Chapter 10 Chapter 07 Big Mom

If it's not in the room, it should be in the sister shop. My sister stared at me with wide eyes. She had already drawn her eyeliner so meticulously early in the morning, "You are crazy..." she said, "I only open the door at noon, what do you think he will come to now? Help with the cleaning..." I was stunned for a moment, and felt a little inappropriate when I turned around, should I say something to my sister, but forget it, since I have already turned around, I can't find a reason to turn back anyway , my body seems to be controlled by a rigid force unskillfully. It seems that when the idea of ​​"turning my head and saying a few irrelevant words" is slightly discussed, a paradoxical nausea rises in my stomach. Like a moment when motion sickness wasn't as bad.I had no choice but to rush out by myself, my sister added to my back, "And I slept at home last night, if you didn't see him, how could I see him..."

If it's not in the room, not in my sister's shop, then it should be at school. The closed gate of the school quietly laughed at me.One little thing I've apparently overlooked, it's summer vacation. If it's not in the room, not in my sister's shop, then it should be at my uncle's house. My uncle went to a key middle school in other places to hold a teacher seminar - it is said that the city continued to be hot this summer, almost 40 degrees Celsius, so my uncle attended the meeting as a representative, and the rest of the teachers did not have any opinions.Chen Yan said to me: "Nanyin, come in and sit down." I shook my head, rationally reminding myself not to take two steps back at this moment.Chen Yan said: "Xi Jue didn't come, the last time he came to us was last autumn...you try calling his cell phone." I glanced at her, and I wanted to say that I had called countless times, yes Shutdown status.But she began to sigh when I asked, "Understood, there must be no one to answer." Beibei greeted me innocently from the side, biting her little flannel dolphin hard, her two newly grown front teeth were lonely The bottom is exposed under the small chin.

If not in the room, not in my sister's store, not at school, not at my uncle's house - I suddenly discovered something, my brother has no friends.Because I asked myself, could he be with some friend, but who was his friend?Everyone thinks he's a nice guy, a lot of people think he's trustworthy, and I can't imagine why anyone in the world hates him anyway.But I never had any -- memories of friends coming to the house for him.He didn't.At least not the kind of friends you can spend the night playing cards with, playing games, watching football games, drinking beer, and then sleeping on the sofa in other people's living rooms at dawn.

Now only the last possible place remains.I stood downstairs at my uncle's house, and slowly typed a few words on my phone: Sister asked you something, did Sister Jiang Yi come back these days... With a trembling of my fingers, the question mark that should have been chosen became Exclamation mark.Then I deleted the sentence in its entirety.Not far away, a bus slowly approached me. I knew that as long as I jumped on it, took two stops and then changed to another bus line, and took two or three stops, it would be Sister Jiang Yi’s home, or in other words, Sister Jiang Yi used to live in Longhua. city ​​home.

It wasn't until now that I realized that in order to find my brother, I had already drawn a rough triangle on the west, east, and north sides of Dragon City all morning, and now I am in the south.I've been here once, just once.In fact, under normal circumstances, I am a road idiot, but here, I remember how to get there. I have to go back to that unlucky summer last year.After Sister Jiang Yi left, before my brother went to the earthquake zone.I really didn't want to think about that day again, so I had to rush into the men's room in that bar.Because my brother has been away from his seat for too long, it makes me tremble with fear.So I had to clench my fist and ride the wind and waves under the surprised eyes of the boys around me to find the correct white porcelain toilet - my brother leaned on it like his old friend, and let his legs in jeans generously rub against the floor Suspicious traces of water—Let me believe that those are only traces of water, I have not the courage to suppose them to be anything else.Throwing heartily, he uses his trousers as a mop to remove the dirty shoe prints he's made on the tile floor.

