Chapter 7 1. The ray of light in human life

On that hot morning, I walked into the compound of the Provincial Health Department.I am going to report to the department office, and then transfer the relationship to the Institute of Traditional Chinese Medicine.In front of the office building, very strangely, I was attracted by the wisteria in front of the building, so I moved over.The leaves of the wisteria are so dense that the sunlight is almost impenetrable, and the stems are dark green, like veins on the wrists of a girl, growing up in a zigzag manner, and strings of fruit pods hang down, fluffy and cute.Under the shade of the green leaves, the sweat on my body subsided, and my heart became inexplicably light.There was only one young man in the office, writing something.I coughed, and he glanced up at me, then lowered his head again.I had no choice but to say, "Comrade, comrade, I'm here to report." He rolled his eyelids slowly, without raising his head, and said, "Speak up if you have something to say."

I spread the dispatch certificate on the table, and stroked the words "Master of Medicine" with a finger.He glanced sideways, smiled half a smile, and ignored me.I retreated to the sofa, picked up a newspaper, and looked at it, feeling ashamed of my stroke.For a long time, he ignored my intentions, so I had no choice but to go again, took a breath and said slowly: "Comrade, I'm from Beijing. I'm going to the Institute of Traditional Chinese Medicine. I have agreed to accept it." She imitated my voice and said: "Comrade, didn't you see that I was writing materials for Director Ma? Is Director Ma's business more important, or yours? While pinching his hands and five fingers together, he shook his head back and forth and looked at both sides: "Which big , which one is smaller? "

Confused, I grabbed my dispatch certificate and left.Rushing to the door, thinking that this is a test, how can I still have to pass this test, so I had to turn around and ask: "What about you, comrade, when will you be free to send me away?" He took a sip of tea and swallowed it expressively , smacking his lips and said slowly: "Afternoon, OK?" When I went again in the afternoon, the young man jumped up from the chair as if he had been waiting for a long time, as if someone had pressed the mechanism of a mortar, and walked towards the door to meet me, making a gesture of reaching out to hold, I haven't reacted yet, my hand hangs down and doesn't move.When I understood, his hand had already retracted, and he stretched out again, grabbed my hand and shook it vigorously.He put me on the sofa, blew on the floor fan towards me, poured a cup of cold boiled water on the coffee table, and said, "Ding Xiaohuai, you know me now, don't you?"

I just can't remember how the civet cat became the prince.I took out my dispatch card and said, "Let's do it." He said: "Cool down first. Director Liu wants to talk to you. Director Ma ordered it." Ding Xiaohuai introduced himself that he graduated from the University of Medical Sciences the year before last and stayed in the hall. He sighed and talked about the work in the hall. It’s just doing chores, doing it right away, and wasting your time. It’s better to be a doctor or do research.I said: "The hall is the hall. Sharks are bigger than crucian carp after losing their scales. The future is boundless." I raised a finger and poked it up.He shook his head desperately as if trying to shake his head off his neck and said: "The future is bleak, really not at all. My biggest wish is to retire at the sub-departmental level. I don't know if this ideal can be realized."

When Ding Xiaohuai talked to me, he talked about Director Ma.I know Director Ma. Four years ago, 12 students in our class went to the Institute of Traditional Chinese Medicine for internship, and he was the dean at that time.At this time, there was a sound of footsteps outside the door, and Ding Xiaohuai said: "Director Liu is here, let him tell you." As soon as the words fell, a man in his fifties appeared at the door, walked in and walked up to me. in front of.As soon as I stood up, my hand was held.I say: "Hi, Director Liu, hello, Director Liu, good, good." He said: "We know about your situation. It is Director Ma's decision to keep you working in the department. He personally called your name." I was surprised and said, "I wanted to go to the Academy of Traditional Chinese Medicine." He said: "There is also a need for highly educated talents over there, and the hall needs it even more. How about calling it the hall?" Then he turned his head to Ding Xiaohuai: "Is it?" Ding Xiaohuai nodded repeatedly: "Yes, yes , The hall is the hall." Director Liu said: "I called Dean Shu, and I said it was Director Ma." I said, "I may not be able to do administrative work well."

