Chapter 28 1. Zhou Lei

I could breathe a sigh of relief as I walked down the marble steps. Since when did the high-rise business district have a sense of prosperity?It must be the years when I left home when I went to college, otherwise I wouldn't be so strange all of a sudden.Clean roads, clean sidewalks, clean traffic, clean glass doors of the building I just stepped out of, clean buildings—I'm afraid it has something to do with the color of the buildings.Then I saw an old man selling candied haws pushing an old bicycle with a leisurely face passing by the expressionless guards of the building. I was relieved at this moment, knowing that this was still the city I knew.

Interesting.Over the years, I have encountered disgusting things when I was looking for a job, and I never felt that it was unfair. I would be proud or masturbate (no, it should be self-comforting) from time to time, telling myself that I am also a foreigner One of the experiences.On the contrary, today, when I found a job so smoothly for the first time, and the working environment and salary were beyond my imagination, I felt a little uneasy, as if I had made some ill-gotten gains. Who should be the first to tell the good news?Parents forget it, anyway, they are not going to be happy.I still can't forget the day when I finally got up the courage to have a showdown with the two of them.I said that I didn't plan to take the postgraduate entrance examination at all, and I just went home because I was fired by the boss.My father's face was so gloomy that it looked like a typhoon passing through the country. My mother first looked at me with sympathy for the weak, and then peeked at my father-she had developed this habit since I started rebelling in adolescence.In our family, my father is the master, I am a slave and a fool, and my mother is the "smart person".You have to admit that Lu Xun is great.Tian Yang?Don't disturb her at this time, she has been working night shift these days, and now she is sleeping soundly and blissfully like a pig.I stared at the phone for a while, not knowing which number to press.But thankfully, from now on, my mobile phone doesn't have to worry about being shut down like a tiger in the shallow water of Longyou.

Not only do you not have to worry about being shut down, but it is still ringing alive at this time.Good boy, it's not in vain to hurt it. "Hello? Hello." I think my voice is very sunny. "I thought you were dead." God, this is... "Thanks to you, I'm still alive." "Guess where I am now, Zhou Lei?" "Don't tell me you're on my mind because that's not true." "Turn left and look across the road, yes, that's it, so good." "Why is it like an advertisement for a mobile phone, Miss Feng, no, what kind of wife should I call you now?"

When she picked up the purple clay pot in front of her and filled my teacup, I said in disbelief, "Sure enough, if you are married, you are mature, and your every move is so 'virtuous'." She smiled, "I'm here on a business trip this time. I just finished my work yesterday. I wanted to ask you out for dinner tonight, but I happened to see you." "Why 'at night'? On the head of the willow on the moon, after dusk?" She laughed, "You really haven't changed at all." "Feng Xianglan." I put on a serious expression, "You have become beautiful."

"thanks." "Thanks to your husband." She stared at me for a while, then smiled, "Leave. To be exact, it's in progress." I almost spit it out after taking a sip of tea, "Fuck you." She smiled, "But don't worry, I just want to meet you today, not to seduce you." I was suddenly a little angry.You must know that I lost my job because of her bird-egg marriage, you must know that it was her bird-egg marriage that brought me back here, and it was by accident that pushed me to Tianyang, not just Tianyang, but to Tianyang. Another life.But her eldest lady—yes, she has indeed become a young lady now—is relaxed, she leaves as soon as she says, she doesn't know that she has influenced my life casually, but she is ashamed to sit here with me indifferently Drinking tea indiscriminately is as absurd as in the "Old Testament", God came out to chat with the characters when he had nothing to do.

"Why? It's only been a few months. Maybe there are a lot of things that can be adjusted?" "Some people can, I can't." "I have already seen that you are not good enough." I laughed, "I didn't mean you, what kind of hero are you?" "It's not a bad thing to fail once or twice." She also laughed, "At least I know what I'm not suitable for." At least she knew that she was not suitable for marriage.As for me, I know that it is bold to offend the boss for a wedding invitation, and it is stupid to offend the boss for a wedding invitation with "two months shelf life" printed on the lower right corner, which is fine.

