Chapter 14 Chapter 10 Dialogue in the Cinema

The next day was Monday, and I didn't see Midori in class.What is actually happening?Ten days have passed since the last call.I wanted to call her home to ask, but I remembered that she said that she would contact me, so I had to give up. On Thursday, I met Nagasawa in the cafeteria.He sat down next to me with a plate of food and apologized that he had done a lot of sorry things during this time. "Where is it, you have to spend money on hospitality." I said, "The last time I celebrated your work appointment, it was amazing to say it was amazing." "What a mess!" he said.

We ate in silence for a while. "Hatsumi and Hatsumi have reconciled." He said. "Sniff, I guess so." "I seem to have said some unpleasant things to you, too." "What's the matter, can't reflect on it? I'm afraid you're not feeling well?" "Maybe." He nodded his head lightly two or three times, "By the way, I heard you advised Hatsumi to break up with me?" "Of course." "I'm afraid, too, cough." "That's a nice guy!" I said as I sipped my soup. "I know." Yongze sighed, "It's a little too good for me!"

When the buzzer rang for a phone call, I fell into a deep sleep.At that time, I really reached the limit of my sleep state, and I couldn't figure out what happened at all.During a deep sleep, I felt in a trance that my head was filled with water and my brain was swollen with bubbles.Looking at the watch, it is already 6:15, but I don't know if it is morning or afternoon, and I can't remember what day of the week it is.Looking out the window, there is no flag on the flagpole in the yard.So I figured it was around 6:15pm.Raising the national flag is also very useful. "Hey Watanabe-kun, are you free now?" Midori asked.

"What day is it today?" "Friday." "now it is night?" "That goes without saying, what a weirdo. It's . . . 6:18 in the afternoon." It was evening after all, I thought.That's right, I fell asleep while lying in bed reading a book.I turned my head: it's Friday.No work on Friday night. "Free time. Where are you now?" "Ueno station. I'm going to Shinjuku now, can you wait for me there?" We agreed on the venue and approximate time, and put down the phone. When she arrived at the bar, Ah Lu was already sitting at the end of the dining table and pouring herself a drink.She was wearing a crumpled white straight-collared coat like a man's, a thin yellow sweater, and blue jeans.There are two bracelets on the wrist.

"What to drink?" I asked. "Cocktail." Ah Lu said. I ordered a whiskey and soda when I noticed a large leather purse at my feet. "Just came back from a trip," she said. "where to?" "Nara, Aomori." "One time?" I couldn't help being stunned. "How could it be? No matter how special my style is, it's fine. It's impossible to go south to Nara and north to Aomori at the same time. I went separately, in two trips. Nara went with him, and Aomori was by myself." I took a sip of the whiskey and soda, and lit a match for the Marlboro I was watching.

"Is the funeral a lot of work?" "The funeral is very easy. We are used to it. Just put on black clothes and sit there with a sad look, and the people in Tongtian will handle everything properly. Those uncles and neighbors can do it. Buy wine at will Come, eat sushi, comfort and comfort. Cry and cry, make a fuss, share things, and be very happy. The track is almost like a picnic. Compared with the days of taking care of the sick day and night, it is really a picnic. Although muscle Exhausted, my sister and I didn't shed tears. We were so tired that we couldn't even shed tears. Really, people around us started gossiping behind our backs again, saying that we were ruthless and didn't even shed tears. We are angry, but we don’t cry. If you want to fake crying, you can do it, but you definitely don’t do it. It’s infuriating. Because everyone expects us to cry, so we don’t cry. In this respect, my sister and I are very similar, although our personality is big Not the same."

