Chapter 15 Section VI

"Remember?" Liyun put rosemary udon noodles in front of me and said: "When the owner of the garden coffee shop wanted to transfer his shop, I bought this fish tank from him." "Oh." I shook my head. Liyun stuck out her tongue, went to the bar and served another bowl of noodles, then walked back and sat down opposite me. I was a little absent-minded, so I didn't know how to eat, so I put down my chopsticks with half of the noodles left. "Retire early tonight, and tomorrow morning you will have a business trip to Taipei." Li Yun said. "Almost forgot." I said, "Huh? You know I'm going to Taipei on a business trip?"

"You told me a few days ago." "Really?" I sighed, "My memory is so bad, it will be bad if I miss work." "Don't worry." She was very sure, "Your work will be fine." "Huh?" I was puzzled. "One night while you were having dinner at the Garden Cafe, a couple who looked like a couple walked in The male and female are around 50 years old, and the female is only in her 20s. Li Yun paused and said: "But as soon as they walked into the store, the man's eyes met yours for a few seconds, then he turned and left."

"Why is this happening?" "I was also very puzzled at the time. I looked at you and heard you say: I'm out of luck." "Exit?" "I walked up to you and asked why you said that?" Liyun couldn't help laughing, "You said: It's a realm to be able to witness the boss dating his mistress during dinner." "Oh?" "I said maybe they were just a couple with a big age gap, you said: best couples night When walking in the park, the husband wears a suit and tie, and the wife wears heavy makeup. " "I was right."

"Yeah." Li Yun smiled and nodded, "I agree too." No wonder my boss hardly scolds me if I miss work because of my bad memory, He even said to me: "You are a noble person, so you will inevitably forget things." It turned out that he was trying to gag me. "Then is the relationship between my boss and his mistress still strong?" I asked. "Probably." Li Yun smiled, "Because your work is going well." "That's good." I also smiled. "The meal is over, and the cold drip coffee has been drunk in the afternoon." I stood up, "I should go."

"Yeah." Li Yun also stood up and sent me to the door, "Go to bed early." I walked home slowly, and what happened today was so shocking that I couldn't digest it at all. Fortunately, I finally heard good news, knowing that my job is very stable and will not be broken. Otherwise, I will doubt whether I have the strength to walk home? After I took a shower, watched TV for a while, and prepared materials for tomorrow's business trip, I went to bed. Then I dreamed about that girl again. When she asked me, "Does it hurt?" and slowly reached out to touch my head,

I actually said, "Are you Jiang Liyun?" She seemed startled, and quickly lowered her hand. So I woke up. After rinsing, go to the door first and see what is placed at the door? There was a briefcase at the door, and a note saying "Business trip in Taipei" was pasted on the briefcase. Before I go to bed at night, I put all the things I need to take out by the door, and occasionally write a note. As long as you walk to the door and take a look, you will not forget what to do today. It's a habit I've developed over the years, and a survival instinct in response to a bad memory.

I put on a decent shirt and tie, grabbed my briefcase and took the elevator down. As soon as I walked to the gate of the community, I saw Li Yun. "Morning." She said, "I'll take you to the car." "Don't bother," I said. "No trouble. I'm going to the market to buy some ingredients anyway." She said, "Let's go." I was about to decline again, but she had already turned and walked to the left, so I had to follow behind her. Liyun was driving the car, and I sat on her right hand side, we didn't talk along the way. Fifteen minutes later, she said, "Here we are."

I got out of the car and said thank you, turned around and took two steps, then turned around suddenly and asked: "How do you know I'm going to take the bus?" "Your company is stingy, and only subsidizes the cheapest passenger car for business trips." Li Yun said. "How do you..." "The car is coming soon." Liyun restarted the car, "Hurry up and buy a ticket." I hurried to the ticket office to buy a ticket, and the bus arrived as soon as the ticket sales lady finished changing the money. I got in the car and found my seat by the aisle, and a nun was already sitting by the window.

It is a realm to be able to sit with a nun in a car. "Amitabha." She said, "Almsgiver, long time no see." How is it now? I could only force a smile, nodded, and sat down again. "Amitabha," she said, "donor, do you get motion sickness?" "Amitabha." I replied, "I will not." "Amitabha. Donor, you are out of luck." She said, "I will." "what?" "It's all cause and effect." She smiled. I try to search for memories in my mind, although I know the results are usually in vain. But getting to know a nun should be a very special thing, at least you should have a vague impression.

