Chapter 16 Section VII

I'm a little confused. Is this a dream?Or the real world? The girl who had appeared in dreams for many years actually appeared in front of her? "It's very late, it's not good to drink tea or coffee." Liyun got up and walked to the bar, "Have some juice." "Do you know Haimahui?" Liyun brought a glass of orange juice and put it in front of me. "It's called hippocampus in English." I said thank you first, then shook my head. "Long-term memory is stored in the cortex of the brain, which manages all memories," she said.

"There is also an area of ​​the brain called the hippocampus, which is responsible for writing memories into the cortex." "Yeah." I nodded in understanding. "If the hippocampus is damaged, short-term memory will decline, and short-term memory may not be able to into long-term memory. "She said, "This is the so-called eraser in the mind. " Eraser? I couldn't help but look down at the note on the table: If there were no mistakes in life, why would a pencil need an eraser? "If memory is like writing with a pencil, then erasing it with an eraser may leave no trace.

Unless the force is strong enough, there will be traces of rubbing the words. ' She sat down again. I looked up at her, wondering why she was saying this? "The most important function of the hippocampus is memory, especially event memory. If the hippocampus is injured, May forget where, when, what was done or experienced. " The more I listened, the more curious I felt that this was not a topic, but something closely related to me. "In addition to being related to memory, the hippocampus is also related to the ability to recognize the way. It has helped human beings since ancient times.

Pigeons that carry messages have a larger volume ratio of the hippocampus in their brains. " "Why are you telling me this?" I finally couldn't help asking. "You suddenly get lost because your hippocampus may have been injured." "This..." I opened my mouth wide, unable to continue. "You accidentally bumped your head when you were in the second year of junior high school, and you may have injured your hippocampus." "Impossible!" I almost cried, "You can't even know that." "Your memory before the second year of junior high school is complete, but after the fight in the second junior high school, your memory is

Fragmented and blurred, even lost. " "Even fighting..." I have begun to slur my words. "Because I'm your middle school classmate." Li Yun said lightly. I was shocked and stood up unconsciously. "Don't get excited, I'll tell you slowly." Liyun stood up, took two steps, and pointed to a picture on the wall that looked like a middle school auditorium. "Our junior high school graduation ceremony is held here." She said, "There is a lottery at the graduation ceremony, You were one of seven numbers drawn at the beginning of the lottery.You thought you hit the jackpot,

Also shouted excitedly.As a result, the principal said: 507 graduates, but only 500 prizes, So except for the seven students who got the numbers who didn't win the prize, all the rest got prizes. " "This school is too perverted." I said. "That's our alma mater." She moved two steps to the right, pointing to a photo of a bicycle, "You rode this bike for three years in high school, and you put a Mercedes logo on the handlebar stickers. " Following her finger, I saw the Mercedes-Benz logo. "This is the performance of your class on the stage on the eve of your senior year graduation. The students on stage

With bamboo brooms in their hands as guitars, they danced and sang "Burning!"Firebird". " She pointed to a vague figure at the left back of the stage, "You are right here." "You joined the Environmental Protection Club when you were a freshman. This is a photo of the club taking a sampan tour of the mangroves in Sicao." She pointed to someone sitting in the back of the boat, "Only you facing the camera sideways." "In your junior year, you took a general education course on Taiwanese folk customs, and you went to Donggang for the final report

Filming of the Obune Matsuri celebration. " She pointed to the hazy figure in a cloud of white smoke, "You rushed into the firecracker array to take a scene. Look, there are still sparks under your feet." "This 7-11 is at the corner of your rented house. You were a senior student at that time. You often go to this 7-11, Occasionally eat breakfast on a chair by the door. " She continued to move her feet and fingers, and spoke at the same time every time she pointed to a photo. "This is the Dunhuang Bookstore in front of the railway station. When you were in the army, you went home on vacation or returned to the camp after vacation.

take the train.Before you take the train, you will go to the bookstore to read books, and occasionally buy books. " She pointed to a soldier standing in front of the bookstore, "This is your back." "This is a picture of you looking down to pick out fruits. The fruit seller is the master of Shuiyue Temple." She moved her finger two centimeters to the right, "She is standing here, but unfortunately only the back is photographed." "Across the road is the hospital." She moved her finger up again, "You will go to the emergency room of the hospital

Meet a girl at the door. " I subconsciously touched my cheek. "This is the garden coffee shop next to the park, but it's now a construction site. You've been here with two fights It is also here that the owner of the company was seen on a date with his mistress. " She pointed to the fish tank on the bar in the photo, "Do you remember this fish tank?" I couldn't help turning my head and glanced at the three-foot fish tank built into the inner wall of her shop. "This is a group photo of community residents having barbecue by the lake half a year ago. You are standing in the last row on the far right."