At this time, I suddenly thought of Su Yun.Why?Because I suddenly remembered that I had such a glorious experience, which inadvertently affected a person's fate?So far, if there is, it can only be her. Su Yun is my junior sister from the same department, two years younger than me.When the junior year started to pick up the freshmen, the little girl fell in love with me at first sight, and it was not the kind of understatement of "following", but the kind of landslide, although I still don't understand why.At the beginning, I could pretend to be confused when she made insinuations, but when she made it clear, I could only say "no" cruelly.In fact, it's not that I have never dated girls who can't be called "calling".But Su Yun was different. Frankly speaking, I played the role of a coward, because if she just "lightly" took a fancy to me, I would not reject her.She is a very cute girl.The problem is that I still have a conscience, I can see her temperature.

It was a miserable day.For the first time, I discovered that I can be cruel enough if I want to.The more persistent she was, the more I refused, and I never got tired of it.In the end, my rejection had nothing to do with feelings, it was purely for competition.I don't believe that I will lose to a little girl.I believe that those who saw her stubborn and sad little face in those days would think that I was a guy who didn't know the heights of the sky and the earth, and only I knew in my heart that this was a game like cat and mouse.Who's the cat and who's the mouse - shall I say?

When our stalemate reached a fever pitch-in the words of our dormitory buddies, it was "more enjoyable than the World Cup".In those few days, she stood downstairs in our dormitory all night and night, and a phone call came, "I'll wait for you." Then she stood there for three or four hours, and greeted acquaintances who came and went—as if she It is to enjoy the cool.I'm amazed how such a small, slender girl can contain so much energy in her body.I pretended to be calm those nights and called on my brothers to play and upgrade.When shuffling the cards, my fingers often trembled, and the cards fell on the bed one by one.A buddy in the opposite dormitory said meaningfully: "I think you—are you deliberately exercising your willpower?" Several times the whole dormitory mobilized to attack me, and I was forced to go downstairs by them.I said to her, "I'm sorry, I have something to do tonight. No, I'm fine, but please go back." She stared at me with tears in her eyes, and said word by word, "Just wait and see." Posture has long since had nothing to do with love.

Had a weekend night.The school played the movie played by Liang Jiahui, and the whole dormitory came out, and I was the only one left.I know she's down there.Then it rained, very heavy rain.I finally rushed downstairs and led her into the corridor, who was soaking wet.She looked at me quietly.She was wearing a white dress like the girl in the movie.The downpour washed away her self-willedness and perverseness.Just when I was about to hold her in my arms for a second, she said, "Zhou Lei, I won't come to you again in the future." I smiled and stroked a strand of hair that fell over her face.