"Brother..." I was at a loss, so I had to squat down and hug him tightly from behind—because I was not drunk, I couldn't allow myself to do that. "How are you doing?" I couldn't help myself, I glanced down, and what he spit out was the color of vodka, it looked like... stop looking!I ordered myself brokenly.There was a warmth in his hand, and I knew he had vomited on it. My first reaction at that time was to retract my hand, as if being scalded.People say that if you love someone so much, you won't think they're dirty—that's a lie, don't believe it.However, I only hesitated for a moment before I hugged him tightly again.My poor brother, he has always been so clean, tidy, sober, and meticulous, so when everyone is messed up, he will be able to handle it with ease, and he will never allow himself to be messed up and messed up - let me see it after all Today.He was retching in his throat like hot coals being swallowed.In fact, he knows that no matter what, no matter whether he is a child of our family or not, no matter whether the ghost story that sister said is true or not, he can't lose me-but even so, he still feels like a Lonely ghost.This is the saddest thing for me.

"Beauty, let him go." Standing behind me was a man with long hair wearing huge silver earrings. He slapped the water from the faucet on his face carelessly while staring at his own drunken eyes in the mirror. "It's no use chasing you to the men's room. He's already so drunk that he can't get hard. You pity him..." At some point, he had already bent down and leaned over. I imitated my sister I said to him fiercely, "Get out of here." My voice sounded so embarrassing, but I suddenly had a flash of inspiration, and I caught off guard and stretched out my dyed, pungent and sour-smelling fist to his face .The man laughed and left, and I burst into tears.I realized how stupid and clumsy a person with clenched fists is in a place like this.The principle of night life may be like this, you can yell at anyone you don't know because you hate the color of his jeans; Farewell, because you no longer remember that love once came sadly; you can also smile, laugh wildly, sneer and admire those glass bottles, glass cups, glass ashtrays broken into clusters of flowers... But you just don't It's time to clench your fists, that's not the time.

"Let's go," I knew he couldn't hear me at all, and I could see my tears tearing into a shimmering thread in the light, "You see, everyone is laughing at us, let's go Well, brother, you are obedient..." Together with a gust of night wind blowing from behind, I pushed my brother into the back seat of the taxi, and then I got in too. This time, his head was pressed against my shoulder.Where are you going?You can't go home like this.It's better to go to my sister's house, I thought angrily, and let her see what she did.My brother suddenly woke up inexplicably, and clearly reported an address to the driver that I had never heard before, and then immediately fell into a coma, just like a flashback—bah, such bad luck, Zheng Nanyin, you are going to die.

I always meet kind people when I need them.For example, the taxi driver saw that I was pitiful, so he helped me drag my brother upstairs, "Which floor is it?" he asked me.But that's exactly what I want to ask.At this time, my brother suddenly shook a key tremblingly in his hand, like a stupid child trying to play a game he is not good at.I grabbed it and saw the house number engraved on the key.I felt like someone in the movie, taking strangers and pretending to be confident.In fact, in a cave that is unknown with no certainty, the taxi that took us here parked under a beautiful poplar tree, with the lights flashing and flashing, it was a gentle camel.

As soon as I opened the door, I knew whose home it was.I was just surprised that my brother never returned the key to her. He immediately threw himself on the floor, not knowing the pain.I had to let him go, I sighed, and closed the door that was wide open, like too much wine.The soft sound of the door lock still reminded him of something.His voice came from behind me: "Xiaoyi? Is it you? Impossible?" Before falling asleep completely, he took a deep breath, as if he wanted to smile, he repeated: "Impossible—" as if he was chanting something. Impossible?is it possible?Is sister Jiang Yi really back?The point is, can she really treat her brother like this?There is a more important point, behind the door, is it true that brother and sister Jiang Yi appeared together?I took a deep breath, as if I wanted to suck the old and dark staircase in front of me into my lungs—under my scorching gaze, it was already trembling subtly, and its outline was messed up.