Ah Lu made her hand feel like a beetle, and asked the waiter to come over, and add another glass of tonkillos and electric almonds. "After the funeral was over and everyone left, we two sisters drank Japanese sake until dawn. We drank about a liter and a half. Then we said bad things about those guys one after another. That one was a fool, a jerk, a mangy dog, a pig, a hypocrite, and a robber. , keep talking non-stop, and feel comfortable after speaking!" "Probably so." "Then when I was drunk, I got into the quilt and fell asleep. I slept soundly. I ignored the phone calls halfway, and I fell asleep. After waking up, we ordered sushi to eat, and we discussed it and decided to temporarily Close the door and do not do business, and everyone can do what they like. Isn’t it? We have worked hard for a long time until now, so there is nothing wrong with doing this! My sister and her boyfriend go to get comfortable, and I am also going to travel with him for two days and have a good time " Ah Lu paused for a while after speaking, then lightly scratched her earlobe and said, "I'm sorry, I said it very vulgarly."

"It's okay, so you went to Nara?" "Yes. I've always liked Nara's." "And then worked hard?" "Never once," she said with a sigh. "Come to the hotel. As soon as I put down my suitcase, my period suddenly came." I couldn't help laughing. "What are you laughing at. My period came a week earlier than scheduled. I really want to cry. Maybe too nervous. The cycle is out of order. He's so angry. He's very easy to anger. But what can I do? I didn't want it to come either. Also, I was very uncomfortable when I came there, and I didn't want to move anything for the first two days. So, don't see me during that period."

"I would, but how would I know?" I asked. "Then I'll put on the red hat within two or three days of menstruation. Don't you know that?" Ah Lu laughed. "When I'm wearing the red hat, don't call me when you see me on the road, just slip away." "If only women all over the world did that," I said. "So what are you doing in Nara?" "I had no choice but to go to the deer park to play with the deer, and then came back after taking a walk nearby. What bad luck. I had a big fight with him, and I haven't seen him since. Then I went back to Tokyo for two or three days, thinking about this The second time I wanted to have fun alone for a few days, so I went to Aomori. I have a friend who lives in Hirosaki, and I stayed with her for two nights, and then went to Xiabei and Longfei for a run. It was a very good place. I once wrote a map explanation of the evil area. Have you ever been there?"

I said no. "Then," said Green, taking a mouthful of tonkolins and shelling the nuts. "When I'm traveling alone, I've been thinking about you. I'm thinking. If only you were here with me now." "why?" "Why?" Ah Lu looked at me blankly. "What do you mean by asking why?" "It's something that reminds me of me." "Because I like you, needless to say? Do you think there are other reasons? Who would want to be with someone they don't like?" "But, you already have a lover, so there's no need to miss me." I said slowly, drinking my whiskey and soda.

"You mean, if you have a lover, you can't miss you?" "No, that's not what it means" "Watanabe." Midori said, pointing at me with her index finger. "Warning you first, now I have accumulated all kinds of depression in my heart for a month, and I am very, very unhappy. So, please don't talk too much. Otherwise, find Zeng here and cry loudly. - Once I cry, I will cry a lot All night, can you stand it? I don't care about the eyes around me. Howl like a beast. Really!" I nodded and said nothing more.I ordered a second whiskey-and-soda to eat nuts.Behind the rattling of cocktail shakers, the clinking of glasses, and the thawing of ice cubes from the ice machine, Sarah Vaughn is singing an old love song. "Since the internal tampon incident, my relationship with him has deteriorated," Alu said. "The internal sanitary napkin incident?" "Well. About a month ago, I was drinking with him and five or six friends. I talked about the story of an aunt near my house who once snorted and the tampon came out. Isn't it funny: " "Yes." I smiled and agreed. "Everyone accepted it as a joke. But he got very angry. Said I shouldn't have said that dirty thing. So it just broke up." "Hmm." I said. "He's nice. He's just a little stingy in this respect." Ah Lu said. "For example, when I'm not wearing white underwear, he doesn't like it. Are you mean?" "Well, that's a matter of personal preference," I said.I was also secretly surprised that that type of person would like Midori, but I decided not to say it. "What about you? What have you been doing lately?" "It's nothing, it's the same as always." Then I remembered that I promised Midori