Unexpectedly, there is no "fuzz" in my mind, only blankness. "Forget it and forget it," she said, "Don't be attached." I couldn't help turning my head to look at her. "Do you remember your previous life?" she asked. "Past life?" I wondered what she asked, "Of course I don't remember." "Since you have forgotten the memory of your previous life, how should you live this life?" "This life?" I wondered even more, "This life is still the same." "So, even if you have forgotten yesterday..." She smiled slightly,

"What does it matter to today?" Although I do not agree with the logical connection between these two situations, this sentence should be a kind of Zen. Logic cannot derive or verify Zen, because logic is sometimes a kind of attachment. I don't think about it anymore, forget it and forget it. So what if you forget?So what? On the way, she got up twice to go to the toilet to vomit, and each time I stood up first to make it easier for her to leave the seat. "Are you all right?" I asked after she came back from the toilet for the second time. "It's okay." She forced a smile, "My practice is not enough." "This should have nothing to do with practice. Just relax and think about nothing." "Yeah." She nodded, "You really have a connection with Buddhism." Have a relationship with Buddhism? In fact, I just hope that she won't get in trouble because she thinks she will get motion sickness. As long as you have the obstacle of "I will get motion sickness" in your heart, you will be more likely to get motion sickness. Maybe she listened to me, and the journey was much better afterwards, and she didn't get up to go to the bathroom anymore. Finally arrived in Taipei, she got out of the car first, and said thank you to me before getting off the car. I get off at the terminal. The place I'm going to is just near the drop-off place, so I don't need to turn, just go straight for 50 meters. I eat lunch on the side of the road first, take a break after lunch, and then go to work. About five o'clock after the matter was settled, I wanted to walk around the streets of Taipei first, looking for a place to have dinner, After dinner, drive back to Tainan. When I walked out of the shop after dinner and was going in the direction of the station, I got lost. I am completely unfamiliar with the street in front of me, as if I have never passed by it just now. Just like being in the sea or desert, surrounded by only vast blue or yellow, There are no identifiable landmarks at all. I don't know where to go? Pedestrians hurried past me, but I just stood there. I was panicked and anxious, I just passed by, why can't I get the direction? I had a vague feeling of déjà vu, and it was the same when I first came to work in Taipei after leaving the army. At that time, I often lost my way suddenly, and every time I could only go home by asking passers-by or taking a taxi. That's why I quit my job and went back to Tainan. Now that burning, distraught feeling is back and I'm completely overwhelmed. I put my head in my hands, closed my eyes, and squatted down. After squatting for a long time, my feet were already numb. I thought I couldn't be exhausted like this, I had to go home. With some effort, he opened his eyes and stood up. I didn't have the strength to walk back to the station, stretched out my right hand, and hailed a taxi. The taxi only took two turns and arrived at the station in less than five minutes. When I got on the train to Tainan, I felt very tired, but the panic just now was still there. I feel the rapid beating of my heart. Four hours later, I got out of the car and took a taxi home. I got off at the gate of the community and looked at my watch, it was already 11 o'clock at night. Liyun's shop should be closed, but I vaguely saw that the signboard lights were still on. I walked towards Liyun's store, and when I reached the door, I hesitated whether I should open the store door or not. "You're back." Liyun smiled after opening the door, but seeing my expression, she asked again: "what happened to you?" "I……" "Come in and talk." I walked to the innermost seat by the right wall and sat down, and asked, "Why aren't you closing?" "I'm experimenting with making rosemary cookies." "Oh." I simply responded. "Is today's business trip going well?" She sat down opposite me. "It went well. But when I got to the station and came back by car, I suddenly lost my way..." "That's okay." She smiled, "The road is under the nose, just ask people." Her reaction surprised me, as if getting lost suddenly was nothing to be surprised about. "But I just walked by, and I haven't gone far..." "It doesn't matter." She said again, "If you get lost, you will get lost, as long as it is not a sika deer." "what?" "Because the elk is bigger than the sika deer." "It's cold." But I smiled. "By the way. When I was in the car this morning, there was a nun sitting next to me." I thought of the nun in the morning, "She seemed to know me, and told me: Long time no see." "She is the master of Shuiyue Temple. In order to build a Buddhist temple, she often sells fruits near the hospital." "Then why does she know me?" "You bought fruit from her." She smiled, "Before you go to see the girl in the emergency room, usually Will buy fruit with her first.Once you bought fruit with all your money, when you and the girl finished eating After dinner, I realized that I had no money on me, and it turned out that the date was a girl treat. " "I see." Although I nodded, I still had no impression. "That master often said that you are very destined for Buddhism." "Maybe." I smiled wryly, "Buddha blessed me with only two slaps, not in the emergency room Extubated. " "Do you remember that master?" "Not at all." I smiled wryly. "Take it easy," she said, "Maybe when you relax, you'll remember." "It has nothing to do with the mood," I said, "You don't have to comfort me." "Maybe in the future..." "I can't even remember it now." I interrupted her, "The more time passes, the more blurred my memory will be." "That might be. Maybe one day you'll remember seeing me years ago..." "I don't remember seeing you, nor knowing you." My voice suddenly increased, "My memory is bad, stop testing me!" I can no longer bear the sudden appearance of lost memories, and I can't let go of the sudden loss. The pressure has exceeded the critical point, and the volcano erupts. After the volcano erupted, I felt a little exhausted and slowly lowered my head. "Does it hurt?" she asked. I was shocked by this sentence, I raised my head and saw her right hand half stretched out, frozen in the air. And her eyes were full of sadness. When she came into my sight, she slowly lowered her right hand. I suddenly realized: Liyun is the girl of my dreams!