Chapter 12 Chapter Twelve Goodbye, My Love

The next day, Xiaoduo changed her cell phone number. The old card was shredded finely with scissors and thrown into the trash can.Liu Chang watched her do all this silently, and flicked her forehead lightly with his fingers when he was done, and said, "Okay, a new life has begun." "Do you think Lan and Xiaogao will go to the performance?" Xiaoduo asked Liu Chang worriedly. "You're such an old man, you should be able to tell which is more important," Liu Chang said, "I'll make a phone call later to ask about it. Besides, I've got the ticket, and I'll watch it with you at night."

"Love scenes are boring." Xiaoduo laughed. "Boring is also love." Liu Chang's words are really classic. Before going to the show, there was still some time, Xiaoduo said to Liu Chang: "I want to go to the Internet cafe, there is a manuscript that has not been sent out yet." "Go." Liu Chang stroked her long hair and said, "Send me a short message when you're done, and I'll pick you up by bike." "Why didn't you clamor to go with me?" Xiaoduo deliberately made fun of him. "Hey!" Liu Chang said, "You are all mine, what am I afraid of!"

"Liu Chang! You are not allowed to talk nonsense!" Xiaoduo put on a straight face. "Hey! I'm yours now, what else can't I tell you!" Liu Chang pushed her into the Internet cafe and said, "Go, go, I just happened to go to the video store, in order to chase you , I have been idle for a long time." Xiaoduo gave him a white look, and went into the Internet cafe alone. The first thing to do was to find S, but S was not online, so Xiaoduo sent him the article that he had written a long time ago, but as soon as the letter was sent, his QQ avatar lit up: "Xiaoduo, I am here of."

"Hey!" Xiaoduo said, "Do you not rest during Chinese New Year?" "It's boring." "Find a girlfriend." "Hey, there is no one like you around." "Then find someone better than me." Xiaoduo said, "By the way, I'll give you my new phone number, and you can call me from my new number later." "Haha, is the old account in arrears?" "No." Xiaoduo said, "It means saying goodbye to the past." "Oh?" "S, I think I finally see myself clearly, and finally know what I want. I never thought about it before. It's actually quite easy to start and end a relationship. It's really unnecessary to embarrass myself like that before. Oh."

"Yes." S said, "Xiaoduo, you are right, it is like this." "You have to bless me." "It's getting worse and worse." S scolded. "Hee hee, Dabao SOD honey is added." "First declare, then I will be ranked first, and it will be my turn to break up." "Crow mouth!" "Okay," said the laughing avatar sent by S, "bless you, grow old together with your lover, forever. I'm going to read your manuscript, if I don't need it, I will beat you, be careful. " After speaking, his QQ went dark. For some reason, even though she has never met, Xiaoduo always feels that S is the kind of person she can confide in, a trustworthy good friend.Xiaoduo has enough confidence in this point.

Everything is like a polite sentence that S once said: "From a distance of one ID, watch each other warmly." how nice. To Xiaoduo's peace of mind, Lan and Xiao Gao finally participated in the performance that night.Moreover, the show was a great success, and the entertainment headlines of various newspapers in Nanjing were full of such news: college students wrote and acted in the stage play "Love You is worse than Love Yourself", talked about the joys and sorrows of urban love, how many tears were earned, etc. ... It was also heard that Lan cried as soon as the scene was over, crying so hard that she couldn't even continue the reporter's interview.

"Go and persuade her." Xiao Gao came to beg Xiao Duo and said, "I don't know what medicine she took wrong, it's like having a convulsion." "Let her cry." Xiaoduo said, "It will be fine after crying." She didn't try to persuade Lan. Friendship is actually the same as love. In many cases, distance can make each other understand each other better. Liu Chang borrowed a laptop from somewhere, so that Xiaoduo can write and surf the Internet at home.Although it is a narrowband, it is much better than going to an Internet cafe.Liu Chang occasionally took a look at the things Xiaoduo had published in magazines, but Xiaoduo tried desperately to grab them and refused to let him read them.For some reason, when Liu Chang stared at her writing, she felt shy.

"Love still has a process of running in." S said, "This process is wonderful, you have to learn to enjoy it." "You made yourself look like a love expert." Xiaoduo laughed. "Why am I not?" S said unconvinced, "I am much better than you imagined, so don't underestimate me." "That's that!" I was having fun with S when the doorbell rang.It was Lan, carrying a lot of food, and made a contrived smile at Xiaoduo. Liu Chang was not at home, Xiaoduo opened the door, looked at her and said, "Why, I don't accept gifts."