The door opened, and the person who opened it caught me off guard, and I didn't know what expression to use. Zhao Zhao looked at me for a while.Then he turned around and let me in. "Where's my brother?" I decided to go straight to the point. "He's home." Zhao Zhao curled up on the sofa lightly, exposing his slender wheat-colored legs.There was a denim skirt lying on the floor - can't imagine what she would look like in a skirt. "He didn't go back. He didn't go back last night." "Teacher Zheng and I were in the hospital last night, and then it was dawn." Her logical accent was strange, as if "dawn" was a big deal, "He sent me back here, and then Just went home. Just left, you missed it." "Hospital—what's wrong with him?" I blurted out, but seeing her expression, I immediately realized something, and asked slowly, "What's wrong with you, Zhao Zhao?" "It's nothing, it's an old problem." She said that the tone of the chrysanthemum was like an old man, "My body is not good at making fresh blood, and the blood is old now, and it is dirty blood that flows back and forth. So I have to take medicine.” ——She said, as if joking, that “dirty blood flowed in and out of her body.” At that moment, a little bit of vivid emotion emerged from her indifferent expression, which was for herself. disgusted. This room is empty, so the shelves are all empty, no furnishings, no decorations, only a small alarm clock with dust on the shell and the wrong time - Sister Jiang Yi had disposed of most of the things before leaving, and her sister still Come and help.The TV opposite Zhaozhao was originally covered with a layer of cloth from top to bottom like an old-fashioned bride, but now it is half lifted. I picked up the remote control next to me and turned it on. Several hideous people from the financial channel were explaining the direction of stocks. , I wanted to change a channel, but found that no matter how hard I tried, the buttons on the remote control seemed to be dead. It seemed that the TV series had made up its mind to cling to those financial commentators. Zhao Zhao finally smiled, "I tried it earlier, it's time to change the batteries in the remote control." Then she took the stubborn remote control from my hand, turned it upside down in a skillful gesture, and pointed at the protruding part of the armrest of the sofa. The hard corner slammed hard——her nonchalant expression and unhesitating strength in her hands made me imagine the hapless remote control as a living temple. "Look, it's fine now." She pointed at the TV series with ease, and the different channels appeared in turn, she smiled, as if to show off her dexterity. Violence finally failed, and the remote control refused to cooperate again. This time, the TV screen stopped on a music program. Zhaozhao angrily followed the method just now, and smashed dozens of times in succession. The noise made made me feel uncomfortable at first. Unable to hide the disgust on his face, the remote control seemed determined not to be afraid of death anymore, a small piece of plastic flew off it, and the dead battery also landed lightly on the floor along with it, truly to pieces.Zhao Zhao leaned back dejectedly, and closed his eyes. As a last resort, I can only listen to the songs played on this music program.On the screen, there was an indescribable emptiness in the female singer's eyes: "I just want to fall from the sky and into the deep ocean. Passers-by, do you know that another name for nostalgia is despair. Sad passer-by, are you the soul of my dead, poor passer-by, with a button dangling on your down-and-out skirt, like the pale sun on the horizon. Zhaozhao suddenly said slowly: "Sister Nanyin, you talk about life, why is it so long?" " Her question flicked past my ears meaninglessly, I looked at her, and finally made up my mind to ask the question I wanted to ask, "Were you with my brother last night, all night?" There was a hint of sarcasm in her smile, "The people in the hospital told me that I passed out yesterday, and when I woke up, it was already morning, and I only saw Teacher Zheng when I opened my eyes. Originally, he planned to bring Live here since I went to the hospital to