Chapter 15 Chapter Fifteen

In Yu Shao's guest room, the files of the Chengfeng Club piled up like a mountain.She buried her head in the copywriting, clutching the brush in her hand fiercely, writing instructions one by one, trying to control her chaotic thoughts.But not long after, the lines of Jianghu notes on the dossier slowly turned into a blur of water mist in her sight, and the picture of Feng Caifeng, Luoyang Zujing embracing each other was like a revolving lantern before her eyes over and over again. Appear. "Jinger... Brother Luoyang, Brother Jinger, Brother Luoyang... Is it possible? What should I do?" Half a month ago, the joy and excitement when I woke up from the soul-shifting method followed the memory of running wild again The wave rushes into Yu Shao's mind, making her feel unspeakably depressed.

"Am I really sure? Brother Luoyang, he likes me in his heart?" Yu Shao rubbed his temples vigorously, "There is absolutely nothing wrong, otherwise I wouldn't be so happy. Brother Luoyang said that the dream of a lifetime is not mine. It's this... this damn...wood lump!" Thinking of this, Feng Luoyang's iron-blue long face slowly emerged in Yu Shao's mind. "It's always so serious, occasionally laughing is uglier than crying, I think I'm serious, but it's funny from the inside out, I always try to put on a high-level appearance, but I'm stupid from head to toe, I... What about him?" Yu Shao lightly brushed his cheeks, feeling bitter and lingering in his heart, he was suddenly infatuated.

"Ah Shao!" When Yu Shao was obsessed with herself secretly, a sudden cry rang in her ears, causing her to straighten up suddenly in fright, and she stood up from the seat: "Who?" Tang Dou, who was also startled by her action, jumped from behind her to her side, and made a face at her: "It's me, Tang Dou!" "Phew!" Yu Shao gasped for breath, put his hands on his chest, "Tang Dou, you're Gui Geng this year, why are you still jumping up and down like a child, childish." Tang Dou ignored her words, instead he put his head on her desk and watched intently.

Yu Shao followed his gaze, and suddenly his face became hot, and stars appeared in front of his eyes.It turned out that when she was in a daze just now, she actually wrote Feng Luoyang's name all over a Chengfeng meeting file. With a cry of surprise, she reached out to grab the files on the table.Tang Dou also stretched out his hand to snatch it, but the shock he received seemed to be stronger than Yu Shao's. His hand, which has always been famous for sending and receiving hidden weapons, trembled slowly at this moment. It was extremely difficult to even lift it up. With several soft "cha-cha", Yu Shao couldn't wait to tear the file into countless pieces like white butterflies.

Tang Dou stood in the room dumbly like a mummy, unable to speak for a long while like possessed by a demon.And Yu Shao tore up the file, and leaned his back against the wall involuntarily, with his lips tightly closed, unwilling to speak. After an unknown amount of time, Tang Dou suddenly grinned dryly, and cleared his throat with difficulty: "Ah Shao... how could you... write Lao Feng's name on the file?" Yu Shao bit her lip lightly, mustered up the courage to raise her head, and stared at him blankly with clear eyes. Tang Dou looked at Yu Shao's cool and clean pupils infatuatedly, and suddenly his whole body trembled. He forced a smile on his face: "I...I see. You...you are worried that Lao Feng will compete with swords this time. success or failure. So, so you can't help but... I'm actually the same, I'm actually..."

Yu Shao looked at him quietly without saying a word. "Just like when you went to Yishan to practice swords, I was worried about whether you would be able to practice... I, I will also carve you all over the tree trunk..., no, no, this example is not good..." Tang Dou started from the beginning in a panic He took off his scholar's hat and squeezed it fiercely in his hand, "Old Feng is your good friend, just like me, you care about him... this, this is normal..." Tang Dou took a deep breath, closed his eyes and cleared his mind: "Lao Feng is... stupid, always worrying people. Let alone you, I am more worried than you. Last night swordsman Song Wuhen, then... ...But the person who gave Senior Zheng a headache, if I had paper and a pen...I would also...huh."

At this point, his voice was already a little choked up: "The three characters Feng Luoyang have such complicated strokes, so I used them to practice calligraphy...it's very good, horizontal, vertical, left, and right. I only practice these three characters. ,At once……" "Tang Dou..." Yu Shao's eyes were full of pity and guilt, such eyes made Tang Dou burn. "Don't talk about it, I understand. You are also twenty-six years old this year. Women at this age like to think wildly, and it is inevitable that they will be distracted for a while. This is normal. Hehe, hehe, but the old style..." Tang Dou Opening his mouth desperately, he made a smile that was uglier than crying, "You and Lao Feng have always been enemies. Every time he sees you, he will be played around by you. But..." When Tang Dou said this, his lips trembled uncontrollably, and he couldn't say a word.

