Chapter 31 Text Section 31: Winter (1)

Text Section 31: Winter (1) winter Yinzi wore a weird dress.The shoulder width is not suitable at all, and the bow at the waist is too low, making people think that there is a coat underneath, which looks bloated, just like Sao Qingniang has grown legs. "What are you dressed like?" I asked coldly. "It's for pregnant women." When she replied, I was at a loss for words.I thought, she is still demented after all. "Are you planning to get pregnant?" "Haha, of course it's good to be pregnant." "What are you thinking...it's impossible."

"yes?" "My child, I will fail you." "It's hard to say, you won't know until you have children." "Then please ask Grandpa Fangjie to help me." Fangjie still comes here often.I have already taken three boxes of Rendan from him.There are twelve sugars by count.And that's all there is to take from him.I feel that he should find out soon, but there is no movement, probably because he knows not to tell, that grandpa. "Why can't my love last, but Yinzi can't?" "It's a matter of age." "Old people are cunning. Nothing good happens to young people."

"It would be great to talk about love while you are young." "This kind of thing is too far." I watch Fujita stuff every night.I smoked one of the first cigarettes I took for a taste, and it was already damp and not easy to smoke. The weeds in the yard are all withered and yellow. The cat didn't go out either, and lay with me next to the gasoline stove. "When will you die?" Heizi and Huangmao ran to the kitchen annoyed when I pulled their beards.The fruit plate on the food table is full of oranges. There is no one chasing me, and they all leave me. Thinking about it this way, I become anxious.

I really want to play the piano indiscriminately. I can't wait to burn all the clothes in the closet. I really want to throw the ring and the necklace off the roof. I really want to smoke ten cigarettes at once. That way you can get rid of your troubles. I felt like I would never be able to live a normal life.The things I got are thrown away or are thrown away, and the things I want to throw away are always thrown away. My life is all made up of these. I spent more time with Yinzi.Recently, I quit my night job as well. I didn't get up until eleven o'clock, and I saw Yinzi drinking tea while embroidering.Recently, she seems to be obsessed with embroidering small blue flowers on handkerchiefs. She digs out all the handkerchiefs at home and embroiders them all day long.

At night, I dreamed of going skating with Fujita.My hands still couldn't leave the wall, and he didn't come to help me. I was very dissatisfied and couldn't help but yelled his name like a child, but he still couldn't come.For some reason, the ice rink is connected to Mt. Takao, and I went climbing on skates.Everyone on the ice rink called me to come down, but the more they shouted, the more angry I was climbing the path on the mountain. After waking up, I felt that my legs were heavy, so I didn't wash my hands or rinse my mouth. I got into the kotatsu with a teacup and asked Yinzi for a cup of tea.

"I feel that life is meaningless." I said sadly. "What? Meaning?" "Yinzi, it doesn't make sense." I muttered, the voice was so small that only I could hear it. no answer. I thought of Fujita, and other people who were close to me, and suddenly became uneasy.Fate with other people is so unreliable.I can't seem to connect other people with myself tightly.I also want to try living alone.I hope that one time, it is not others who leave me, but I who leave others. It's time to get out of this house. I really want to cut all ties and start over from scratch where there is no one and nothing.However, new relationships will be established there.By the time I realize it, it's all over again.If you don't think about the meaning and just repeat it over and over again, even your life will end.How many times has this little old lady in front of me repeated it?

"I want to travel through time and space." "what?" "Fly to Yinzi's age." "Traveling?" "It is to travel through decades and catch up with Yinzi's age." "What nonsense. You are at your best right now, how smooth your skin is." She really cares about her skin.I showed her off so much, no wonder she cared. "Do older people think this way? Is it good to be young? I'm sad about everything, pessimistic, tired. I'm tired." "It's because when you're young, everyone is desperately reaching out for what they want, but at my age, there's less and less wanting to reach out for."