Chapter 19 nineteen thin clouds

In a blink of an eye, autumn ended and winter came, and the mansion by the Dayan River became more and more desolate and desolate. Akashiji's mother and daughter were lonely and bored, spending time in emptiness.Mr. Genji persuaded: "If you can't survive here, why don't you move to live near me." But Akashiji thought: "Move there, I'm afraid it will be hard work for 'Ke Ke. If you can see through him over there." I will be very disappointed with my fickle heart. At this time, it is really the so-called 'what's the point of crying again'." So he hesitated.Mr. Genji discussed with her politely: "In this case, it is not a good plan for this child to live here for a long time. I am arranging her future. If she is allowed to bury here, wouldn't she be wronged? Mrs. Zi has already heard about you I have this child, and I often want to see her. Let her go over there for a while, and get acquainted with Mrs. Zi, and I want to openly hold a grand dress ceremony for her." Akashi Ji was already worried that the young master would make such a plan, but now she heard She said, feeling even more distressed, and replied: "Although she has become the daughter of a nobleman and her status has been raised, but if someone who knows the truth leaks the news, it will be a bad thing." She always refused to let go.Mr. Genji said: "What you said is also reasonable. But you can rest assured about Mrs. Zi's affairs. She has been married for many years and has never given birth to a man and a woman. She often sighs the loneliness around her. She likes children by nature. Like Qian Zhai Even a very old girl like Gong, she insisted on loving her as a daughter. What's more, you are a flawless little baby, how could she give up so easily?" He described Ziji's kindness to her.After hearing this, Ming Shiji thought: "I have heard rumors from people in the past: this Genji son went from east to west, flirting with flowers and grass, and I don't know what kind of people he has to meet to be stable. It turns out that the person is this Ziji, and he has devoted himself to her. It can be seen that their fate is not shallow. It is conceivable that this lady's character is superior to others. Of course, an insignificant person like me cannot compete with her. If you rashly Wouldn't she be ridiculed by her to move to the East Courtyard and participate in it? I don't care about my personal interests, but this child will have a bright future, and I'm afraid she will eventually have to take care of her in the future. In this way, it's better to take advantage of this ignorant childish Give her to her this year." Then he thought: "If this child leaves me, I don't know how to miss her. And when I am lonely and bored, there is no comfort, how can I live? Once this child is gone, What else can lure the young master to come here occasionally?" She thought about it, confused, but felt that her body was full of worries.

This chapter writes about Genji's death in winter from the age of thirty-one to autumn at the age of thirty-two. An ancient song: "It's hard to come to the remote place, so move the place to wait for the king. It will be a lot of hard work for you if you don't come." See "Hou Zhuan Ji". An ancient song: "The pain will never change, so what's the point of crying again?" See "The Collection of Relics". The nun's wife is a thoughtful person, and she said to her daughter: "Your worries are unreasonable! You may suffer a lot if you don't see this child in the future, but you should think about the child's interests. You must think twice. It was announced to you later. You just trust him and send the child there. You see: the son of the emperor is also different according to the status of the mother. Just like the Minister of Genji, although his character is unparalleled in the world , but was finally reduced to a subject, not allowed to be a prince, but to be an official of the court. Why? Just because his grandfather—the late Zhada Nayan—had a lower official position than the fathers of other female royals. So his mother can only be a dresser, and he is called the prince who was born in a dresser. The difference lies in this! The emperor's son is like this, let alone ordinary officials, let alone the same. As far as ordinary families are concerned, the same The daughter of a prince or a minister, but if the prince or minister has a lower position and the daughter is not the wife, the children born to her will be despised, and the father will treat the children differently. What's more, people like us, if If one of the son's other wives has a child whose status is higher than ours, then our child will be overwhelmed. Besides, no matter how high or low a woman is, being able to get the attention of her parents is the reason why she is respected. If we hold the children's dress ceremony, even if we do our best, how can there be dignity in this remote mountain? It's better to leave it to them and see how they behave." After she taught her daughter a lesson, she and Discuss with wise people, and then ask the fortune teller to make a divination, and they all say that they will send Nijoyuan auspiciously.Akashi Ji's heart softened.

Although Genji's internal ministers made this plan for the young daughter-in-law, they were afraid that Akashi Ji would be unhappy, so they didn't force her to invite her.He wrote to ask: "How should the skirt-wearing ceremony be carried out?" Akashi Ji replied: "After much deliberation, teaching her to live with me, a worthless person, will ultimately be detrimental to her future. However, teaching her She joins the ranks of the nobles, and she is afraid of being ridiculed..." Genji's inner minister read this reply and felt sorry for her, but there was nothing he could do.

He chose an auspicious day and quietly ordered people to prepare for all necessary matters.After all, Akashi Ji was reluctant to give up the child; but thinking of the child's future, she had to endure the pain.Not only the children, but also the wet nurse must go with them.For many years, she and this nurse have been with each other day and night, and when they are sad and lonely, they rely on the two to comfort each other.Now that the wet nurse is gone, she feels even more lonely, doesn't An De cry bitterly?The nurse comforted her and said: "This is also a pre-determined matter. I am fortunate to serve you because of an accident. Over the years, I have always felt kind and never forget. How can we expect to break up? Although there will be many opportunities to meet in the future, once we leave Left and right, I feel so uneasy when I go to meet people I don't know before!" He also started to cry as he spoke.