He said: "Who said that? We don't see it that way. Director Ma personally proposed to keep you in the hall, Director Ma." As he spoke, he leaned forward and tapped the coffee table with his right index finger.Director Ma called me to keep me. Could it be that I left a deep impression on him that year?Self-esteem was unexpectedly respected, and I felt warm in my heart.Still unable to turn the corner, I said, "How about I decide tomorrow?" I called Hu Yibing and wanted to discuss it with him. A few years ago, he was assigned to the provincial TV station, where he has been doing the column of "Social Latitude and Longitude".After a while he picked me up in his car and said, "Go to Liu Yuejin." Liu Yuejin teaches at Huazhong University.The three of us went to dinner together, and I told them about keeping me in the living room. Liu Yuejin said, "What's the point of administration? In the end, I don't even have a book for making pillows in my life. It's better to do business. Hu Yibing said: "One doctor, heals one person and heals one person. When you go to the hall, you will stand tall, and the whole province will see it." I said, "That's where the director stands." He said: "Which article in the constitution stipulates that Chi Dawei can't stand up? If you want to do something big, can it be done in a small place?" Liu Yuejin said, "Why are you a postgraduate and someone else's dog leg?" Hu Yibing said:

"Who didn't do it like a dog?" I went to the hall again the next day, but I still hadn't made up my mind. Director Liu said, "Hey, you are late. Director Ma has gone to the provincial government. He originally wanted to personally Let me talk to you." Hearing what he said, I couldn't help but say: "If the hall must ask me to do some chores..." Director Liu immediately said: "Hey, can you still do chores? Manage the whole province, manage policies, and manage prefectures and counties. You are the only graduate student in this compound, the first one! The training target, Director Ma said, the training target!" Ding Xiaohuai agreed: "Of course, of course." Look Not very natural.

I went to the Administration Section to get the room list. Chief Shen looked me up and down and said, "Chi Dawei?" The director himself greeted him." I felt hot in my heart, and felt that it was right for me to stay. The leader thought carefully about me.The house is second, and what is rare is a value.Half of people live in this world to "value" these two words. Otherwise, why pursue success? Section Chief Shen wanted to accompany me to see the house, but I stopped him, and he said, "It is also our responsibility to arrange the new comrades well. Especially like you, we have to show an attitude." Walking on the road, he Introduce me to the situation in the hall: "Although there are only a few hundred people in the yard, the house is tight! Director Ma has been in the hall for several years, and he still lives in the Institute of Traditional Chinese Medicine. He tosses back and forth every day, and he doesn't want to come and squeeze in." Look after others, behave like 38!" Arrived at the single dormitory, went up to the fourth floor, the corridor was dark.Chief Shen touched the switch from somewhere and turned on the light.Residents use the corridor as a kitchen, with tables and coal stoves on both sides, leaving only a narrow passage.I accidentally knocked over something, and it fell to the ground with a "bang". It was a pot with porridge left in it.Into the room I feel good.Quite a big room, already painted.

A ginkgo tree in front of the window makes the room green.Chief Shen said: "There are three vacant rooms. On the first floor, loach can be raised on the ground, and on the sixth floor, fish can be roasted over a fire in hot weather." I went to the guest house to get my luggage, and Chief Shen had to accompany me there. He went downstairs and said, "How many years do you think I've been in this seat?" I said, "Three years." He shook his head and said, "Up." I said, "Maybe five years?" He said : "Can't guess, who can guess? I can't guess myself, eight years! The Eighth Route Army has finished fighting a war of resistance, and I am still sitting here. If I sit for another two or three years, I will be over the age, and the section chief will retire. "I said: "Section Chief, you work hard, we all see it, people's hearts are evaluations." You can see it in your eyes. If ten thousand people say hello to you, it won’t work, you’re still sitting in the old place. After sitting in the old place for a long time, your heart will feel cold and your eyes will turn black. Human life is to live with that ray of light.”

When we arrived at the guest house, Section Chief Shen picked up the suitcase and left. I grabbed it and said, "How can I ask you to carry such a heavy thing? A suitcase of books! It doesn't matter how old you are." The waiter came in and asked me to wait a while, and opened the I signed the ticket even if I settled the bill.Chief Shen looked at me with an air of hesitation.I looked at him and smiled.He said, "Director Ma and you have known each other for a long time, right?" I said, "It's been a few years." He nodded in understanding, "Are you dating Director Ma?" He said with his left and right index fingers hooked together.I shake my head.He said: "Then is your father an old colleague?" He put his two palms together again.I said, "I saw him as an intern four years ago, and I have forgotten what he looks like. I just found out that Director Ma is the director yesterday." He shrugged, shook his head desperately, and said, "How is that possible?" I said : "How is it impossible?" He shook his head again to express his disbelief. Seeing that I was serious, he believed it. He sighed regretfully and said, "Then Director Ma really respects talents?" I said: " I don’t understand either, so what do you think?” He said: “Of course, of course, who said no? No one can say!” After a pause, he clapped his hands and said, “Oops, Oops It's time, I have to go, it's time, it's too late, it's already too late!" He stood up and walked out without turning his head, and said, "I'll help you move it next time!" I watched his shadow flicker , leaving an empty door, he was stunned.

