Chapter 33 33

Juehui went to see Juemin the next afternoon and told her brother about Mei's ending, which brought some tears to Juemin's eyes.The two of them talked for less than an hour.When Juehui left to go home, Juemin sent him to the gate.Juehui had already stepped over the threshold, when Juemin suddenly called him from behind. "What else do you need?" Juehui walked back and asked. Juemin just looked at him with a kind smile and didn't speak for a while. Juehui seemed to understand, and said kindly, "Second brother, do you feel lonely here? ... I know you must feel lonely. I do too. No one in my family understands me. As soon as Huang Ma came into the house, she would ask When she thinks of you and mentions you, she sheds tears. Otherwise, I will be entangled by my sister-in-law. Mom, sister-in-law, second younger sister, and third younger sister often hold me back and ask for news about you. But their hearts are like mine. Heart, your heart is far away. I am all alone at home. But I must endure, and you must endure. You will surely win."

"But I'm a little scared..." Juemin only said this part of the sentence.His eyes suddenly lit up, and there were tears in them. "What are you afraid of? You will definitely win," Juehui encouraged with a smile. "I'm afraid of being lonely! My heart is very lonely!" "Aren't there two hearts that resonate with yours?" Juehui said while trying to maintain a smile. "It is precisely because there are two hearts so close to mine that I often want to see you. It is not convenient for her to come. Now you are gone again. . . . "

Juehui knew that her eyes were wet too, but she didn't want her brother to see her, so she looked away from her brother's face, pretended to look elsewhere, and patted her brother on the shoulder and said, "Second brother, be patient. You You will definitely win. You can always endure these days," he was interrupted by another voice just as he said this.Huang Cunren stood next to them with a smile, and said calmly: "Why don't you talk inside? Don't be too careless." Juehui replied: "I'm going back." He greeted Huang Cunren, then turned and left.He also heard Huang Cunren say later: "Then let's go inside and talk."

Juehui said to himself on the road: "We will definitely win." But in his heart, he thought painfully: "Is it really possible to win? When will victory come?" Until he entered Qin's house, He said decisively: "We can't control this much now, we must fight to the end no matter what." He saw his aunt first, and then went to Jane's room.When he saw Qin, he said at the first sentence: "I came from my second brother, and he asked me to tell you that he is fine." Qin was writing a letter, quickly put down her pen and said with a smile: "Thank you, thank you. Look, I am writing to him."

"Needless to say, I'm the messenger again," Juehui said with a smile.He accidentally caught a glimpse of the three words "Cousin Mei" on the letter paper, and it seemed that there were still a few places left, so he asked: "Did you tell him about Cousin Mei? I have already told him. About Cousin Mei's death, you What's your opinion?" "I said in the letter that I would never be the second Sister Mei no matter what, and my mother would never let me do it. She told me in person. She saw the situation behind Sister Mei and the tragedy of Aunt Qian yesterday, and she also agreed. I was very touched. She said she was willing to help me." Qin said, showing a determined and happy expression, and her face was not as haggard as it was a few days ago.

"Okay, he should have known about this news earlier," Juehui said, and urged Qin to finish writing the letter.The two talked a little more. Juehui went to Juemin again and gave Qin's letter to Juemin.Juemin was having a good time talking with Huang Cunren.Jue Hui also joined their hopeful conversation.After nearly an hour, he returned home and was about to see his grandfather when he saw a few people standing on the stone steps under his grandfather's window, stretching their necks and listening to something.In the Gao family, such things are common.Juehui thought: "Leave it alone." He walked into the main room and was about to lift the curtain of the grandfather's room when he suddenly noticed a woman's voice crying, it was the voice of the fifth aunt.Then came the grandfather's scolding and coughing again.

"I said that one day there will be tricks for us to show," Juehui said to herself.He didn't open the door curtain anymore. "Get him back for me at once, and watch me punish him! . . . It really pissed me off!" said the grandfather in a trembling, angry voice from the room, followed by another cough.Fifth Aunt's sobs were mixed with his coughing. Keming's voice answered "yes" one after another.A few minutes later, the door curtain moved, and Keming came out blushing.At this time, Juehui had already walked out of the main room. One of the people eavesdropping under her grandfather's window was Shuhua. When she saw Juehui, she came over and asked, "Third Brother, do you know about Fifth Dad?"