In a few days, it was the severe winter and the twelfth lunar month, with snow and sleet flying.Akashi Ji felt even more lonely.She thought of the frequent worries and troubles in this body, which was different from ordinary people, and she couldn't help sighing sadly.She loved the little baby more than usual.One day it was snowing heavily, and the next morning, the courtyard was covered with snow.It is rare for her to sit in front of the eaves on weekdays, but this day she recalled the past and envisioned the future, and occasionally came to the eaves to sit and look at the ice and snow on the surface of the pool.Dressed in several layers of soft white clothing, she contemplates the scene with an elegant posture.Just look at the bun and back view, no matter how noble a woman is, her beauty is nothing more than this.She raised her hand to wipe away her tears, and sighed, "It will be even more desolate to meet such a day from now on!" Then she began to weep tenderly.Then he chanted:

"The deep mountains are full of snow and there is no sunny day, Fish and geese look forward to following their footprints. " The nurse wept and comforted her: "The deep mountains are full of snow and people are lonely, Congenial and trustworthy. " When the snow gradually melted, Mr. Genji came.If it is a normal day, the son is very welcome.But when he thought of why he came today, he felt like a knife was piercing his heart.Of course Akashi Ji knew that she was not forced to do this by others, it was all out of her own wish.If you categorically refuse, others will never force you.She deeply regrets what she did wrong.But it would be too rash to refuse today.Genji saw the child sitting in front of his mother's lap so cutely and cutely, and felt that he and Akashi Ji had a very close relationship!This child began to grow hair this spring, and now it looks like a nun's short hair, which is fluffy and hangs on his shoulders, very beautiful.Good looking, delicate features, not to mention.Mr. Minamoto guessed that the mother felt sad and suspenseful after giving the child to others, and felt extremely sorry for Akashi Ji, so he repeatedly explained his intentions to her and comforted her in many ways.Akashi Ji replied: "I hope she will not be regarded as the daughter of a lowly person, and I will raise her well..." Speaking of this, I couldn't help but shed tears.

The little girl didn't know the joys and sorrows, so she just urged to get on the car quickly.Her mother personally carried her to the side of the car, she grabbed her mother's sleeve, and babbled softly, "Mom, come up too!" "Komatsu has his own sky-high sun, When will we see Lizi after the farewell? " I haven't finished singing, but I can't make a sound.Mr. Genji felt deeply sympathetic to her, and felt that this incident really caused her pain, so he comforted her: "The green leaves are soft, the roots are soft, Chiaki will always be with Takekuma Matsu.

But please take your time. " Akashi Ji also felt that this remark was very true, and she felt a little relieved, but finally she was overwhelmed with grief. The nurse and a senior maid named major general, holding a saber and Tian'er, rode with the young lady. Several other beautiful young maids and girls , and take another car to see him off. Master Genji commemorated Akashi Ji who stayed in the mansion along the way, and felt painfully what a serious crime he had committed! The Mukuma area is famous for producing couple pine trees (two pine pines living side by side).This poem uses the couple as a metaphor for himself and Akashi Ji, and says that he will welcome her to live together soon.

Tian'er is a kind of doll that children bring with them, thinking that it can ward off evil disasters. When we arrived at Erjoyuan, it was already dark.As the car approached the front of the hall, the maids from the village saw the bright lights, the bustle and bustle, and the weather was very different from other places, and they felt that they were not used to working here.The one to the west of Genji Gongzi's school is the room of the little daughter-in-law, which has special equipment, and the small utensils are arranged very beautifully. The one to the north of the west gallery is the room of the wet nurse.The little girl fell asleep on the way.He didn't cry when he carried her out of the car.The maids took her to Mrs. Zi's room and gave her some cake bait.Gradually, she realized that the scene around her was different, and her mother was gone, so she searched everywhere, with a look on her face that was about to cry.Mrs. Zi called the wet nurse to come and comfort her.

Genji thought of Akashi Ji in the big weir mansion in the mountains, how lonely she was after losing her child, and felt very sorry for her.But seeing Ziji caressing the child day and night, I feel very satisfied.Unfortunately, this child is not her own.If it is a biological person, outsiders are beyond reproach.This is really a fly in the ointment.During the first few days when the little girl came here, she sometimes cried and cried, looking for someone she had always known.But this child is gentle and docile in nature, and is very close to Ziji, so Ziji loves her very much, as if she has obtained a treasure.She hugged her and teased her all day long.The wet nurse became acquainted with Madam naturally.They also looked for another noble person with breasts to help raise the child.

