Chapter 77 Chapter Thirty-Fifth: Love Without Reason

On the morning of the first day of the Lunar New Year, Feiming was rushed back to the First People's Hospital.Han Shu's car was galloping on the street full of red lanterns, and everything around him passed by the window at a very high speed. Fortunately, he was able to see clearly the festive joy on the faces of those people. Ju Nian hugged Feiming and sat in the back row without saying a word. Instead, Feiming in her arms seemed to be comforting the two helpless adults. She said: "It's just that the eyes can't see clearly. It hurts." How can it not hurt?Feiming couldn't see her own face, it was blue and white, covered with cold sweat, but she had experienced more pain, and pain was already a habit in her opinion.

After arriving at the hospital, the hospital immediately conducted various emergency inspections on Feiming.The number of patients in the inpatient department was pitifully small that day, and almost all the medical staff were busy running around Feiming. Such crowds and enemies made Ju Nian, who was waiting outside, unable to breathe a sigh of relief. sank. Sun Jinling was not on duty that day, but she rushed to the hospital as soon as she received the notice.As soon as Han Shu saw her, he squeezed into her office. In front of Sun Jinling, who was both an authority and his mother-in-law, he didn't even bother to hide the faint crying in his voice, and said, "Mom, what should I do? What do you propose!"

Sun Jinling took off her white coat and glanced at her son, "What should I do? Do you know how tricky the fourth stage of glioblastoma is? To tell you the truth, I have been in this business for so many years, and I have seen cases There are not many, the disease has reached this level, and the cure rate is very low..." "How low is it?" Han Shu asked inquisitively. Sun Jinling sat down without speaking, and Han Shu's glimmer of hope was quietly destroyed in the silence.His mother is a cautious person. If she keeps silent, it means that the number is really very low, so that she doesn't want to speak out and see her son suffer.

"There is always a way, Mom, there is always a way, she is only under twelve years old!" Han Shu sat beside Sun Jinling, begging helplessly. Sun Jinling said: "Stupid child, disease treats all life equally. It will not be treated differently because it is young or old, cute or hateful, poor or rich. No matter what this child means to you What, but this is the reality. Originally, I still had hope, and wait until her body is in a relatively good state before arranging the operation, so as to reduce the risk of the operation as much as possible, but now it seems that I can’t wait.”

Han Shu still had no idea. "What is the probability that the operation will be successful?" Sun Jinling said: "Craniotomy must be risky, not to mention in her current condition, any small accident may bring dire consequences. As for the so-called probability, it is zero if it does not happen to her, and it is 100% if it happens. .” Han Shu couldn't stop thinking about Feiming's bright smile when he was by his side, the more he thought about it, the more he felt a heart-wrenching pain, and his mother's objective and cruel judgment made him feel powerless. "I can't let her die on the operating table. Mom, tell me where a better doctor is. If you can't do it in China, go abroad. I can't let her die."

Sun Jinling was not annoyed by her son's doubts and denials of her profession under the distraction. On the contrary, she still looked at her son gently and stated in the calmest tone: "Then she might not die on the operating table." , but died on the way." Han Shu covered his face and bent down. "What I just said was the worst outcome. You can think of the best in everything. At this time, that's the only way to go. Don't make things difficult for yourself, son." Sun Jinling stroked her son's short hair. "I treat her as my own daughter."

Sun Jinling hesitated to speak, so she sighed, "I know you are sad, but this child is not the only one around you who needs your care. Have you visited your godmother? And your father, after you left the house yesterday, He didn't touch his chopsticks for dinner, and he felt chest tightness and shortness of breath all night. Xiaoer, we are getting old, there is no overnight feud between father and son, your father's temper, do you want to wait for him to ask you to come back?" "It's not that I want to be awkward with him, what do you want me to do when he speaks so absolutely?"

"You can't listen to him just once, and he won't hurt you. Go apologize and be soft. With your sister's matter in mind, he won't really embarrass you. " "That's the problem. It doesn't matter how Ping scolds me for looking down on me, but this time I'm right. I won't give up that case. This is a matter of principle. Mom, do you want me to apologize openly?" , Yang obeys Yin and violates?" "That case is more important than your family?" Sun Jinling looked at her son with some heartache. Between her husband and her son, she was indeed in a dilemma.

Han Shu looked tired. "It's not like this. My dad has always been so doctrinal. He said that there must be something worth believing in and holding on to in life. It would be too sad if even this is lost. That's all I have left to hold on to." , don't make me believe in nothing, okay?" Sun Jinling remained silent, and asked after a while, "Where did you live last night... at her house?" "The whole world is full of hotels, why can't people live in them?" Han Shu laughed a few times, but he said that he knew his son better than his mother. How could his little thoughts escape Sun Jinling's eyes, not to mention that he was trying to cover his face Such an obvious injury.