to masturbate while thinking about her.I told her the story in a voice that no one else could hear. Ah Lu's face brightened, and she snapped her fingers aggressively. "How? Is it going well?" "I felt embarrassed halfway and stopped." "Can't it stand up?" "uh-huh." "No way." Ah Lu said, squinting at me. "You can't be embarrassed. You might as well think of something very nasty. I said yes. Yes, next time I call and say so, call...that's where...felt...no, I want ...Ah, don't do this... or something like that. Just listen and do it:" "The phone in the dormitory is in the lobby, and everyone has to go in and out through there." I explained. "If I masturbate there, it's no wonder I don't get beaten to death by the dormitory master." "Really? Then it's difficult." "It's not hard. I'll try it myself later." "Come on." "Ok." "Am I not sexy enough?" "No, that's not the problem." I said. "How should I put it? That's a matter of position!" "My back is the erogenous zone. If you touch it with your fingers, it feels great." "I'll keep an eye out." "Zhi, let's go to a third-class movie now, okay? The latest BDSM movie." Midori said. Midori and I ate eels at an eel shop, and then walked into a sluggish theater in Shinjuku.Watched three adult movies that came out at the same time.I buy newspapers to read.Found only this screening of BDSM.The theater had a stench of unknown origin.The movie had just started when we went in.The story is that an older sister who works in a company and a younger sister who is in high school were caught by several men, imprisoned somewhere, and blackmailed by sexual abuse.The men said they would rape her sister and threatened her with all kinds of horrible actions, and soon her sister became completely abused.Seeing these scenes in front of my sister one by one, my sister's mind became abnormal soon.The atmosphere was very dull.And the actions are the same, and I feel bored after watching half of them. "If I were my younger sister, I wouldn't go crazy because of it. I would watch it more deeply." Alu said to me. "Probably so," I said. "Speaking of the younger sister, are the breasts darker for a high school virgin? "indeed." She was absorbed in watching those movies.I deeply admire her, she is so serious and devoted, it is worth the fare.Then, Midori would report to me whenever she thought of something. "Zhi Zhi Zhi, do a good job of "jin" like that," it's too much.If two people do it together, it will be broken: "Watanabe, I want to play with that person." And so on, instead of watching a movie, it is more interesting to watch her. During the break, I looked around the brightly lit arena, and it seemed that there was only one female audience, Midori.When the young male student sitting nearby saw Midori, he immediately changed to a seat far away. "Watanabe." Midori said. "Will watching this kind of movie make you stand up?" "Often thing." I said. "This is the kind of movie that's made for that." "That is, when that kind of scene appeared, all the people here are straight up. Twenty or forty roots are raised together: Thinking of this scene, don't you think it's a bit incredible?" "That's right," I said. The second is a more serious movie, but because it is too serious, it is more boring than the first one.There are a lot of blowjob sex scenes, and every time there is a blowjob action, the soundtrack of Jijicha echoes in the theater.When I heard that voice, I felt strangely moved because I could live on this wonderful planet. "Who thought of that dubbing?" I said. "I like that sound the most." Midori said. There is also the sound of the penis throbbing in the vagina.I hadn't noticed that sound before.The man gasped and laughed, and the woman moaned and said "enough", "more" and other old-fashioned dialogues.There was the sound of the bed creaking.These shots lasted a long time.At first, Ah Lv was very absorbed in watching it, but soon got tired of it and said that she wanted to go out.We go outside and take a deep breath.That was the first time I felt that the air in the streets of Shinjuku was very clean. "I'm so happy." Ah Lu said. "See you next time." "No matter how many times you watch it, you're just doing the same thing over and over again." I said. "Is there a way? We're not doing the same thing over and over again." Hearing what she said, it makes sense. Then we went into a bar for drinks.I drank whiskey, and Midori drank a few unnamed cocktails.After leaving the bar, Midori expresses her desire to climb a tree.feel "There are no trees around here, and how can you climb a tree when you're lying around like this." I said. "You always like to say some reasonable things to put people off. I just want to get drunk. What's wrong? I can climb trees when I'm drunk. I want to climb to the top of a very