get medicine?" I asked. "Mr. Zheng said that this place is a friend's house he sent, and I can live here temporarily, and his friend also agrees." She curled up her knees and dragged her cheeks. "It's not a friend, it's my brother's ex-girlfriend, you know?" I stared into her eyes. "Oh." She seemed indifferent.Then she looked at me and smiled, "I have nowhere to go. After my father was taken away, the family house was sealed off, and the house in Longcheng was also sealed off. I don't understand why. They are all unidentified assets that need to be investigated. I can go to live with my relatives, but I don’t want to. Teacher Zheng brought me here.” "In the end, do you need to be hospitalized?" In fact, a little apology flashed in my heart, and it took me so long to think of asking this. She nodded, "But doctors will scare people. In fact, I don't think it's a big deal. Just continue to take medicine. Those doctors will only lie to you to be hospitalized." "Since the doctor has said it, you should go live." "Why are you so stupid." Zhao Zhao sighed, "I told you that all the money has been frozen. The only card I can use now is the one I usually use in school, and now the money in it is only It’s enough to feed me for several months, and I don’t know what to do next semester. At that time, I wanted to go to work, but you all stopped me, is it okay now?” She pouted like a fool, as if it was a It's a thing of the past for you to act coquettishly. "Then..." I gasped, "What can I do for you? I see... I'm afraid I can only treat you to a few more meals. Let's make it so, I'll be there next week It's just an internship, but my place of work is very close to here, I come here every day to treat you to dinner, okay?" "That's not good." Zhao Zhao was still pretending to be reserved, "It's summer vacation, as long as your husband returns to Dragon City, how will you remember me. I am very self-aware." I looked deeply into her eyes, shook my head, and said with a smile: "No." Do I hope she can read some pain from my gaze, I can't say.I just realized that I have been tossing all morning, persistently trying to find my brother, but I have long since forgotten why I must find him.Well now, I finally remembered.Accompanied by the sharp stabbing pain in my heart like a ray of light, I remembered.I don't really want to talk to anyone about what happened last night, I don't even want to talk to Su Yuanzhi himself, I know that maybe it doesn't mean anything, the most important thing is, no matter whether Su Yuanzhi really happened with Duan Mufang or not, that said The feeling of pain will always be there, always illuminate me - wanting to hold on to that man and keep him from being snatched away, because I want what people call "forever". I believe that love should be forever, just like I believed that the red scarf was sacred when I was a child. But now, the consequence of this "belief" is a long, wretched life that I don't even want. "Sister Nanyin, are we friends?" Zhaozhao put his palm on his cheek, deliberately squeezed his eyes into an upturned shape, like a little fox. "Of course." I nodded very seriously. Although I felt in my heart that strictly speaking we are not friends, I have always been like this since I was a child. Whenever I encountered an atmosphere similar to an oath, I always said without thinking. Choose Mate. "Then you promise me one thing, okay?" Zhaozhao's hand suddenly pressed hard on my shoulder, "I told Teacher Zheng that the doctor will not officially notify me until after reading my previous medical records. Do you want to be hospitalized? Of course, after a while, I will tell him that I just need to take medicine, and you can keep it secret for me, okay?" "But Zhao Zhao—" "You said, we are friends." She interrupted me. "What if you can't get better after taking medicine? You need an adult to help you now. My brother is the only adult who can help you..." She interrupted me easily again, "That's why. That's why I don't want him to know. What if Mr. Zheng can't help me even though he really tried his best?" I understand what she means. She may not express it accurately enough. She actually wants to say that