Chapter 7 Chapter 7 Bodhisattva doesn't know how sad I am

So this trip became Yunjin's weirdest experience, walking with two outstanding boys, but she was on pins and needles, not only didn't know what Shen Juan was thinking, even Cheng Zheng, whom she thought she knew at a glance, She couldn't understand it either.Yun Jin had something on her mind, and was afraid of making too many mistakes, so she was always depressed. Fortunately, Shen Juan handled it well. Along the way, he narrated the local customs and customs to Cheng Zheng in a friendly and timely manner, neither humble nor overbearing, calm and at ease.Cheng Zheng also played the role of a listener well, and seemed quite interested in what Shen Juan said.

Liurong Temple is located on Liurong Road. Although it is the first day of the long holiday, the incense in the temple is not particularly luxuriant. After entering the gate of the temple, the ancient temple is densely forested and the treasures are solemn, which makes people's hearts calm down. The three walked and watched, and of course the place with the most incense in the temple was in front of the Avalokitesvara statue. No matter how the times change, people in the world always have so many unsatisfied desires. Shen Ju'an bought incense candles like the rest of the pilgrims, and handed them to Yun Jin and Cheng Zheng respectively.Cheng Zheng didn't answer, he shook his head and said, "I don't believe that."

Shen Juan smiled and said: "Everyone has a wish that cannot be fulfilled. If you believe it will make you happier, why don't you believe it? Since you are here, let's light a stick of incense. It is said that the Guanyin Bodhisattva here is very effective, and it may not be true. wish." Cheng Zheng remained silent for a while, did not insist any longer, took the incense and lit it, and solemnly kowtowed in front of the statue like the other two, then wrote down his name and what he asked for in the merit book, and then dropped the incense money into the merit box. Seeing that he didn't even frown, Yunjin took out a hundred-yuan bill from the pocket of his jeans, put it in the box, and said, "Just a little expression of affection."

Cheng Zheng replied, "My heart is worth more than this." After the three of them lit the incense, Shen Ju'an saw that Yunjin was steamed by the high temperature next to the incense burner and there was a thin layer of sweat on his forehead, so he went out to buy water at the gate of the temple.Yun Jin wanted to go with him, but was afraid that it would not be good to leave Cheng Zheng alone. After Shen Ju'an left, only Cheng Zheng and her were left standing in the same place, Yunjin felt a little embarrassed for no reason, didn't know what to say, it always felt strange to be polite to him, but she didn't know where to start , So he pretended to concentrate on looking at the surrounding environment, and walked around casually.I didn't want to turn forward and turned a corner, so I arrived in front of the Sixth Patriarch's Hall, and there is something special here.

Yunjin saw the statue of the Sixth Patriarch in the hall with graceful clothes, a bright and intelligent expression, and was lifelike. She couldn't help thinking of the famous allusion of the Sixth Patriarch's enlightenment. She was in a trance when she heard someone's footsteps stop behind her, and she didn't need to turn her head. Yunjin can also sense who it is. "What are you doing here?" he asked. "I'm looking at the statue of the Sixth Patriarch. Maybe only the innate wisdom of the Sixth Patriarch can have such a detached look." Yun Jin looked at the statue of the Sixth Patriarch.

"But not everyone is the Sixth Patriarch." Cheng Zheng walked slowly to her side. A sense of powerlessness surged in Yunjin's heart: "Cheng Zheng, go back." "Why do you want to go back? I have to take a good look at it. I thought you just didn't know how to love people yet. It turns out that you just don't know how to love me. You can be so disappointed that Ziyi has a girlfriend, and you can be in school so quickly. You found a good boyfriend, why are you so stingy to give me an explanation?" His face was against the light, and he couldn't see his expression clearly.

"What do you want to explain?" Yun Jin suddenly turned around, but bumped into his arms.Through the thin T-shirt, she could feel the temperature of his body, as well as his unique breath, which was so familiar, as if she had returned to that summer, and she could see him as long as she turned her head. Cheng Zheng embraced her with both hands, and said without hesitation, "It's fine if you don't like me, why should you leave me behind after kissing me, what's the point?" "Let go, the Bodhisattvas are watching." Yunjin patted his arms around her.