tall tree, like a cicada Like pissing on top of everyone's heads｜," "Do you want to go to the toilet?" "yes!" I took Midori to the toll toilet at Shinjuku Station, paid for her to go in, then went to a small shop to buy an evening newspaper, and waited while I read it.But Ah Lu never came out.Fifteen minutes later, I found out that something was wrong with her.Just when she was about to go in and have a look, she finally came out.His face paled a lot. "I'm sorry. I sat and watched, and fell asleep unconsciously." Ah Lu said. "How does it feel?" I asked as I helped her into my coat. "Not very comfortable." "I'll take you home." I said. "Just go home and take a shower and sleep. You're so tired." "I'm not going home. There's no one there now, and I don't want to sleep alone in that place." "Woo hoo," I said. "What do you want?" "Go to a nearby love hotel, and you and I will sleep in each other's arms. We will sleep until dawn. After dawn, we will have breakfast nearby, and then we will go to school together." "Did you ask me to come out because you wanted to do this from the beginning?" "Of course." "You shouldn't ask me out, just ask your place out? Anyway, it's normal to do that. That's what lovers are for." "But I want to be with you." "I can't do this." I said firmly. "First, I have to go back to the dormitory before twelve o'clock. Otherwise, it is equivalent to sleeping out without authorization. I did it once before, and it was very troublesome. Second, if I sleep with a girl, I naturally want to do it , I don't like to endure that kind of distress, maybe it's really hard." "You're going to tie me up and attack from behind?" "Hey, I'm not kidding." "But, I'm really lonely, very, very lonely. I know I'm sorry for you. I didn't give you anything, I just asked you all kinds of things. I talk nonsense and call you around. But you can You are the only one who makes me do this. In the past twenty years of my life, I have never had a chance to say a word of willfulness. My parents completely ignore me, and mine is not that type of person. Whenever I say something willful, he will Angry. And then I had a fight. So I just have to tell you. Plus I'm really exhausted now. I really want to sleep in the sweet talk of me being cute and beautiful. Nothing else. When I wake up, I will have a full blown Be refreshed and never beg you to do this or that again, absolutely! Be a very good boy." "But I still can't handle it." I said. "Please. Or I'll just sit here and cry all night, sleeping with whoever speaks to me first." Now that things have come to this, I had no choice but to call the dormitory and call out Yongze.Ask him to do something to make it look like I'm home. "With girls?" I said. "Okay, I'm willing to help you with this matter." He replied, "I've cleverly changed the name card to where you are in the room. You just have to have fun and have fun, and climb in through my window tomorrow morning." "It's too much trouble for you, thank you very much." After that, I hung up the phone. "Are you ready?" Ah Lu asked. "Well, finally." I sighed. "Well, it's still early, let's go to the disco." "Aren't you tired?" "If that's the case, it doesn't matter at all." "Look, look, tell me. Sure enough, during the time when she entered the dance hall to dance the disco, Midori seemed to be more or less cheered up.She drank two whiskeys and a Coca-Cola and danced on the dance floor until her brow was sweating. "It's so exciting!" Ah Lu gasped at the table, "It's been a long time since I jumped like this. When I move my limbs, I feel that my spirit is also liberated." "You always look liberated." "Oh, that's okay." She smiled slightly, tilted her neck and said, "It doesn't matter if you are energetic now, your stomach is so flat. Why don't you go eat some biscotti?" I took her to one of my favorite biscotti places and ordered a draft beer and biscotti.I wasn't very hungry, I only ate four of the twelve yuan, and Ah Lu swept away the rest. "You recovered really quickly. Just now, your face was blue and you were swaying here and there." I said in amazement. "Because you satisfied me with all those unreasonable demands," said Midori, "and the sullenness in my heart disappeared. But this Italian biscuit is really delicious." "I said, is there really no one in your family?" "Well. No. My sister isn't here, she's gone to live with a friend. A complete coward. She wouldn't dare sleep at home alone without me." "Then don't go to any love hotel." I said, "going to that kind of place will only end in emptiness. Let's go to your house and forget it. I should have the quilt I made?" Ah Lu pondered for a while, nodded and said: "Forget it, then stay at my house." We took the Yamanote Line tram, came to everyone, and lifted the shutter of Kobayashi Bookstore.A