series of greetings, greeting three generations of female relatives of her ancestors. The city was noisy and lively, and there were sounds day and night, but there was no sound she was looking for. More than a year later, at Chen Jin's suggestion, she applied for an MBA at Stanford University and left Guangzhou. Luo Qiqi held the nail polish and buried her head on her knees. Some things in this world will have answers, but some things never seem to have answers.Will Xiaofei become an unanswered riddle in her life?She didn't know, she only knew that she would carry her on her back forever, until death. After a long time, Qiqi put the nail polish back into the carton, and took another thing out of the carton. It's a small white plastic bag, soft to the touch, I don't know what it contains. Qiqi opened it curiously, and saw a small skirt with white spots on a red background.She covered her mouth with a jerk and stared in shock. She actually kept this?Even she herself forgot! She couldn't help standing up, shaking off the skirt, and looked at it carefully. After so many years, the skirt was still as good as new.She put the skirt on herself and compared it, it seemed to be a good fit. Qiqi couldn't help but stepped on a few dance steps. If Xiao Bo was willing to see her, she would definitely wear this dress and ask him to dance. Subconsciously, she looked up at the river bank. It was already afternoon, and Xiaobo still hadn't appeared. will he comehave no idea. For a while, Qiqi has countless reasons to think that Xiaobo will definitely come, and after a while, there are countless reasons to think that Xiaobo will definitely not come. Last night, she was extremely anxious about this problem, but now she has calmed down. It is Xiaobo's choice whether to come or not, and it is her choice to wait or not to wait. All she can do is to try her best without regrets. Qiqi folded the skirt, wrapped it in a plastic bag, put it back in the cardboard box, closed her eyes, and felt inside the box. Which memory will you pick up this time? A large brown leather envelope. This Qiqi did remember that it contained things related to Zhang Jun, but she couldn't remember exactly what it was. The tickets for the Great Wall, the Summer Palace, the Qingdao Snake Pavilion... The tickets for the Forbidden City are written as student tickets, and the tickets for the Summer Palace are only 15 yuan, and now 50 yuan is probably not enough. A few movie tickets, no year, only the date, there are blue, pink, yellow, each color is two, the seat number is connected together.This should be the movie ticket for the movie she and Zhang Jun have seen. Qiqi took the movie ticket and watched it over and over again, but couldn't remember what movie was associated with the movie ticket.She also couldn't recall what they said or did in the movie theater. In a group photo taken when he graduated from elementary school, Zhang Jun stood in the middle of the last row with a hedgehog head on his head, grinning silly at the camera.The girls were in the first two rows, and she shrank to the farthest side, without a trace of a smile on her face. She didn't look at the camera, but stared at the ground, only half of her face could be seen. Qiqi laughed when she saw it, is this awkward little silly girl really her?But soon realized that this was the only photo of her and Zhang Jun.During the summer camp, there were many photo opportunities, but she stubbornly refused them all.There were group photos two or three times, but the negatives were with Teacher Xing. After returning to school, the teacher forgot all about it as soon as he was busy, and didn't develop it for them at all, and she didn't care at the time. Holding the photo, Luo Qiqi felt extremely uncomfortable. The happiest time between her and Zhang Jun was in Qingdao, but because of her awkwardness and stubbornness, she didn't keep a single photo.Why was she so sensitive and stubborn back then? A Christmas card, probably in order to take care of her, there is no words involving love in it, just to wish her a Merry Christmas, but inside the big card is a small heart card, which says in English: I'll love you forever! ! ! ! ! !The writer probably felt that writing alone was not enough to express his feelings, so he used six exclamation points in succession.Maybe very naive, but full of sincerity. Luo Qiqi stared blankly. She received this greeting card eleven years ago, but it was eleven years later that she understood the meaning of this little greeting card and those exclamation marks for the first time.When she received it that year, she probably just read it sweetly, but she didn't really understand the thoughtfulness of the card sender at all.The boy wanted to write a lot of love words, but he was worried that her parents would find out, so he used a big greeting card to write blessings, and a small removable greeting card to write love words.There are no such small greeting cards on the market, so he must first choose a large greeting card with a heart printed on it, and then carefully cut out the heart with scissors. In front of Qiqi’s eyes, a boy appeared, concentrating on cutting the greeting card, carefully pasting the small greeting card on the big greeting card, and then using white paper to absorb the glue, so as not to stain any place, because this is for his beloved girl Gift…… In her life, there was a teenager who loved her so deeply. The young man once sang to her: "I don't want anything, I don't seek anything. Break through the world, but I hope I can see you after running around late at night. Ordinary can be ordinary, and I have my own world, but I hope I can see you after the sunrise comes early in the morning." You. What is your name, what is your wealth? It’s a good taste, but if you are alive, you can see you day and night, that’s even better. When everything around you is like the wind, you let me find my roots, and I don’t want to leave. I wish that my love will never wither..." That boy would be fascinated by her, fail the exams, and don't care about his future; that boy would fight because of her because of her jealousy, without thinking about his future at all; that boy felt that she was more important than himself, and was willing to work hard for her change yourself. However, his feelings were eventually wiped out by her inferiority, pride, willfulness, clumsiness and stubbornness. Luo Qiqi's eyes gradually became moist, and she began to understand why after so many years she still couldn't forget Zhang Jun—the man who no longer loved her.What she can't forget may not be Zhang Jun, but that there was a person who loved her so much.Perhaps what she is worried about is not that Zhang Jun doesn't love her anymore, but that there is no man who loves her as much as Zhang Jun. The sun moved slowly to the west, and Luo Qiqi sat by the river, picking up memories one after another—beautiful or not beautiful moment after moment, there was wanton laughter, and there were suppressed painful cries. But the long time will eventually condense all the pain and laughter into the most beautiful stars in memory, gently shining on our lives. Because of their stopping and looking back, our flower season did not become a lonely humming alone, because of their company and smile, our flower season played the most splendid movement. Those who used to cry and laugh with us are indeed gone, and maybe we will never see each other again in this life. However, the love and care they left behind will never die. The moment we look back suddenly, they are there, our youth is engraved in their still young eyebrows, and our youthful eyebrows are forever engraved in their youth.