Although there is no special preparation for the dress-wearing ceremony of the little girl, it is also very particular.The clothes and utensils made according to the figure of the little girl are so small and exquisite that they look like playing with dolls, very cute.There were a lot of congratulatory guests that day, but they were not particularly eye-catching because there were always a lot of cars and horses on weekdays.It's just that the little girl's skirt is tied like a suspender through her shoulders and tied in front of her chest, making her look even more beautiful than before. The people in Dayan Mansion miss the little girl forever.Akashi Ji regretted her mistake more and more.Even though the nun's wife taught her daughter such a lesson that day, she often sheds tears now.But hearing that the little girl is cherished so much over there, I feel very happy in my heart.On the little girl's body, there is a thoughtful enshrinement over there, so there is no need to worry about it here.It's just that I prepared a lot of very colorful clothes for the wet nurse and the maids who are close to the little girl.Mr. Genji thought: If you don't visit for a long time, Akashi Ji will be suspicious: As expected, I have abandoned her from now on, so I hate me even more, I am sorry for her.So on a certain day during the year, I quietly went to visit once.The inside of the mansion was already very quiet, and with the loss of that beloved child, one can imagine the sadness.Master Genji felt pain when he thought of this, so he kept sending letters of condolences.Now Zi Ji doesn't hate Akashi Ji much anymore.Look at the face of this lovely child, forgiving her mother. Soon the almanac will be updated.The sky is bright and beautiful, everything goes well in the Ertiao courtyard, and Baifu is perfect.The palaces everywhere are extremely ornately decorated.There is an endless stream of New Year guests.Older people come to celebrate the festival of eating porridge with seven vegetables on the seventh day of the lunar new year.There is a city of cars and horses in front of the gate.Those young nobles are all carefree and beaming.People of inferior status, although they have thoughts in their hearts, their faces are contented.Looking at this scene, it can be described as a peaceful and prosperous age.Living in Huasan in the west hall of the east courtyard, life is also very comfortable.The clothes of the maids and girls are also well taken care of, and their lives are very rich.It is naturally much cheaper to live near Mr. Genji.Whenever the son has nothing to do, he often takes a walk to meet her.As for coming here to stay overnight, it is very rare.But Hua Sanli's temperament is humble and docile. She thinks that she is predestined, and the fate for the son ends there, so she spends her days leisurely and contentedly.Therefore, Mr. Genji is very relieved. During the four seasons and festivals, he treats her generously, no less than Ziji.No one dared to underestimate her.There are no fewer maids willing to serve her than Ziji.None of the retainers dared to neglect her.The situation is good, and there is nothing to blame. Seven dishes refer to seven kinds of vegetables in spring, namely celery, shepherd's purse, sage, chickweed, Buddha seat, turnip, and radish.On the seventh day of the first lunar month, these seven kinds of vegetables are chopped and put into porridge, which is called Qilai porridge.At that time, it was believed that eating it could cure all diseases. Mr. Genji always thought about the loneliness of Akashi Ji in Dayan Mansion, and went to visit after he was busy with public and private affairs in the first month.On this day, he was dressed very carefully: he was wearing a white and red dress, with a gorgeous shirt inside, and the fragrance of the clothes was very strong. When he said goodbye to Zi Ji, it happened to be reflected in the crimson sunset, and his whole body was radiant.When Zi Ji watched him go out, she felt dizzy and distracted.The little girl didn't know it, she grabbed her father's skirt and wanted to go with him, but she wanted to go out of the room.Mr. Genji stood still, feeling sorry for her in his heart.After saying something to comfort her, he casually sang the line "Ming Dynasty will definitely come back" in the urging horse music, and went out.Ziji asked the maidservant to wait at the entrance of the corridor, and gave him a poem when he came out: "If no one lives in a boat, Looking forward to the return of the prodigal son tomorrow. " When the lieutenant general chanted, his tone was very smooth, and Genji replied with a smile on his face: "Harrying to return to the Ming Dynasty, Don't stay for Yi Ren for a moment. " The little girl listened to their chorus, but she didn't understand at all, so she just jumped up and down and played.Zi Ji saw it and found it very cute, and her jealousy towards Akashi Ji also subsided.She guessed that Akashi Ji must miss this child very much.How sad it would be if she had changed herself!She stared at the child for a while, then hugged her into her arms, took out her lovely breast, and put it in her mouth, thinking she was playing.Others saw this scene and thought it was really interesting!The maids said to each other: "Why didn't Madam have a child? It would be great if this child was born by myself!" The full text of "Sakuraman" reminds Ma Le: "(male singer) Yingren Yingren stop the boat quickly and take me to see Shimada. I have planted ten districts of Shimada, and I will come back after inspection. I will definitely come back in the Ming Dynasty. (female singer) ) Verbal words are empty words, and it will be difficult for the