She couldn't help smiling, "When you saw the photo, you said you looked like Takeshi Kaneshiro, but I said You are like Andy Lau.You also said you could only admit with tears in your eyes that I was right. " "If I really say that, it's just off the top of my head." "But I really think you look like Andy Lau." She smiled, "Your back is very similar." "This is a solo photo of you in front of the "Forgotten" store, and you also said that you smile like an idiot." She pointed to a potted plant next to my right foot, "This is the rosemary you always eat." "That's Rosemary?" She nodded. "This photo has just been framed today, before it can be hung on the wall, it will be hung tomorrow." She took a photo from under the bar and pointed it right at me. "This is yesterday when I made iced coffee for you, and while you were concentrating on counting the drops, I heard from you Photos taken behind the scenes.You even asked me for modeling fees. " "I remember that," I said, "I was joking, you can't take it seriously." "Okay, I'll fix it." She smiled, "You joked that you wanted to pay me for the modeling fee." "You ended up paying with a cup of iced coffee." "Yeah." She nodded, "Your memory is still very clear, that's great." It turns out that every photo on the wall is only about me, not a "forgotten" decoration or decoration. Each photo represents a memory that I have forgotten or will soon forget. I can't help looking at the pictures on the wall one by one, but I can't get lost in the memories. Because I have no memory at all. "I also put some photos in the photo album. After digital cameras became popular, I also took a lot of photo files, stored in the computer.All about you..." "Why?" I interrupted her. "Huh?" She didn't seem to understand what I meant. "Why are you doing this?" "Can't you figure it out yet?" she asked back. I thought about it calmly, since Li Yun said she was my middle school classmate, then... "You must be the girl I saved!" I suddenly realized. "The girl you saved?" "Yeah, I got into a fight with a nasty girl for you," I said. "Actually, you don't need to be like this. It's been such a long time. You don't have to take it to heart, and you don't have to worry about it." Feeling guilty or grateful or something. " She looked at me quietly without answering my words, with a weird smile on her face. "Did I guess wrong?" I asked. "Will I still be fierce now?" "Ah?" I was surprised, "Could it be that you are..." "I'm the girl who fought with you." After she finished speaking, she smiled slightly. Although I have almost no impression of that girl, I only keep the keyword "fierce". But the Liyun in front of her is that fierce girl back then? The appearance of these two people does not overlap at all in my mind. "I was sloppy in middle school and didn't pay attention to appearance. My classmates often made fun of me for not being clean." She said, "That day, the female classmate next door laughed at me for being dirty and made up a song to laugh at me. I couldn't get angry so I told her Argue, then fight.Boys fight with scuffles, and girls grab each other's hair.because of my hair It's short, so that takes advantage.Suddenly I heard someone say: Let go of that girl! " "Let go of that girl?" I said, "This is a line from Stephen Chow's movie." "Yes." She smiled, "but you did say that at the time." "That's what I said?" "Yeah." She nodded, "You just pushed me away after you ran over, because I was angry Pushed you too.You just stepped on a pencil case that fell on the floor and slipped and fell At this moment, my head hit the corner of the wall..." "Isn't it the corner of the table?" "It's the corner." "Later your parents took you to the doctor and took an MRI. The doctor said your hippocampus returned Probably injured, a little shriveled, but he wasn't sure. "she says, "When your doctor advises you to read more, you develop a habit of reading for a long time. I believe this is what leads you to Later, the cause of high intraocular pressure. " "My eye pressure is too high?" "You told me about it when you were barbecued by the lake half a year ago." She glanced at me, then sighed softly.Say: "After that incident, I often have a kind of dream. In the dream, you always hold your head and scream for pain." "pain?" "Yes." She said, "In the dream you always cry out for pain." "But from now on, even if we are classmates, we don't talk anymore. I want to be close to you, But dare not approach you.It wasn't until after the junior high school graduation ceremony that I finally mustered up the courage to ask you: Does it hurt? " "You ask me: does it hurt?" "Well," she said, "but you answer: none of your business." "I……" "It's okay." She smiled slightly. "In high school you went to a boys' school and I went to a girls' school, but we were in the same house as one of your high school classmates I often ask him what happened to you in school. " "Who is he?" "He's kind of your best friend from high school, and I've had occasional contact with him over the years. He I ran into you in front of McDonald's last year. " "McDonald's?" I seem to have a little remnant of memory, "Student from high school?" "When you were in the second year of high school, you couldn't find the bicycle after the cram school was over. You thought someone was riding it away temporarily. So you stay where you are and wait for over an hour.But it's just that you misremembered where the bike was parked. location only. " "How do you know what I'm thinking?" "I hid in the dark and waited with you." She said, "Later I felt that waiting any longer was not an option. Then go to the place where your bicycle is really parked