she does not want to let the people around her know what it means to be "powerless" because of her own existence. "Zhao Zhao," I asked with difficulty, "how serious is your illness?" Her left hand went around the back of her neck, scratching the hair next to her ears, "Some people take medicine all the time, never relapse, and live for a long time like everyone else; some people relapse from time to time, and go to the hospital every few years, Live in fear for a long time; some people will suddenly turn from chronic disease to acute disease when they relapse, then..." She smiled mischievously, "It's almost time to die. However, I don't believe that I am really that unlucky of." "I don't believe it either." What flashed through my mind was the news of the Yongan bombing on TV at the beginning of the year, the sad stranger in the small restaurant, and of course her imaginary father who was locked in a high wall like a legend. , "You have experienced so many bad things, Haoshi will definitely follow behind." Then I realized what a stupid thing I had said.But on that bright summer morning, without realizing it, I just looked down from the balcony with her, side by side—on a whim we both wanted to test our guts and see who would lean out a little more— —and she won.Like an elf, she casually turned her body into a graceful seesaw, almost horizontally, half suspended in the air, and showed me what it means to be "bold with high skills" amidst my screams.Her hair fell in a mess over her eyes, her arms propped herself up like a push-up, and those shoulders looked so beautiful.But she looked at the ground and said, "The watermelons sold at the stall downstairs are not tasty at all." "I have a way." I proudly announced from the side, "Wouldn't you cut up that absent and unsweetened watermelon into small pieces and mix it with vanilla ice cream?" So we jumped downstairs to buy watermelon and vanilla ice cream.At that moment, I really felt that we were all happy. I received a call from Su Yuanzhi in the office.That's right, in the office.Before the internship started, my mother dragged me to buy a suit and those black pointed high heels, and I felt like an idiot when I showed up at the company fully armed - because everyone was wearing sneakers and jeans, but My little girl, who is only responsible for copying and faxing, is running between offices with a limp in shoes that are seven centimeters high.After a week, I found that everyone liked me very much—I always believed in one thing, people who didn't like me at first sight were mostly bad people.Therefore, it can be seen that there are not many bad people in our office.Our supervisor always said that she felt good when she saw me, because when she told me to do something, she liked to see me nodding vigorously and saying "yes" vigorously. ——She always laughs: You are so funny, we are not an army here. I really like the moment when I start the day early in the morning when I am about to be late, and I sprint to the ground floor of the office building at full speed, and there are people in front of the elevator, and I just lean in and become one of them, especially when I am squeezed At the elevator door, voices of chatter were thrown from behind like darts: "7th floor, thank you." "Help me press the 12th floor, thank you." "Has anyone pressed the 15th floor..." I know that all these requests and thanks are for me, and I feel a slight joy in my heart.Because I have become an adult. "That sister, help me press the ninth floor too—" I happily put my finger on the "9", watched it shine brightly, and said to myself: who is the younger sister, don't underestimate people Yes, I also have a marriage certificate.However, there is a small problem, I also hate myself why I can’t be stronger, why I have to stay in bed until I’m about to be late to have the motivation to get up--interns get a salary of 1,000 yuan a month, optimistically speaking, every day If you take two taxis to work and after get off work, if there is no traffic jam, it will be enough.I thought I could save some money for my summer internship, alas, life is really not easy. At five o'clock in the afternoon, the supervisor