Ming Dynasty to come back. You have a wife and room over there, and the Ming Dynasty will definitely not come back, and the Ming Dynasty will definitely not come back." Yingren is a local who rocks the boat. Inside the Dayan Mansion, the scenery is very rich.The form of the house is also different, and it is not elegant.Coupled with Akashi Ji's appearance and demeanor, every time I see it, it is better than the last time.Compared with noble women, it is not inferior.Mr. Genji thought: "If her character is the same as others, and there is nothing particularly superior, I will not love her so much. Her father's sexual behavior is eccentric, it is indeed a great pity. As for the daughter's low status, what's the problem?" Genji Every time the young master visits, he just makes a hasty remark and often feels dissatisfied.This time he went back in a hurry. He felt that even though they met, it was still painful, and he kept sighing in his heart, "It's like crossing a bird bridge in a dream".There happened to be a kite by my side, and Mr. Genji took it.Recalling the late-night ensemble at Mingshi Pushang that year, he persuaded Mingshiji to play the pipa.Akashi Ji played with him for a while.Mr. Genji deeply admired her brilliance and felt flawless.After playing, he told her the little girl's current situation in detail. An ancient song: "Love in the world is precarious, just like crossing the bird bridge in a dream. Crossing the bird bridge to meet the day, the sorrow and hatred in my heart are hard to get rid of." See "He Hai Chao". Dayan Mansion was originally a lonely residence.But Mr. Genji came to stay here from time to time, and sometimes he just had some snacks or light meals here.When he came here, he often used excuses to go to the Buddhist hall or the Guiyuan, and did not expressly say that he was visiting sincerely.Although he is not overly obsessed with Akashi Ji, he has no contempt for her, and he never treats her as an ordinary person, which shows that his love for her is different.Akashi Ji also knows that the young master loves her very much, so she does not make excessive demands on the young master, but she is not too inferior. She does not violate the young master's desires in everything. It is just right.Akashi Ji has long heard people say: Master Genji has never treated each other so openly and sincerely in the family of noble women, and is always arrogant.So she thought: "I moved to the East Courtyard and lived too close to the young masters. Instead, I assimilated with them, and I couldn't avoid being insulted by people. Now I live here. Although he doesn't come here often, he always does it for me. Come here, I will have more face." Although Taoist Mingshi said decisively when sending his daughters to Beijing, he still cared about them very much. He didn't know how Gongyu would treat them, so he often sent envoys to inquire.When I hear the news, I sometimes sigh with sorrow; but there are also many times when I feel honored and rejoiced. At this time, the Minister of Taizheng passed away. This old minister was the pillar of the world. Once he died, the emperor would be very sad.In the past, temporarily retiring and being caged in the mansion caused harassment in the court; not to mention today's long-lived life, there are naturally many sad people.Genji's inner ministers were also very sorry.In the past, all government affairs could be relied on by the Minister of the Taizheng, and the Minister of Internal Affairs was very at ease.In the future, it is bound to bear the hardships alone, so it is even more sad.Emperor Lengquan was only fourteen years old, but he was stable and mature, and seemed to be far above this age. He was personally involved in government affairs, wise and decisive, and the ministers of the Genji family could rest assured.However, after the death of the Taizheng Minister, there is no one to rely on to help others except himself.Who can shoulder this heavy responsibility on his behalf, and let him fulfill his long-cherished wish of becoming a monk?Thinking of this, I feel that the untimely death of the Taizheng Minister is very sad.Therefore, it is even more grand to hold the event of recommending Buddhism than the descendants of the ministers of the Taizheng.He is also attentive and consoling, and takes care of him in many ways. Plague was prevalent in the world this year.Abnormal omens occurred repeatedly in the ban, and the hearts of the people were uneasy.The sky is also full of strange changes: the sun, moon and stars often have different lights, and the movement of clouds and clouds also indicates a bad omen.There are many amazing things in the world.Astronomy and Yi experts from all over the world have written and declared, in which are recorded all kinds of surprising and strange things.Only Genji's ministers were particularly troubled, thinking that this was caused by their own serious crimes. The mother barnacle mother who became a monk fell ill in the early spring of this year, and became very sick in March.Emperor Lengquan visited Santiaoyuan and asked his mother about his illness.When Emperor Tonghu passed away, Emperor Lengquan was only five years old, and he hadn't fully understood the world.Now that the queen mother is seriously ill, the emperor's heart is extremely worried, and his face is full of sorrow.The barnacle mother was also very sad, and said to him: "I foresee that this year's death will be inevitable. But I don't feel particularly painful. If I say that I know the time of death, I am afraid that others will laugh at me deliberately pretending, so I don't do extra meritorious deeds. .I wanted to enter the palace a long time