Chapter 9 Chapter 9 Growth is constantly encountering traps

This day's class was in a trance.In the evening, I returned home in a hurry, ate a little food, and then ran to the mirror to change my clothes, a bit like the heroine in a TV series, no matter how I changed, I was not satisfied. My mother was looking at me in the mirror. She brought a cup of coffee, teased me and said, "Why do I feel that you are going to have a concert?" I held a pink lady's skirt in my hand, looked up and down in the mirror, looked at her and said: "It is said on TV that drinking coffee makes your skin look old." She smiled and said, "I'm already old."

"Nonsense." I scolded her. She didn't think I was impolite. No matter what age a woman is, she always likes to hear compliments, no matter what kind of compliments they are. Dusk finally came.I was suddenly a little nervous. I don't know if it was because I was going to see Faye Wong, or because of something else.When I was about to go out, I suddenly changed the skirt of the lady's house and put on my honest sportswear. My mother looked at me and said strangely: "What's the matter, isn't it very beautiful?" I said, "Forget it, anyway, I am watching Faye Wong, and she can't see me."

Mom smiled: "Hehe, clothes are often worn for yourself. Without good clothes, how can you be in a good mood?" She was wearing new clothes again, and she was still so beautiful. "Forget it." I said firmly. "Let's go." She didn't persuade me. My mother sent me to the gate of the TV station, where there was a sea of ​​people.She couldn't find a place to park.I jumped out of the car in a panic, and she made a phone call gesture for me, which meant that I would call her when I was about to finish, and she would come to pick me up.I nodded at her and her car drove away.

I stood alone at the door of the TV station and waited for Ding Xuanran. Fans gathered in front of the TV station, holding up Faye Wong's poster and shouting excitedly: "Faye Wong...Faye Wong..." All the security guards were dispatched to prevent any accidents. The black crowd was moving up and down, I was really afraid that Ding Xuanran would not see me, so I kept calling him but couldn't get through. I was very anxious, and some unreasonable worries jumped up. Just then, my cell phone rang. "Hi, hello, is this Lei Yazi? I'm Ding Xuanran's cousin. Where are you?"

I told him where I was, and after a while, a tall man walked towards me, sweating profusely, with a work card hanging on his face. "Leaz?" he asked me. "Hmm." I nodded. "Come on, come in with me!" He motioned to me. "Where's Ding Xuanran?" I asked. "He's in a hurry and can't come. Let me arrange for you." What?Ding Xuanran can't come?My head was stunned, and I followed Ding Xuanran's cousin like a puppet. Finally walked into the studio, the lights are overflowing and the stage is colorful. The seats were already filled to the brim.

My cousin took me to an empty seat in the front row: "Just here, I reserved it for you, here you can clearly see the actors on the stage." I sat down and smiled at him: "Thank you!" "No, I'm off to work, can you go alone after the show?" He asked me. "Okay." I nodded quickly. Sitting there, surrounded by strangers, I suddenly felt helpless, like a lonely boat. I called Ding Xuanran again, but still couldn't get through.What is he in a hurry for?It must be tricky, or he wouldn't have missed the appointment. I watched one show after another in a trance, listening to the cheers and applause next to me, the initial enthusiasm dropped from boiling point to freezing point.

Finally the host called out Faye Wong's name in a trembling voice. Faye Wong appeared amidst the screams of the audience. She was wearing a simple black dress, singing softly, her expression was as cold as on TV, seeing her so clearly, I thought my heart would pop out, who knew I was calm, like in MP3 It's as peaceful as listening to her songs. Fans yelled Faye Wong's name wildly, and the little girl next to me beat a boy with her fists in excitement. Some were crying, some were waving, and some were about to rush to the stage, but were stopped by security. I watched all this quietly, not like a live audience, but like an outsider.

Yes, that's all I can do.Maybe with Ding Xuanran around, I will be a little different. Sometimes there is only a subtle distance between madness and calm. Faye Wong sang calmly, and my cheeks felt cool. At the end of the two songs, Faye Wong hurriedly left the scene.The party also ended in a climax. I followed the flow of people out of the studio. The excited boys and girls discussed going to the hotel where Faye Wong stayed. I didn't want to take a car and walked alone on the street late at night. The night wind blows a little bit of coolness, and the neon lights are shining brilliantly.

I suddenly remembered the English song "Seven Lonely Days" that my mother loved to listen to. I seemed to understand why my mother liked to listen to that song. lonely. When I got home, my mother was watching TV and asked me in surprise, "It's over so soon? Why didn't you let me pick you up?" "No, it's pretty fast." "Did you see Faye Wong?" "I see." I said lightly. "Don't be too excited to sleep at night." "Will not." "Seeing how tired you are, take a shower and go to bed." "Okay, Mom, you go to bed early, too."

