Chapter 6 I will be a woman tomorrow

tomorrow. Tomorrow is the big dream day for me when they will cut that "stuff" out of me and make me a real woman. To be honest, that thing has been carried around for twenty-five years, and it has always been cumbersome and unattractive.Great to finally get rid of it. The psychiatrist gave me the last advice: "Joey, don't be impulsive. Do you understand? After the operation, everything is irreversible. Are you determined? Are you mentally prepared to accept criticism from the outside world... If you have a little regret Yes, then we can wait for a while." I looked at this earnest doctor, hey, really, this is my own thing, I can deal with it as I like.There are many people in the world who always accept without complaint, just like a waste plastic bag floating on the sea, they can't even care about themselves.This kind of person is definitely not me.

This incident has no effect on the whole of Hong Kong and the whole world. Even if everyone treats it as a joke, I laugh at our cowardice. It's just a small operation, I have all the accurate information, and it takes less than an hour to remove everything. Wow, uprooted, without looking back.Then install an artificial vagina for me, and you're done.I also don't mind them videotaping the operation process for future reference, because I want to make the majority of "sisters" understand: Enduring a little pain can lead a happy life.Has that woman never experienced this little pain?Dr. Jiang, who gave me a body check and observed me for half a year, also said to me very seriously: "After sex change, you have no uterus, no ovaries, women's organs are not complete, and the vagina is also artificial. You can create love , but could not conceive."

Of course, this is my regret.I couldn't even enjoy the lazy few days when menstruation came, and I was justifiably considerate.And Joseph won't bother me. I began to miss him on the bed in the intensive care unit of the "Orthopedic Department" in Block C of the surgery department on the sixth floor.I bite into the apple he brought me at four o'clock this afternoon.Before the visiting time came, he was already waiting outside the door, bringing my favorite apple—Eve’s favorite apple was also my favorite. When he came in, because the ward was not isolated, he saw two journalist-like objects trailing in, about to hold up the camera to take pictures.These two bitches!I didn't want them to take pictures, so I covered my face and got angry and asked the head nurse to drive me out.

Who would have thought that they would persevere and say, "XX, I don't believe we can't find the material, we have a cable", it's unreasonable, someone must have collected black money and exposed my life experience.I don't agree, if a big hospital, how can it leak the patient's information casually.Come to think of it, even that bitch dad doesn't know I'm lying here.I told them that I took a 7-day holiday to travel to Kyushu, Japan. Hehe, they only learned the truth when I returned to Hong Kong from "Kyushu". Hmph, this is old and unrefined. After all three of my sisters got married, they urged me to get married all day long, so that I could have a grandson as soon as possible, and follow the incense lamp.He also said that I was the only child, and that God Chengluo was going to rely on me for the main card.

The most recent job, which is very comfortable, is washing hair in Feifei Hair Salon.He looked down on me, but he was willing to subsidize my dating. I also tried dating.Ding Dong is an F3 girl from a private school in Shamshuibu. She is passionate, and every time she goes to the midnight show, she will tear my trousers and insult me. Meijuan is a female worker in an electronics factory. She is good at playing gentle, and she can't make a dull fart with three punches. Ai Mei is the most beautiful. She is a cosmetics lady in a department store in Kwai Chung.Once I went to her company unexpectedly after finishing work, and suddenly saw her grabbing a customer and smearing unknown cosmetics on her face in a very rude manner.If the man didn't buy it, she would say that her skin was rough and chaffy, and scold her with the Three Character Classic.The customer was humiliated and ran away red-eyed, but Ai Mei was complacent.

Since then, I don't like this bitch anymore.I was too old to see that I kept dragging and procrastinating, burning with anger: "Call him to die, he is not a man at all"! Life was miserable—until I fell in love with Yue Zefu. When I first came to Feifei Hairstyle as a shampoo boy, I didn't know anything.Sometimes I heard them say, "Yesterday Deborah's "Altar Grass" was done well." It turns out that "Hairstyle" is called "Altar Grass".Also, before washing your hair, you need "sorrel".Cutting hair short is called "grass cutting" or "grass tying".Shaving the head is called "catch ants".The troublesome female guest is called "Hua Mo"; the male guest is called "Hua Shan"...and so on.Thanks to Joseph's guidance and attention, not only did I understand all the code words, my work was on track, and many of my regular customers were also played to me by him.

