Chapter 5 Section five

"Hi, I'm back. Miss me?" "Are you willing to go back to school?" "It's reluctance, but I can't help it, because school has started. Did you have a fulfilling winter vacation?" "Very fulfilling. I read a lot of textbooks and took a lot of exams." "You worry about the country and the people in the classroom, and I go to the suburbs with blue sea and blue sky. It's great." "This world is so unfair." "I'm kidding. Did you forget? Even though it's winter break, I still have to work." I almost forgot that she was a make-up student at night and had a job during the day.

My world is too narrow, as if there is nothing in this world except the entrance exam. Anyway, she's back in class, and I have something to look forward to when I walk into the classroom every morning. I finally returned to the normal day of passing notes, and my heart was much more stable. I will be promoted to the third year of high school soon, and this is what the teachers have been thinking about this semester. And when they said this, they looked as if aliens were attacking and the earth was about to perish. Made me nervous. I often complain to her about this mood, and she always tries to divert my attention.

"Which idiom contains four animals?" "Brothers and sisters. These are four kinds of people, and people are also animals." "It's a clue (pig lion horse chicken)!" "Please stop telling bad jokes, I'll give you money." "Another one. Who knows pigs best?" "Fucking pig." "Wrong. The answer is spider (zhizhu)." "Why not Spider-Man? You are asking "who", so you know "who" is right." "Okay, you are right, you are right. There is a pack of biscuits in the drawer, please eat."

"Thank you. But please do me a favor and stop asking such questions." "Why don't you ask me?" "Our levels are too different. I am at the level of the Nobel Prize in Literature, and you are at the level of elementary school composition. You'd be ashamed if I asked. " "Just ask, don't talk too much." "How do you say Dun Lun in English?" "Hey! You can't ask this kind of question." "That's what you think. Because the English name of London is London, so of course London is called Nodnol. " "You are colder than me."

"It's good to know. I told you earlier, our levels are too different." "Okay, then I won't ask this kind of question. By the way, did you win any composition competition?" "Is that 10,000-word composition? I haven't heard that there is an award. If that composition wins an award, Taiwan's Composition education in high school should be thoroughly reviewed. " "I've always been curious, why did your Chinese teacher choose you to participate in the competition?" "As long as there are people playing, he can do business. He doesn't care who participates."

"Sounds a little sad." What's so sad about it? In this era when the school entrance doctrine is in command, every high school only cares about the school entrance rate. Your greatest significance to the school is whether your name will appear on the list in the future, Who cares how many awards you won for the school? Schools don't care, and students don't care. "You're taking it too seriously. Can you tell me what the entrance exam is for you?" "It's all the youth from 16 to 18 years old. What is it to you?" "I'm very useless. I didn't take the entrance exam, and I went to high school."

"Hey, don't underestimate yourself. If you do this again, I won't talk to you." "I apologize. In fact, most of our supplementary school students are like this, and only a few will take the entrance exam." I also know this situation. Many supplementary school students have already entered the social work for many years. They may not be able to attend high school due to environmental factors when they are young, So they cherish the opportunity to study at night, no matter how busy they are at work during the day. This is the case with the students in her class, and some students even have children.

For supplementary school students, they may study with a grateful or motivated heart; But for normal high school students like us, we have no heart, only the entrance exam. "Do you know the store on Dongning Road? The one with the black sign at the door?" "It's a rock and roll restaurant, and the sign says: The entrance exam + generation gap = rock and roll. The pressure of the entrance exam Coupled with the generation gap with his parents, he had no choice but to express his depression through rock music.Why do you ask about this? " "Because the entrance exam + generation gap = rock, so according to the transposition rule of mathematics, it becomes:

Entrance exam = rock - generation gap.In this way, you should clearly know what the entrance exam is, that is Rock - Generation Gap. " "Hey, it's cold!" "Be kind and give me some laughs, it's the only remaining sense of humor a poor high school kid has." "Hey, although the pressure of the college entrance examination is great; although your life is only left to study and take the exam; although You were forced to enter an essay contest you didn't want to enter, and you wrote it three times in a row, but you Don't complain about it, let alone become cynical.your future sky

It is vast and blue, so don't bear these hazes.okay? " Frankly speaking, when I saw these words, I was very excited. Since high school, I've been walking the same pace every day, just moving forward. I have never seen everything beside the road, although I can enjoy the scenery along the road just by stopping, But my footsteps never stopped, even getting faster and faster. Studying and taking exams occupy all my time, and I only live for studying and taking exams. Occasionally I would think that studying and taking exams are not occupying my heart, but a kind of corrosion.