ago, and calmly talk to you about the old things. However, there are few days when the spirit is happy, so I have been wasting my time, and I have not achieved my wish. It is really a pity." When he spoke, his voice was very weak.She is thirty-seven years old this year, but she still looks like a prime youth, Emperor Lengquan feels it is a pity, and his heart is even more sad.Then he replied: "This year is an auspicious year when the mother should be cautious in everything. The child is very worried when he hears that the mother's body has violated harmony in the past few months. However, he didn't do much ritual work, and he really regrets it." He felt extremely painful, At this critical moment, a large-scale ceremony was held to pray for the mother's recovery.Genji's internal ministers used to think that what she suffered from was a common minor illness and didn't mind much.Now I am deeply worried.Due to his status, Emperor Lengquan was unable to stay, so he bid farewell and returned to the palace soon, feeling infinitely sad in his heart. Ancient superstition: women at the age of 19, 33, and 37 are "bad years" and they will suffer disasters. The empress barnacle was in great pain, and it was difficult to speak. She just thought in her heart: "Because of the deep fate of the previous life, this body enjoys all the honor and wealth in this world, which is unmatched by others. Hey! Emperor Lengquan never thought of such a secret in his dreams, I am really sorry for him. Only this hatred makes me die. The sea is dry and the rocks are rotten, and there will never be a day of dissolving!" Genji's inner ministers are thinking about the court. It is really sad that the mother barnacle mother is dying and suffers misfortune.And thinking of the secret affair between himself and the barnacle queen, he felt infinitely sad.So I tried my best to do Buddhist affairs, praying for my mother to recover soon.His love for the barnacle queen has been broken for a long time.Thinking of the day when there will never be another day in this life, I feel very sad.So he approached the curtain in front of the hospital bed and asked the maid who knew about the condition of the queen mother.The maids around the queen mother are all confidantes. Knowing the heartfelt feelings of Genji's inner ministers, they will inform the queen mother of the recent situation in detail.He also said: "In the past few months, even if I feel unwell, I have not stopped worshiping Buddha and chanting scriptures. I have been working hard for a long time, and my body is getting weaker. Recently, I have never imported orange juice. It seems that there is no hope." All the maids said Cover your face and weep.The barnacle mother ordered the maid to say: "You abide by the father's will; you are loyal to the present and spare no effort. Over the years, I have benefited a lot. I always want to express my gratitude to you when I have a good opportunity. I have waited until now. Unexpectedly, the illness is serious. It’s so heavy, I’m sorry, what can I say!” Genji’s inner minister heard the sound from outside the screen, he was so sad that he couldn’t answer, but just swallowed his tears.Thinking about why your mood is so fragile, you should take care of others' attention and cheer up.But thinking of the beauty of Queen Mother Barnacles in the past, most people in the world would feel pity for them.Unexpectedly, now that she is about to die, and she cannot be kept, it is really a matter of hatred forever!Finally he replied with tears: "Sincerity is insignificant for a blunt talent. But since he was ordered, he has tried his best to be loyal and dare not neglect. A month ago, the Minister of the Taizheng passed away suddenly. Since then, he has been burdened with important government affairs, and his fear has increased. Unexpectedly, the mother suffers from illness again. I am sick, and I feel confused and numb. I am deeply afraid that this body will not be able to live in this world for a long time." During this period, the barnacle mother quietly passed away like oil drying up.The grief of Genji's inner minister is indescribable. Among all the nobles, Queen Barnacle has the most compassionate heart and loves the world.The rich and nobles have always relied on their power to oppress the common people, but the barnacle mother never did this kind of behavior.The Quartet has made contributions, and all things that are laborious and mobilizing will be declined.She is also very frugal in terms of Buddhist merits and virtues: people who have always been wealthy, after being persuaded by others, often do meritorious deeds in a very luxurious way, even in the era of Sheng Mingzi, there are many examples.Only the Queen Mother of Barnacles never does such extravagant things. She only uses the treasures handed down from previous generations and the annual salary she deserves, and makes offerings to monks and Buddhas as widely as possible within the limit of not hindering other uses.Therefore, the ignorant mountain monks also mourned her death.The news of the funeral caused a sensation all over the country, and everyone who heard it was sad.All the officials in the palace were dressed in black mourning clothes, which made this March of Orioles dim. Mr. Genji looked at the cherry blossoms in the courtyard of Nijo, recalled the situation of the flower banquet in those days, and sang the line "this year should bloom black flowers" in the ancient song to himself.Afraid of being discussed by others, he had to be locked in the Buddhist hall and weep secretly behind his back every day.The setting sun is like fire, and the treetops in the mountains are exposed.And