Chapter 8 Section VIII

Memory is sometimes much worse than imagined, but sometimes it is better than you imagined. Just like visually impaired people have better hearing than normal people because they can't see; It is the same reason that hearing-impaired people have sharper vision than ordinary people because they cannot hear. Since I had never met her, the memory on the note was all the more vivid. Once the days form a pattern, the passing speed will become faster and more silent. The 21st century has arrived, the earth is not destroyed, and there is no sign of the imminent end of the world. The times originally flowed slowly forward, but with the development of computer and network technology,

The flow of the times has become a torrent. Those who are attached to the same place cannot resist the torrent, and can only be pushed away, floating and sinking. Audio cassettes were replaced by CDs, CDs were replaced by mp3s; Videotapes were replaced by VCDs, and VCDs were replaced by DVDs. The phone becomes a mobile phone, and the BBS becomes a BLOG. The function of the fingers is no longer to hold a pen to write, but to use the fingers to press the keys. The college entrance examination is no longer a narrow door, but the door is wide open. Even the term "joint examination" has been replaced by "reference examination".

One day in the future, when I talk to my children about the pressure of the college entrance examination, He might think I'm talking monkey talk. If I met her in this era, and still met in the second year of high school. Then we will probably only pass the note once. "What's your MSN? Or Instant Messenger?" After that, we will not pass notes in the drawer, but use MSN to talk in front of the computer. As "Thewaywewere" sings: "If we had the chance to do it all over again, Can we still be as simple as before?Can time rewrite every inch of fragment? May I?

is it possible? " "We can't go back." Zhang Ailing said so in the movie. She and I also can't go back to that era, that plot, and that mood. When I was almost 30 years old, I went to work in Taitung, and I am in my 30s now. My colleagues in the work unit always like to call me an otaku when they see that I have been single for a long time and live a simple life. Being an otaku is not bad, at least he has a good heart, because there is an idiom called otaku with a kind heart. My colleagues thought that I must be very kind, so they helped me arrange several activities similar to blind dates.

Although I should be regarded as a good person, the girls introduced by my colleagues are also very good; However, when two very good people get together, it may not have a good ending. Just like hot pot is good, ice cream is also good, but ice cream can't be added to hot pot. So me and those girls failed to bear fruit in the end. Criminal psychologists often say that no matter how many people a serial killer has killed, Always like to linger around the murder scene when the first person was killed. My psychology should be similar to serial murderers, because after all these years,

I still think of her often, and I often think about those notes. But you know what? The moon is gradually moving away from the earth at a rate of nearly 4 centimeters per year. One day, the moon will completely separate from the earth and stop orbiting the earth. Just like old friends or even lovers who have not met or contacted for a long time, In fact, they are bit by bit, at a slow speed that we can't even notice, Quietly leave our lives. I'm sure she will too. As the saying goes: A broken pot has a rotten lid. It means that no matter how old the pot is, it will naturally have a broken pot lid that matches it.

I also found my pot lid by chance. One day, my colleagues went to Fugang Fishing Port to eat seafood. I have been to that restaurant several times before, so I am familiar with it. The store is run by a mother and daughter, the daughter is a few years younger than me, Colleagues took the nickname "Flower of Tomioka". We ate late that day, and the other guests were all gone, so the owner's daughter came to chat with us. "When you open a seafood shop, who do you most fear meeting?" Tomioka asked. Colleagues answered one after another: people who don’t pay, people who don’t eat seafood, people who are afraid of fishy smell, etc.

My colleague's level is here, which is impressive. At this time, I suddenly remembered that she used to ask me such questions all the time, so I couldn't help blurting out: "Spider-Man!" Everyone was taken aback and asked me, "Why Spider-Man?" "Because Spider-Man doesn't eat seafood." I replied. "Why not Batman, Superman, Hulk, X-Men, Naruto..." A colleague was very excited and said loudly: "Why only spiders don't eat seafood?" "Spider-Man also squirts a lot of spider silk, which will make the store dirty." I said,

"These spider silks are difficult to clean. If they are not cleaned, customers will think that the store is unhygienic. Will not come to patronize again.Therefore, those who open a seafood shop are most afraid of meeting Spider-Man. " After I finished speaking, everyone opened their mouths wide and could not speak. Then my agitated colleague seemed to break down. When checking out, Hana Tomioka said that there would be a 20% discount. "Your answer just now is very nonsensical and funny." Tomioka Zhihua pointed at me, and laughed while talking, "Spider-Man's answer is really..."