came to my computer, "Zheng Xiaonan,"—she always called my name wrongly, "the copier in the office suddenly broke down, now you go to the corridor and make copies of these tender documents , print two copies in the green folder, print one copy in the red folder, and print three copies in the yellow folder in addition to the tender document, and also print a form for me. Remember it clearly?” I picked up those few A folder that looks like a traffic light, "I see." He quickly rushed out the door, feeling very nimble as he passed one leisurely person after another in the corridor.I was still thinking about what color to print in the clip. I only discovered Su Yuanzhi's "missed call" when I was running back to the office.The supervisor's seat is vacant, and I figured I'd have time to have a few words with him when she came back to check for errors in my copies.It was nice that I could tell him the supervisor was back and hang up anytime the conversation wasn't easy. "Nanyin, is there anyone in the company bullying you?" His voice was the same as before. "No, I have to ask this every day, do you expect me to be bullied?" I think my voice is the same as before, who knows. "What do you mean, I don't trust you, your head turns so slowly." On the spur of the moment, I wanted to ask: "Would you speak to her in the same tone, with the same words?" Of course, it was just an impulse, and I didn't do it.I just smiled, very afraid that I would laugh out a sneer if I accidentally laughed. "I just want to tell you that I may... have to return to Dragon City a few days later." "Oh, got it. How many days later?" I was even a little happy that there was no worse content after his questioning pause. "Where are you without a rabbit?" He was shocked. "What's the matter, you said you would come back a few days later, I asked you the date..." "You're not screaming, cheating, and throwing tantrums. The sun must be coming out from all directions." He sighed exaggeratedly. "He's in the office—" Facing the empty office, I involuntarily lowered my voice, "Both the supervisor and colleagues are here."—Look, lying to the one you love is so simple. "Zheng Nanyin, you also have today." He smiled, "I helped a senior brother do the program, I didn't expect it to be so complicated, but if you postpone it for a week, you will definitely be able to go home, wait for me obediently, okay?" "Understood. I have to go to work now. I have to go downstairs to get the bids that they made." Of course I don't have any bids to get. I just want to give both parties a reason to hang up. "Nanyin?" "What?" I bit my lower lip. "I miss you." "me too." yes i miss you.I didn't lie about this. A colleague walked in and said in surprise: "Hey, sister, you haven't left yet?" I looked away from the phone blankly and looked at him, "No." I don't know why, but I was so sincere all of a sudden. Smiling at him calmly, "Just let me do things, she said she would come back to check if I made any mistakes." The colleague was as happy as listening to a cross talk, "After you ran out to make copies just now, she got off work and left. Hey sister, you are too cute, right? If I hadn't left my phone here and came back to pick it up, how long are you going to wait?" ?” That colleague always forgot his mobile phone in the office, and then turned back to get it. One day after a year and a half, he returned to the office to pick up his mobile phone as always. On that day, many people were working overtime, and some people made fun of him, saying He escaped with great difficulty, came back for a mobile phone, and was not afraid of being bumped into by the manager and sent to work again. Was it because he was afraid of missing someone's call.He joked with everyone like this while avoiding the manager and went downstairs. At the intersection less than 300 meters away from the office building, he was hit and killed by an off-road vehicle that lost control and drove onto the sidewalk. When I heard the news, I suddenly remembered that midsummer evening in 2009.He smiled and said to me: Sister, if I hadn't left my phone here and came back to pick it up, how long are you going to wait? How long could he