piece of paper was taped to the shutter saying "Closed".The gate had probably not been opened for a long time, and there was a smell of old newspapers in the dim shop.Half of the bookshelves are empty, and almost all the magazines are bundled up, ready to return. The whole bookstore is even more empty and desolate than the first time I came, like a hulk washed ashore. "The bookstore doesn't want to continue?" I tried to ask. "Decided to sell it." Ah Lu said sadly, "I sold it, so that I can share the money with my sister. From now on, I will live independently without anyone's protection. My sister will get married next year, and I will go to college for another three years--this little money It can be sold. Besides, I also work part-time. Once the bookstore is sold, my sister and I will rent an apartment somewhere, and we will live together for the time being." "Can the shop be sold?" "Almost. There is an acquaintance who wants to open a shop to deal in woolen yarn. Not long ago, he asked if it could be sold here." Ah Lu said, "Poor father, he worked so hard all his life to set up such a small broken shop, and he also paid back the loan bit by bit. And then there was almost nothing left, it disappeared like a bubble." "You're left." I said. "Me?" Ah Lu felt funny and smiled, then took a deep breath and let it out. "Go up there, it's cold here." Climbing up to the second floor, she asked me to sit at the dining table and went to boil the bath water.During this time, I boiled water in a pot and poured in tea leaves.Before the bath water boiled, Midori and I sat across the table and drank tea.She rested her chin on her hand and stared intently at my face for a long time. Except for the ticking of the clock and the ticking of the refrigerator thermostat, nothing else could be heard in the room.The hour hand is about to point to 12 o'clock. "You, look closely, have a face full of flavor." Ah Lu said. "Really?" I was a little annoyed. "I'm picky enough about people's appearance, but your face, lah, after looking at it carefully, I gradually feel that it's just like you." "I think that sometimes myself—even I can." "Hey, my words may not be very pleasant to listen to. I am not good at expressing feelings in words, and I am often misunderstood. In fact, what I want to say is: I like you. Did you say it just now? "said" "That is to say, I'm studying men a little bit." Ah Lu brought a pack of Marlboro cigarettes and smoked one. "I didn't know anything at first, but I can understand a lot." "It's possible," I said. "Ah, by the way, how about offering incense for my father?" So I followed her, walked to the room where the undead were worshiped, put on the incense sticks, and joined hands in greeting. "I, a few days ago, took off my clothes in front of this portrait of my father, completely naked, so that he can see clearly. It's like doing yoga." Ah Lu said. "Why bother?" I asked in amazement. "Anyway, I just want to show him. Isn't half of my body my father's sperm? It's justified to show him: this is your daughter! Of course, it's also related to drunkenness." "meet." "My sister was shocked when she came in. It's no wonder that I was naked and spread my legs in front of my father's portrait. It's no wonder she was surprised." "Ah, of course." "So, I explained the intention to her; what's going on. I persuaded her to come next to me and take off my clothes to open my father's eyes together, but she didn't do it, and ran out in fright. She is quite conservative in this regard." "It's more authentic." I said. "Hey Watanabe-kun, what do you think of my father?" "I'm usually a bit overwhelmed around people I'm meeting for the first time. But when I'm alone with him, I don't feel uncomfortable, but rather enjoy it and talk a lot." "What are you talking about?" "Euripides." Alu smiled extremely happily: "You are really funny, you actually suddenly talked about Euripides to a dying patient whom you met for the first time, it is very rare." "I'm not afraid of a daughter who spreads her thighs in front of her father's portrait." I said. Ah Lv laughed, and shook the small bell before the coffin: "Daddy, good night. We're just having fun, and you can go to sleep. Don't you suffer anymore? You're dead, so you shouldn't be in pain. If you're still in pain, go to God and say it's okay." The Taihe people can't make it through. See my mother in the kingdom of heaven, let's have a good time together. Good night!" We took turns showering and changing into pajamas.I borrowed his father's pajamas, which were almost brand new and hadn't been worn a few times. It was a little small, but it was better than nothing.Midori spread out the guest bedding in the room where the coffin was placed. "Aren't you afraid in front of the spiritual table?" Ah Lu