Chapter 57 6. Curved space

I didn't fall asleep all night when I came back from Mr. Yan's house.He is right, only ask about the result regardless of the process, whoever is responsible to you, you are responsible to whom.This statement sounds a bit like having a milk is a mother, which is completely inconsistent with my principles of life.But breastfeeding is a human survival instinct, who dares to say that he does not take that milk?First is survival, then life. It is too extravagant to talk about life when you are still troubled by the problem of survival, and that is the choice of a saint.I'm mortal, I have desires, and I have a whole bunch of problems to solve.If you don’t want to be strong, I’ve been here for so many years, not to mention that I’ve fallen to such a point, not seeing the meaning of sacrifice is even more frustrating and even despairing.I must urgently start to catch up.

Almost every person who has a chance to improve knows who gave him the opportunity, where is his root, who is responsible for him, and understands why there is such an opportunity.It must have been a long time ago that the widow had had a chance when no one had slept above her.The era of business affairs is over, and the era of personalization has also changed the way power exists.So people know whom to thank and who to repay.They say they are grateful for the training of the organization, but in their hearts they know who to thank and who to repay.Because the benefits are so huge that people dare not even imagine, those who have the right to issue appointment and dismissal letters have become gods. Who else dares to make irresponsible remarks to him?Their sense of holiness is determined by the power in their hands, but they have the feeling that their own wisdom is superior to others, and the people around them continue to strengthen his feeling.In our compound, there is no other choice except to go to Director Ma to fight for resources.Director Ma is the organization, and the organization is Director Ma, especially since Secretary He retired last year.

Dong Liu got up at dawn, ready to take a car to go to work.She has been running without seeing the world for several years, and if she continues to run forever, a fraction of her life will be wasted on the road.Who told me to be worse than Ding Xiaohuai?I lay on the bed and opened my eyes, trying to come up with a clever plan to win by surprise, but I couldn't think of it.All that can be said has been said, and all that can be done has been done.Dong Liu was washing her face, I got up and fried leftovers for her.I first took the urinal to empty, and when I walked to the water room, I found that the urine was frozen and could not be poured out, so I brought it back, poured a little boiling water in, and a smell of urine rushed up with the heat.Dong Liu was combing her hair, glanced at her and said, "Isn't this a human life?" The suites over there have heating, but we don't. The people in the administrative department would not think that the people who live in the tube building are also afraid of the cold.This is how the world is distributed, and there is nothing you can do about it.I went to the water room with the urinal in my hand, thinking that love cannot be married, and once married, I am too familiar with it, and there is no sense of mystery and imagination. When I wake up in the middle of the night to urinate, I just think about the thickness of the urine when I listen to the sound. And state, what poetry and emotion.Dong Liu looked at me after pouring urine, and I felt short of breath, so I shrunk my neck involuntarily.For a man to do this, he might as well stick his head in the urinal and soak to death.Since a wave of accidents, I've stopped doing my self-esteem battles at home.I went out in a fit of anger and had to come back.To start a defensive battle, get outside to charge.The problems outside are solved, and the problems at home will naturally subside.In order to gain self-esteem, I first had to give it up and enter that curved space with a boneless posture, and it took me all these years to understand this truth.Humans are like molluscs in the ocean, parasitic in snail shells, and grow into the shape of conch shells over time.