Tomioka's Hana laughed out of breath and couldn't finish her sentence. In the cold wind where I told bad jokes, the flower of Tomioka neither froze nor collapsed, Colleagues thought that Tomioka Zhihua and I must have a good relationship, so they wanted to match us up. When they found out that Tomioka Zhihua was still single, they went to discuss with Tomioka Zhihua's mother. Tomioka Hana's mother is worried about her daughter's life-long event, and she has a good impression of us, He held an optimistic attitude. We went to that seafood shop more frequently and stayed longer each time.

Tomioka Hana's mother would take the initiative to ask me some things, such as why I haven't got married yet? "The Xiongnu are still alive, so what do you do with your family?" I blurted out. It is only my fault that I am full of knowledge, and I quote the scriptures as soon as I open my mouth, which is really troublesome. Fortunately, Tomioka Zhihua's mother seems to have never heard of Huo Qubing, nor did she understand what I was talking about. Thought I had said something great, and made an even better impression of me. Colleagues really hope that I can stay with Hana Tomioka, so that it will be cheaper to eat seafood in the future. "Forge iron while it is hot, and eat seafood while it is fresh." My colleagues always encourage me like this. Someone else took the initiative to offer advice, asking me to rent a boat to take the flower of Tomioka to the sea, and then said: "Look! This rough sea symbolizes my love." The person who would have thought of this dialogue was married and happy, and I was alone. There really is no fairness and justice in life. The love plot in the 30s usually does not have climaxes and twists and turns; There will be no inexplicable triangle relationship or accidental car accident and loss of memory. It is even more unlikely that when it comes to marriage, it is discovered that they are half-siblings. As long as they can be talked about and the differences in personalities are not too great, it is not difficult to achieve a positive result. Tomioka Nohana has a soft and tolerant personality, and can accept me with many flaws. And the flower of Tomioka will not suddenly want to cry when spring comes, Not laughing and saying, "I was in a car accident. Haha, I was in a car accident. Yay!" So although my relationship with Tomioka Nohana was uneventful, it has always moved forward smoothly. I remember the first time I asked Hana Tomioka to watch a movie, Hana Tomioka only said: "Can I watch a midnight movie?" "Of course," I said. "You like to watch midnight shows?" "No. Because today is Saturday, the store is busy. I'm afraid my mother will be too busy." At that moment, I thought that Hana Tomioka would be a good companion. After dating Hana Tomioka for a year and a half, I have plans to start a family. In the novel, the male protagonist may secretly buy a ring and a large bouquet of flowers, Sailed the heroine to the sea in a small boat, then knelt down on one knee and shouted: "Look! This rough sea symbolizes my love. So please marry me!" But turbulent waves can not only be used to describe love, but also easily drown people. If the heroine is calm enough, she should say: "Let's get back to land safely first, then we can talk." In real life, I was about two weeks after the Lunar New Year, One night, I sat by the seaside with Hana Tomioka. We were very quiet, and the surrounding area was also very quiet, except for the regular sound of the waves. I looked up at the starry sky, made up my mind, then turned around and asked Hana Tomioka: "Would you like to get married this fall?" "Okay." Tomioka Hana smiled. That's all. Life is like waiting for a ship to come into port. After experiencing the wind and waves of the sea, the ship finally sailed into the port area and slowly moved forward along the channel. The ship went slower and slower, and the shaking range became smaller and smaller. Finally stop, drop anchor, no longer adrift. However, in the storm of the sea, the ship will long to enter the port; Once anchored in port, you will miss the wind and waves on the sea. After the ship anchored, I thought of her again, so I took out the 40 photocopied papers to review. I suddenly wanted to listen to "Diamonds and Rust", the kind of thinking I wanted very much. Although her tapes are still there, there is no longer anything around her that can play the tapes. I searched on YouTube and found out that this year, in 2007, Video of Joan Baez singing live in Prague. Joan Baez is 66 years old, still standing on the stage, playing and singing with his guitar in his arms. The clear and lingering high-pitched voice of his youth is no longer there, and he seems to be lacking in energy when he sings. When I was feeling that the years are not forgiving, I heard: "FortyyearsagoIboughtyousomecufflinks..." My heart was surging and I was very excited. Another decade passed and Joan Baez started singing Fortyyearsago. I want to see her, and I want her to see me. The 17-year-old high school boy and girl who shared the same desk and chair and exchanged notes in the drawer, The youthful past between them was not a dream, but a real existence. But what should I do? I don't know her name or any way to contact her, so where do I find out? I fell into a mood of despair that lasted for days. It wasn't until one day when I had to use a search engine to find information at work that I saw the light of day. In Google's search grid, won't the things you searched for before appear when you click it? That day I happened to see that in the long list of things pulled out from