"Tang Dou, I...shouldn't keep it from you, I'm afraid..." When Yu Shao said this, two lines of guilty tears poured out of his eyes. "Can't hear, can't hear, can't hear!" Tang Dou pressed his ears hard, closed his eyes and said in a hoarse voice. "The one I really like is Brother Luoyang." Yu Shao gritted his teeth, rushed in front of Tang Dou, pulled away his hands that were holding his ears, and said softly. Tang Dou's eyes shone with scarlet fire, and he felt his heart was filled with jealousy and anger, which made his heart throbbing, as if his entire soul had begun to burn.With a hoarse voice, he let out a low growl, and tried his best to break away from Yu Shao's hands, tightly gripping Yu Shao's shoulders, and said in a trembling voice, "Since when did it start?"

Yu Shao bravely looked straight at him, pursed his lips, and said in a deep voice, "It started when I met him." "Thirteen years ago?" Tang Dou could only feel that everything around him was broken into pieces of rubble before his eyes. The hope that had been hidden in his heart was ruthlessly wiped out by Yu Shao's ruthless and direct words. Now he There was nothing in my heart, there was nothing but a piercing pain, "By Poyang Lake?" "Exactly." Yu Shao's elegant and clean lips trembled weakly, "I'm sorry." Tang Dou's eyes were bloodshot for a moment, he gritted his teeth and stared at Yu Shao: "From the beginning, you were just using me?"

"He always ignores me, I just want to find an excuse to stay by his side and attract his attention." Yu Shao said desperately as if determined to confess all his thoughts today. "Why didn't you tell me earlier? When you were in Yishan, you could tell me who you really like!" Tang Dou sternly said. "I don't want to say it, and the situation at the time didn't allow me to say it." Yu Shao said this, his eyes turned red, and tears rolled down his cheeks. "For so many years, why didn't you tell me? For so many years, you were always alone. I thought I still had a glimmer of hope. I thought that I would go back and forth until the end, and you would always find that you liked me! I have never given up, I have been secretly looking forward to it, but, Lao Feng... Lao Feng!" Tang Dou slammed his fist hard on the wall next to Yu Shao, causing dust to splash on the wall, "How can I compare with him? My martial arts are not as high as his, my reputation is not as good as his, and I am not as decent as him. I can't compare to him in anything. Why should I argue with him? If you had told me earlier, I would not have been entangled with you for so many years , was so absurd."