"Stingy ghost." Lan said. "I'm not angry at all." "Yes, cheapskates are angry." Lan came in, threw the things on the ground and said, "It's all over!" "What do you mean it's over?" Xiaoduo didn't understand. "I made up with Xiaogao, I figured it out." Lan said to Xiaoduo, "Love is like buying vegetables. After picking and choosing, only rotten leaves are left. It's better to find the right ones, at least you can get it." Something brighter." "What are you talking about." Xiaoduo said to Lan, "I'm not talking about you, you've become more and more outrageous recently."

"You still remember what happened that night." Lan said, "It was really a chance encounter. He was already drunk like that when I met him, I swear." "I have nothing to do with him." Xiaoduo said viciously, "If Liu sings, you try?" "Hey." Lan said, "I remind you not to be too proud, even if I let your handsome guy go, I don't know how many seniors are staring at him!" Xiaoduo handed her a bottle of drink and said, "It's yours, it's yours. If it's not your request, you can't get it." "Little life is going well." Lan turned the drink bottle and said with a smirk, "School will start in two days, and I'm afraid I won't be used to living in the dormitory after school starts. Do you have... er... that de facto marriage? What?"

"Go to hell!" Xiaoduo picked up the cushion on the sofa and beat Lan indiscriminately.Lan shouted for help, and managed to calm Xiaoduo down. Seeing Xiaoduo blushing with anger, Lan thought it was funny, so she said: "I know Liu Chang is a gentleman, he was just kidding you, so what are you doing seriously!" "You think everyone is like you!" Xiaoduo was still angry. Lan hurriedly changed the subject: "I said, Ye seems to be really bad, I met him several times later at the 'Blue Boiling Point', and every time he was so drunk that he didn't recognize anyone. Once you fall in love, you really stand by and watch? You can't be so cruel!" "Is it okay not to talk about him?" Xiaoduo said. "Hey! If you don't say it, you still have him in your heart." Lan said, "Be careful, I'll tell Liu Chang." "Who is afraid of whom?" Xiaoduo said. "Yes, everyone in the world knows that Liu Chang is afraid of you. You don't need to mention this light-hearted person!" Lan took Xiaoduo's arm, "Let's go, let's go shopping?" "Good!" Xiaoduo said.It's been a long time since I went shopping, school is about to start, and there are a lot of things to buy. But as soon as they walked out of the house, they saw the head of the department and two policemen walking towards them.As they approached, one of the policemen asked in a serious tone, "Which of you is Xue Xiaoduo?" "Me." Xiaoduo said, an ominous feeling had already enveloped her heart in an instant. "There is a suicide case, we want you to assist in the investigation, please come with us to the bureau." "Who?" Xiaoduo asked tremblingly, "Who committed suicide?" "Ye Zhuang," said the policeman. As soon as she heard these two words, Xiaoduo's face completely darkened, and the figure seemed to be weightless, falling suddenly and unconsciously.Lan on the side grabbed Xiaoduo's arm and screamed. "He's dead?" Xiaoduo asked after a long time. "Early this morning," the police said, "in his rented house, he turned on the gas and took an overdose of sleeping pills. He was dead when we entered the room after receiving the report." "Okay." Xiaoduo looked unusually calm, "I'll go with you." "Wait." Lan asked the policeman, "Can I accompany her?" "Okay, but wait outside." In this way, Lan accompanied Xiaoduo to the police station.The cross-examination took a long time, and it was already seven o'clock in the evening when Xiaoduo came out.She looked a little tired, but normal.Lan disappeared, and the person waiting outside was replaced by Liu Chang.Seeing Xiaoduo coming out, Liu Chang hugged her into his arms and said, "Are you hungry, I'll take you to eat something." Xiaoduo broke free from him without showing a trace. Liu Chang didn't mind, but pulled her to the side of the motorcycle and said, "Come on, let me show you something." After finishing speaking, he bent down, and what he picked up from the ground was the little pet in the fish tank. "Where did you get it?" Xiaoduo took the fish tank in surprise. "I thought it must be very important to you, so after receiving Lan's call, I rode for a ride." Liu Chang said, "It was blocked there, so I got Xiao Chong out after trying to talk about it." "I want to visit his house." Xiaoduo hugged Xiaochong. "It's blocked, you can't get in." "Then I'll take a look outside." "Okay." Seeing that Xiaoduo insisted on going, Liu Chang had no choice but to take Xiaoduo to that community.I don't know if it's because of the homicide, but the whole community looks very deserted, with serious expressions of pedestrians, coming and going in a hurry.They didn't approach the house. Looking from a distance, the small unit on the first floor looked very lonely. Walking to the left, you can still see the weeds in the backyard.That's where Ye and she used to live. Ye said that if she likes it, she can buy it.Xiaoduo still remembered that there was a photo hanging in that room, in which