"But the Bodhisattva can't see how sad I am." Cheng Zheng lowered his hand dejectedly, and his grievance surfaced, "Yunjin, I came here on purpose, at least tell me where I am not good enough." This was the first time Yunjin saw Cheng Zheng, who had always been proud and tough, so weak in front of her, and she couldn't help feeling sad. She always thought he was a child at heart, but she forgot it after a while. I still found it. "It's not that you are not good enough, it's just that you are too good, we are not suitable." "I don't understand what the hell this is. Then Shen Ju'an is suitable?" He said indignantly.

"It's none of your business." Cheng Zheng was stung, and his tone changed back to his usual domineering: "I don't care, anyway, you can't treat me like this. What you said that night, 'I'll pay you back', tell you, you're not done yet!" Yun Jin looked at him silently, this was the Cheng Zheng she was familiar with, she hated his domineering, unreasonable, thinking that everything she got was taken for granted.She thought he was different from before, but in fact he hadn't changed at all. She passed him and walked out of the Hall of the Sixth Ancestor without a word, just in time to see Shen Juan walking towards this side carrying a few bottles of mineral water, saw Shen Juan's clear smile, Yunjin was like a drowning person seeing the shore, Only then did the chaotic heart settle down.

In the next few days, Cheng Zheng asked Yunjin to take him around. He made such a request as an old classmate, and it was inconvenient for Yunjin to refuse.But after she came back from Liurong Temple, she tried to avoid being alone with him as much as possible, and whenever she went out, she would always bring Shen Juan along, and her attitude towards Cheng Zheng was always neither salty nor cold, no matter what he said openly or secretly, she was indifferent. Shen Ju'an didn't seem to be aware of the strange atmosphere between Cheng Zheng and Yun Jin. Every time Yun Jin asked him to go out together, he would go there with pleasure. Thanks to his wisdom and self-cultivation, this inexplicable threesome It didn't look that awkward.