the thin clouds lying across the ridge are reflected in gray.At this time of boredom, this thin gray cloud is particularly sad.Master Genji chanted: "The thin clouds on the mountain contain the setting sun, It is also dark and dark in color with the mourning clothes. " No one knows, and singing alone is in vain. After the completion of the seven-seven Buddhist rituals, there is no action for the time being.The palace was quiet, and the emperor suddenly felt lonely and bored.Let's say that there is a monk capital, the queen mother of the barnacle mother entered the palace to serve when she was alive, and has always been a prayer teacher.Queen Barnacle also respected him very much and was his confidant.The emperor also valued him and often taught him to hold grand rituals.This is indeed a holy monk with profound Taoism, which is rare in the world.He is about 70 years old this year. In recent years, he has been confined in the mountains, diligently practicing Buddhism, and accumulating blessings for his later years.This time, she specially prayed for the mother of the barnacle mother, and came to Kyoto, where she was called into the palace and often served the emperor.Genji's internal ministers also advised him: "From now on, you will live in the palace and serve the emperor just like you did in the past." The monk replied: "The poor monk is old and can't bear night classes. But the minister has an order, so how dare you violate it. Kuang has been around for a long time." I have received great kindness, and I should repay it." So he stayed in the palace. An ancient song: "If the mountain cherry is a sentimental species, it should bloom black flowers this year." See "Ancient and Modern Waka Collection". The title of this chapter is "Bo Yun" based on this poem.Therefore, barnacles are also called "Queen Boyun". This is the queen of the previous generation of Emperor Tonghu. One day, in the quiet dawn, the waiters were not around, and the on-duty staff had also retreated. The monk was coughing in the quiet voice unique to the elderly, and at the same time explained to Emperor Lengquan the principles of impermanence in the world.Taking the opportunity to say: "The poor monk has something to say, and he wants to play it to your majesty. He hesitated for a long time because he was afraid of being accused of lying. But if your majesty doesn't know this, the crime is very serious, and the poor monk may be punished by heaven. If you keep this matter hidden in your heart until the end of your life, what good will it do? Buddhas and Bodhisattvas will also scold poor monks for their infidelity." He couldn't say anything at this point.Emperor Lengquan thought: "What's the matter? Could it be that after his death, he still has lingering hatred in this world? A monk, no matter how noble, is often greedy and jealous. It's really annoying." I believe you, but you have something to hold back and don’t say anything, which makes me hate it!" The monks continued: "Amitabha! The secrets of the mantra that the Buddhas and Bodhisattvas are strictly forbidden to divulge, the poor monk has taught your majesty without reservation. The poor monk himself, there is still What is there to keep in mind? The only thing is that it involves a major event in the past and the future. If it is concealed, it will only become a bad name in the world. It will be very unfavorable to the late Tonghuyuan and Barnacle Mother, as well as the ministers of the Minamoto family who are currently in power. The poor monk has no regrets about this old body. Even if he is convicted, he will never regret it. Now, I will uphold the meaning of the gods and Buddhas and report to your majesty: when your majesty was still in the womb, the queen mother was already sad and worried. The monks prayed in many ways. Of course, the monks did not know the details. Later, the minister of the interior was banished to the sea corner for a crime of nothing. The queen mother was even more frightened, and asked the poor monk to pray. The monk confessed to the Buddha. Before His Majesty came to the throne, the poor monk kept praying for His Majesty's safety. As far as the poor monk knows..." He told the facts in detail.After hearing his words, Emperor Lengquan was like hearing a thunderbolt from the blue sky, frightened and sad, confused and unable to answer for a while.The monks began to play abruptly by themselves, annoyed the Sacred Heart, and were afraid of being punished, so they wanted to withdraw quietly.Emperor Lengquan kept him, and said: "If I don't know this and spend my whole life, I am afraid that I will suffer in the next life. But you have forbeared until now and you have not sued me, but you have taught me to blame you for being unfaithful. Let me ask you: Besides you, is there anyone else who knows this and leaked it?" The monks replied: "Except for the poor monk and the wife of the king, no one else has such a reason. The poor monk heard about it today, and he was really scared. Recently, the sky The frequency is still changing, and the epidemic is prevalent. This is the reason. When your majesty was young, you didn't understand the world, so the gods and Buddhas didn't care about it. Now your majesty is getting older, and everything has been able to distinguish right from wrong, and the gods and Buddhas will send disasters to show Punish the crime of unfilial piety. All good and bad things in the world are caused by parents. If your majesty does not know the crime, the poor monk will be very worried. Therefore, he dares to speak out the things that are deep in his heart." When he said it, he sighed endlessly.At this time, the sky is already