there was a cute girl holding a windmill, and the pink rose Ye bought, maybe it was still blooming.Nothing has changed, the only difference is that Ye is no longer there. He will never come back. He left no last words.They said that he was short of 680,000 public funds and committed suicide in fear of crime. Suicide in fear of guilt. What a desperate four words. Xiaoduo recalled Lan morning and said to herself: "Ye is really bad, don't you just stand by like this?" Thinking of that night, Ye put her head on Lan's chest and shouted loudly with blood red eyes: "Come here , let's continue drinking!" That was the last time she saw him, that was the last shot he left in her eyes.She once loved a man to the bone, she can separate from him, and she can stop having any relationship with him, but she can't accept a farewell, especially a parting in this way. Mrs. Cruel. Thinking of this, Xiaoduo couldn't help feeling sad, her stomach started to churn, she ran to the side of the road and vomited desperately. "Let's go." Liu Chang supported her and said, "You've caught a cold, I'll take you to the hospital." "No need." Xiaoduo said, "I just want to go back and sleep." Liu Chang sent Xiaoduo back home. During the day, Liu Chang guarded Xiaoduo every step of the way.When he wants to sing at night, he changes to Lan.Lan held a bowl of porridge, patted Xiaoduo's cheek vigorously and said, "Get up, eat!" "I really can't eat," Xiaoduo lay down on the bed weakly, closed her eyes and said, "If I eat, I will throw up." Blue shook his head helplessly. "Lan!" Xiaoduo suddenly sat up from the bed, grabbed Lan's arm and said, "Please, help me find someone, no matter what, I have to find her, I want to meet her!" "Okay." Lan said, "As long as you drink this bowl of porridge obediently, I'll find aliens for you too!" Lan did not disappoint Xiaoduo, within a day, she got things done for Xiaoduo. "She didn't go to work these days, so I managed to get her address and phone number. She is the only female leader in Ye's head office." Lan said to Xiaoduo, "But I'm afraid, you don't want to see her." Xiaoduo couldn't wait to take the address slip in Lan's hand.Seeing the note, Xiaoduo almost fainted! sky! That was the address of Tiantian's house, an address Xiaoduo was never familiar with.She had lived there for a long time, and she used to think that she was the gentlest, most beautiful and kindest woman in the world!She never thought that she would be with Ye... "No wonder I thought her face was familiar when I saw her for the first time. It turned out that I met her and Ye in the hospital." Lan said, "There is another thing that I find strange. When I went to find her today, guess what I said Who did you see?" "Who?" "Arsen." Lan said: "Her secretary said that A Sen has been looking for her these days. Tell me, how did they know each other?" Xiaoduo subconsciously touched the wound on her body, the car accident that happened near Tiantian's house flashed through Xiaoduo's heart like lightning, and in an instant, Xiaoduo understood everything.She knelt down and hugged herself slowly, and after the cold reached the bone marrow, she vomited again. The feeling of nausea can't be stopped no matter what, it seems like I have to spit out all my internal organs before I will stop. "Let's go, Xiaoduo." Lan helped Xiaoduo up and said, "I'll accompany you to the hospital. No matter what happens, we'll make plans when we recover!" "I'm going to Tiantian's house." Xiaoduo tried to stand up and said, "Go now." "It's not too late to go after seeing the doctor." Lan advised her. "She forced him to death!" Xiaoduo yelled hoarsely, uncontrollably, "680,000, she controlled him, 680,000 is one life, she will be responsible no matter what!" Lan covered her mouth in panic and said, "Don't talk nonsense, Xiaoduo, don't talk nonsense!" "It's her, it's her, it's her!" Xiaoduo said tearfully, "I'm so stupid, Lan, I'm so stupid, I was played around by others, I'm so stupid..." "Okay, okay." Lan lightly patted Xiaoduo's back and said, "Don't cry, be good, I'll ask her out to meet you." "Don't tell Liu Chang." Xiaoduo said angrily, "I don't want him to know about these things." "Okay." Lan said, "but you have to promise me, you have to cheer up. The dead is gone, Xiaoduo, you have to love yourself and protect yourself. I believe you are not what Ye wants to see, what do you think? " Xiaoduo nodded, and hugged Lan tightly. She finally saw her. In the box of Old Tree Coffee, she sat opposite her. Someone died, someone she loved or someone who loved her died, but she was still the same, so calmly beautiful and so eye-catching, as if nothing had happened. Xiaoduo said straight to the point: "I just want to know why?" "He brought it on himself," she said. "I patched his loopholes over and over again, and he did it over and over again." "You talk nonsense!" Xiaoduo scolded her, "Ye is not the kind of person who is greedy for money!" "How much do you really know?" she asked. Xiaoduo was stunned by her question. "Do you know how many lovers he has? Do you know how much he spends every day? What brand of cigarette does he like to smoke? What brand of clothes does