Chapter 38 Chapter Thirty-Seven

As soon as she stepped on the train to the south, Lu Minmin couldn't help feeling excited, as if stepping into a warm world from a cold world, a feeling of ignorance and joy shrouded her, which had been melancholy for many days heart. She came to the train station with Lu Xiaohui and two other girls. The place was already crowded with people like ants moving house.As people crowded into the train station, she imitated Lu Xiaohui and took out her student ID of Beijing Experimental Girls Middle School, and rushed into the ticket gate in a flash.Ordinary passengers carrying large and small bags mixed with serial students charging forward with their student ID cards, creating a turbulent surge.In the crowd, Lu Minmin's panic, uneasiness, and depression since her home was ransacked by Beiqing University seemed to have faded by half, although the huge shadow could not completely leave her.Yesterday, Lu Xiaohui comforted her after hearing her talk about the ransacking of the house, "Don't think too much about it. Your father hasn't made a final decision yet. What are you afraid of? My father has also received big-character posters in the ministry. Let's do what we do." Let’s connect together.” Lu Xiaohui took out another Red Guard armband from Beijing Experimental Girls Middle School from her pocket, and said, “Here, put it on.” She took it gratefully and put it on her left arm.

The armbands are made of thick red cloth, and when pulled up along the sleeves, there is a kind of friction, which makes her very warm from the wrist through the elbow to the upper arm.She felt that she had joined an organization, had someone to rely on, that she had not been abandoned in the big family, and even felt that her left arm had a shield covering her whole body.On the way to the platform, she felt the presence of the red armband on her left arm from time to time.It was a very mighty feeling, a feeling of being confident, and a glowing red feeling.In the process of rushing up the stairs to the station platform with the flow of people, she always felt the joy of her whole body.Like a thin deer, she left her home and started to run on the grassy slope by the forest. There was warm wind and there were many happy animals and birds.She started to run more and more confidently. While running, she felt that she was thin and weak, but she also gradually felt that she was getting stronger and could run faster.

They rushed towards the train bound for Shanghai with the surging crowd.A crowd of people crowded in front of the car door, and the car window became a temporary door. Many students simply climbed in through the window.The four of them stood on tiptoe anxiously behind the crowded crowd. Lu Xiaohui saw a few boys climbing into a car window, so she dragged Lu Minmin and the others over.Several boys were about to close the car windows, and Lu Xiaohui quickly waved to them: "Pull us up, we are from the Experimental Girls' High School." The boys who were closing the windows smiled friendly, and raised the half-closed windows again .Two pairs of black and thin arms stretched out from the car window. Lu Xiaohui pushed Lu Minmin and said, "You go first." Lu Minmin raised her hand to the boys, and in the panic and excitement of climbing was pulled through the window.She almost fell into the arms of the boys, and the friction with the boys' faces and the mutual infection of their breath brought her a beautiful feeling that she would never forget.She was panting happily, feeling her face was burning, and then she stretched out her hands together with those boys. This feeling of solidarity on and off the bus made her fully appreciate the joy of youth.The last one to come up was Lu Xiaohui, she was smiling happily, her big eyes were shining brightly, countless hands stretched down to pull her up in a lively and chaotic way, and then the boys put down the car window , Ignoring the people knocking on the window and shouting outside.

These are students from the No. 3 Boys Middle School, also four, four plus four, sitting face to face on a three-seater seat, very affectionate.The carriage was full of people, and the aisle was also full of people. When the train started, Lu Minmin felt that the fiery atmosphere in the carriage was growing happiness.Some of the four boys talk a lot and some talk less, but they are all very enthusiastic, with intimacy and straightforwardness in their eyes.Lu Xiaohui's bright round face was smiling, and she talked to the boys openly, while Lu Minmin remained relaxed amidst her shyness.The eyes of the boys often glanced at her, and there were other meanings hidden in the intimacy and happiness in those eyes, which Lu Minmin could vaguely feel.She felt that the smile she lowered her eyes was very happy, and she could feel the heat on her face. She usually blushed, and she must be blushing now.

As the train swayed slightly across the fields, the aisles were full of people swaying, and someone kept nudging her.They were all rowdy male and female students.This kind of crowding also brought her a fiery feeling of uniting and fighting as a family.A boy in a yellow military uniform stood beside her all the time, and every time he was pushed over by the crowd and the shaking of the car, the buttons on the military uniform were imprinted on Lu Minmin's cheek.She could feel the smoothness of the buttons, the roughness of the clothes, and even smell the sweat on the other party's body.It also excites her.The neat, monotonous, and serious atmosphere of the girls' middle school was washed away without a trace.This feeling of men and women huddling together like a big mix brings joy to people like the firecrackers of the Chinese New Year.Inexplicably, the preserved fruits sold in the store appeared in front of her eyes, red, green, yellow, all kinds of preserved fruits mixed together, sweet, soft and lively.The girl's school gave her the feeling of a grid book at the moment: it is the same, each character is written in a grid, and there is no change.