"You've been waiting for me?" Yu Shao stared blankly at Tang Dou, "But, with so many women around you these years, I thought that what happened back then..." "When I had a spring night with those women, I thought of you, called you, and dreamed of you. I, Tang Dou, never had other women in my heart. You are my first and only one." Tang Dou hissed. "I'm very touched, Tang Dou, why are you so..." Yu Shao said this, a blush of excitement appeared on her pretty face. "Oh, don't talk to me about pity me!" Tang Dou waved his hand violently and interrupted Yu Shao roughly, "Ten years ago, you broke my heart. I thought, the worst The days have passed. Well, you Yu Shao, after ten years, you still have the ability to hurt me so deeply, and fall in love with my best brother, you are amazing, amazing!" "This is not a contest, I can't choose whoever I like!" Yu Shao said sadly. "Over the years, Lao Feng must have been very proud. He clearly knew that you liked him, but he pretended to be nothing, and watched me make a fool of myself in front of your eyes. He also said that he was a brother, and I'm sorry!" Tang Dou said Here, a heart has been burned through with anger. "He doesn't know what I'm thinking at all!" Yu Shao said softly. "What?!" Tang Dou was startled when he heard Yu Shao's words. "You never told him that you liked him?" Tang Dou asked in surprise. "Yeah." Yu Shao turned his head away, not looking at him. "So you also..." Tang Dou murmured. "Yes, I don't know what he thinks of me." Yu Shao said softly. "Then why don't you ask?" Tang Dou scratched his head. "I...why did I ask him. Why didn't he ask me?" Yu Shao stubbornly raised his head, "I like him, it's his honor, of course he should ask me. If he doesn't come, why should I?" ask for contempt." "You, you, you!" Tang Dou held Yu Shao with his fingers tremblingly, "It turns out...you are more stupid than me."
After clarifying the purpose of going to Huashan, Feng Luoyang's mood seemed to be floating in the clouds. For the first time in his life, he had the urge to buy wine and get drunk.Considering that since I was born, I dare not drink three cups of wine, dare not sing songs all night, and live an extremely boring and dull life. If Tang Dou is not a friend, and he is always entertained, this life can be called boring. "Why don't you invite him to have a good drink!" Thinking of Tang Dou, Feng Luoyang's heart suddenly felt warm.Brothers for many years, only by his side, drunk can have peace of mind.Thinking of this, he turned around and walked quickly towards the wing where Tang Dou lived. Just after walking more than ten steps, a loud shout sounded from behind him: "Feng-Luo-Yang!" Feng Luoyang was shaken all over, and turned his head in surprise, only to see Tang Dou's face swelled like a red lantern, waving his clenched fists, and galloping towards him as if his butt was on fire. "What did you call me..." Feng Luoyang had just finished speaking when Tang Dou's fist hit his left cheek, causing him to grunt in pain and tilt his body to the right.Tang Dou's left fist surged up from bottom to top, smashed hard on his lower abdomen, and slapped his body straight against the wall. "Young master, you..." Feng Luoyang struggled to speak, but his voice was drowned out by Tang Dou's chaotic and frantic roar. "Ah-ah-ah-ah!" Tang Dou was like a child who had been bullied hard, with his mouth pursed, his face sullen, his fists spinning like windmills, and he hit Feng Luoyang with a bang, bang, Every time he punched, he would open his throat and growl. In the end, his eyes turned red and he cried out. Feng Luoyang received dozens of punches in a row, and his bones creaked and creaked. If he continued like this, he was afraid of becoming a fool, so he stretched out his hands, grabbed Tang Dou's fists, and shouted loudly: "Young master! , are you crazy?" "I'm not crazy, I just want to be crazy!" Tang Dou roared, lowered his head, and a head hammer hit Feng Luoyang's lower abdomen.Feng Luoyang was knocked into a mess by him, and couldn't bear it no matter how angry he was, he couldn't help roaring, and with a flick of his hands, he threw Tang Dou's body obliquely.Tang Dou suddenly crawled on the ground like a sack, unable to get up for a long time. "Young Master," Feng Luoyang knelt down on the ground, supported the ground with one hand, rubbed his swollen cheek with the other, and said vaguely, "What happened?" "Ah Shao, Ah Shao..." Tang Dou turned over on the ground, lying sprawled on the ground, panting heavily, "Ah Shao..." "What's wrong with Ah Shao?" Feng Luoyang asked puzzled. "It's not me that Ah Shao likes... woo-woo..." Tang Dou couldn't help crying out, choking on his sobs. "It's been ten years, and you didn't know?" Feng Luoyang asked in disbelief. "Ten years ago, she said she didn't like me. I don't know why, so I never believed it." Tang Dou raised his head and looked at Feng Luoyang when he said this, his eyes were red again, "Today I finally know why. Believe me, there is no chance." "It's a good thing you understand. You've been deceiving yourself and stalking me all these years, and I've worked hard for you." Feng Luoyang smiled. "Woo—you just know how to make sarcastic remarks!" At this moment, Tang Dou no longer had the demeanor of a master of the sect, crying like an unwanted child. "That's why you hit me?" Feng Luoyang