I try to force a smile. As soon as she went to bed, she received a call from Ding Xuanran. "Lezi, are you home yet?" "yes." "I'm relieved now. I'm really sorry today. I have something urgent and I can't come." "it does not matter." "Is the show good? What songs did Faye Wong sing?" "A lot." "Does it sound good?" "nonsense!" "Hehe, talk to me again at school tomorrow." "Okay, now I'm tired and want to sleep." I'm really tired. I've been walking on the street for too long, and my feet are as soft as cotton.

"Then I won't bother you, good night. Let's talk tomorrow." Ding Xuanran seemed to have more to say, and his tone didn't sound like he had encountered something sad, so what made him break the appointment?Let me spend this night that shouldn't be lonely. But of course, he has his world and his secrets. I knew from a young age that everyone's inner world cannot be easily approached. I am very conscious, so I don't want to ask. Arriving at school in the morning, I saw Ji Yu's eyes were swollen. "What's wrong with you?" I asked her concerned. She rubbed her eyes: "I was so excited watching Faye Wong on TV last night, I didn't sleep well." "As for?" I think if she knew that I was there in person, she would jump up and pinch my neck. "Didn't you read it?" "I see, but it's very ordinary, far from the original expectation." I said lightly.Ding Xuanran was also beside me at the time, I thought he could understand what I said, but he didn't make a sound. "Fan Di, did you watch the live broadcast on TV last night? There are a lot of stars here, and the finale is Faye Wong—my idol." My new deskmate studies very hard, and usually has little communication with me except for study topics. In fact, I really want to get closer to him. Facing my question, he said without raising his head: "I don't have time. I went to the teacher's home to study chemistry last night, and the live broadcast is over when I get home. But I'm not interested in those either." "Oh, is it? In fact, sometimes you have to relax yourself in your studies. If the string is too tight, it will break." I told him kindly. "Hey, you don't understand, Lei Yazi, I'm not as smart as you guys. I'm stupid, so I have to fly first. It's not like Ding Xuanran, who is still chatting with girls in the street garden at such a late hour." "Ding Xuanran is chatting with the girls in the garden?" I doubted my ears. "Are you reading that right?" "You can't read it wrong. Ding Xuanran is my old classmate in junior high school. He liked to hang out with girls when he was in junior high school. But his grades are good. I can't envy him." Fandy's words gave me the first strong feeling of injury, complete injury, injury covered with cuts and bruises.Two of my most trusted best friends cheated on me together.It turned out that Ding Xuanran's so-called urgent matter was chatting with Ji Yu in the street garden, and it turned out that Ji Yu's so-called lack of sleep was caused by the excitement of chatting. Then what am I?A real little fool! The dialogue under the misty starry sky, the figure by the blue lake, the concerned eyes in front of the hospital bed, the sincere words on the phone, everything is a lie! I was restless all day, my mind was full of past events from the summer vacation, and my nerves were inextricably entangled.The physics teacher asked me to answer questions, but I didn't know what questions he asked. "Student Lei Yazi, don't think that you are directly promoted and just relax and study. You have to know that high school is a brand new beginning. No matter how brilliant you were before, it is equal to zero." In my memory, I have never been criticized by the teacher with such sharp words. Tears welled up in my eyes in an instant, flooding my eyes. Finally, when school was over, I packed my schoolbag and prepared to escape. I wanted to go home, to my hut. "Yazi, wait for me." Ji Yu called me from the back row. I pretended not to hear, and ran out of the classroom quickly, I just wanted to go home quickly. The phone in my bag rang continuously and I turned it off. When I rushed out of the school gate, I saw Liu's car, and Liu leaned against the car and waited for me. "Yazi, what's the matter?" I thought maybe the tears on my face hadn't dried yet, maybe I was too emotional, Liu looked at me strangely. I opened his car door and got into the car at super speed: "Hurry up and drive me home, I want to go home." Liu quickly started the car, and through the mirror, I saw Ding Xuanran running out of breath.Liu said: "It's your classmate Ding Xuanran, do you want to give him a ride?" "Don't worry about it, okay?" I yelled uncontrollably. The car rolled up, and Ding Xuanran stood there blankly looking at us. I knew he knew Liu's car. Don't look at him, don't care about him, don't think about him anymore, I have a kind of exhaustion after being cheated. "What's the matter? The little girl also encountered emotional troubles?" Liu asked me half-jokingly. I didn't want to pay attention to him: "You'd better deal with your own affairs first!" "Don't I