After a few days like this, Cheng Zheng's heart seemed to be slowly turning gray.On the fifth day, he proposed to Yunjin and Shen Juan that he would return to Beijing the next day, and Yunjin was secretly relieved.So out of courtesy, I practiced for him with Shen Juan at a small restaurant near the school that night. Cheng Zheng was unusually silent from the beginning to the end of the meal, and he drank a few glasses of beer with Shen Juan, but it didn't improve his mood.Seeing him like this, Yun Jin really couldn't bear it, and couldn't say anything, but wished him a safe journey tomorrow.Since she doesn't intend to respond to him, she shouldn't give him any expectations. This is the best way for both of them.He is just a person who has never tasted what he can't get. After a while, when he figured it out, Yun Jin is just a joke to him. The meal was eaten by the three of them in silence for a long time. Seeing that it was almost coming to an end, Cheng Zheng raised his beer glass and said politely to the two of them: "Thank you for taking the time to accompany me these few days. If you bother me, I will use this A glass of wine to apologize, nothing else to say, I hope you will accompany me to this drink." Shen Ju'an raised his glass and said, "Well, you are Yunjin's old classmate, we should do what is right for the landlord." He looked at Yunjin, only to see that she was embarrassed by the full glass of beer. "I don't drink well, can I just be free?" Yun Jin raised her glass and smiled wryly. Cheng Zheng looked straight at her: "This is the first time I offer you a glass of wine, are you going to refuse even this request?" When he said that, Yun Jin didn't drink it, and it didn't matter if he didn't drink it. At this time, Shen Juan drank the wine in his glass, took her glass from Yunjin, and said to Cheng Zheng flatly, "If you don't mind, I will finish this glass on Yunjin's behalf." The corners of Cheng Zheng's mouth raised slightly, but his tone was blunt: "This is between me and her, I'm afraid you can't replace it." The superficial harmony that had been going on at the beginning was broken by Cheng Zheng's reluctance at this moment, Yun Jin didn't say anything, just snatched the wine glass back from Shen Ju'an's hand, and drank it with her head raised. She hardly drank alcohol at ordinary times, she was already nauseous after drinking half of a full glass of beer, and even Shen Juan sweated for her, but she insisted on drinking it all, and finally choked and coughed non-stop. His face was flushed from suffocation, and tears were choked out of his eyes, Shen Ju'an hurriedly handed over the tissue.She put the empty cup heavily on the table, coughed and said to Cheng Zheng, "Are you satisfied with this?" Cheng Zheng watched this scene with cold eyes, and after she finished drinking, he smiled and said to Shen Ju'an as if nothing had happened, "Look, she's just so stubborn, she can't be provoked at all." Shen Ju'an patted Yun Jin on the back, and when she saw her recovering, he said calmly, "I really like her temperament." Cheng Zheng took his words: "But sometimes she is so soft and stubborn that it really makes people itch." "No, Yunjin's character is soft on the outside and strong on the inside. As long as you give her enough respect, she will actually be easy to get along with." Seeing these two people coming and going, Yunjin made comments on her as if she didn't exist, and felt a little uncomfortable, but it was not easy to interrupt. "You haven't known her for long, have you? It seems that you know her quite well." "Sometimes it takes more than time to get to know someone." Cheng Zheng smiled again, and said, "Since you know her so well, can you answer a question that has puzzled me for a long time?" When he said this, Yunjin already guessed what he was going to say. Cheng Zheng ignored her warning eyes and continued, "I never figured it out. There was a time when she was on the street in front of so many people." Kissed me face-to-face, then left me where I was, and never contacted me again, why on earth?" "Cheng Zheng, you..." Yun Jin was so angry that she couldn't catch her breath, and coughed again. Shen Juan looked at Cheng Zheng and was silent for a while. He didn't get angry and didn't ask any further questions. He just grabbed Yun Jin's hand that was resting on the dining table and said, "If Yun Jin doesn't want to answer your question, I think it must be because of what you said. That incident was just a misunderstanding. A kiss can mean many things, like when she kissed me, I never had to ask why." Cheng Zheng's smile froze on his lips. On a warm and humid night in May, he felt the coolness slowly penetrate into his bones.He thought, maybe he really lost, even if he refused to admit it all the time, when it came to this point, he was defeated by the opponent's nonchalant moves. Maybe the person who cares more is always the loser. It took him a long time before he spoke, his voice so hoarse that he was unfamiliar with it: "Su Yunjin, you are stupid after all, but you have a good eye for picking boyfriends." Yun Jin stared at him without saying a word, her face was blushing strangely, but it was not because of shyness or anger, the alcohol in that glass of beer was enough to make her feel that everything around her was illusory. Cheng Zheng tapped the table lightly with his fingers, a little casually: "Your boyfriend is so outstanding, no wonder he was hired by Yongkai so easily." "Yongkai? How do you know?" Yun Jin shook her head, even when her consciousness was a little fuzzy, she still remembered that she hadn't mentioned this matter to Cheng Zheng. "It's a coincidence. Didn't I tell you before that I came here to see relatives, and I didn't lie to you. Zhang Yongkai is my grandfather, and Yongkai Industry is named after him. After my grandfather passed away, He left everything he had to his two sons and daughters. The current head of Yongkai is Zhang Jinmeng, and his only sister is Zhang Jinyin, who is also my mother. My mother lives in other provinces for my father, and I am also there I was born at the same time, that's why I met you, Su Yunjin. Oh, by the way, Shen Ju'an, don't you want to know who mentioned you to me?" His hands were still beating on the edge