After work was over at 7 o'clock, I washed his hair and massaged him, and he shaved my face.I'm so touched.Because he is the hottest.Many customers who dress up enchantingly and coquettishly would rather wait for two or three hours to have him.I can't see it with envy.I just suffer from "having a handle". I'm so worried, I don't know who to tell.Mom died early, and my stepmother didn't like me.Ever since she gave birth to Zhuzhu, she has even disregarded me. My father is always a daughter, and he only cares about buying him beautiful dresses.On the day she entered kindergarten, she also got a big pink schoolbag and a whole set of Harrogyty stationery.

They are eccentric and treat an "outsider" like a jewel.All are bitches. But I don't worry about being lonely.I have a Qizi, he is the son of Niu Shinai on the second floor. He is four years old this year. When he was born, I just gave him a powder blue blanket.Grandma Niu let me marry him on a whim, and I called him Cowboy. Although the cowboy is called a cowboy, he is not a cowboy at all. His pink face is completely red, and his eyes are as black as lacquer. I have never seen such a black eyeball. beloved.As soon as I was free, I took the cowboy into my room and dressed him up for appreciation.

I bought a set of cosmetics, including mask cream, skin cream, lip gloss, eye shadow, antiperspirant, cologne, and blush rouge.If you buy a set, you will get a pink hand bag, which is more beautiful than Zhuzhu's.When I added to the cowboy's face and taught him to squint his eyes, suddenly, the door was kicked open roughly, "You poor boy, what the hell are you doing?" It turned out that the cowboy had sued my father and exposed my deeds . She snatched the cowboy away and kept cursing, "Dead ladyboy, sick ladyboy, psychopath who harms people and things..." My father was so angry that he picked up something frantically, threw it on my back, and scolded fiercely, "I really didn't cultivate in my previous life, so go to hell, so I won't be wronged, and treat me like I never gave birth to you!"

In the end, he also cried, and cried very badly, like a dog with a hair loss.I also cried. —He doesn't understand me.He doesn't understand me. He burst into tears, jumped up suddenly, and slammed a chair on my hand. There was a burst of numbness and severe pain, and he almost passed out. The tears were still wet, I went to see the doctor alone... Although he was cured, but every rainy day within a month, he still had a dull pain, and he often visited the doctor, and became acquainted with the doctor.He was about forty years old and taciturn.When he knew that I was injured by my father, he also sympathized with me.If I have a close relative, I will trust it completely.