still need your help? Although your mother promised to be friends with me, I can feel her alienation from me. Her iceberg is really hard to melt!" "In short, you can't lie to your mother. You must treat her wholeheartedly and wholeheartedly, and you can't let her suffer the slightest bit of grievance, otherwise I won't help you." I said it in one breath. "Of course. Yazi, I have absolutely no falsehood to your mother." "I hope so." I murmured softly. After a night of rest, I have already armed myself with all my injuries. I don’t want to be a cowardly girl, just pretend that everything in the summer vacation is a beautiful fantasy. The lake and the starry sky are so beautiful that it is unreal , they lied to me, but nothing happened. In class this day, I was full of energy and high spirits. The teachers praised me in turn. I seemed to have returned to my junior high school days. There were no questions I didn’t understand, and no teachers who looked down on me. It's just that I also heard the cynicism of some classmates. "So what are you doing seriously? Pretending to be garlic!" "Isn't it a direct lift? As for being so ostentatious?" "What a treasure!" ... I don't care what they say, I am a strong snail now, the thick shell is my strong armor, invulnerable. "Yazi, you are showing off your power. You didn't see the embarrassment on the face of the physics teacher who criticized you yesterday. Let him see how powerful you are!" Ji Yu smiled and patted me on the shoulder. "Of course, I can't lose face, I want to regain my glory!" "Lei Zi, you should tell the physics teacher: If the tiger doesn't show its power, you still treat me like a sick cat, so you can relieve the hatred in your heart yesterday!" Ding Xuanran leaned over. I still chatted and laughed with them, as if nothing had happened, I naturally maintained my previous image, I think my disguise was flawless, I even admired my acting skills a little bit. "By the way, yesterday I saw that old Liu came to pick you up. I wanted to hitch a ride, but who knew you would run away in no time. I couldn't get through to your phone." Ding Xuanran looked annoyed. "Really?" I pretended to be at a loss. "It's my birthday this Saturday, and I've reserved a room at Dashijie KTV, and I'll treat you to the two young ladies, okay?" Ding Xuanran smiled charmingly. "Okay! But no gifts!" Ji Yu winked at me. "No way!" Ding Xuanran was stunned, "You're so stingy! If you don't give away anything else, let's give Nike and Adidas as well!" "Dream!" Ji Yu and I hit Ding Xuanran on the head together, he screamed like a pig. Having said that, I have already started to have a headache about what birthday present to buy for Ding Xuan.Although he hurt me deeply, but thinking of his care and help to me, I still feel that I should take this opportunity to thank him. Finally, I saw a blue and white sports bag at the Nike store, it is very stylish, I think Ding Xuanran will definitely like it.I bought it without hesitation for 188 yuan. This bag represents my gratitude to Ding Xuanran, and confirms some memories of that summer vacation. Even if the memories have been wiped out for him, at least I still remember them. I thought sadly. Walking into the private room of the KTV, there was already singing everywhere. "Yazi, why did you come here? I've already sang many songs." Ji Yu ran over to hold me back. "Traffic jam." I looked around, but I didn't find Ding Xuanran, "Where's Ding Xuanran?" I asked Ji Yu. "He?" Ji Yu looked around blankly, "He was here just now, who knows?" "It's not your singing that scares him away!" A boy came over and snatched the microphone from Ji Yu's hand. "Nonsense! Listening to my singing and confiscating your appearance fee is already a great favor!" "They are all Ding Xuanran's junior high school classmates. That's right! Look at the present I bought for him, isn't it cool?" Ji Yu happily pulled me aside. I saw her take out a sports bag from her pocket, blue and white - Nike! I was dumbfounded.Such a coincidence in the world?What a brilliant irony! The only thing I can do is to cover the paper bag tightly in my hand so that she cannot see the contents inside. "Yazi, you didn't see that, when that guy saw this gift, he was as happy as an orangutan. By the way, what did you give him?" Ji Yu asked me. "I...why did I give it to him? Didn't I say that I would not give it away? You really gave him Nike..." I prevaricate my embarrassment. "Didn't I also want to play at the same table?" At this moment, Ding Xuanran came in, saw me and shouted: "Lei Yazi, why did you come in? I have been waiting for you outside for so long but I didn't get you. Could it be that you have grown wings and can fly?" "Maybe I missed it." I said weakly. God is doomed, God knows how it all happened? I still remember the night he left, and I still remember my mother sincerely praised me for my kindness.But since when did I become such a narrow-minded girl? To grow is to keep encountering traps. Growing up, sometimes just makes yourself more and more dissatisfied with yourself.