and ride it to you.Fortunately, your bicycle Always forget to lock it. " "When you see me, say: How did you choose my broken bicycle? Then you ride in a hurry go home. "She said, "You only left for a while, then rode back and said: Don't get me wrong, I just I feel that this kind of bicycle that boys ride is not suitable for girls.After speaking, he turned the car around and left. " "This……" "I was worried about your reaction when you saw me, but from your reaction, you have forgotten me. "She smiled lightly, and the smile was a bit bitter, "From then on, I am like a ghost behind my back, Follows you silently without you noticing. " When hearing this, all the surprises caused by her have gradually turned into emotions. "I went to see your performance on the stage on the eve of your senior year graduation. That bamboo broom is huge, You accidentally scratched the inside of your thigh, and suddenly yelled on the stage, and everyone in the audience burst into laughter. " She laughed at this point, and when the laughter stopped, she continued: "After you left the stage after the performance, I ran to ask you: Does it hurt?" "Oh?" "You had this puzzled look at the time. After a while, you said: It's okay." "We were admitted to the same university, but with different departments. You joined the Environmental Protection Club in your freshman year, and I also Follow along to join.I also went to the mangrove forest tour of Sicao. " I looked carefully at the photo on the wall of a group of people riding a sampan and said: "But you don't seem to be in the picture." "Because I'm the one with the camera." She smiled, "Later, the club went to Zengwenxikou to watch Black-faced spoonbill, but when I was going back to school, I found you were gone. " "I'm missing?" "I found you in a bush. You were squatting on the ground with your head in your arms. I..." She paused, sniffed, and exhaled, then continued: "I remembered my dream, and tears fell. After wiping the corners of my eyes, I helped you up. You say that you are lost, as if you are in the sea or the desert, and you don't know which direction to go. " I can't help but think of the panic I felt on the streets of Taipei today. "I ask you: Is it painful? You answer: It's not painful, it's just panic." "You and I both took Taiwanese folk customs in our junior year, and we were still in the same group," she said. "There are six members in our group. In order to submit the final report, we went to Donggang to visit the Wang Ship Festival. When Wang Chuan circled the street, firecrackers sounded everywhere, and you rushed into the firecracker array to take pictures of Wang Chuan. " "It seems that I am really brave." "I saw some firecracker shavings on your body, so I asked you: Does it hurt?" She smiled, "But you answered: it doesn't hurt, and it feels good." "When I was a senior, I worked at 7-11 near your home, and I often saw you coming in to buy things." She said, "One morning you were in a hurry to go to class, and before the automatic door opened, you rushed in and hit Glass door.Due to the great force, the glass door also had some malfunctions.I ask you: does it hurt? You answer: If it hurts, you don’t have to lose money? " "When you were in the army, I knew you would take the train, and I knew you had the habit of reading anytime, anywhere, So I went to work at the Dunhuang Bookstore in front of the train station. "She said, "I often help you find books on the shelf. The book will also remind you that the train is about to leave. " "Fortunately, I have you." "On the eve of your discharge from the army, when you came to the bookstore for the last time, I asked you: Does it hurt?" she said, "You seemed to be taken aback before you said: Being a soldier doesn't hurt, it's just boring." "After retiring from the army, you went to work in Taipei. I didn't go with you. I know you can't know the way to Taipei. I will return to Tainan soon.Sure enough, three months later, you will return to work in Tainan. " "then you……" "I drive a minivan and sell breakfast downstairs in your company every morning. You often buy Earlier, you asked me once: why only sell sandwiches and rice balls, not omelettes? I replied: Don't you think the omelet hurts when you make it? " she smiled, "You said I was a strange person. From now on, I will be a strange person." "You moved into this community three years ago, and Lily and I went to work in the garden coffee shop next to the park." "Lily?" I said. "That's your sister." "Yeah." She smiled, "Lily is busy when you walk into the coffee shop because I always Try to find opportunities to talk to you. " "Sure enough, it's all hard work." "You always order hot coffee, and I'll write it down. You say you have a bad nose, and when the weather suddenly changes Stuffy nose, better than the weather forecast, so I add whiskey to my cold drip coffee.you order The coffee will be thicker, so the dripping speed of the iced coffee you drink is not 7 drops in 10 seconds, But 7 drops in 11 seconds.Once I asked you: how do you feel when eating alone?You answer: It seems a little lonely. "She paused, smiled, and then said: "From now on, I will have dinner with you." I am no longer surprised, only full of emotion. "After the second year of junior high school, before I opened this store, we talked about it in the garden coffee shop next to the park. The one who talks the most and spends the longest time together, sometimes I even have the illusion that you will soon remember me. It's a pity that you still can't remember me. " "Sorry." I was ashamed. "If you want to say sorry, I should say it." She smiled, "Eight months ago, the Garden