touched the bruise on his face. "You look like you don't want to be beaten, do you need a reason to beat you?" Tang Dou said angrily. "Why do these words sound like what Ah Shao said?" Feng Luoyang laughed. "Why do you keep getting involved with A Shao? You like her?" Tang Dou blurted out. "Aren't we talking about Ah Shao?" Feng Luoyang scratched his head, "What does this have to do with whether I like her or not?" "Anyway, tell me, do you like Ah Shao?" Tang Dou hissed. "I like her because she is our friend." Feng Luoyang said honestly. "Don't you have any unreasonable thoughts?" Tang Dou stood up suddenly, crawled to Feng Luoyang's side with hands and feet, and asked nervously. "There is absolutely no unreasonable thought." Feng Luoyang shook his head. "Then if I tell you that Ah Shao likes you, what will you do?" Tang Dou stared into Feng Luoyang's eyes and asked in a deep voice. "Really?" Hearing Tang Dou's words, Feng Luoyang chuckled and couldn't help but ask back. "Aha! Seeing how flamboyant you are, how dare you say that you have no inappropriate thoughts, even you lied to me, brother!?" Tang Dou was furious. "Hey, calm down." Feng Luoyang held back his smile, and hastily waved his hand, "Think about it, Ah Shao has treated me badly for the past ten years. If she actually likes me, then you say, isn't it that she has suffered so much for so many years?" There is a chance for revenge. Of course, I am just talking about it. But in any case, in terms of vanity, I am really satisfied." "Oh..." Tang Dou nodded repeatedly when he heard this, and suddenly laughed, "I can't tell, you are also a weak master." "We can be friends for a reason." Feng Luoyang patted Tang Dou on the shoulder and said with a smile. Tang Dou rubbed his red and swollen eyes, and Feng Luoyang helped each other to stand up.Seeing his sad face, Feng Luoyang asked curiously: "You said you knew the reason why Ah Shao doesn't like you, so what is the reason?" "..." Tang Dou squinted at him, grumbled, but was unwilling to answer. "Why did you beat me up without thinking? Could it be that Ah Shao doesn't like you, but me?" Feng Luoyang asked with a smile. "You are beautiful. Of course not! You are still a brother, let me beat you to vent your anger, and you have the right to treat yourself as a sandbag. Why do you ask so many questions?" Tang Dou said angrily with wide-eyed eyes. "So I'm innocent?" Feng Luoyang waved his hands helplessly. "What's so innocent, didn't you just tell me that you deserve a beating? Didn't you understand that I had a problem with my expression?" Tang Dou said angrily. "Huh." Although Feng Luoyang was full of doubts, Tang Dou lost his love again after ten years.Over the past ten years, he has seen Tang Dou's character distorted repeatedly because of this bitter love, and he has already been exhausted. At this time, he doesn't want to ask more questions, let alone think about it. He just hugged Tang Dou's shoulders and said in a deep voice, "I'll be the host tonight, and we brothers will go out for a drink and get drunk." "There are times when you want to get drunk?" Tang Dou was moved and nodded vigorously, "Okay, let's go!" Finally confided his heart to Tang Dou, although Yu Shao felt extremely sorry for him, but his heart was still full of relief.This feeling made her feel as if she had been reborn. Many past events that she couldn't figure out and didn't dare to think about before suddenly became as clear as a stream.She closed the door that was knocked open by Tang Dou again, picked up the Chengfenghui dossier that she had torn into pieces from the ground, put them together on the table little by little, and gradually restored the names of Luoyang, big and small, on the dossier.Looking at her messy and distressed handwriting, Liu Qingyuan's memories of the day when she entered the hall surged up from the bottom of her heart uncontrollably at this moment, and the blurred picture and voice became extremely clear at this moment. "Did you fall in love with her at first sight?" "Love at first sight... Who is not like this. Who wouldn't be crazy about Yu Shao like that, in that kind of rain? Just like Tang Dou, I have a fanatical crush on her." The question and answer between Liu Qingyuan and Feng Luoyang was like a drum at dusk and a bell in the morning, hitting Yu Shao's heart heavily, making her mesmerized and joyful.She raised her hands and pressed her cheeks suddenly, only feeling the heat in her hands. "Why did I finally remember such an important memory today? Why couldn't I remember it one day earlier, one hour earlier, one moment earlier, so that I would have one more day, one moment, even one moment of joy." Yu Shao trembling all over thinking. "But you didn't show it, why?" "Will she like me? An idiot who can only recite sword manuals all day long, a fool who can only stare at her and can't speak a word every day. Will she and I be happy? Will she and I be happy? After a few months , I am going to Tianshan, will she go with me? Am I worthy of her abandoning her family and career for me and devoting herself to it? Where will she be after three years? Where will I be? " "For a boy who is only fifteen years old, you really think a lot." "People always have to strike a balance. Since you don't talk much, you will naturally think a lot. Unlike me, Da Shao is a happy young