At nine o'clock in the morning, I said to Yin Yu'e, "It's a little thing." I left.I first went to the chemical industry hall next door to have a look. I ran downstairs and read all kinds of promotional publications carefully, but I didn't find any inspiration.I went to the Department of Education of the Agriculture Department to see it again. I wanted to find someone to talk to, but I didn't know anyone.Passing by the Public Security Bureau and wanting to go in, there are two guards standing at the gate.I saw those people not wearing police uniforms coming in and out, and no one stopped them to ask questions, they crossed the road and walked inside.I was a little guilty at the door, and glanced sideways at the guard, and was stopped: "Who are you looking for?" My heart jumped, as if I had decided that I was here to do something bad, and said, "I...I'm looking for..." The other came over and said, "Which unit is it from?" I said, "Go in and have a look." He immediately said with a downcast face, "I'm asking you which unit is it from, don't you understand?" I took out my work card, and he read it. Said: "Look at the road!" I turned around and left, scolding myself in my heart. "How can you act like a thief if you are not a thief? You are too unqualified, and you can be seen through by others at a glance. How can you make progress?" Crossing the road and seeing the police changing guards, he cursed himself in his heart : "This time I went in again. If I shy away again, it proves that I have no quality at all. Forget about me in this world, give up and concentrate on cultivating a wave. When I grow up, I will fight for my breath." At this time No one forced me with a weapon, but it was more stressful than someone forcing me.So he crossed the road again, his heart was beating, but he walked in casually without squinting.After turning a corner, I raised my arms to make a V shape, and then separated the index and middle fingers of both hands to make two small V shapes to celebrate my victory.I hope this kind of victory has a symbolic meaning, and I muttered: "Don't underestimate me, I still have some quality."

I just ran for a few days in the cold wind without finding any inspiration.Thinking about the achievements of the Department of Health in the past few years, the hospitals below should be second-class, second-class, and third-class, and so many new outpatient buildings and inpatient buildings have been built. Director Ma is indeed not easy.Those buildings are like monuments, and in a few decades, it must be admitted that they were all built in the hands of Comrade Ma Chuizhang, the head of the horse department.I was thinking about this year's Spring Festival when I made up my mind to pay New Year's greetings without fear of sacrifice. Wouldn't it be a waste of an opportunity if I couldn't say a few powerful words?I don't know where to look for the next opportunity.Thinking that the Chinese New Year is less than a month away, my heart aches with anxiety.I gritted my teeth and hated those people again. They thought of everything they should think about, and they didn't leave a gap for the people behind me to sneak in.If you don't think about it, you don't know. After thinking about it, you will know that things are really not that simple.

That night, I went to see Teacher Yan. As soon as Ding Xiaohuai came down on the second floor, I immediately turned around and walked up. Ding Xiaohuai said, "Hey, who are you looking for?" I said, "Is Dong Liu at your house?"He said: "Not here." I went downstairs with him and said, "I took Yibo out after dinner, I thought she took her son to play with Qiangqiang, and Yibo just likes to play with your Qiangqiang. "The hell I was talking like this, I didn't even think about it, I still have a bit of quality.He said, "I didn't come, I didn't come." I patted my head and said, "Where did it go! Where did it go so cold and dark!" Walking towards home, I saw Ding Xiaohuai leaving the compound, and turned around again. After getting back, he knocked on the door twice, and after two more knocks, Teacher Yan opened the door.I told him the situation of the past few days, sighed and said:

"Things are really not simple. You can't find a crack with a magnifying glass. Let me drill it." He said: "If it's simple, I'll wait for your advice. Other people's necks are not knotted with gourds." After discussing for a long time, I still couldn't find a suitable entry point.I thought of Yin Yu'e's husband who has been the deputy director of the accounting and finance department for many years and has not seen any new news, so he often beat around the bush and said strange things. Can we take her into surgery?I wanted to speak out, but I was afraid that Teacher Yan would underestimate me, so I sold the people in the same office at the beginning, which is really too bad.But if you don't sell yourself to others, how can you have a chance?If you are in a hurry, don't care so much.After hesitating, he finally gave up the idea.I said: "The Department of Chemical Industry is turning losses into profits, the Department of Coal Industry is about safe production, and the Department of Public Security is about reducing the incidence of crimes. They all have specific indicators. In today's digital age, numbers speak. Can't think of anything new to do."

He said: "Think about it slowly, if you really can't do it, I will provide you with a few shells, which can knock down a few people." Unexpectedly, he also came to this line of thought.I said, "As a last resort." When he went out, he opened the door a crack, poked his head in, and pouted at me.I flashed out with a "whoosh".