I met Director Ma in the office building on Monday, and I still remember his appearance.I stood there, not knowing whether to go up to greet him, or not to go up.I didn't want to act like I couldn't wait, so I just stood there in a daze.Director Ma walked up the steps, glanced at me and said, "It must be Xiaochi!" I felt very moved at once, because after so many years, he can still recognize me at a glance.I said, "Morning Director Ma." I knew I should say thank you for your concern, but I just couldn't say it.It is enough to be thankful in my heart, but it is vulgar to say that I am grateful.Director Ma said: "Is the house arranged?" I felt a natural opportunity to express my gratitude, but I said: "It's all over." Director Ma walked upstairs and said, "I still have a little impression of you. As soon as I saw your name, I dug it from President Shu." I felt another chance, I should show a gesture of this kind of esteem, and the words came out of my mouth, "Director Ma values ​​me so much, it is also because of our destiny, I will do something for the hall in a down-to-earth manner in the future, and I will live up to Director Ma's promise." Concern." But the words were still in my mouth, but I couldn't say them, I just nodded mechanically and said, "Thank you, Director Ma." I felt that these words were too weak, without strength, which meant that I didn't say anything, and I didn't ask for directions. Gotta say thank you. The three desks in the office lined up from the window to the door, and the one next to the window belonged to Director Liu.Director Liu told me the day before yesterday that Yuan Zhenhai was transferred to the Medical Administration Department as the deputy director, and his desk belongs to me, which is the one in the middle.Seeing Ding Xiaohuai sitting there calmly, I pulled the drawer to give him a hint, but the drawer was locked.Ding Xiaohuai said: "That's yours." He pointed back with his hand.Why did the table move after a Sunday?Looks like he didn't have an idle weekend.The arrangement of the tables is also a bit interesting, the light by the window is good and the ventilation is good, of course it belongs to Director Liu, and they are arranged according to their status.Speaking of which, it is the same to work where you sit, but the position of the seat is different, and the feeling is different. This small difference can bring a lot of difference, even a big difference. At least in people's impression, who is in the You can tell from here who is behind.Thinking that Ding Xiaohuai is such a person who wants to dig into the horns, looking at the back of his head, the more you look at it, the more it is not pleasing to the eye, and I always feel that there is something wrong that I can't explain.I, Chi Dawei, haven't degenerated to the point where I want to argue with him over this trivial matter.Ding Xiaohuai stood up, shook the thermos, and glanced at me. I stood up involuntarily and said, "I'm going to fetch water, I'll go." When I went downstairs, I felt a lump in my heart. Let's not talk about academic qualifications, I'm still taller than him How about one term, what qualifications does he have to order me?And I hated myself for being too soft-hearted, so I just sat still and pretended not to understand, and he killed me for meat?Once you take over in this way, you can't take it off.Carrying two bottles of water is exhausting, but the look in his eyes is too ugly.At this time, Ding Xiaohuai also brought two thermos bottles to fetch water, needless to say, they belonged to the office of Director Ma next door.Bringing boiling water is also divided into high and low?ridiculous!I don't believe Director Ma will treat him differently because of these two bottles of boiled water. I went back upstairs and Director Liu has already arrived.He said, "Have you turned on the water? it is good. After he said that, I will take over the job from now on. I patted the table next to me and said, "I'm sitting here?" " I hoped that he would talk and turn the table over. He said: "Why, changed?" He smiled again and said: "Forget Xiaochi, forget it." I had no choice but to forget it. After I sat down, I found that the floor fan that was placed by my desk just now had been taken by Ding Xiaohuai to my desk.I find it ridiculous.Is this another bargain?Thinking of taking it in this way, he took out a kind of meaning, he doesn't take me seriously, otherwise he would dare?I scolded a "little person" in my heart, and then thought that if I care about him at this level, what would I become?Disdain!I cocked the corner of my mouth and spit out these words lightly: "Disdain!" The voice was so soft that only my heart could feel it.I don't think there is any value in worrying about these chicken assholes, but I still feel like I have a chicken bone stuck in my heart.Ding Xiaohuai dared, but he did!