"Zhou Lei," she said, "I will tell you one last time: I love you very much." I said, "Would you still love me if I hadn't hurt you?" I don't know why I said such a goddamn thing.But she looked at me in surprise. ——It was a kind of astonishment similar to being enlightened, which had failed the tragic atmosphere created by the heaven for her to invest in a downpour. Later, Su Yun's boyfriend was the guy who said that I "deliberately exercised my willpower", and later when we were drinking graduation wine, Su Yun came to respect me with a smile.The atmosphere at that time had turned from sad to chaotic because of the drunkenness of several people.In the midst of the chaos, Su Yun said to me: "I can tell you the answer now. If you hadn't hurt me, I wouldn't love you. At least not as much as I did at the beginning. But—" She laughed, and the two Years of college life has given her a feminine touch, "Unfortunately, there is no such thing as 'if'." Ok.I now understand what is going on if there is no such thing.I often think of Su Yun these years.Especially when I am smug and self-inflated.On that rainy day, her peaceful face always pierced my hydrogen balloon of "sense of accomplishment" like an awl.Reminds me of my cowardice.I dare say that if we had really become boyfriend and girlfriend in a logical way, she would not mean so much to me today. When I sent Feng Xianglan back to the hotel, it was already late. "What time is the flight tomorrow?" I asked. "Afternoon." The atmosphere became ambiguous.Or I just realized it. "By the way," she said with a smile, "I haven't congratulated you yet. Got a good job." "Forget it, there is nothing good or bad, it's just the difference between more money and less money." "Give you some sunshine and you will be brilliant." She insulted me, "I haven't seen how detached you are yet." "But let me tell you, I've been doing something I've been doing lately that's been really fulfilling." I said, "I'm chasing the first girl I've ever liked in my life. I mean re-chasing. It's been fun Yes, I feel like I am living it all over again.” "You mean Song Tianyang?" "You you you—how did you know her name?" I was instantly embarrassed. "I knew everything about you at that time. Song Tianyang, Su Yun..." She glanced at me and smiled mockingly. "I still say the same thing: count on you as ruthless." "Okay." She stopped at the door of the hotel, "Come up and sit down?" "No." I said frankly, "I'm not some Liu Xiahui, there's no need to test myself if I have nothing to do." "Afraid of being sorry for your pure first love?" "She is not an innocent girl. Although she has not slept with as many men as you, the number is enough to make the aunt of the neighborhood committee very angry." We laughed together, drawing the attention of passers-by. "Okay," she said, "then goodbye, I wish you happiness." "It's the same with you. You don't have to marry, just live a good life." "It's still Zhou Lei who treats me best." I stared at her back.She looks beautiful in a suit and high heels, and her hair is pulled into a very white-collar bun, but I still miss her suspenders in apple green pink sky blue light yellow.Goodbye, Alan. The night is coming, but not so completely, the neon has not yet fully bloomed.Feng Xianglan's hotel and the office building where I will work there on Monday form a diagonal line, echoing each other, two bright towers.I believe that when I sat on the twenty-seventh floor of the office building and worked overtime, I looked down and found that the whole city had turned into a huge wine glass.Grape wine luminous glass.How many people have cursed the lights in the city.Hiding filth and whitewashing peace.Let the depraved people degenerate reasonably, covering up the dirty and dirty outline of "sin", making it evil and beautiful.Moreover, it confuses people's vision, thinking that the world has become a feast of money, power, cars and beauties.For all these, the evidence is solid, let the people with a conscience give the city lights a death sentence, or life imprisonment, so that they can wear prison uniforms and have no beauty, so they can't deceive the public. — But, can you say it is not beautiful? Why did I become so provocative today?I'm really hard to serve. It's hard when I don't have a job, and it's hard when I'm looking for a job.Think about the time when I lived in a basement in Beijing just after graduation.I said to myself that you are finally qualified to recall.Waiting for cheap sales in the talent exchange market every day like ancient Greek slaves.Go back to the dark room and listen to heavy metal vigorously, leave countless poems on the BBS of "sick child" who are too angry to care about rhyme, and have sex with some unfamiliar women by the way-very punk. When I squeezed my head and finally got into an unorthodox real estate company as an assistant to the department manager——I said to myself: Come on, don’t be bored in the ground like a mole tonight, go out and have a look Beijing Light Bar.When I stood in the neon of Chongwenmen and let out a breath of anger, I forgot that just the day before, I was talking meanly to a buddy on the long-distance call. They are all lower than me; I forgot that the relaxed and happy self used to be thinking about whether the work I wanted to do was meaningful to the world even when I only had a hundred dollars in my pocket; I remembered that I was pretending Dandi told a senior who was paid 8,000 yuan a month in an advertising company: Advertising—is nothing more than polluting and raping people’s spirits, or provoking people’s desires to make them masturbate; I remembered that real estate companies are not much better Go, it turns houses into people and people into gutter crawlers; I'm reminded of an e-mail from a buddy in middle school whose dad was a manager at a securities firm, so he was lucky enough to have a chance right out of graduation As the top executives happily package those companies that have lost a lot of money to go public.He said: Really, I studied finance, not plastic surgery. I squatted down in the neon of Chongwenmen and cried.I know that I am polluting the world like everyone else.I know I'm angry I'm punk I'm heavy metal I'm rebellious just because I didn't take a chance to pollute.But this world that we have turned into a giant public toilet, what can we do with it besides loving it?I told myself, come on, try to look at your current life with the eyes of your success in the future, it’s nothing, you are completing the warm and bitter memories of a winner.I squatted on the sidewalk and cried like a fool. Anyone who saw my back would have thought I was throwing up. Now I have a chance to look down at the city lights. "In fact, there is no difference between a good job and a bad job, it's just the difference between more money and less money." You must know that was a line I designed a few years ago.It's just that I never dreamed of it at the time, but today, I really think so. Later I told Tian Yang about that unforgettable night at Chongwenmen.Then I asked her: "I tell you when I have something on my mind. Who do you ask when you have something on your mind?" She smiled, "I'll ask Camus. Don't laugh, really. What is in Camus's book All of them.”—It’s scary, and Camus is not the leader of a cult. Said that Cao Cao Cao Cao will be here, the phone rang, Tian Yang said: "Zhou Lei, can you do me a favor?" "Dare I say 'no'?" But she is not in the mood to talk to me tonight, "Zhou Lei , My grandfather is sick. Now we are still busy in the hospital, can you go to the kindergarten to pick him up? We have forgotten him. You take him out for a meal, and then take him home to sleep. Thanks." Ok.no no.You boy don't mess with me tonight.