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The "Benz" was salvaged from the Shibaura Sea at mid-noon the next day.As expected, I wasn't surprised.I've had a premonition since he disappeared. Anyway, one more corpse added.Mouse, Xixi, Mimi, Dick, plus Gotanda.5 in total.One more, I shook my head.Bad momentum.What will happen next?Who will die?I suddenly thought of Yumiji.No, no, it can't be her, that would be too cruel!Yumiji, should not die or disappear.Who is it not Yumiki?Snow?I shook my head in denial.The child is only 13 years old, and she cannot be allowed to die.I made a mental list of people who might be dead.During the time of the arrangement, I always felt that I might become a dead soul, and I accidentally chose the order of the dead.

I went to the Akasaka Police Station to find Fuka and told him that I was with Gotanda last night.I think it's better to tell him.Of course it didn't say that he might have killed Xixi.It's over, there's not even a body left.I said that I was with Gotanda shortly before his death, and that he looked extremely tired and nervous.Said he was deeply in debt, had to do things he didn't want to do, and was deeply distressed by the divorce. He simply recorded what I said. Unlike the last time, this time it was much more sloppy.Then I signed it, and it didn't work for 1 hour.Afterwards, he held the ballpoint pen between his fingers and looked at my face. "People often die around you," he said. "You can't get friends in this kind of life, and everyone avoids them. If you do that, your eyesight will be bad and your skin will be rough. It's not a good thing!"

He sighed. "Anyway, it's suicide. It's already clear. There are witnesses. But unfortunately, even a movie star doesn't have to throw 'Mercedes' into the sea. It's enough to throw the 'Mercedes' into the sea." "It's okay if you're insured," I said. "Where, except for suicide, you can't pay the insurance money no matter what." Xue Xue said, "It's stupid enough anyway. Because I have no money, I think of buying bicycles for my children. 3 children, all of them It costs money, and I wish I had a bike."

I am silent. "Okay, let's go back. It's unfortunate for your friend. I came here to report, thank you." He sent me to the door and said, "Mimi's case has not yet been revealed. The investigation is still going on, and sooner or later it will be resolved." For a long time, I felt that I had killed Gotanda.I can't break free from this depressed and heavy mood.I recall sentence by sentence the conversation I had with him in the New Knight.Every sentence made me think that if I had answered tactfully, I might have saved him from death.That way, the two can now lay down on a Hawaiian beach and drink a beer!

But on second thought, that might not be the case.Because he had already made up his mind, but he was just waiting for the time.He has been thinking about throwing the "Mercedes" into the sea.He knew that it was his only exit, and he kept his hand on the handle of the exit door and waited for the right time.He did not know how many times he pictured the scene of the "Benz" sinking into the bottom of the sea, and the scene of water pouring in through the car window, making him unable to breathe.He connects himself to the real world by playing with the possibility of self-sabotage, but not in the long run.Sooner or later he had to open the door, and he knew it.He was just biding his time.

Mimi's death brought me the disillusionment of old dreams and a sense of loss; Dick's death brought me some kind of helplessness; Gotanda's death brought me despair, despair like a lead box with no exit.Gotanda's death was irreversible.He cannot subtly integrate his inner impulses with himself.That kind of power from the source pushes him to a dilemma, to the end of the realm of consciousness, and to the world of the underworld opposite his dividing line. For quite some time, the weekly magazines, television and sports tabloids chomped on his death with impunity.They munched like weevils devouring carrion.Just glancing at those headlines makes me want to throw up.As for its content, you can guess it without listening or watching it.I can't wait to pinch these bastards one by one.

Gotanda said that he used a hammer to kill, saying that it was simple and fast.I disagree, saying that it's too cheap to die so quickly, they have to be strangled a little bit. I lay on the bed and closed my eyes.Mimi said "Exactly" from the depths of the darkness. I lay in bed hating the world, hating it from the bottom of my heart.The world is full of death—unbearable, inexplicable death.I am feeble and stinking with the filth of this living world.People come in by the entrance and leave by the exit.Those who leave will never return, I look at my own hands.The palms of the hands were also covered with the smell of death, which couldn't be washed off, Gotanda said.Hey Aries man, is this how you connect to the world?Could it be that I can only connect with the world through endless death?What will I lose after this?Maybe as you said, I can no longer be happy, that's fine, but this situation is too cruel.

Suddenly, I remembered the science books I read when I was young.One of them is "what would the world be like without friction".The book explained: "If there is no friction, the centrifugal force of rotation will throw everything on the earth into the universe." And I am in this state of mind. "Exactly." - said Mimi.