man, ambitious, full of confidence, and full of hope for himself and life. He likes Ah Shao, and I believe he will give her happiness. Isn't that great?" "What a fool, a fool. The one I like is you, your stupidity, your idiotism, your persistent obsession, if you said out loud that you like me that day, I would be yours." When Yu Shao finally Thinking of this memory, she couldn't help feeling sorry for herself thirteen years ago.However, when she thought about it again, she couldn't help being obsessed, Feng Luoyang was stupid, what about herself?For the girl's reserve, she threw away thirteen years of her life recklessly, and her waywardness and madness were much lighter than Feng Luoyang's. "So you kept your mouth shut and didn't talk about your feelings for Yu Shao?" "It's not enough, I have to forget about this relationship completely, otherwise I will lose two friends, I have to do it." "How do you make yourself forget... don't you also...?" "There is a temple by the Poyang Lake, and there is a stone tablet in front of the temple. On the tablet are engraved some words praising a certain ancient man. I engraved the secret that will eventually settle in my heart on the stone tablet, and then I settled down and turned around. and go." "It's a good way to inscription on the stele. In this way, you only need to forget this stele, and you will forget everything. I'm really curious about what you wrote on the stele." "Now I can't remember anything, I can't remember anything." "Not only did he keep silent about his feelings, but he even planned the way to forget them thoroughly. Brother Luoyang, you have lived for others all your life. For your parents when you were young, and for your brothers when you were old. You are tortured so that you are not like a human being, and a ghost is not like a ghost. When will you live for yourself?" Thinking of this, Yu Shao's nose was sore, tears welled up in his eyes, and he just wanted to cry at his desk, for Feng Luoyang, for Feng Luoyang, for For myself, and for those thirteen years. At this moment, the door of Yu Shao's room was suddenly pushed open. Hearing the sound, Yu Shao quickly wiped his face with his hands, wiping away the tears hanging on his cheeks.Even though she moved quickly, her appearance still fell into the eyes of the visitor at this moment. "Sister Ah Shao, are you crying?" It was Zu Jing's clear and moving voice. "Jing'er... what's the matter?" Yu Shao coughed and asked in a hoarse voice. "Did you see me just now...my little uncle and I..." Zu Jing twitched a bit and couldn't help asking. "Did you see me?" Hearing Zu Jing's words, Yu Shao's face became hot. A moment ago, she was really worrying about gains and losses because of witnessing Zu Jing and Feng Luoyang's hug, and she was so restless that she revealed her feelings and was caught by Tang. bucket found.It was also because she frankly confessed her feelings to Tang Dou that her thinking returned to clarity, so that she sorted out the memories of Liu Qingyuan's breaking into the hall that day in the chaos, and understood Feng Luoyang's deepest feelings.Now, she was both happy and sad, but it was a completely different matter.But how did she explain it to Zu Jing? "Sister Ah Shao..." Zu Jing took a deep breath and mustered up all her courage, "These days, my mind is full of my little uncle. I, I met many outstanding men when I went down the mountain. I used to be obsessed with Tang Dou, and I was obsessed with Liu Qingyuan for a while. But the little uncle is different. Now I go back and forth, just miss him. When I think of him, I feel sweet and sentimental at the same time. Wanting to giggle, and sometimes wanting to cry. I thought, this is it, it has to be." "What is it? You mean..." Yu Shao felt tender pity in her heart, she deeply knew that Zu Jing's mood now was just like when she saw Feng Luoyang for the first time. "Hmm, um!" Zu Jing nodded her head tremblingly, "It's not a crush, it's not a simple liking, but a legendary love, I, I, huh..." Speaking of this, Zu Jing was so nervous that her lips trembled that she could hardly speak. She closed her mouth and adjusted her breathing, stared at Yu Shao's with her big bright eyes, and blurted out: "Ah, I Just like Sister Shao, she fell in love with Junior Martial Uncle." Yu Shao silently looked at the flushed Zu Jing, and slowly stood up. Seeing her movements, Zu Jing closed her eyes nervously, and said loudly: "Sister Ah Shao, I know you must be very angry with me. I also know that there is a big difference in age and seniority between my uncle and me. , if you want to scold me, scold me." Yu Shao smiled slightly, and raised his hand to support Zu Jing's shoulder: "Silly boy, didn't I tell you before? If you want to love him, admire him, just do it. But remember, don't Let him break your heart. Because even if it breaks your heart, he probably won't even know what happened, understand?" "Sister Ah Shao, don't you blame me?" Zu Jing asked overjoyed. Yu Shao smiled tolerantly and conceitedly: "Jing'er, why don't we make an agreement that no matter who is with him in the end, we should bless each other, okay?" "It's a deal, I will definitely bless you." Zu Jing nodded vigorously. Looking at her sunny smiling face, Yu Shao shook his head slightly, and a smile appeared from the bottom of his heart: "This silly child."