In the evening, when the train is speeding on the Beijing-Shanghai line, the carriages are even more crowded.Lu Xiaohui pulled her under the seat and lay down on the floor to sleep.During this night, Lu Minmin had the greatest harvest at the age of fourteen. For the first time, she clearly knew that she was beautiful.This is what Lu Xiaohui told her. It's very fun for two people to lie on the floor, the seats are so dark that they can touch it with your hands.The side of the head is the side of the car, and people's legs and feet can be seen on the left and right sides.The direction of the foot is the aisle, and it is crowded with people even in the dim light.In this low space surrounded by people up and down, left and right, listening to the clang and clang of the train, feeling the bumps of the train under the body, imagining the passing of the train over the dark fields, listening to the noise in the train There was another drowsy and tired noise, two girls huddled together, talking about girls in a low voice, reminiscent of a baby's cradle.

Lu Xiaohui told her that a boy on the opposite side had been looking at Lu Minmin, and she said, "He must have fallen in love with you." Lu Minmin lay on his back in the darkness, staring at the darkness in front of him with a slight smile, gently holding his hands. Touching her chest, she said, "Why does he like me? Why does he like me?" Lu Xiaohui also lay on her back comfortably, put her hands on her chest, and said, "Because you look good." Lu Minmin immediately felt numbness all over her body like an electric shock, and even the back of her neck was hot.She couldn't believe this kind of thing, and asked: "How can I look good?" Lu Xiaohui turned around, resting her head on one arm, looked at Lu Minmin, and said: "You are pretty, don't you Don't you know that you look good?" Lu Minmin shook his head in the dark.She really doesn't know, all she knows is that since elementary school, because she was tall and slender, she always stood in the last line in the class, and many boys in the class were shorter than her, which not only did not make her superior, but made her feel inferior .In the six years of elementary school, no boy had passed a note to her.Later, she gradually grew plumper, and the height of boys of the same age gradually surpassed her. Apart from this, she had no other feelings.Lu Xiaohui said: "You are really good-looking. From the moment you came to the experimental girls' high school, I found that you are good-looking. Let me tell you, I say you are good-looking, even in the eyes of men, you are also good-looking. You should know what a girl is." So beautiful." Lu Minmin was in the warmth of incomparable happiness, and this happiness was like the most wonderful dream, making her dizzy.She even had to really think about whether this was a dream.

Lu Xiaohui showed the friendliness and enthusiasm of a mature girl. Lying on her back, she described and analyzed Lu Minmin's beauty. Obviously she was willing to show her ability to describe and analyze. The mood to listen to every word.Lu Minmin felt that the two girls lying together and talking about such a topic was the most beautiful moment in their lives.Lu Xiaohui said: "Your figure is very good, slender, and your figure will grow better with age. Your skin is not white, but slightly dark but very shiny, with an oriental charm. Your hair is very good, not only black, but also elastic, it is beautiful hair, if you wear it, it must be very beautiful. Your eyes are very feminine, and they are full of emotion and expressive, which is the kind of melancholic beauty. Anyway, you There is something very charming about her." Lu Xiaohui paused for a while and asked, "Do you understand what I said?"

Lu Minmin felt that her eyes were shining in the darkness, illuminating the dark space.In the light, she saw that her beautiful face was burning red, and she also felt that her body reflected the girl's curves.Pressing against the train floor, she felt that her back was still relatively thin, her shoulder blades were a little painful from the floor, and her arms were relatively thin. However, she felt the slenderness of her body, the fullness of her buttocks, and the Bring out the elasticity of the two thighs.When the train was jolting, she felt that the girl's breasts and ribs were still slightly protruding, but a pair of breasts had already swelled. With the jolting of the train, the breasts were also trembling, which made her feel the volume, weight and strength of the breasts. elasticity.She observed her face in reverie, and couldn't help licking her lips with her tongue.At this moment, she realized that her face was indeed smooth and beautiful, and her eyes always contained a kind of melancholy beauty when she was smiling or not.She was immersed in the experience and imagination of her own beauty.