"I knew it a long time ago," Juehui nodded.He asked Shuhua in a low voice: "How would they know?" He pushed his mouth toward his grandfather's room. Shuhua began to show off and said the following: "The fifth father begged for his aunt outside and rented a small mansion. No one in the family knew about it. He took all the gold and silver jewelry that the fifth aunt brought as a dowry, saying it was borrowed. Playing for others, he didn’t come back for a long time. Fifth Aunt questioned him, but he always hesitated. Later, Fifth Aunt asked urgently, so he said that he lost it. He was not at home all day for the past two months. It was very easy to come back. Aunt Wu was busy playing cards all day, so she didn’t suspect anything. Aunt Wu occasionally found a picture of a woman in his pocket yesterday morning, and asked him who it was, but he refused to say. It happened that Aunt Wu arrived in the afternoon Going shopping in the mall, I met a woman sitting in Father Wu's sedan chair, getting off the sedan chair at the gate of the mall, and Gao Zhong was still following behind. Today she found a chance to keep Gao Zhong at home and forced him to tell the truth about five things. About Dad. Gao Zhong really told the truth. Some of the jewelry that Dad took, some of them were sold as pawns, and some were given to the new aunt. Only then did Aunt Wu go to tell Grandpa.  … Dad’s new aunt is a Whore, what's it called 'Monday'..."

Shuhua was talking slowly, as if once she opened her mouth, she would never be able to close it.Juehui was not at all surprised by what she described.And he knew more than she did. He once saw Fourth Uncle go to the "Jinling High Apartment" with his own eyes.He knew that this big empty family was going down the road of decline day by day.No force can hold it.Grandpa's efforts were useless, and neither was anyone's.Even my grandfather himself has already embarked on this path of perdition.It seemed that he was the only one standing at the intersection leading to the light.Once again he has an exaggerated sense of his own moral strength over this extended and crumbling family.Enthusiasm inspired him, and he felt that his heart had never been so excited as it was today.He believed that the so-called struggle between father and son was coming to an end, that those struggles for the rights to liberty, love, and knowledge would no longer have a tragic end.Mei's era is about to be completely wiped out and give way to another new era, which is Qin's era, or more can be said to be Xu Qianru's era, that is, the era of him and Juemin.The power of this generation of youth is by no means something that the corrupt, fragile, and even evil old family can resist.Victory is certain, and no force can take it away from them.He has such confidence.He gave a jerk, as if to throw off the burden of years of pain from his shoulders.He looked around with proud, hateful eyes, and thought, "Just wait and see, your end is coming."

Naturally, Shuhua didn't understand his mood. Seeing that Juehui didn't answer, as if she wasn't interested in what she said, she walked away quietly.She hurried to the main room, and stood at the door of her grandfather's room, peeking in secretly. Juehui returned to her room.Soon he caught a glimpse of Keming coming back with Keding from the window.Then there was scolding in the grandfather's room, and it was obviously the grandfather who was scolding Keding. "Leave it alone!" he thought again.The scolding seemed to have stopped.There were many people running around under the window, and it seemed that something unexpected had happened. "I said that everyone in our family loves to watch tricks," Juehui said to herself.