If one day I stop, the roadside scenery should be completely unfamiliar. And I, will I also be a stranger to myself? Fortunately, there is her. A person who is the same age as me but is not a competitor in the entrance exam, but just a simple friend. She let me know that I am just a 17-year-old high school student, standing at the starting point of youth. She also asked me to remind myself not to be overwhelmed by the bizarre phenomena I saw at this time. Affect the angle and eyes that I see the world in the future. "I will listen to you. In short, I just study hard, don't think too much, don't twist own personality.But writing the same composition three times in a row is an exaggeration. " "Maybe your Chinese teacher compares himself to Huang Shigong, and then treats you as Zhang Liang. He is just testing Are you a child to teach.You should think so. " "Your joke is so funny, I laughed out loud." "I'm enlightening you, not making you laugh." "Oh. I remembered a cold joke: What should I do if a child is unfilial? The answer is to make him laugh." "This joke still has zero points. In short, you have to remember that I will silently stand behind you and support you." "That's a bad metaphor. Those who stand silently behind are usually ghosts." "Hey! Do you want me to pretend to be a ghost to scare you again?" "I'm just saying that your analogy is not good, because only ghosts stand behind silently without making a sound. Scary, that's how horror movies are played. " "Then I'll order a song for you, "Bridgeovertroubledwater"." "Thank you. This song is really nice." "Like a bridge across the bad water, I would like to lie down and become a bridge to help you cross the bad water. Like a bridge over troubled water I will lay me down..." "Thank you. I'm touched." "Even if you have a conscience, you know how to be moved." "You have a chemistry test tomorrow morning, you can lie down and become a bridge." "I don't know chemistry at all. You just fell into troubled water." "It's better that way." "Hey, I'm serious, not kidding." "Well, I know. That's why I said I was touched." I was really touched. Especially after reading the lyrics of "Bridgeovertroubledwater". The teachers all regard the sophomore year of high school as the starting point for the sprint for the entrance exam, and they continue to speed up and whip again and again. Although the pressure of studying is getting bigger and bigger, my mood is not getting worse. Once I feel depressed, I can use the drawer as a window to vent. And she will listen to my complaints attentively, no matter how long the text of my complaints is. Of course she still likes to divert my attention. "I heard that there is a place in Taipei called Maokong, why is it called "Maokong"?" "You're here again." "Guess what. If you guess right, I'll give you a gift." "It's easy. Because here comes the dog." "How do you know? I've thought about this question for a long time." "Because our levels are too different, if you want to guess your question correctly, you can only use a pan to Hit the head three times and it turns out to be stupid, so I got it right. " "Better. The presents are in the drawer." It was a temperature test card about the size of a palm, with a cute shape. Put it on the forehead for about a minute, and if the body temperature is normal, a green smile will appear; A mild fever is an orange scowl; a severe fever is a red wail. "Thank you. Is this accurate?" "Quite! Bought from Baodao. If you feel unwell, remember to measure." Later she thought of a way to relieve my depression. That's when she would tell me which song she played for me last night. "Palomablanca was played for you last night, Dove. I'm just a bird in the sky Una Palomablanca Overthe mountains Ifly No one can take my freedom away..." When I get home, I will listen to this song carefully, and then I will feel happy physically and mentally. Like the white dove flying over the mountains in the lyrics, no one can take my freedom away. Whether it is "Moonriver" or "Edelweiss" (little white flower) with a very gentle melody; Or the brisk "Knockthreetimes", "Sukiyaki" (Sukiyaki), "Elcondorpasa" (Song of the Eagle), she once wrote on a note. But what she most often writes on the note is Joan Baez's song. I often listen to the tapes and imagine her playing and singing with the guitar in my mind. Over time, I forgot that she was actually just "writing" on the note, not actually playing it to me. I even order songs from her. "Play "Jackaroe," which is also a famous song by Joan Baez." "This song is too sad for you." ""DonnaDonna" is also a little sad, why don't you still play it to me?" ""DonnaDonna" is