On a light rainy morning, I was the first patient, seeing him idle, and the coolness in the air made me inexplicably sad, I quietly told him "I want to be a woman" He is used to the world, not showing the slightest surprise, and chatting with me.Listen to the secrets of my heart. Later, I begged him to give me female hormone injections, but he refused, and I burst into tears at his clinic.I begged him to "doctor, save me", but he couldn't resist, and finally he gave me my way.Initially, injections are given every three months, and the charge is around 100 yuan. Later, it failed, and I patronized him almost every month. I also buy birth control pills and placenta at the small pharmacy in Mong Kok.Day by day, I "developed".I'm well developed, with the most satisfying breasts, swelling and bouncy.I still wear men’s clothes to work during the day, and at night I happily change into a set of flesh-colored bust and small triangle pants. Lactogen, later she simply didn't wear a bra, and only wore a T-shirt, and she stood up with ups and downs. I don't know how proud it is to attract men's attention.Haven't been so happy in twenty-five years.Gradually, the nearby residents began to pay attention to me. It is believed that the bitch Niu Shinai spread the word, and the bitch my father scolded the street unscrupulously, and the bitch stepmother didn't let me get close to Zhuzhu after taking office, so everyone knew about it.Come peek at me often.Now that he has gone all out, he doesn't mind anymore. The figure is so good, the waist is only twenty-four inches, which makes me proud. Seeing those women with taxis, who look like Snoopy in profile, I cover my mouth and snicker. Sometimes, I also like to put on makeup and powder, and even a touch of blush, which is pretty and lovely.To avoid unsightly body hair, I also use new depilatory paper on the market, stick it on the armpit or calf, sweep it evenly and tear it hard, and the hair will fall off with the paper.Clean, quick, not painful at all, and much better than cream or hot wax.Dressed up properly, when I go to the street, Beng Zaiqiang, who is crowded in the street, will be fascinated by my eyes. I like to ask him "how is it today?" He looks up and down, and says "normal." , Go back immediately and change clothes again.He also carefully waxed his hair with Moss, twisted a few bangs, and hung them on his forehead in a careless manner, sprayed with water, and then exposed them. It wasn't until he couldn't help but also praised me that I was beautiful, then he walked away, hum, it's good to annoy this bitch to death.Last month, my dad told me seriously, "Your aunt came back from New York to visit relatives, and we went to eat stuffed duck. You will be there that day, you know?" He hasn't talked to me for a long time. I don't want my aunt to know the unhappiness between us.I lazily replied "Okay". He didn't make a sound anymore, turned around and left, but turned back immediately, and ordered sternly, "Dress normally, don't go out of your way. There will be no rumors about your family scandal. You remember to put on men's clothes." I was not happy with his tone, As if I were heinous.I didn't break the law, and I didn't infringe on the freedom of others. The "family scandal" really hurt my self-esteem.I turned my face away and said "I can wear whatever I like". He was shaking with anger again.Every time he looked at me face to face, he was so angry that he was like a chimney, emitting black smoke and shaking non-stop. Never a good face.Makes me emotional and nervous.It is necessary to clenched fists and forcibly calm down.As soon as I clenched my fist, my injured hand will ache?What kind of father-son relationship is this?So sad!He almost pointed at my eyes, "Then you don't want to go, I'll tell my aunt that you're gone and you won't come back. I've been raising it for 25 years in vain, and I'm blind without eye feces." I fell down on the bed. Fortunately, Joseph has always been so kind to me. He loves me like a wife.I entrusted all my joys and sorrows to him. Every time before he wants me, I will cook him a good meal, and I will make beef brisket soup to make him more powerful. But, who knows if it will last forever? I'm afraid of changing my mind.I'm afraid that the color will fade and the love will relax.So many sluts, who always discharge to him, automatically paste.If he doesn't want me, what hope do I have? I have been betrayed by all relatives and have no place to stand.Every time I catch a glimpse of his handsome face, I must be struggling inside.Ah, autumn fan sees donation, will I become an autumn fan?I have ups and downs at night, and I can't sleep without drinking. I also tested the authenticity of his love.Walked to the opposite side of the hair salon, called him, and acted like a baby in a high-pitched voice, "Yoseph, you don't know who I am, I like you very much, I wait for you on the street corner every day to finish work, and I come home after seeing you, I don't even do my homework." did not do. ...Who, you don't need to pay attention, are you willing to see me?I promise you anything.... "——he didn't sternly refuse, he didn't! It can be seen that he was still not firm enough. I was very distressed, and put the receiver on the phone in a panic. At night, I played a record and listened to a song by Leslie Cheung, called "The Unguy Wind".At this moment, I made up my mind to go back to the government hospital to apply for sex change.Can't lose him, can't lose my identity, lose my self-esteem.Empty body, full of love, yes, I long for "new life". I don't call Joey anymore, although it's also a unisex name.I will change my name to "Ai Mei", and I will know how to love and love Mei better than all the Ai Mei in the world.tomorrow.Ah, I can't wait. Tomorrow, I must ask him "Do I look like a woman". A drop of clear tear slowly and softly hangs on the side of the cheek.