There was a voice calling outside.Men and women ran angrily. "Go and see, grandpa is going to beat dad five!" A child ran by under the window, stopped when he met a person walking towards him, and said this excitedly.This child is Jue Qun. "Then what are you doing running out?" It was Jueying who asked. "I'll ask my sixth brother to come and see him!...Father dad will be beaten for such a big man!" Juequn said with a smile, and ran out immediately. "Such a big person will be beaten," this sentence aroused Juehui's curiosity.He walked out of the room to the main room.There were four or five women standing at the door of my grandfather's room, and they were bending over to peek inside through the gap in the curtain.He didn't want to be caught between them, so he walked from the main room to the window again.Many people stood on the stone steps, listening to the speeches of the people in the room. A few others knelt on the two chairs under the window, pressed their faces to the window paper, and peeped through the small hole to see what was going on inside. No sound of boards was heard, no one was being beaten. "You are such a big man, and your daughter is not young, and she still doesn't learn well! You don't set a good example for Zhen'er! Zhen'er, you shame him, seeing how shameless he is, he is worthy of being your father!" Juehui couldn't help laughing secretly when she heard her grandfather's scolding. The old man coughed twice, and after a moment of silence, he suddenly cursed loudly again: "Such a shameless thing! You read as far as the belly of a cow! How could you do such a shameful thing: take your wife's jewelry with you?" You cheated and sold it. I give you three days to get it back!" He cursed some more words, and finally said: "You bastard, I think you are smart since you were young, and you have some preferences for you. I didn't expect you to do such a thing. Shameless thing. Tell yourself, how can you be worthy of me? You deceive me! I still treat you as a good boy. You, you bastard! You still don’t slap me! Do it yourself! " "Father, my son knows that he is wrong. Please forgive my son for his first offense this time, and he will never dare to do it again next time," Keding begged in a pitiful voice. "No, I won't forgive you! I want you to slap yourself in the mouth!" The old man slapped the table and roared angrily. So the sound of meat and meat colliding began, very crisp, the sound of hands hitting the cheek.Inspired by curiosity, Juehui walked into the main room again, went to the door of her grandfather's room, said in a low voice, "Let me see", and gently pushed away Shuhua who was bending over and looking through the crack in the door curtain. , I approached the door frame and looked inside carefully. Keding knelt there upright, and slapped himself on the cheek with both hands.His long, fair, delicate face was flushed from the beating.He still kept hitting.He felt ashamed of himself for doing this in front of his wife and daughter. "Stop beating!" the old man ordered.Keding immediately took his hand from his face. "Let me ask you, do you know where your food, clothing, and use come from?" the old man asked. "It's all from Dad," Keding replied. "Then do you know how to sit and eat the mountain? Beast, who will you support me when I die?" The old man became more and more angry, and ordered: "Hit me again! Hit me hard!" So Keding raised his hand again and hit his face. This kind of humiliating behavior still couldn't satisfy the old man, the old man continued to scold, and finally asked Keding to tell him how he met some bad friends in three or four months, went on the wrong path, and had a relationship with private prostitutes ; how he organized a small mansion, how he cheated his wife's jewelry and sold it as a pawn. Keding told everything without concealment, scolded himself, and even confessed many things that his father had never suspected at all.He said how he used his father's name outside to borrow a lot of debts, so how much he owed someone, and how much he owed someone, reporting the amount one by one, and there were even gambling debts.In the end, he also confessed about Ke'an, saying that he did all this with Ke'an's help, and that Ke'an was also partially responsible for these debts.Anyway, he said everything.This was unexpected by the old man, and it was also unexpected by Juehui. Juehui saw two completely different people in Wushu Keding and elder brother Juemin.Juemin, that 19-year-old youth is surrounded by enemies, but only inspired by a kind of faith and enthusiasm, he can fight against the environment bravely regardless of everything, so that his family members will not treat him Method.Keding, this thirty-three-year-old man had another thirteen-year-old daughter. He actually knelt upright on the ground, slapped himself, scolded himself, humiliated himself, and implicated others.He didn't resist at all, neither in action nor in word.He did everything his father told him to do without hesitation, despite the fact that he did not believe the old man's words.Under the same threat of that stubborn old man, these two generations have made two completely different behaviors!That one left the house, hid in a small room, insisted on his own opinion, and made the grandfather's order impossible to carry out; but this one knelt in front of the old man, doing timid and hypocritical actions, and provided ridicule for many people data of.Thinking of this, Juehui couldn't but feel lucky and proud of her generation.He thought: "Such people can only be found in your generation, and they will not exist in us." He turned around and left. "Bastard, you owe so much anger, where can you get the money to pay it back? Do