different, at least the lyrics still have the meaning of longing for freedom. The melody and lyrics of "Jackaroe" have an indelible sadness. I'm afraid that if you listen to this song when you are in a bad mood for the physics exam, you will want to jump off the building. " "Then play Diamonds and Rust." ""Diamonds and Rust" will not be played until we meet." In case we don't meet... I just wrote these words on the note, and suddenly felt that it was inappropriate, so I quickly crossed out the words. Although the words are crossed out, you can still see what words have been written. So I scribbled on the words again, and didn't stop until I couldn't see what words were written. She seemed to believe from the bottom of her heart that we would meet, but I was more realistic. When will we meet?Where do we meet?How to meet? And most importantly, why meet? If the meeting is just to satisfy each other's curiosity, then there is no need to meet. And what will you say after meeting?do what? If you want to say something, you can say it on the note, and you can avoid the embarrassment of being nervous and speechless. As for what to do, with the only romantic feelings of an ordinary high school student like me, I'm afraid I can only say: Can I go for a bike ride with you? I didn't want to go back to the embarrassing topic of "meeting", so I wrote on the note: "Then you must remember." "I won't forget, don't worry. Why do you paint the wrong words so black, it's ugly." "Because I want to kill the two animals in an idiom." "What do you mean? I don't understand." "Destroy the corpse (lion) and destroy the trace (chicken)." "Enough, it's too cold." I actually wanted to see her. It's just that I don't know, is this kind of "thinking" a curious thought?Or longingly? And I don't want to think about what kind of thinking this is, because I want to study. The "thinking" of missing books is a thought that has to be longed for. At the age of 17, I only know how to grasp the time to study, but I don't know how to grasp other things. I don't know what else to grasp. I just cherish and get used to the days of passing notes with her, without thinking too much about it, nor about the future. The term "later" means nothing to me now. If it is to be meaningful, it will only be after the entrance exam on July 2 next year. Between now and the entrance exam, I only have to study and have no future. So be it, leave your mind to physics, chemistry and math. The rainy season has begun, and she said that rainy days always make her late for class, so she hates rainy days. "But I like rainy days." "Why do you like rainy days?" "Because you hate rainy days, if I say I hate rainy days too, wouldn't I be very shameless?" "You really are not ordinary and boring." One day I went to school in the heavy rain, walked into the classroom and took off my raincoat. Looking down, I saw a note in the drawer that read: "Everyone sees that the flowers are thousands of feet deep, but they don't see that the Mingtai is half as short. What does this mean?" When I saw these two sentences, I pondered for a long time and still couldn't figure it out. A pair of sentences is not like a sentence, and it doesn't look like a poem, and the meaning is a bit vague. "I don't quite understand. Where do these two sentences come from?" "Why don't you understand? This is what you said." "Huh? When did I say these two sentences? I have no memory at all." "Last week you appeared in my dream and disappeared after saying these two sentences. I didn't expect you to I don't know the meaning of these two sentences, which is strange. " "It was your dream. It would be strange if I knew." "Although it was my dream, it was those two words that came out of your mouth." "I also had a dream yesterday. In the dream, you said that you owe me 10,000 yuan, and you will pay me back in two days." "What nonsense, when will I owe you money?" "Although it was my dream, it came from your mouth that you owed me 10,000 yuan." "Well, I was wrong. I don't want to take my dream seriously." "By the way, what did I look like in your dream?" "It's just like an ordinary high school student. After you have a cropped hair in high school, you almost all look the same." "I am different. I have a pair of sword eyebrows, deep eyes, a straight nose, and a firm chin." "Hey, please don't write the dialogue of romance novels on the note. Thank you." "You make-up students haven't been banned?" "Of course not. Many students in the class are already working. Does the Ministry of Education still stipulate that we Those who come to study at night, should they get a crew cut or a watermelon rind? " She can imagine what