under the grid, appeared: "Taishin Bank + Vault + Floor Plan + Guard Shift Time" What are you going to do?Want to rob a bank vault? Sure enough, the forest is big, and there are all kinds of birds.Someone would go online to search for information about robbing banks. I was suddenly blessed to my heart, and said those two sentences that both me and her had puzzled before—— "Everyone sees that the flowers are thousands of feet deep, but the Mingtai is half as short" as the keyword, and began to search. Unexpectedly, I found a blog. The description on the blog homepage is: Everyone sees that the flowers are thousands of feet deep, but the Mingtai is half as short. I am both excited and nervous. There is very little information about the blog owner, only that she is a woman and lives in San Francisco. There are also many photos of San Francisco in the photo album, but unfortunately there are no people. In the blog, I wrote some discussion articles about old Western songs, and I also wrote some emotional notes. It took me three hours to read all the articles and I couldn't be sure if it was really her? I had to write an E-mail. "Excuse me. Everyone sees that the flowers are thousands of feet deep, but the Mingtai is half as short." These two sentences, Reminds me of a friend I knew in high school. I don't know where you heard these two sentences? Please let me know if it is convenient, it is very important to me.thanks. " "I dreamed these two sentences, not heard them. You also remind me of a friend I knew in high school. If you are him, please enter the passphrase. " Pass code? I was at a loss, and turned out the 40 photocopied papers to find clues. It dawned on me after reading a few pages. "19, 69, 10, 15, 22, 48." "Hey, it's really you! Long time no see, how are you? Time flies so fast, and in a blink of an eye we are no longer young and young. I live in San Francisco now and have been there for seven years. Come and play with me when you are free. If you're going to San Francisco Be sure to wear some flowers in your hair..." Sure enough, she loves to listen to old Western songs, so she just wrote the lyrics of "San Francisco": If you're going to San Francisco, don't forget to wear some flowers in your hair. "I have been in Taitung for almost ten years, and my job is very stable. If you come to Taitung, you don't need to wear a flower on your head, and I will treat you to eat custard. I'm less likely to go to San Francisco, I'm more likely to go to Houston. NASA wants to find someone to land on Mars, and I'm afraid it will come to me. " "You still love to tell bad jokes about zero points. My life here is considered leisurely, not bad. The law and order in the United States is not good, and the anti-theft device you sent is very useful. I didn't expect to receive your E-mail suddenly after so many years, This reminds me of the lyrics of "Diamonds and Rust". Hey, you must still be shining like a diamond. " "I'm not a diamond anymore, I'm just leftovers. Do you still play the guitar?" "I seldom play these years. But now I have the urge to play the guitar." "It's a pity that I don't have ears, so I can't listen." "Don't say that. By the way, this year happens to be 20 years after graduating from high school. Our classmates I want to have a class reunion.I may go back to Taiwan this summer vacation. " "Then maybe we'll meet." "Yes. Perhaps." When I communicated with her by E-mail, although I was excited and excited, there was always a sense of strangeness. It wasn't until later that our interaction in E-mail was like writing a note, and I didn't regain some familiarity. But what about familiarity? It has been 20 years since she graduated from high school, so her departure marks 21 years. When I met her, she was a 17-year-old young girl, and now she is a 38-year-old mature woman. In the best 21 years of our lives, we had no intersection at all. What can I say to her? the distant past?Things are thousands of kilometers apart now?Or is it their own future? Tomioka Zhihua and I have already made a white-headed agreement, and we will know each other and stay together in the days to come. And she may have been married and had children, maybe her children were at the age when I met her. Although in my heart, her existence has a special meaning, and it will last forever; But in her heart? Could the past of passing the note be just a small episode in her life? Or is it as distant as a vague memory from a previous life? Can I still talk to her? Can't go back, really can't go back. And if she and I really have so-called "worries", we should also talk to our lovers. No matter how beautiful the memories are, they should be carefully stored in the corner. Those who cling to the memories of the past cannot fly to the future. While she and I were thrilled by this unexpected reunion, time and space had long since changed. The tone of my E-mail with her was polite, and there was a sense of strangeness that couldn't be shaken off. Even if we write E-mail as a note, we still can't recall the emotion we felt when we were 17 years old. Because she and I no longer share drawers. Gradually, we stopped communicating by E-mail, and only kept the beauty of reunion. But I still want to see her. It's my turn to believe from the bottom of my heart that I will definitely meet her. On the top left corner of the Christmas card she sent me and the first photocopies, it read: "The Buddha said that you looked back 500 times in the previous life, only to pass by in this life." I believe that I must look back at her past life more than 500 times. So I will definitely meet her. must.