Chapter 51 forty five

Mai Le has been obsessed with his own world and refuses to come out. The doctor said to Zhang Zhichuang, your girlfriend had a miscarriage some time ago, and now she has suffered such a large burn on her lower body. I am worried that she has consciously closed off her feelings. After the doctor finished speaking, Zhang Zhichuang froze in place. He looked at the doctor in surprise, and looked back at Ji Rongge and me blankly. Ji Rongge's eyes moved elsewhere. At that moment, suddenly, Ji Rongge and I seemed to be unforgivable sinners. We concealed Mai Le's past from him. Zhang Zhichuang walked out of the ward door without saying a word, Ji Rongge stepped forward to pull him, but he pushed him away, he said, you and the two of them cheated on me, have you cheated enough?Only now do I realize how pathetic and ridiculous I am!Did I fucking deserve a cuckold from birth in your eyes?After speaking, he left the ward without looking back.

At that time, I don't know if the doctor saw it, but Mai Le's hand was gently held, and then gently released, there was heart-wrenching sadness between his brows, and big drops of tears suddenly overflowed from the corners of his eyes. I suddenly discovered that it turns out that Mai Le has feelings for his surroundings! It's just that she no longer wants to let herself wake up. Thinking of this breaks my heart.As for Zhang Zhichuang's words, if Mai Le really heard everything, would he be more reluctant to wake up again? However, how can we ask a boy to love us while loving us, together with our scars, our sufferings and our past, to love together?

Or, Zhang Zhichuang is a good man, but he is too rational! However, all these excuses are not reasons, I think, at the moment when Mai Le's tears fell, my heart hated him. Then, even though I hated him, I humbly begged him later, begging him to stay with Mai Le, because she loves him and needs him. But Zhang Zhichuang's eyes were so cold, he said word by word, Mo Chun, you have to give me time to think about it. Yes, he needs to weigh whether this scarred woman named Mai Le is worthy of his continued love? He is such a rational person, he should take a good look at it. However, in this world, there are also people who can do nothing for you without weighing.Socrates should be such a person.

He would go to the hospital every day, staring at Mai Le on the hospital bed in a daze. He didn't seem to remember the ferocity of Mai Le beating him, he just murmured to the girl on the hospital bed, whispering, Mai Le, Mai Le, wake up!No matter what you look like, you are the best, the best! I think, when I was away, he should have said this to Mai Le, Mai Le, Mai Le, wake up, if you wake up, I will never read Little H Books again, I only read you! Our most true love, in many cases, we can't always meet the most true people, and many people who are true to us, we are unwilling to give our love to them.

Mai Le, tell me, aren't we stupid like this? There were also many times when Huang Xiaoshi sneaked into her ward and was beaten out by me. Huang Xiaoshi is crying, I am crying.However, no amount of tears could heal the scars she left on Mai Le. At that time, there was also an incident that left me with irreparable scars, but I quietly hid it and refused to tell the third person, even Ji Rongge. Because, this is my injury. A wound that I will never heal. That day, when I came back from getting the laboratory test form for Mai Le, I was about to open the door when I saw Bai Chu's hand holding Mai Le's hand tightly.He looked at her in a coma, with an unusually sad expression on his face, and he murmured: Mai Le, Mo Chun said that you refused to wake up because you had suffered too much and too much damage, right, I was one of them too?If, then, I had bravely taken on my drunken blunder and allowed you to have that child, wouldn't you be stronger now?Instead of this, never waking up again?

At that time, my heart was so cold that it became a sculpture of ice. I suddenly remembered that that night, Mai Le and I accompanied Bai Chu to drink away our sorrows.Bai Chu was crying because of Xi Lan's critical illness. At that time, I left with a heart full of sadness, and walked on the long streets of the city, leaving the drunk Mai Le and the confused Bai Chu behind... Oh. It turns out that this man I love has hurt so many women? From Xilan to me, to Mai Le! However, I am unwilling to let go, this man has been my ultimate dream since I was fourteen years old. Bai, and Chu are all words I love.

But Baichu, you are the one I don't want to let go of. I folded my arms and cried silently in the corner. A long time ago, every time I watched TV, I would see someone lying weakly in the corner and weeping in a low voice. My butt hurts.Only now did I realize that when I was overly sad, I was no better than them. There is no place to rely on in this world, the only thing you can rely on is the wall behind you. I suddenly remembered the various dialogues and expressions between Mai Le and Bai Chu a long time ago.The dodge in Bai Chu's eyes, the disdain in Mai Le's eyes. The me who used to be, when Mai Le was pregnant, said righteously, I want to protect you!I'll kill that man for you!

But, I can't protect her at all!He also hurt her with the man he held as a treasure. I used to jump up and down all day and talk to Mai Le, we are good sisters, we have the same blessings and share the same hardships, and we carrot sisters spend a lifetime wearing a pair of pants. However, the current her, scarred and scarred because of me, has kept so much pain in her stomach!If I don't show up outside this door, all of this will be suppressed by her for a lifetime! But I couldn't convince myself to rush in and slap Baichu hard!For my beloved Mai Le, the comatose Mai Le, and the scarred Mai Le, say a fair word!

I'll just hide in this corner and cry secretly like a useless fool! The man I have loved for so many years. Bai Chu. Xi Lan said that he has always maintained his divine perfection in his heart! what about me? How can I not be like this?She is trying to deify the man she has liked since she was fourteen years old, and will never dare to face any scars with him. To this day, I still hold such humble and shameless thoughts. I hope that one day, Baichu will finally love me thoroughly, and I will finally be loved by him.And we love each other tightly, without any scars! Like a crystal!

Mile, Mile!If you knew that Yu Mochun, the friend you have made for nineteen years, has so many humble thoughts, would you still like her?Continue to take her as your best friend? Or, you would kick me away and say, get the hell out of your third uncle! However, now you can only lie on the bed, covered with memory wounds.If you can wake up, I really want you to kick me, no, ten kicks, one hundred kicks, ten thousand and eleven thousand kicks... I am willing to do it all. After weeping in the corner that time, this secret was quietly kept in my heart. However, in many midnight dreams, I would think of Mai Le at that time. When her pregnant man questioned her, she said - Mo Chun, I want to fucking protect you even more!

yes. You protected me, so you swallowed these thousands of bitter fruits in your own stomach. But what about me? But in order to protect my initial feelings, I chose to continue to pretend to be deaf and dumb. Mai Le, I also said that I want to protect you. But, I am fucking true and false, from the beginning to the end, my existence, in addition to bringing you harm, still hurts! If yes, who should I take to return it to you?Who shall I ask to give you peace, security, and happiness hereafter?