bright, and the monks will leave even if they leave. Emperor Lengquan felt as if he was in a dream when he heard this shocking news.Thinking about it, feeling upset.He felt sorry for Tong Huyuan Zai Tianzhi's spirit in this matter.It is really unfilial to make the biological father take the position of a subordinate.After many considerations, until the day of Yan, he still didn't get up.Genji's internal ministers were very surprised when they heard that Sheng Gong was not hesitant, so they came to visit.When Emperor Lengquan saw him, his grief was even more unbearable, and he burst into tears.Genji's internal ministers thought that he was mourning his mother, and the tears were still in his eyes. On this day, Prince Taoyuan Shishi passed away.When the bad news came, Emperor Lengquan was shocked again, and felt that the catastrophes in this world were happening one after another, which made him more worrying.Seeing the emperor's sorrow, the ministers of the Genji family did not go back to Erjoin, but stayed in the palace to have intimate talks with the emperor.The emperor said to him: "I am afraid that my life will not last forever. Why have I been so depressed recently and the world is so unbalanced. There are so many difficulties in all directions, and I am so worried. I really want to retire. When my mother is alive, I am afraid that I will make her Sad, dare not mention it. Now I have nothing to worry about, I want to give up my seat as soon as possible, so that I can live with peace of mind." Genji's inner minister replied in shock: "How did this happen! The peace of the world does not necessarily depend on the length of politics. Since ancient times In the Ming Dynasty, there were unavoidable evil things. Unexpected incidents occurred in the era of the Holy Ming Dynasty. There are also examples in my country, and it is the same in our country. What's more, most of the people who died recently were old and long-lived. Your Majesty will not You need to be worried." He cited various examples and tried to comfort him in many ways.The author is a generation of women who dare not talk about world affairs.To give a brief example, it is unavoidable to be suspected of going too far. The younger brother of Tonghuyuan and the father of Jinji. Emperor Lengquan often wore black mourning clothes, and his handsome appearance was no different from that of Genji's inner ministers.He used to take self-portraits in the mirror, and he often felt this way.After listening to Sengdu's words, and looking closely at the appearance of Genji's ministers, I feel the love between father and son more deeply.He always wanted to find an opportunity to vaguely mention this to him.However, I was afraid that the ministers of Genji would be embarrassed, and I couldn't muster courage in my young heart.During this time, therefore, they talked only about ordinary gossip, but more intimately than before.Emperor Lengquan's attitude towards him was very respectful, which was completely different from before. The ministers of Genji's inner circle had already seen it, and they were secretly surprised, but unexpectedly he had already learned the details. Emperor Lengquan wanted to ask Wang Mingfu for details.However, he didn't want to teach the king's wife that he had learned that the queen mother's strict keeping of secrets had been known to him.He just wanted to try to vaguely inform Genji's inner minister about this matter, and asked him if there was such a precedent in ancient times.However, there was no proper opportunity.So he studied knowledge more diligently and browsed various books.He found in the book: There are many examples of the chaos of the emperor's lineage in China, some of which are open and some of which are secret: but it is unprecedented in Japan.Even if there are examples, but such a secret, how can we see the historical biography?Of course it will not be passed on to future generations.He only found in the historical biography that there are many cases where the prince was relegated to the status of a minister, and after being appointed as a minister or a minister, he was restored to the prince and assumed the throne.So he wanted to use this precedent to give way to him on the grounds that Genji's inner ministers were capable.Then make various considerations. At this time, it was the time for the appointment and dismissal of Beijing officials in autumn.The court decided to appoint Genji as Minister of the Taizheng.Emperor Lengquan informed Genji's ministers of this matter in advance, and then told him about the recent consideration of abdication.When Genji's inner ministers heard the words, they were sincere and terrified, thinking that this matter was absolutely impossible, and firmly opposed it.Played: "When the father of Tonghu was alive, among the many princes, he loved the little minister very much, but he never considered the matter of passing on the throne. How can he go against the father's will and ascend the throne rashly today? The minister hopes to abide by the legacy. I am ordered to fulfill the duty of supporting the court. When I get old, I will become a monk, leave the world, practice in seclusion, and live my remaining life quietly." He still used the tone of his ministers to hear the news, and Emperor Lengquan felt deeply sorry when he heard it.As for the position of Minister of the Taizheng.Genji's internal ministers also said that it still needs to be considered, and they will not be ordered for the time being.As a result, he was promoted to an official position, and he was allowed to enter and exit the palace in a bullock cart.Emperor Lengquan was deeply dissatisfied, and wanted to restore