Lu Xiaohui asked again: "Did you understand my analysis?" She turned her head again, leaned on her hand and said to Lu Minmin: "You must know that you are beautiful, you must know that you are good-looking. People live a lifetime, even It would be too stupid not to know this, understand?" Lu Xiaohui grabbed her hand and shook it.Lu Minmin smiled shyly in the dark, turned over and lay prone on the floor.Because I was not careful, I even touched my head on the seat.She said blushingly and happily: "I never knew, really." "What about now?" Lu Xiaohui also turned around and lay down on the floor, with her head resting on her arm and asked.Lu Minmin suddenly felt a wave of happiness surge up from the lower part of her body, her face and head were throbbing with heat, she leaned close to Lu Xiaohui's ear, and said softly: "Understood." Lu Xiaohui said: "You I have to thank you." Lu Minmin kissed Lu Xiaohui on the cheek, then leaned on his arm embarrassingly, and said with a hot face: "Thank you so much." The two lay there, eyes Shining brightly in the dark, while looking at the eyes, while thinking about things related to girls.

After a while, Lu Xiaohui asked: "Has no one in your family ever told you that you are beautiful?" Lu Minmin shook her head, "No." Lu Xiaohui asked: "Don't you have three older sisters?" Lu Minmin lay there thinking for a while, and said, "They never said I was beautiful, and they always beat me when I was young." "Why?" Lu Xiaohui asked.Lu Minmin said, "I don't know." The two fell into a moment of silence, listening to the bumpy train speeding by.Lying on the floor like this, you can feel more clearly the movement of the train's iron wheels spinning rapidly on the rails and hitting the gap between the rails.They felt their bodies merge with the train, could feel the train passing over the vast plains in the darkness, the villages and woods in the darkness.Especially when the train passed the large and small bridges, the rumbling and empty vibrations and echoes made them feel the width of the river bed below and the turbulence of the river.In the turbulence of the train, they felt the life of the train and also the life of the vast land in the darkness.At this moment, Lu Minmin thought of a rainy night. That day, when the second sister came back, she found that the cat at home was missing, and immediately beat her severely.She still remembers the angry expression of the second sister.At that time, she was stronger than her mother. She was not allowed to cry after beating her, and she was not allowed to tell her parents.She thought about it, and told Lu Xiaohui about the incident when she was a child. She said, "I was very afraid of my sisters when I was young, especially the second and third sisters." Lu Xiaohui was silent for a while, and said, "I don't have any older sisters. Brother. They never hit me." Lu Minmin suddenly turned her head curiously in the dark, and asked, "Is Lu Xiaolong your elder brother?" Lu Xiaohui said, "Yes." "Is he nice to you?" Lu Minmin asked. "Okay." Lu Xiaohui replied.Lu Minmin asked again: "Is he quite thoughtful?" Lu Xiaohui thought for a while and replied: "He is a person who dares to act." Lu Minmin asked again: "What kind of person is he?" Lu Xiaohui smiled in the dark and said: "I will let you You will know when you meet him." Lu Minmin stared in front of him in the dark, lost in reverie. As soon as you leave the entrance of Shanghai Railway Station, there are Red Guards guarding you, and your Beijing student ID card becomes your passport.At the second pass, the Red Guards in Shanghai asked everyone about their backgrounds one by one, and Lu Xiaohui said, "We are all the children of revolutionary cadres." A round-faced female Red Guard said loudly, "Welcome to Shanghai to join the revolution. " They walked through the high-rise buildings in Shanghai for a few days, and leaflets fluttered down from the high-rise buildings on both sides like snowflakes.It is more crowded and denser than Beijing, and there is a revolutionary scene in full swing everywhere.They visited the Bund of the Huangpu River, where there are many masts, and went to Tongji University and Fudan University to read the big-character posters twice, and then decided to board the car and head straight for Jinggang Mountain.During the few days in Shanghai, Lu Minmin felt that she had entered a strange and fresh world.There is no Beijing Kuanzhan here, instead of horizontal lines, there are more vertical lines of high-rise buildings.The distance between the walls here is narrower, the people here are busier, the sky here is more fragmented, and the slogans here are denser in the air.What really made her happy was that she had arrived in a new world that had nothing to do with her past.There are no memories of childhood or family here, and she cannot imagine the faces of her sisters. This is the first paradise she stepped into after she realized that she was beautiful.When a girl realizes she's beautiful, she sees the world in a whole new light.She likes the crowdedness of Shanghai, the hustle and bustle of Shanghai, the small space between high-rise buildings in Shanghai, and the soft language of Nei Nong in Shanghai dialect. She became a dizzy, silly girl who ran around. . Because she knew