Chapter 160 Section Fourteen

In the next few days, I had no contact with Qin Chuan. I think maybe I frightened him, after all, those words broke the clear boundary between us for more than twenty years.In retrospect, no matter whether he cares or misses me, Qin Chuan has always kept me within the scope of "best friend" and has never done anything out of the ordinary.And this time, I probably stepped on a minefield that I should never have touched.Between men and women, if there is love and delusion, there will be no friendliness. We are indeed very important existences in each other's lives, and it is because of the importance that we are extra careful, for fear of going in the wrong direction, and eventually missing, losing, and going to different places.Lovers will get entangled, but good friends won't; lovers will break up, but good friends won't; lovers will get hurt, but good friends won't.

Several times I wanted to call Qin Chuan, as if nothing had happened, and said happily, "What's the matter? Are you scared by me? Do you dare to disturb my blind date again? Be careful, I really depend on you." " and other jokes, just let this matter pass silently.But every time I pick up the phone, I still can't dial that number.Because I know it wasn't a joke at all, every word I said was the truth.A little wronged, a little unwilling, a little sad, so I simply buried my head in the sand of friendship that we have accumulated over the years. During the few days when I was most disturbed, there happened to be an old writer in the agency who was going to go to the countryside for ten days to collect folk songs. No one would like to do this kind of work.And I just wanted to go to a place with few people and have a quiet time, so I immediately asked Director Zhu to take the initiative.Director Zhu was very happy, and kept praising me for being sensible and self-motivated.

Before leaving, I was packing my luggage at home, and Xiao Yu sneaked into my room.That day when I came back from listening to Hai Ting, I ignored her with a dark face. She guessed that Qin Chuan and I had quarreled, and walked around when she saw me. "Sister..." Xiaoyu called me in a low voice. "Why? Do I need to inform others about my going to Mianyang?" I said coldly. "No, no, no!" Xiao Yu shook her head vigorously, "This time I will definitely keep it secret." "What good does he do to you? Let you have so many things!" "...Brother Qin Chuan promised to give me the latest game figures..."

"I really want to do you!" "Sister! It's really not my fault!" Xiao Yu tried desperately to explain, "Why would I take the initiative to tell him? He came to ask me who you dated recently, who you see more often, and where you eat at night .” "Then you said it?" "I think he cares about you..." "He cares about shit!" "Really, sister! Let me tell you, according to my observation, brother Qin Chuan must like you! He was worried that you married someone else on a blind date, so he entrusted me to monitor you!" "Surveillance!" I looked at the sky and rolled my eyes, "Do you understand that he has a girlfriend! Tell you, if you want to make trouble with him again, I will tell your mother that you have a puppy love with your monitor!"

"Thank you Joe!" "Thank you!" "I don't care about you anymore! Do whatever you want! Coward! If you miss Brother Qin Chuan, you will regret it!" "That's the best!" Xiao Yu slammed the door out, I closed the suitcase and lay flat on the bed.The ceiling of my old house is white, and there is nothing on it that can give a definitive answer to my friendship or my love. The place where the old writer and I went first was An County in Mianyang, Sichuan, which was his hometown, a quiet and beautiful county.People in Sichuan are naturally laid-back. The proprietress of the hotel we stayed in spent every day at the mahjong table, and I didn’t see how she took care of the business, but she really liked to chat.After living here for a few days, she already knew exactly what I did at home and whether I had a boyfriend.There is no busy and lively scene here. People are scattered in the teahouses and mahjong parlors on the street, setting up dragon gate arrays, wandering around like this for a day or two, and wandering like this for a hundred years and a thousand years.

Maybe it's near the mountains and the countryside, and the mobile phone often has no signal. At first I found it inconvenient, but then I got used to it, and even thought it was the best way, saving me from worrying about whether Qin Chuan had contacted me.It can be seen that love is not a necessity in life. Between the fullness of the heart that is too yearning and the huge loss of not being able to get it or even losing it is enough to let go of the long-term and long-distance retreat and cautiousness. The old writer took me around every day. He told me about the old ancestral temple of the Tang Dynasty on the top of Qianfo Mountain, took pictures with me at the Sister Bridge, and showed me the Luofu Mountain that emerged from the seabed 150 million years ago.On the day we went, the mountain was full of white butterflies flying around me. He smiled and said that there was a vision in the sky, and I was overjoyed.

Later we diverted to Chongqing. I asked the old writer if he wanted to go back to his alma mater, Southwest University of Political Science and Law. He said no, but the girl he fell in love with back then stayed here, so he always felt kind and wanted to come as soon as he returned to Chongqing. look.He told their stories, the girl had long braids, and he often followed her, walking across mountains and bridges for many years.Later when he went to Chongqing to study, the girl carried the burden and walked a long way to see him, but she couldn't find him. The university is too big, and there are people different from her everywhere. It's a world that she can't even stand on tiptoe. .She knew that the boy must go to farther and wider places, and he would never return to An County, nor would he follow her along the narrow mountain road.So she didn't see him, and she stopped contacting him. She stayed alone in Chongqing to work, and soon got married.Once when he came back, he saw the girl peeing on a fat baby in the alley next to their school.She didn't even look up at him, thinking he was just passing by.

I was a little bit embarrassed, and asked him many ifs, if he had met her at school who was at a loss and had low self-esteem, would they have been together?Will I live a different life?Will there be a different ending to the story? "Xiao Xie, there are so many ifs and wills in life. In the final analysis, between people is a meeting and a parting. If there is only a moment between meeting and parting, then it is a stranger; if meeting and parting are separated For the rest of your life, you will be the person next to your pillow." I meditated, thinking that Qin Chuan and I, if we had met since we were born, how long would it be, and when would it be considered parting.Just thinking about it, the whole room shook.

earthquake.