you think I am rich? Now there are floods, military disasters, stickmen (bandits), food taxes, everything. Spending money like water like you, Sit back and eat, let me ask you, how many years are left to spend? What will the next generation depend on? Do you want a dowry when you marry Zhener? You are still worthy of being a father!" The old man cursed, cursed, and coughed loudly .Then he ordered Shuzhen to call Ke An.He wanted to scold Ke'an severely.However, Shuzhen came back soon to say that Ke'an was not at home.This made him even more angry.He slapped the table and cursed at people, and scolded Keding for a while, but he couldn't calm down his anger.He asked Shuzhen again: "Where is your fourth aunt? Go and call her here." The fourth wife, Mrs. Wang, was standing under the window to eavesdrop on the news. She wanted to escape, but it was too late.Shuzhen came out to call her. Although she was a little scared, she had to bite the bullet and go into the room. "Father calls daughter-in-law..." Mrs. Wang forced a smile on her sharp face and asked respectfully. Seeing Wang, the old lady asked her loudly, "Where did Ke'an go?" She replied that she didn't know.The old man asked Ke An again when she would be back, but she still replied that she didn't know. "You don't know what your husband is doing! You are so stupid!" The old man suddenly slammed the table and cursed. Wang has nothing to say.She lowered her head, both ashamed and angry.She seemed to see Aunt Chen standing by and making faces at her.But she didn't dare to move as a daughter-in-law in front of the old man. She shed tears, but she didn't dare to cry out.She had to swallow the tears secretly. The old man coughed again, but this time he coughed very badly and spit out a few mouthfuls of phlegm.Aunt Chen twisted her body beside him and beat him on the back diligently, while saying "it's not worth it to get angry because of them". The old man coughed for a long time before he recovered his breath.His anger was gone.A sadness that he had never felt before suddenly overcame him, and soon overwhelmed him.He felt very tired.He just wanted to rest, just to close his eyes and not see anything.He collapsed on the back of the sofa, waved to those standing in front of him, and said, "Go away, all of you, don't leave one, I don't want to see you." He sighed again after speaking. Everyone was eager to hear this sentence, and immediately retreated.Keding also got up from the ground and walked away lightly.Only the old man and Aunt Chen were left in the room. The old man just wanted to rest quietly for a while.He also sent Aunt Chen away.He was lying on the sofa alone, panting slightly.His eyes are half open.Many shadows appeared before his eyes.Some figures swayed in front of him.He couldn't see a friendly smiling face.He vaguely saw how his sons were drinking and having fun, laughing at him and complaining about him.He saw his grandchildren walking proudly on a new road, and Juemin dared to disobey his orders, but he could not punish the young rebel.Here he himself lay limp and feeble, an old man alone, with no one to tend him.He had never felt so disappointed and alone as now.He began to wonder: how could he have such a big dream?He also thought about how he had created a big family and a big family property, and how he handled and directed everything with an arbitrary means, fully thinking that he could make this family property flourish and prosper day by day.But his efforts have only resulted in his own loneliness today.It is impossible for him to use his last struggle to maintain this situation today.The facts are obvious: the family is now in decline.The final outcome was predictable.Although he didn't want to, he couldn't stop it with his bare hands.He is done.No one believed him.Everyone is lying to him.Everyone is going their own way.Even Keding, whom he likes, would do that kind of embarrassing thing.And Ke'an.These people are dreaming!The Gao family collapsed, will they still have a way out?What future do these prodigal sons have?It's over, it's over!He had dreamed of "four generations under one roof" for many years, but after the dream came true, what he got now was a feeling of emptiness! Disappointment, disillusionment, darkness.He lies here now, weak, with no one to talk to him, no one to share his pain and loneliness.Only then did he understand his true position in the family.He felt that not only had he lost his pride, but he had lost everything on which he lived.For the first time he felt disappointed, disillusioned, dark.For the first time, he felt as if he had done something wrong.But he didn't know what was wrong yet, and even if he knew it at this time, it would be too late. His ears seemed to be ringing with the quarrel of the Cedings, and he seemed to hear many discordant and noisy voices.Shen's face was full of tears, and she opened her mouth wide and said, "Father, please make the decision for me." Keding slapped himself on the cheek and said pitifully, "That's what they say, father will pay for my debts. Anyway, my family is the richest man in the North Gate, and they have money they can’t spend.” He hastily covered his ears with his hands, but the noise still broke in relentlessly.His mind was disturbed by the commotion.He wanted to stand up and go to another quiet place to hide, but he tried a few times and supported the armrest of the sofa with one hand before he managed to stand up, and it was very difficult.He took two steps towards the bed.Suddenly he was dazzled, and the house began to spin upside down, and his body couldn't help shaking.So there was darkness in front of him, and he didn't know anything until Aunt Chen woke him up with a scream of panic.