she was beautiful, she kept finding herself beautiful.The four students from Beijing No. 3 Boys' Middle School had long been separated from them, and now no matter where they read the big-character posters, people would pay attention to her.With this feeling, everything in front of you has a particularly happy taste.Shanghai is really a buzzing, happy hornet's nest. They boarded the train to Jiangxi again, it was just as crowded again, they climbed in and out of the windows, and the aisles were full of people.There were also crowds of people at both ends of the carriage, by the doors and in the toilets.It's like piles of carrots stuffed in a big basket, shaking and shaking, the carrots are worn out.She wandered to Nanchang in a trance like a dream.Here, I also read the big-character posters on the street all over the sky.He ran to the Jiangxi Provincial Party Committee Building and rushed to the Provincial Party Committee with the local Red Guards, shouting slogans that shook the sky.The feeling of rushing into the Provincial Party Committee Building like a tidal wave was really exciting, and she could feel the joy of rushing forward when the red guards, men and women, chanted slogans frantically and rushed forward.Nanchang City has also become a revolutionary city where leaflets are flying all over the sky. They waved their Beijing student ID cards, which were unimpeded, and came to Ji'an City without spending a penny.Going forward, you will go straight to Jinggang Mountain, the holy place of revolution. Ji'an is a small city with a population of over 100,000. There is still a gap between the Cultural Revolution here and Beijing.At the gates of the prefectural and municipal party committees, the rebels were blocked by a dense contingent of conservatives.Lu Xiaohui said: "Let's rush here first, and then go to Jinggang Mountain." As the first batch of Beijing Red Guards to arrive in Ji'an City, they immediately became the target of crowds of local rebel students.In the name of the Red Guards of Beijing Experimental Girls Middle School, they took to the streets and posted big slogans such as "Bombard the Ji'an District Committee" and "Bombard the Ji'an City Committee". slogan.For a time, both sides of the streets in Ji'an City and the gates of the prefectural and municipal party committees were covered with large slogans of Beijing Experimental Girls' Middle School.Now, not only Lu Xiaohui has become the central figure who often gives speeches on the street, but Lu Minmin also gave a speech in the crowd with a radiant face. When she stood on a high place and faced thousands of faces, she felt that she was taller, taller and stronger than before. Under their instigation, the rebel students in Ji'an City began to attack the conservative line of defense in front of the prefectural and municipal committees.Thousands of people had a physical collision here, and Lu Minmin rushed in the first row.The crowd at the back hugged her, and the rows of people in front blocked her. She rushed over like a wave in the tide, and those burly workers and thin students were barely supporting her.She turned sideways, using her arms and shoulders as a collision shield. Amidst the shouting of slogans, she could feel the surge of the rebel trend, as well as the conservative line of defense trying their best to resist.This kind of elastic collision and crowding made her feel the excitement and pleasure bursting out from the depths of her life.She was already drenched in sweat, and she had only one thought, which was to rush forward. Finally, the flood broke through the dam, they rushed in, and a steady stream of people poured into the compound.This seemingly small courtyard was quickly filled with a noisy crowd, and there was a slack boil.Panting, she brushed her sweaty hair, looking for a new rebellion.She stroked her hair to the sides, and realized her beauty for a moment, and a gleam of happiness surged in her heart.Lu Xiaohui came over and asked, "You didn't get hurt, did you?" She shook her head happily.Lu Xiaohui glanced at her and said, "You have changed." She lowered her eyes and thought for a moment, then said cheerfully, "I really love the Cultural Revolution." At this moment, her only regret was that she didn't have a belt around her waist; That way, standing here with your hands on your hips, you will definitely be taller and more energetic. The situation in Ji'an City took a turn for the worse. Teams of factory workers came out to defend the prefectural and municipal committees, and teams of peasants came from all directions of the countryside carrying poles and shovels into the city to defend the prefectural and municipal committees.Several Beijing Red Guards and local rebel students temporarily retreated to a middle school.The mighty Ganjiang River flows beside Ji'an City, and there is an Bailuzhou in the river. This school is on the Bailuzhou, and they are equivalent to being blocked in the school.Standing on Bailuzhou and watching the conservative parade on the shore, Lu Xiaohui and Lu Minmin felt a fighting atmosphere.Lu Xiaohui decided to rescue soldiers from Beijing. She drew up a telegram to Lu Xiaolong, and a rebel student in Ji'an City swam across the river overnight and sent it to the Ji'an City Post Office.