he like to wear? How much do you know about his desire and anxiety? After Tiantian's mother asked aggressively, she lit a cigarette for herself, and added with disdain: "You are just a child." Xiaoduo gritted her teeth and said, "I will tell the police everything I know." "Up to you." She exhaled a puff of smoke and said calmly, "You have your rights." "Aren't you afraid?" Xiaoduo asked her. "Not afraid." She said calmly. "Why?" "Because you are far from my opponent." Xiaoduo said desperately: "Is this how Ye was defeated by your hands?" "Love is a war." She said with a sad smile, "However, this kind of war often has no end. Even in the end, it is difficult to determine who wins and who loses." "He admitted to me that he was in love with you." Xiaoduo said, "Even if he made a mistake, why do you insist on forcing him to die?" "You're wrong, I didn't force him." Tian Tian's mother said, "I've said it, it's his own fault." "He loved you, because of you, he broke up with me..." Xiaoduo said painfully. "You're wrong again, he doesn't have one." Tiantian's mother said, "The only one he loves is himself." "You really have no heart." Xiaoduo said desperately. She smiled: "Really? It's so good." After speaking, she stood up, opened the door and asked the lady to pay the bill.Then she walked back to Xiaoduo, leaned over and said to her: "Little girl, no matter what, I wish you happiness. After all this, the next time you play love games, you will be more comfortable." Xiaoduo stood up suddenly, overturned the two cups on the table, and left angrily before she left. Seeing Xiaoduo coming out, Lan who was waiting at the door hurried up to meet her, and asked her, "It will be ready so soon, how is it?" Xiaoduo shook her head and didn't want to say a word.Yes, she was right, she was not her match.Not now, not in the future, never will be.During this meeting, Xiaoduo has already got the answer she wanted. Ye lost tragically, but she is also playing with fire and self-immolation, which is not worthy of pity. This is his doom.From the very first day, it was destined to end like this. Lan finally persuaded Xiaoduo and took her weak to the hospital.The result of the examination was like a bolt from the blue, which Xiaoduo never expected. She is pregnant. Holding the test sheet, Lan said through gritted teeth, "This Liu Chang is too careless!" Xiaoduo's eyes were blurred and her legs were weak. Lan hugged her and said: "It's okay, honey, I tried it, it just hurts for a while, and it will be fine soon, let's do it now, I'll call Liu Chang." Xiaoduo holds Lan's hand. "What's wrong?" Lan said, "Shouldn't he know about this?" "I'll tell him myself." Xiaoduo said, "Let's go home now, shall we?" "Okay." Lan said, "Alright, you guys discuss it, we'll come back tomorrow." When I got home, Liu Chang hadn't come back yet. The computer was turned on, and there was his message on it: "Honey, I have two songs tonight, come back later, go to bed early by yourself." "Look at how kind Liu Chang is to you." Lan said, "It's really enviable." Xiaoduo turned off the computer, lay down on the bed after grooming, and said to Lan: "You go back first, I'm fine." "Okay." Lan said, "Don't argue with him, I'll pick you up early tomorrow morning." "Not noisy." Xiaoduo said. Of course it won't be noisy, because Xiaoduo knows clearly in her heart that this child has nothing to do with Liu Chang, and the relationship between her and Liu Chang is not at all what Lan imagined.After all, they were just a few kisses.Pure white is so beautiful that it makes people jealous. The child should belong to Ye. On the night of New Year's Eve, when Ye entered Xiaoduo's body, she didn't take any measures. So, this is Ye's child, Ye's. Ye left, leaving behind his child. This is the only evidence that love has ever come. It is also the only memorial Ye left for her besides Xiao Chong. Xiaoduo caressed her belly and thought: If he is born, what will he look like? Will he have beautiful eyes and lips like Ye, or have the same smile as Luo Jialiang? The phone rang sharply in the middle of the night.Not many people know her new number, Xiaoduo thought it was Liu Chang, but it was S when she picked up. "Xiaoduo." S said, "How are you?" Xiaoduo bit her lip and remained silent. "I haven't seen you online these days. I don't know why, but I feel bad about you. Tell me, how are you?" S's tone on the phone was very gentle. Xiaoduo cried bitterly into the phone. "I'm in Nanjing." S said, "I just arrived. How are you, do you want to see me?" "Okay." Xiaoduo said. Perhaps, everything is predestined. Before thinking clearly, Xiaoduo didn't know what else to do except leave.She packed her simple luggage and quietly came to the door of "SUN" before going to see S.Standing outside an open window, I can clearly hear Liu singing, it is an old song by Teresa Teng: GOODBYEMYLOVE my love, goodbye, GOODBYEMYLOVE, I don’t know when we will meet... Leaning against the white wall, Xiaoduo burst into tears. Goodbye, my love, please believe that I love you. It's just that this is a separation that we have to face and cannot hide from. Goodbye, my love, I don't know when we will meet again...