of the table, and the regular sound made Yunjin upset.His words were clear to her ears, but she didn't seem to understand a word, and her eyes were completely blank.All she knew was that the hands holding her suddenly became stronger.In the drowsiness, she had an ominous premonition in her heart. Could it be that something would change because of this? Cheng Zheng saw the flash of astonishment in Shen Juan's eyes, and knew that his words were not useless.I can't feel any joy in my heart, this is his desperate counterattack when he loses to the point of no return, even if he hurts the enemy, his situation is hopeless, there is no need for Yun Jin to despise him, even his I feel ashamed of my own despicableness.But he couldn't care less, she always said he was unreasonable, so he asked her to listen to his reasoning.Being sane wouldn't make him any happier, anyway, he couldn't watch them lick their wounds while they were affectionate. Shen Ju'an quickly regained his composure. He just let the half-asleep Yun Jin lean on his shoulder, and said to Cheng Zheng indifferently: "So that's it. It really is blood relatives. You let me see the lineage of your Zhang family once again. Unique 'confidence'. Unfortunately, what you said can't change anything, the only thing that can make me give up Yunjin is her own choice. I'm sorry, Yunjin drank too much, I want to send her back to the dormitory." Cheng Zheng looked at Yun Jin who was leaning against Shen Ju'an with An Xin closed eyes, he knew that her choice would not be him.As Shen Juan said, the kiss that night was just a misunderstanding on his part.He looked sadly at Shen Ju'an and asked to pay the bill, then half-embraced Yun Jin and was about to leave. When Yun Jin just stood up, her body moved slightly in Shen Ju'an's arms, as if two words escaped from her mouth unconsciously. Her voice was not loud, but it was enough to turn the two people around her into clay sculptures at the same time. "Cheng Zheng..." The next morning, Yunjin woke up from the bed in the dormitory with a headache and fatigue. She half sat on the bed, and the memories of last night came back to her mind intermittently. She remembered that she drank too much, as if Ju An sent her back. As she got out of bed and rubbed her forehead to wash, her roommate Xiaowen smiled and said, "Yunjin, how much did you drink last night? You're so drunk." "a cup of beer." Xiaowen rolled her eyes: "Drink you like this with a glass of beer? Hehe, but then again, if a handsome guy like that sends me back, I'll be drunk if I don't drink a drop of wine." Yun Jin smiled and washed herself.Unexpectedly, Xiao Wen excitedly got up from her bed, went to her side and elbowed her: "Oh, to be honest, where is that handsome guy from last night?" The movements in Yunjin's hands paused, Shen Juan obviously knew everyone in their dormitory. "The one who sent me back last night was..." "It won't look good if you pretend again." Xiaowen said angrily, "That handsome guy isn't from our school, right? I knew our school couldn't produce such a tasteful boy?" "What smell?" Yun Jin simply put down the towel in his hand. "I can't tell, anyway, I don't have to choose my figure, and my face is just the type I like. It looks a little cool, but it still makes people... Sigh, it seems to be what Xiaolu said. The other day I said yes downstairs. Oh, your boyfriend. Which one is..." What Xiao Wen said later, Yun Jin has no memory at all.She hurriedly changed her clothes, and went to Shen Juan's dormitory, the doubts in her heart were lingering, she clearly remembered that she fell on Shen Juan's shoulder in the end, there was no reason for him to hand her over to Cheng Zheng and send her back to the dormitory?Was there something she didn't know about last night? After rushing to Shen Ju'an's dormitory, his roommate said that he had gone out, Yunjin ran to the library without thinking, she had never been so eager to see Ju'an, she wanted to know what happened last night. Sure enough, she found him in his usual place in the library. When she walked over, he was buried in his book, and he was not surprised to see her, he just smiled lightly as usual and said: "You are here, sober up, do you feel uncomfortable?" Yun Jin sat beside him and asked bluntly, "Why was he the one who sent me back last night?" Shen Ju'an looked at her and said, "Is this not good?" "What do you mean?" Yun Jin opened her eyes wide. Shen Juan didn't speak, thought for a while, and slowly approached her, kissed her like a superficial kiss before she could react, and then withdrew her body. "Yunjin, I found out that since we were together, I have never kissed you." Yun Jin understood a bit: "You still care about what he said, I just..." "Don't explain." Shen Ju'an interrupted her gently, "I said that I would not give up on you because of anything other people said, and there is no need to mention the past." "Why is that? I don't believe it's because he is Zhang Jinmeng's nephew." Shen Ju'an smiled and didn't answer this question, but said: "Yunjin, I know you. You can hide some things from Cheng Zheng and yourself, but you can't hide them from me. I haven't said anything because I thought you could I can let it go, but I found that it may not be an easy task." "Yes, he said it... But if I want to be with him, I won't wait until now." Yunjin explained with difficulty, she hated herself for being a clumsy person, and always didn't know how to make the other party understand at critical times own heart. Shen Ju'an was very sharp: "You don't want to be with him, is it because you don't love him or because you don't dare?" "I don't love him." Yunjin insisted. Shen Juan shook his head: "Then do you love me? What you love is a goal you aspire to be, or the real Shen Juan." "I don't understand what you're talking about." Yun Jin said sadly, with tears in her eyes. "You know, Yunjin, I know you feel good with me, and so do I, and that's because we're similar in a way. But it's not love, I have my pride." Yun Jin bit her lip and restrained herself, trying not to let her tears fall, and said stubbornly: "It must be what he said, what exactly did he tell you? Tell me!" Shen Juan remained silent, as if he had finished speaking. "Okay, if you don't tell me, I'll ask him."