have lived if he hadn't left his phone there again and went back to get it? It's the weekend night again, and everyone is here.My uncle just came back from a meeting and kept telling everyone about his experiences in other places.After coming to an end, I seemed to feel that I should show a moderate concern about the recent situation of my family.So she raised her face, looked at her sister innocently, and asked, "Dong Ni, did you go to see that doctor again later? What's the last name... My memory is really degraded now..." Chen Yan said calmly. The knuckle bumped his arm. My sister looked around lazily, her eyes drifted between my father and my mother for a while, and finally chose my mother. "Third aunt, third uncle, tomorrow, my mother is getting married. She wants me... to invite you. Of course," she added hastily, "I just sent a message. If you don't want to go, there is no problem at all." "Your third aunt and I mean," Dad put down the chopsticks, and did not forget to exchange a glance with Mom, "We still don't want to go, there is no other meaning, but if we go, it will be awkward no matter how you say it. Just Let you children go and forget it." "Yes." My mother tapped my head with chopsticks very smoothly, "This girl represents us. If you have time, you can follow. When we give red envelopes, your mother will understand when she sees it, and we have come to my senses." "I don't know." The uncle's eyes fell between the plate of crispy chicken and cold seaweed shreds, and he didn't know what he was looking at. "Is the person that sister-in-law is looking for this time, good-tempered?" "That person" is a skinny little old man in his sixties—I didn't mean to, I just really don't know what to call Auntie's current husband.The aunt was calm, she looked around at me, my brother, my sister, and Sprite, and said briefly: "The oldest one is my daughter, and the rest are also our children." The man nodded embarrassingly. , the appearance of bending over us is very similar to that of a slightly human-shaped shrimp——the practice is not yet at home.A few of us nodded at him in the same embarrassing way, and my brother took the lead and said: "Hello." - God knows what to call him, in short, using the word "you" can't be wrong. My aunt is a little fatter than last year, and her complexion has become more even, but her outline still has a loose and decadent look, but she puts on brown eye shadow and brown-red lipstick with great effort.And, bravely and unambiguously put on the big red dress.The gypsophila stars in the flower decoration swept the skin of her chest intentionally or unintentionally—there was covered with light spots.In fact, I just discovered one thing, the former aunt, sometimes made me afraid, sometimes made me want to stay away, and sometimes made me unbelievable... But, there was never any gloomy look on her face .Even when her uncle passed away, the deep-seated sorrow did not bring anger to her eyes.She's always been a brightly colored woman—even if she's faded.But the ship is there, they are there to hang over, the braver she is, the deeper the twilight gathers.They dragged her, made the corners of her mouth droop, her hairline drooped, her nasolabial folds drooped, and one day she would be dragged quietly under the asphalt road. She patted me on the shoulder: "Nannan, eat well today, casually." - She didn't greet anyone, except me. Fortunately, over the long years, everyone has gradually gotten used to not asking her for anything "Rites". "Actually, I didn't invite anyone today," the aunt added. "That table is his family's relatives, the other two tables are church members, and the last table is just you guys." Shrimp Essence" went to greet those two tables of church members. My sister told me that my aunt and "Shrimp Essence" met when they were reading the Bible together. ——Don’t call him “Shrimp Essence”, after all, we are sitting in his restaurant. This small restaurant in the outskirts of Longcheng City seems almost to be lost among the surrounding auto repair shops and tire shops. It is estimated that those workers sitting on piles of discarded tires and eating boxed lunches would never have thought