Coffee Shop The boss is going to tear down the store and rebuild a house. I know you like that fish tank very much, so I bought it. Then I borrowed some money and rented it to open a simple restaurant. " "I'm afraid of being forgotten, and I'm also afraid of being forgotten," she said, "so the name of the store is Forgotten." "I seem to have heard this passage." "Yeah." She nodded, "I told you ten days ago." "You have a really good memory." I sighed, "Unlike me, I forget you again and again." "My memory is good because I'm afraid of forgetting everything about you." She smiled, "It's also because I was afraid of being forgotten by you, so I started again until the lake barbecue half a year ago. " "Restart?" She straightened her clothes and smoothed her hair, with a sweet smile on her face.Say: "I'll get myself clean and look as gentle and elegant as possible. Then Come up to you and say something. " "Which sentence?" "I'm Su Liyun, just call me Liyun." "You are like this..." I don't know how to describe it, "it seems very pitiful." Li Yun smiled, shrugged slightly, and then shook her head. "Although you still can't remember me, I will try my best to get close to you and find topics to talk to you. Maybe it's because I've always wanted to ask you: Does it hurt?So the topic is often related to pain. "she says, "As long as I can be close to you and help you remember memories that you may forget, I am very satisfied. As for whether you remember me or not, it's just whether there are strawberries on the cake. " After she finished speaking, she smiled again.Still a clean, sweet, reassuring smile. I looked carefully at Liyun, the girl who had appeared in my dreams for many years. It turns out that the so-called dream is actually a memory.Whether it is the past life, or the past life of this life. Perhaps it can also be said that the so-called memory is just a dream. I felt dizzy and my head felt heavy. He put his head in his hands and closed his eyes. Although Liyun's words tonight helped me find my long-lost memory; But what she said in "Forgetting" tonight may not be too long, and I will still forget it. Even all the memories in "forgetting" during this period will be lost someday in the future. I will forget Liyun again. Like Liyun, I am afraid of being forgotten and also afraid of being forgotten. What if I wake up one day and forget who I am? Where will Liyun be then? What if she forgets me? "Does it hurt?" Li Yun asked. "It hurts." I raised my head and glanced at her. Liyun stretched out her right hand, and after staying in the air for a few seconds, Finally put it down slowly and gently stroked my hair. "When you are lost in the sea or in the desert, I will draw a boat or ride a camel to get close to you. Although in your memory, I may always be just a dirty and fierce girl. But some memories are not stored in the cortex, nor in the hippocampus; those memories are forever Store it in your heart. " Li Yun pointed to her left chest with her left hand, with a clean smile still on her face. "Yeah? It's time for me to pick up Lily." After looking at her watch, Liyun stood up and said: "You take a look at the store for me first, and I'll be back later." "You have to come back early. Okay?" My voice suddenly choked up, "Because I feel like I'm going to forget you." "I'll be back before you forget me." After Liyun finished speaking, she smiled, turned around and walked to the door of the store, and picked two rosemary. She put a sprig of rosemary in my coat pocket and held the other in her hand. "Do you know the flower language of rosemary?" I shake my head. "The flower language of rosemary is 'memory'." Li Yun said, "The rich aroma of rosemary has To enhance the effect of brain activity, the ancient folk remedies use rosemary to help memory, So rosemary is regarded as a symbol of eternal memory.Rosemary has been lovers ever since Swear an oath to each other that will never be forgotten and will never change until death. " I smelled the aroma of rosemary in my jacket pocket, lowered my head and took a deep breath. "Rosemary, that's a memory. Honey, please keep it in your mind." Li Yun smiled and said: "That's a line from Shakespeare's Hamlet." I raised my head and looked into Li Yun's bright eyes. "Also, do you know the original version of the fairy tale?" I shook my head again. "In the original version of the book, Sleeping Beauty, who has been in a coma for a hundred years, was not killed by a white horse. Instead of being awakened by a kiss, the prince was awakened by a bouquet of rosemary. " "Someday in the future, if you have forgotten me..." Li Yun shook the rosemary in her hand lightly, "I will also use rosemary to awaken the memory hidden in your heart." I couldn't answer, I just felt the aroma of rosemary getting stronger and stronger. "Almost forgot." Li Yun stuck out her tongue, "The rosemary biscuits are already baked." She walked into the bar, opened the oven, took out the baked cookies, and walked out of the bar. "Take a look." She smiled, "This is my first time baking rosemary cookies." "You bake rosemary biscuits in the oven, doesn't it hurt?" "No," she said, "rosemary is a memory, all my memories of being with you are Sweet and doesn't hurt at all. " Liyun opened the store door, turned her head and smiled at me, and said: "No matter when and where, if you have forgotten me, I will pick a rosemary, Pin it to your chest.Then come up to you and say a word to you. " "Which sentence?" "I'm Su Liyun, just call me Liyun." Liyun smiled again, very sweet, gentle and clean. So, as if to wake up something, the whole room of "Forgotten" was filled with the aroma of rosemary.