I look like, probably a nerd with a crew cut and a pair of myopia glasses. I don't even know if her hair is long or short, straight or curly. Perhaps because of this, she dreamed of me, but I never dreamed of her. There are generally only two types of dreams I have: good dreams and bad dreams. The nightmare is getting out of the exam, I'm standing on the edge of a cliff about to free fall, and no one is pulling me. Dreams are much more exciting, usually admitted to a Nobel-level department like the Department of Medicine of National Taiwan University. Then a middle-aged man came to me with a young and beautiful girl. "This is 10 million, please accept it." The middle-aged man said. "It's only ten million." My tone was very disdainful. "It's US dollars!" His tone was almost pleading, "Please, go out with my daughter." "Okay." I sighed, "It's hard to do." Then I would wake up to the sound of both him and the girl crying. This kind of dream is much more meaningful, and it is a constructive and forward-looking dream. "The meaning of those two sentences may be that no matter where the flowers grow or how deep they grow, people will see.However, no one noticed the sunken platform next to it. " "Really? It's a bit illusory." "Forgive me, I tried my best. It's really hard for me to understand those two sentences." "Don't think too much about it. Maybe one day in the future, we will know the meaning of those two sentences." In fact, there is no time to think too much, there is only less than a month left in the semester. The school wants to hold a recreational program for the senior high school students who are about to graduate, and the second-year high school students will be responsible for the performance. As usual, our class uses the method of recommendation to select students with acting talents, no, it is for the dead ghosts. As a result, my classmates and I were very honored to undertake this sacred task. The classmate on my right hand beat his chest and cried: Why! I patted him on the shoulder and said, "We should have stepped on someone else's foot while playing basketball." When performing on stage, I leaned my back against the wall to read, took off my hat, and put it upside down in front of me. After reading for a while, I was tired and fell asleep. My classmate came from the left, took a look at me, and threw a coin into my hat. Then he came over from the right again and dropped another coin in my hat. Since there are only two actors, he keeps walking from left to right and right to left. At last I woke up and saw a lot of coins in the hat, so I clenched my fists and said excitedly: "Sure enough, there is a golden house in the book!" We simply thanked the curtain and ran away in a hurry, and then we had to rush to class; Second, the eyes of the third-year seniors in the audience seemed to want to rush up to the stage and beat us up. Unfortunately, when we ran back to the classroom, we were scolded by the teacher for being late. The teacher even forgot that there was this show, and he also forgot that he asked us to perform. But we dare not even talk back. I wrote down the process of having my own golden house in the performance book on a note, and she said it was very interesting. "Then how should Yan Ruyu act in the book?" "Ask a cute girl to shake me to wake me up, and then say: classmate, don't sleep here, you'll catch a cold. When I woke up, I would say excitedly: Sure enough, there is Yan Ruyu in the book! " "Why not act like that?" "Have you forgotten? Our school is a boys' school, and there are no girls. You can't act." "I can't stop laughing when I think about the picture of this performance. What's the reaction from the audience?" "Most of the third-year seniors in the audience are holding English word cards and reciting words in their hands, and no one takes them seriously. Performance.After our performance, there was silence and chill. " "Hey, will a senior high school student relax and die?" "I can't blame them. If it were me, I would choose to memorize English words." "You're about to be in the third grade. Don't think I'm blunt, listen to my advice, don't stretch yourself too tight." If someone else said such a thing, I would think it was sarcastic. However, from the bottom of my heart, I think the words written by her are a kind of concern. While I absolutely can't do it, I'm still grateful. I suddenly felt a sense of anxiety, not because the pressure was heavier after entering the third year of high school, But after entering the third year of high school, I have to change classrooms. If we change classrooms, will she and I still be in the same classroom? Will you still do it?