Chapter 13 Seven, or, that is the real me, selfish, cruel.

In fact, Mai Le didn't know that I had done such tricks before. That was the first time Xilan was hospitalized. From the day I buried Baichu's name under the sycamore tree, I thought that one day, Baichu would see that pair of eyes that always turned extremely pleasant and charming when facing him.However, when this little girl named Xi Lan appeared, I saw this kind of joy in Bai Chu's eyes. I have never understood what is so good about Xilan, except that she has a serious illness, I really can't find anything special about her that deserves Baichu's disregard for me like this.

Bai Chu said that Xilan has a very transparent temperament, just like colored glaze in the sun.He said that he always thought that such a woman could only appear in paintings. At that time, I especially wanted to ask Baichu, didn't you realize that I'm also quite Liuli? However, I have to admit that I don't have Xilan Liuli, because Xilan was born with a serious illness and is as fragile as Liuli.I would only learn painting, which I have no talent for, because of Bai Chu, and torture myself tirelessly, pretending to enjoy it. Xi Lan was hospitalized for the first time, and I read a light called heartache from Bai Chu's eyes.He was walking back and forth in the corridor of the hospital, even though I already knew that he liked Xilan, but it was still so glaring for me to see Baichu's heart for Xilan from such a close distance.

envy.hate.In short, I have the mood I should have, and I also have the mood I shouldn't have. At night, Baichu had to leave because of something about the studio.So, he called me, Mo Chun, to take care of Xilan for me.I've got things done and will be right back! I want to say, if you leave for a while, no one will die.How sick!But I dare not say it, I am afraid that Baichu will hate me. At that time, I was discussing with Huang Xiaoshi how to make a woman look more transparent and glazed, so that I would look pitiful.Huang Xiaoshi knew it was Baichu when she saw my distraught look when I received the call.So, she smiled and asked me to go to the hospital as a "part-time worker".

I pouted, and when I left, I complained hypocritically to Huang Xiaoshi, saying, look, this man is so big that he looks like a child, and needs my care anytime, anywhere. Huang Xiaoshi didn't say anything, just smiled.I don't know why, since she finished crying on the Ferris wheel before the college entrance examination, she has become extremely calm and indifferent.This change is unavoidably worrying. When I arrived at Xilan's ward, Bai Chu asked me a few words, and walked out of the ward like the wind.Normally, he is always so measured, doing everything with a leisurely demeanor, but this time, facing Xi Lan, he is so anxious.It's a pity that I, who was not up to date, could still read a special tenderness towards me from his anxious brows and eyes.

That night, I stayed by Xi Lan's side, watching her lying quietly on the bed, her face was extremely pale, and she was wearing an oxygen mask.I am filled with disgust, I think her oxygen is as sweet as sugar. So, after my hands trembled a little, the oxygen mask was removed.My mind was almost blank, I just thought, if Xilan can't wake up, then this man named Baichu will have a deeper connection with me. I watched Xi Lan's chest rise and fall violently, and her pale face turned dark, and I realized that there were so many evil factors in my blood that came from afar, making me unable to breathe.

I didn't know how to put the oxygen mask on Xilan's mouth again, my whole body was shaking, my hands and feet were cold.In the end, I collapsed under Xilan's hospital bed and sobbed softly. Baichu, actually, I don't want to do this either. I do not like this. Xilan was short of oxygen that day, and her condition became extremely bad. Even after I put the oxygen mask on her mouth, she still gasped heavily.I had to run wildly out of the ward to call the nurse... I didn't tell anyone about this, including Michael.Because it's like a kind of evidence of guilt, that there is blood flowing in me from afar, which always appears at certain times and makes me not like me.

Or, that is the real me, selfish and cruel, just like Yu Yuanyuan when I committed a crime, but I have been trying my best to hide it. Also, I keep forgetting to say that Xilan met Baichu because of me. Because Bai Chu said that he needed some particularly touching scenes, so I thought of the orphanage, and the girl who was the same age as Mo Fan and called my sister, Xi Lan.