Chapter 43 38．starbuck's monologue

(Mate Starbuck leans on the mainmast, brooding.) "As far as my soul is concerned, there is nothing to fear, for it is powerful in itself." "But now it's sad because it's at the mercy of a lunatic, and it can't be changed." "For a healthy person, this is such a painful thing, it's like he lost himself." "This pain has penetrated deep into my heart, and has disturbed all my sane things." "I thought: Whether I want to or not, I must help that madman achieve his goal, because we are firmly bound together." "Nothing can get us out of here, our fate is sealed."

"But what is it that governs the madman?" "I distinctly saw a gloomy light in his eyes, which would frighten me." "I was shrouded in this gloom, and I had to obey orders, but I also thought about betraying his actions. These two contradictory thoughts made me tortured." "I feel that I have been suppressed by this evil force, and my heart is powerless." (There is a burst of cheers in the forecastle) "It seems that this voyage will be an ominous experience. Even this group of inhuman heretics will not bring the ship to perfection." "They are making uneducated quarrels, dreaming of catching the white whale and getting Spanish gold coins, which they will never know, but Captain Ahab's bait."

"However, the stern of the ship is very quiet. That is where Captain Ahab is." "The pequod's jaunty prows lead the Pequod sprinting out to sea, while their captain locks himself morosely at the stern." "Be quiet, frantic people, think carefully, and find your sanity, don't you feel that your life has been threatened?" "I'm not afraid, but I fear for our lives."