that we are holding a wedding banquet here.So, maybe call him "Boss Shrimp"? I hope Boss Shrimp is a real mediocre man.I also hope that the "Bible" can really teach Da Ma some things, for example, really learn to endure mediocre men and the desolate life behind him.Thinking about it carefully, in fact, sister and aunt are really similar.To be fair, my parents live happily because they are ordinary people.They don't feel the ground under their feet is barren, so they can easily grow colorful flowers on it.And believe that blooming is the only meaning.But the aunt is not that kind of person, and neither is the elder sister. While waiting for the flowers to bloom, they have already been overwhelmed by the confusion. Even if the flowers bloom as scheduled, it is useless. They no longer believe in any beautiful scenery.As expected of a mother and daughter. So Zheng Nanyin, which one are you?I have no idea. Bored, my sister gently pushed the empty glass in front of her. It slid a little along the extra layer of plastic film on the tablecloth, and hit the glass in front of Sprite like a billiard ball.The little gap that was removed was just enough for my sister to put her mobile phone on it.Intentionally or unintentionally, she glanced at the screen again. "Did you get a new phone?" I leaned over to take a closer look, and Sprite smiled beside me, and suddenly came over and leaned into my ear and said, "The last phone I called was with my little brother's father a few days ago. Ri Chuanghou was broken by her." The mysterious excitement in Sprite's words was immediately contagious to me, and I also felt happy - just imagine that scene and the unlucky Fang Jinghui. Sprite added another sentence: "This one, maybe it will be broken today." "What happened?" I asked Sprite in a low voice, "Let's talk about it." We came to the wedding together, but when we went out this morning, we said we had something to do and we couldn't make it." My sister turned towards us coldly, and said unhurriedly, "Be careful I'll tear your mouth apart." Sprite and I looked at each other with a snicker, probably thinking that "your mouth" refers to your mouth. What belongs to the other party has nothing to do with oneself.The church members at the two tables not far away seemed to be arguing about something. It seemed that the pastor who presided over the wedding called and said that he would be late for a while.Some people said: "Pastor Feng is a good person, but he has no sense of time." Others said: "Otherwise, let's forget about the banquet first, and just don't drink before Pastor Feng comes." Immediately, some people objected: "How can that be done? Somebody raised his voice and suggested, "Before the pastor arrives, let's all sing and sing. This can be regarded as congratulations to the newcomers." This proposal won everyone's approval.The elder sister suddenly sat upright: "Where did Xi Jue go?" My elder brother's seat became vacant at some point, and even Zhao Zhao, who just said he was going to the bathroom, never came back.雪碧像个小妇人那样娴熟地撇撇嘴：“干吗要带她一起来嘛，又不是我们家的人。” 邻桌的教友们参差不齐地站了起来。椅子拖着地面，那种声响和尘世间的所有喧嚣别无二致。他们自然而然地手挽着手，围着圆桌站成一圈。这群人的平均年龄估计是大妈那个岁数吧，歌声碎不及防地响起来的时候，那种整齐的暗哑是我从未遇到过的。 你为什么爱我，你究竟看到什么？ 站在镜子面前我都想躲。 连我自己都不爱我。 你为什么爱我，你究竟看到什么？ 站在你面前满是过错。 为什么不让我就这么堕落。 ... “这首歌还真的很适合婚礼唱呢。”我诧异地自言自语。“拜托！”姐姐冲我翻白眼，“这首歌里的'你'指的是基督。”它的曲调真的很简单，多听他们重复两遍，我自己也快要会唱了。 你为什么爱我，你究竟看到什么？ 站在镜子面前我都想躲。 连我自己都不爱我。 你为什么爱我，你究竟看到什么？ 站在你面前满是过错。 为什么不让我就这么堕落。 那个站在大妈身边的女人微微垂着头倾力歌唱的时候，没注意到她胸前那根粗的金链子，或者是镀金的链子不知为何松开了，像条蛰伏的娱蛤那样钩住了她领口的花边；那个男人微闭着双眼，他的酒糟鼻上的毛孔大得像痣；那个最为矮小的老太太怕是受邀的这群教友里年纪最大的，说她七十岁我也相信的，她左脚和右脚的丝袜一定不是一对，乍一看没什么问题，但是仔细看就知道深浅是不一样的；穿一身已经走了形的灰色西装的男人年轻时候应该是俊朗的，他的声音算是这群人里最令人印象深刻的，他陶醉在自己鹤立鸡群的歌声里，没注意到他谢顶的、油腻腻的脑袋上有一缕头发松散地飘到了额前，他面前那堆花生壳里，还插着半支并没有完全熄灭的烟。 等我活到这个年纪，我也会像他们这样。整个人都折旧了吗？满身陈旧的污垢让我自己都确信，自己一定是有罪孽的。否则，该如何解释那种像是寄生在指甲缝里，眼皮下面，或者牙缝之间的羞耻感呢？ 饭店的门似乎被什么强劲的风吹开了一样，毫无准备地，透进来一道光。刚刚还在歌唱的人们突然之间回到了尘世间，那种因为虔诚导致的整齐划一顷刻间瓦解。他们笑着说，冯牧师终于来了。可是，我明明看到，有两个人同时走了进来。其中一个人走上去跟所有人朗声地道歉，应该就是他们说的冯牧师。另一个，站在离我们的餐桌不远的地方。瘦瘦高高的男人，穿得也很随便，不像是特意来出席仪式的样子，也说不出挂着什么样的表情。 冯牧师突然转向他，把他介绍给大伙儿：“多亏了今天在医院门口碰到陈医生，要不是搭了他的车，还不知道什么时候才能赶来。” 我终于明白了为什么我会觉得这个男人有点眼熟，姐姐的眼睛抬了起来，绝对不能说是羞涩，但是那光泽是兴奋的。“这么巧？”姐姐淡淡地，但是微笑着说—习惯性地，拿捏出了她跟男人说话时候那种不大一样的调子。 那是我第一次见到陈医生。