asked. "What are you afraid of? I don't do anything bad." I smiled. "Can you hold me next to me until I fall asleep?" "Can" So I collapsed on the side of Ah Lu's little bed, hugged her for a long time, almost fell off the bed several times.Midori put her nose against my chest and put her hands on my waist.I hugged her back with my right hand, and grabbed the edge of the bed with my left to prevent my body from falling.This kind of environment is really difficult to arouse excitement.Under the nose is Alu's hair, and that short cut hair makes my nose itchy from time to time. "Hey, hey, say something!" Midori said, burying her face in my chest. "Say what?" "Anything is fine, as long as it sounds good to me." "Very cute!" "Alu," she said, "you need to add a name." "It's so cute, Midori." I added. "How extreme is it?" "Landslide and sea dry are so cute." Ah Luyang looked at me: "Your words are really extraordinary." "Just telling you that makes my heart feel warm." I smiled. "Something better." "I like you the most, Lu." "To what extent?" "Like a bear that loves spring." "A bear in spring?" Ah Lu raised her face again, "What bear in spring?" "In the spring field, you are walking alone, and a cute little bear comes across. The fur is like velvet, and the eyes are round. It says to you: Hello, miss, roll and play with me What? Then, you hugged the little bear and rolled down the clover-covered hillside for a whole day. Do you think it's great?" "awesome." "I like you that much." Ah Lu pressed against my chest tightly, "It's so good!" Ah Lu said, "Since you like me so much, you will listen to me, whatever I say? Are you not angry?" "certainly" "So, can you never dislike me?" "That goes without saying." As I spoke, I stroked her short, soft hair like a little boy's. "It doesn't matter, don't worry, everything will be smooth sailing." "But I'm just afraid." Ah Lu said. "I hugged her shoulders gently. After a while, her shoulders began to shake up and down regularly, and there was a sound of falling asleep. So I slipped out of bed and went to the kitchen to get a bottle of beer. Since I was not sleepy at all, I wanted to see what Ben Books. But looking around, I can’t see the book like Dongyou at all. I wanted to go to A Fang’s study to find a book from the bookshelf, but I was afraid that the thumping would wake her up, so I had to give up. I drank beer in a daze.While drinking, I suddenly remembered: By the way, this is a bookstore!I went downstairs, turned on the light, and looked around on the bookshelves of the library series.There is very little I want to read, most of which I have already read.But since I had to read something anyway, I picked Hermann Hesse's "Under the Wheels", which seemed to be out of stock for a long time, with the back of the book discolored, and put the book money next to the electronic cash register.Kobayashi Bookstore's inventory can be reduced by at least a little. I drank a beer and watched Under Wheels at the kitchen table.The first time I read this book was when I was in junior high school.Which means, 8 years later, I'm in a teenage girl's kitchen reading the same book in the middle of the night in her late father's undersized pajamas.I always feel that some ghosts and ghosts have happened. If it weren't for this situation, I'm afraid I would never re-read "Under the Wheel" in my life. But then again, "Under the Wheel" is a good novel, although it is dated in some places.In the silence of the kitchen in the middle of the night, I am content to read each line carefully.There was a dusty bottle of brandy on the shelf, and I took it down and poured some into my coffee mug.The brandy made me warm for a while, but sleepiness refused to visit me. It was nearly 3 o'clock, and I went to see Alu.She was probably really tired and was falling asleep jealously.The street lights on the shopping street outside the window are like a moonlight, coating the room with a layer of bright and dark silver light.She fell asleep in a backlit position, her body motionless as if frozen.Leaning closer, only the sound of panting can be heard.I found that the sleeping position was exactly the same as her father's. The travel bag was still placed beside the bed, and the white coat was draped over the back of the chair.The desktop is tidy, and there is a puppet calendar on the wall in front of the desk.I parted the curtains a little and looked down at the deserted street.All the store doors are filled with questionnaires, but the vending machines lined up in front of the hotel are huddled and waiting for the dawn.The groaning of the rubber tires of the long-distance truck occasionally shook the surrounding air heavily.I went back to the kitchen, drank another brandy, and continued reading "Under Wheels." By the time I finished