"What's the matter with this face?" How could Sun Jinling not have any thoughts in her mind, her son valued "face" the most. When he was a child, he was beaten up by his father, and while struggling, he shouted, "Slap me, don't hit my face! "Taking hands on his face is equivalent to pulling the teeth out of the tiger's mouth and pulling the hair on the peacock's buttocks.But this time she was caught like this and didn't dare to snort, she didn't even have to guess who did it, and what good thing did her precious son do to make someone else, a meek girl, do such a cruel thing, she didn't know Willing to think deeply.

Sun Jinling spat: "You worthless!" As expected, Han Shu blushed and couldn't speak. "You guys, the siblings and your dad are all a bunch of bad tempered, no one can worry about it. You are not a child anymore, if you do those indiscriminate things, be careful to destroy yourself, then there will be no place to cry .” Han Shu came out of his mother's office and went back to the ward to see Feiming and Ju Nian.Feiming was connected to various instruments and tubes, but his condition had stabilized and he was talking to his aunt in a low voice.When Han Shu entered, he just heard her say: "It's good to not be able to see, I don't need to see Li Te's pimples in the future. Some people say that boys who are handsome when they are young will become ugly when they grow up. It's ugly, it's ugly..." She seemed to be indifferent when she said it, and she could only see it when she got closer, and her cheeks were full of tears.Han Shu, like Ju Nian, would rather see her like she didn't care about crying when she was first admitted to the hospital. She has the right to be self-willed and vent, it's better than the current state.She was so calm, it broke the hearts of those who watched beside her. After sitting with them for a long time, Han Shu realized that the three of them hadn't eaten anything early in the morning, and it was now afternoon, so he thought about going out to find food.As soon as he got out of the ward, he unexpectedly saw a woman sitting quietly on the nearest chair, that was Chen Jiejie. Han Shu didn't know how long she had been here, nor why she just sat outside the door.Chen Jiejie was not surprised to see him, and even nodded. "Hello, Han Shu." At this time, Han Shu didn't care about his demeanor, so he blocked the door and said coldly: "Coward! What are you doing here with your haunted spirit?" Chen Jiejie said firmly, "I'm here to see my daughter." Han Shu was irritated by her attitude, "Your daughter, come on, ask yourself if you are worthy to be a mother?" Chen Jiejie also stood up, "Do you want me to show you the paternity test?" Han Shu was amazed, "You come with me? What right do you have to conduct a paternity test without the permission of the child's guardian? Besides, it is not so easy to take the child back with just a piece of paper! If I If it's you, I'll be more interesting, anyway, it's not that I haven't done anything without conscience, if I want to disappear, I will disappear completely, why come here to be annoying." Chen Jiejie was not angry, as if she had already been mentally prepared for all responsibilities, besides, she was always a person who didn't know how to look back when she stepped out, and never cared about what others thought. She looked at Han Shu and said, "To be honest, it doesn't matter whether you hate me or not. The important thing is that I want to be with my daughter." "You treat her like a kitten or puppy. When you don't want her, you throw it aside, and only look at it when you think about it. You have no right to see her at all." Han Shu showed disdain. Chen Jiejie said word by word: "I didn't say I came to see her, I want to recognize my daughter, and I won't let her leave my side in the future." She made such a peaceful and even determined request that seemed quite shameless to Han Shu. You can't go on anymore, you have reached the point where you are trying to recognize your illegitimate daughter and then sell her for money? Why else would Mr. Zhou of your family be willing to wear a red cap to drag the oil bottle? Tsk tsk, speaking of it, you really are match made in heaven." Facing Han Shu's harshness, Chen Jiejie just squeezed the bag on his shoulder, "Han Shu, I am grateful for everything you have done for Feiming, and of course I am even more grateful for Ju Nian. So I waited outside the door, I don't want to disturb you so soon. You guys. But I know how many days are left in the future, and I can't wait too long. Even if I owe a year, but the child lying in it was born by me, and we are the mother and daughter. It's not just a debt. Offset." Han Shu didn't bother with her anymore, so he put aside a sentence: "If you want to recognize the child, then see you in court. Let me tell you, you can't take advantage of it." Chen Jiejie said: "Han Shu, can you represent Ju Nian? Or, can you represent Feiming? I am here today not wishful thinking. Feiming needs a mother. She chose me. She is willing to be with me in the future." ,Do you understand?" "Just talk nonsense, anyway, since the mouth is on your body, Feiming will follow you? I'm going to blush for you!" Of course Han Shu didn't believe it. Their quarrel outside the door actually fell into the ears of the people in the room, Feiming no longer shed tears, she opened her eyes blankly, trying to distinguish her biological mother's voice in a blurry world, without saying a word Ju Nian already understood the words, because she could not see hatred on Feiming's