Genji's inner ministers as princes.However, according to the regulations, the prince is not allowed to concurrently be the minister of the imperial court. If Genji is reinstated as the prince, there will be no other suitable person who can be the minister of the imperial court and serve as the backer of the court, so this matter has not been implemented.So Jin granted Quanzhong Nayan the title of Great Nayan and General.Minamoto Minamoto thought: "Wait for this person to be promoted to another level. After becoming a minister, I can appoint this person for everything. I will be more or less at ease." But thinking back to Emperor Lengquan's words and deeds this time, he was very worried.If he already knew the secret, he would be sorry for the spirit of the barnacle queen.And I am extremely sorry for making Emperor Lengquan so distressed.He was very surprised: Who revealed this secret? Kui Ji's brother, the former Lieutenant General. The wife of the king's order has moved to the position of the palace of Kushi, where she has her room.Genji's internal ministers went to visit and asked her: "Did the queen mother tell the emperor about that matter when she was alive?" Wang Mingfu replied: "No such thing! The queen mother is very afraid, lest the emperor hear the news. On the one hand She is also worried about the emperor, fearing that he will not know his own father, and will be punished by gods and Buddhas for the crime of disobedience." Hearing these words, Genji's inner ministers recalled the gentle, thoughtful and thoughtful appearance of the barnacle mother, and adored him privately. endlessly. In charge of the imperial clothing. In addition, Meihu Nuyu was in the palace, and she took care of Emperor Lengquan very thoughtfully as Genji's inner ministers expected, and she was extremely favored.The temperament and appearance of this female royal are perfect and flawless.Therefore, the ministers of the Genji family attached great importance to her and took good care of her.It was autumn, and Meihu Nvyu temporarily returned to Ertiaoyuan to rest.Genji's inner ministers decorated the main hall with splendor to welcome the queen.Now he loved her with the purity of a parent's heart. One day, when the autumn rain started falling, the flowers and plants in front of the courtyard were colorful and covered with green leaves.Genji's inner minister recalled all the past events of Meihu's mother Liujo concubine when she was alive, and wept down his breasts, so he went to the female emperor's room to visit him. Queen barnacles pray for blessings.He hid the rosary in his sleeve and walked into the curtain with an extremely elegant posture.Meihu Nuyu talked to him personally through the curtain.Genji's inner minister said: "The autumn flowers are in full bloom in front of the court. This year is not good, but the grass and trees are ignorant, and they are still blooming in time. What a pity!" As he said, he leaned on the pillar, reflecting the sunset, and his face glowed.Then I talked about the old things in the past, and talked about the reluctance to say goodbye at dawn after visiting the six concubines in the wild palace that day, and I was full of emotion.梅壶女御正如古歌所咏“回思往事袖更湿”，也嘤嘤地哭泣起来，样子甚是可怜。源氏内大臣在帷屏外听她因哭泣而颤动的声音，想见她个非常温柔优雅的美人。可惜不能见面，胸中焦灼难堪。此种恶癖实甚讨厌！ 源氏内大臣又开言道：“回想当年，并无何等可悲可恼之事，理应安闲度日。只因我心耽好风流，以致终年忧患不绝。有许多女子，我和她发生了不应该的恋爱，使我至今犹觉痛苦。其中至死不能谅解而抱恨长终者，计有二人，其一便是你家已过的母夫人。她怨我薄幸，直至最后终不谅解，此乃我终身一大恨事。我竭诚照顾你这遗孤，指望借此聊慰寸心。无奈'旧恨余烬犹未消'，看来这是永世的业障了。”至于另一人姑置不谈。话头转向他处：“中间我惨遭谪戍，常思回京之后，应做之事甚多。现在总算逐渐如愿以偿了。住在东院的那人，以前孤苦伶仃，现在安居纳福，无所顾虑了。这个人性情温和，我与她互相谅解，亲密无间。我回京以后，复官晋爵，身为帝室屏藩，但我对富贵并不深感兴趣，惟有风月情怀，始终难于抑制。当你入宫之际，我努力抑制对你的恋情而当了你的保护人，不知你能谅解我此心否？如果你不寄与同情，我真是枉费苦心了！”梅壶女御觉得厌烦，默默不答。源氏内大臣说：“你不回答，可见不同情我，我好伤心啊！” 古歌：“罗袖本来无干日，回思住事袖更湿。”见《拾遗集》。 古歌：“旧恨余烬犹未消，惟有与汝永缔交。”见《源氏物语注释》所引。 另一人显然是藤壶。 指花散里。 连忙岔开话头，继续言道：“自今以后，我总想永不再作疚心之事，静掩禅关，专心修持，为来世积福。只是回思过去，我毫无勋业值得一生怀念，不免遗憾耳。惟膝下有小女一人，现仅四岁，成长之日尚远。我今不揣冒昧，欲以此女奉托，指望靠她光大门第。我死之后，务请多多栽培。”梅壶女御态度异常文雅，只是隐隐约约地回答了一言两语。源氏内大臣听了觉得十分可亲，便静静地坐在那里，直到日暮。又继续言道：“光大门第之望，姑且不谈。目前我所企望的，一年四时流转之中，春花秋叶，风雨晦明，应有赏心悦目之景。春日林花烂漫，秋天郊野绮丽，孰优孰劣，古人各持一说，争论已久。毕竟何者最可赏心悦目，未有定论。在中国，诗人都说春花如锦，其美无比，而在日本的和歌中，则又谓'春天只见群花放，不及清秋逸兴长。'我等面对四时景色，但觉神移目眩。至于花色鸟声，孰优孰劣，实难分辨。我想在这狭小的庭院内，广栽春花，移植秋草，并养些不知名的鸣虫，以点缀四时景色，供你等欣赏。但不知你对于春和秋，喜爱哪一季节？”梅壶女御觉得难于奉复。但闭口不答，又觉太不知趣，只得勉强答道：“此事古人都难于判别，何况我等。诚如尊见：四时景色，皆有可观。但昔人有云：'秋夜相思特地深'；我每当秋夜，便思念如朝露般消失的我母，故我觉得秋天更为可爱。”这话似乎没有多少理由，信口道来，但源氏内大臣觉得非常可爱。他情不自禁，赠诗一绝： “君怜秋景好，我爱秋宵清。 既是同心侣，请君谅我心。 我常有相思难禁之时呢。 ”梅壶女御对此岂能作答？她只觉得莫名其妙。源氏内大臣颇想乘此机会，发泄胸中关闭不住的怨恨。或竟更进一步，作非礼之事。但念梅壶女御如此嫌恶他，亦属有理。而自己如此轻佻，也太不成样子。于是回心转意，只是长叹数声。此时他的姿态异常优美。但女御只觉得讨厌。她渐渐向后退却，想躲进内室里去。源氏内大臣对她说：“想不到你如此讨厌我！真正深解情趣的人，不应该如此呢。罢了罢了，今后请你勿再恨我。你若恨我，我很伤心啊！ ”便告辞退出。他起身退出后，衣香留在室中，梅壶女御觉得连这香气也很讨厌。侍女们一面关窗，一面相与言道：“这坐垫上留着的香气，香得好厉害啊！这个人怎么会长得这样漂亮？竟是。樱花兼有梅花香，开在杨柳柔条上'呢。真正教人爱杀呵！ " 见《拾遗集》。 古歌：“无时不念意中人，秋夜相思特地深。”见《古今和歌集》。 梅壶女御后来称为“秋好皇后”，即根据她这段话。 此古歌见《后拾遗集》。 源氏内大臣回到西殿，暂不走进内室去，却在窗前躺下，耽入沉思。他教人把灯笼挂在远处，命几个侍女在旁侍候，和她们闲谈。他自己也感觉到：“我作乱伦之恋而自寻烦恼的老毛病，还是照旧呢。”又想：“向梅壶女御求爱，实在太不应该！从前那桩事，讲到罪过，比这件事深重得多。然而那时年幼无知，神佛亦原谅我，但现在岂可再犯？”想到这里，又觉得自己于此道已可放心，毕竟修养加深，不会再蹈复辙了。 梅壶女御作出深知秋天风趣的样子，口答源氏内大臣说爱好秋景，过后回想，懊悔莫及，深觉可耻。颓丧之余，竟成忧恼。但源氏内大臣斩断了这一缕情丝，比以前更加亲切地照拂她了。他走进内室，对紫姬说道：“梅壶女御爱好秋夜，亦甚可喜；而你喜欢春晨，更是有理。今后赏玩四时花草之时，亦当按照你的欢心而安排。我身为公私事务所羁绊，不能任情游乐。常想依照夙愿，遁入禅门。但不忍教你独守孤寂，不免怅惘耳。” 源氏内大臣时刻挂念嵯峨山中大堰邸内那个人。但因身分高贵，不便轻易去访。他想：“明石姬为了自己出身低微，所以嫌恶人世，避免交游，其实何必如此自卑呢？但她不肯轻易迁居东院，低头与众人共处，则又未免太高傲了。”推察她的心情，实甚可怜。于是照例借口嵯峨佛堂必须不断念佛，赴大堰邸访问了。 明石姬在这大堰邸内，越是住得长久，越是觉得凄凉。平居无事，也频添忧恼。何况与难得降临的源氏内大臣结了痛苦的不解之缘，见面时只是匆匆一叙，反而徒增悲叹。因此源氏内大臣只得尽心竭力地抚慰她。透过异常繁茂的树木，远远望见大堰河鸬鹚船的篝灯明灭，火光反映在池塘里，好象点点流萤。源氏内大臣说：“此种住宅的情景，若非在明石浦看惯，看了定然觉得希奇。”明石姬便吟道： “篝灯映水如渔火， 伴着愁人到此乡。 我的愁思也与住在渔火之乡时一样。”源氏内大臣答道： “只缘不解余怀抱， 心似篝灯影动摇。 正如古歌所咏：'谁教君心似此愁？'”意思是反而恨明石姬不谅解他的心。此时公私各方均甚闲暇，源氏内大臣为欲专心修习庄严佛法，常常到嵯峨佛堂来作长期滞留。想是因此之故，明石姬的愁怀也稍得宽解。 古歌：“情如泡沫原堪恨，谁教君心似此愁？”见《古今和歌六帖》。