reading the book, the sky had begun to light up.I boiled water and made a cup of instant coffee, picked up a ballpoint pen and wrote a few words on the desktop note: I drank some brandy. I bought "Under the Wheel".It's daylight, so I'm going back.goodbye.I hesitated for a moment, and added: "You are very cute when you are sleeping." After that, I washed the coffee cup, turned off the kitchen light, went downstairs and quietly lifted the questionnaire, and walked out the door.I was worried about being spotted by people nearby and causing suspicion, but fortunately, no one passed on the street before 6 o'clock in the morning.Only the crow squatted around the roof as usual.I looked up at the window of Midori's room with a pink curtain, and then walked to the Toei tram station, got off at the end of the tram, and walked back to the dormitory.A breakfast place has opened, and I went in for a steaming meal of rice, miso soup, pickles and fried eggs.Then he walked around to the backyard of the dormitory, and lightly knocked on the window of Yongze's room on the first floor.Yongze immediately opened the window.I crawl into his room. "A cup of coffee?" he asked.I said no, thanked him, and went back to my room.Brush your teeth and take off your pants.Get into bed and close your eyes hard.After a while, the dreamless drowsiness that was as heavy as a lead door pressed against him. I wrote to Naoko every week, and Naoko sent me several letters, and the letters were not very long.After entering November, Naoko wrote in a letter saying that it was getting colder sooner or later. "The deepening of autumn started at the same time as you returned to Tokyo, so I couldn't figure out for a long time whether the feeling of a big hole in my heart was caused by your absence or the change of seasons. Reiko and I often talk about you , she asked me to say hello to you again and again. Reiko still treats me very affectionately. Without her, I'm afraid it would be difficult for me to endure life here. When I feel lonely, I cry. Reiko said it is good to be able to cry. However, the feeling of loneliness is really uncomfortable Whenever I am lonely, I talk to various people from the dark at night, and those people talk to me, and their voices are like the rustling of trees when the night wind blows. I often talk like this with Kizuki and my sister ...they feel lonely too. Craving for someone to talk to. In lonely and depressing nights, I often read your letters repeatedly.Most of the things from outside make me feel uneasy, but everything that happens around you in your writing gives me great comfort to my soul.It's incredible, why is this happening?So I read it over and over again, and Reiko didn't know how many times she read it.The two also talked about the contents inside.I like the part about Midori's father in the letter very much.For us, your weekly letter is one of the few entertainments—letter reading entertainment.It makes us here full of joy and anticipation. I am always trying to squeeze in time to answer letters, but when I spread the letter paper in front of my eyes, I always feel depressed.I also wrote this letter with all my strength, because Reiko insisted on asking me to reply.But please don't get me wrong.In fact, I have a stomach full of things to tell you, but I can't write them down handily.So I was terribly afraid to write letters. Alvin looks very interesting.After reading that letter, I think she might like you.When I told Reiko, Reiko said: "That's not a matter of course, even I like Watanabe." We picked mushrooms and chestnuts to eat every day.Chestnut rice and pine mushroom rice have been eaten for a long time, but I still can't get tired of eating them, they are very delicious.Reiko was still the same as before, she didn't eat much and kept smoking.The birds and bunnies are also alive and kicking. goodbye" Four days after my 20th birthday, I received a parcel from Naoko.Inside was a round neck purple sweater and a letter. "Happy birthday to you," Naoko wrote. "May your 20th be a year of happiness. My 20th year seems bound to be spent in this bleak state, but you must live happily and give me my share." I'll live it too, so I'll be happy, really. This sweater was knitted by Reiko and I, each half. The good half was made by her hands, and the bad half was woven by me. What does Reiko do? Ingenious. I used to loathe myself so badly in her presence. I had nothing to be proud of - not even a little. Goodbye. Take care of yourself." Reiko also attached a text message: "Okay? To you, Naoko might be a supreme angel; to me, she's just an ordinary girl with all her hands and hands. But anyway, got the sweater out on time. How, beautiful. Ba? Color The style and style were agreed upon by the two of you. Happy birthday to you."