face, only attachment. But she still asked Feiming softly: "Is it true?" Feiming hesitated for a while, then nodded. She murmured: "Gun, I can't bear you, but I'm not an orphan. I want to have a mother. I told my mother that day that I couldn't go with her right away because I still want to celebrate the new year with my aunt. If I am not here, my aunt will be too lonely... I promised my mother to be with her after the new year. Now I am in the hospital, but if I leave the hospital, I don’t want to leave her again. " After listening in a daze, Ju Nian nodded.It was she who said that it was up to the child to make this choice. She hoped that Feiming would do what she wanted to do and choose the life she wanted. For this ending, she had already had a premonition. She had an illusion that they would live peacefully in that small courtyard and never separate. Ju Nian has always told Feiming that living people cannot talk about eternity.She herself forgot. Of course, we can’t blame Feiming. For a child who doesn’t know how much time is left, every minute and every second left is too precious, so precious that she can’t bear to blame her biological mother for abandoning her. Just wanting to love, can't wait to race against the clock to love. Ju Nian got up and walked out the door, the always explosive dispute between Han Shu and Chen Jiejie stopped naturally after seeing her "Are you saying it's funny? She thinks that she has the final say on everything. She hasn't raised Feiming for a day, but she thinks that Feiming will go with her?" Han Shu said to Ju Nian in a tone that felt extremely absurd. "What she said is true, Han Shu." Han Shu didn't expect that these words would come out of Ju Nian's mouth so calmly. Why did he become the most unacceptable person in front of him? "Feiming wants to be with her." After taking a deep breath, Ju Nian turned to Chen Jiejie, "The child is yours, and no one can take it away. But now that she is sick, what's the point of arguing about it? Everything is waiting for her." Let's talk about it when it gets better." Chen Jiejie was calm and stubborn when facing Han Shu, but in front of Ju Nian, she couldn't help her eyes twitching slightly, "Thank you, but from today onwards, I will take care of Feiming." Han Shu recognized the reality in disbelief, but he couldn't understand, "Feiming wants to be with her, why, a mother who has never met is more important than the person who has raised her for eleven years?" He glanced at her. Glancing at Chen Jiejie, "What the hell did you do? What did you tell the child?" Ju Nian obviously also needs an answer, Feiming wants to go with Chen Jiejie, she can't stop her, but she just wants to know what Chen Jiejie and Feiming talked about that afternoon, so that Feiming made a decision immediately . Chen Jiejie said to Ju Nian: "I didn't lie to Feiming about anything. I even told her that I was wrong and that I abandoned her. After listening to these words, she only asked me one question." "She asked why you like her?" Ju Nian asked in a low voice.It was not difficult for her to guess, because Feiming had asked her and Han Shu the same question, but no matter how she answered, the child had nothing but blame in his eyes. Chen Jiejie was a little surprised, but nodded: "That's right, that's what she asked." "Then how did you answer it?" Ju Nian suddenly wanted to hear Chen Jiejie's answer with great urgency. Chen Jiejie said: "I told her, I don't know why I like her, maybe there is no reason at all, just because she is my daughter." Ju Nian was dumbfounded for a moment, but something became clear because of it.Maybe this is where she is inferior to Chen Jiejie. No matter how much she has taken care of her these years, the answer to such a simple question is obvious, but she just can't answer it.Because there is no way to tell Feiming that she likes Feiming, and Feiming is already a part of her life, but all the love is only because the child has the shadow of Wu Yu. What is not obvious is the mother's love that does not ask the reason. A child's heart is simple, but it is easier to feel pure than an adult. "You can't let her bully like this." Han Shu was indignant for her. Ju Nian bowed his head and said, "Actually, it's not true. I didn't have any blood relationship with Feiming at first... Now that her biological mother has appeared, I... I can count myself as letting go of a burden, which is good for everyone." Her voice was flat and indifferent, and she did not deliberately lower her voice to avoid Feiming inside, and then said to Chen Jiejie: ​​"Go in and see her, she has been waiting for you. The doctor's office will have some explanations later, you come with me go." "You..." Han Shu watched Chen Jiejie walk into the ward, but there was nothing he could do. In the end, he could only stamp his feet, pointing at Ju Nian and saying, "What do you want me to say?" But Ju Nian stopped Han Shu who was unwilling to leave and let Chen Jiejie win back the child easily, "Why do you have to say something?" In fact, she can make this scene more tragic, look at each other and cry bitterly, reluctantly, hug and talk, dig out old accounts, apologize with tears, and condemn each other... This is not a difficult thing, but what is the point of that, Apart from making everyone look more miserable, pitiful and sad, these are the most necessary things for Ju Nian, and she has had enough.More importantly, such a difficult process still only leads to one result, and what should be done will still be done, because this is Feiming's own choice.