Chapter 68 Enhe (11)

All night, after she confides the truth to me, I start to freak out.I have been worried that someone will knock on the door, and followed me all the way here.Then take Lian'an back.This is very possible.The way she treats the world is as violent and natural as ever. Really, not following any order or rules.But I am powerless, I don't know how to protect her. She lay on the bed and fell asleep quickly, with a calm posture.I watched the sky outside the window all night, and it lit up bit by bit.Then it snowed outside the window.Thin little snowflakes are dry and clean, tapping gently on the windowpane.In this unknown small town in Shandong, I feel like I have gone back in time, and my heart returns to the innocence and desolation of my childhood when I faced the world.I hugged Lian'an, but at this moment I could hear the flow of time very clearly.There is a sound of brushing.It turns out that our greed cannot be redeemed.

The snow started to get heavier in the early morning.Lian An woke up with long hair pouring out, looking in good spirits.On this journey, she has many feelings but has always been emotionally stable and looks calm.She said, I was dreaming.Good life. What did you dream about? I dreamed that when I was 15 years old, I took the train for the first time to travel far away, from my hometown to Beijing, and went to Yin Yichen.The train stopped halfway, and it was late at night. I saw a dimly lit station, with occasional figures of people, and the railroad tracks stretched very far away in the darkness.Just put your forehead against the window glass, and leave an impression on that unknown place.Now I suddenly feel like I'm back in that place.It doesn't matter where it is on the map.This kind of bewilderment and certainty is really a sudden break, and I don't know where my hometown is.

I dreamed of my mother again.She seemed to be still behind the fence in the meeting room of the prison. She had long black hair and a slightly oily face. She looked at me and asked me for a cigarette.That was the last time I saw her.She approached me and said, come here, let me touch you.At that time, I felt very scared and didn't want to let her touch it.But in the dream, he felt her hands were very warm and wanted to be closer to her for a while.As if unaware that she had been dead for so long. Recently, as soon as I fall asleep, I keep dreaming about things from the past.All the details are vivid.Why do I remember it so deeply.

Those are things you want to remember.Lian An.Because you have taken solace in it. She turned her head to look at me, Liang Sheng, people say I am very grateful.I always feel like I shouldn't say thank you to you.Even if you pay so much to me, you should.Are you still willing to continue to follow me? Yes, Liangsheng.As long as you show up, anytime, anywhere. She smiled slightly.Then she got up and walked away, she said, let's go to the kitchen and have some hot porridge and go on our way. I washed my face and went downstairs to the kitchen.The proprietress was already steaming steamed buns on the stove, and the small room was steaming hot. When she saw me coming down, she made me a big bowl of hot rice porridge.It was snowing heavily outside, and the road could no longer be seen.The proprietress spoke up and said, the snow is so heavy, there will be no cars, and the two of you will live for a few more days.I said, please ask me, how long will it take to get to the beach?She said, it's still early, you have to go to Tonghua County at least, and you have to change to a car for three or four days.

I sat at the mottled wooden table and waited.The heat of rice porridge hit my eyes.Suddenly, a strong sadness welled up in my chest. I don't know whether it was because of the heart-to-heart conversation with Lian'an these days and nights, or because of Lian'an's journey with an unknown purpose driven by hallucinations.Willing to go his own way.So violent and naive.And after going back, she, Enhe, and me, how should our lives continue.I was hit by this sudden sadness, and tears welled up in my eyes. Lian An still hasn't come over yet.I said, has my companion ever been to the kitchen?

came.Probably went to the toilet.The toilet is behind the kitchen. The toilet was just a simple thatched shed of a farmhouse covered with a layer of snow.As soon as I walked out of the kitchen, the heavy snow fell all over the sky, covering my head and eyes like a quilt.Stepping on the thick and soft snow, the tears in the eyes flowed down warmly.Suddenly, it seemed that I heard Lian'an's singing, low and faint, and suddenly disappeared, just like she was sitting in the corner of a dark and dirty bar, facing a small beam of light. to sing.At that time, she was isolated from the world.She doesn't immerse herself in the prosperous and floating world, she just walks on the edge and waits silently, not expressing the joy and sorrow in her heart.It's like walking on the shore to watch the flowers bloom and fall, greedy for the beautiful scenery but humble in heart, so I don't let myself stay for a long time, I just want to be a silent passerby.

I opened my mouth and breathed hard.The door of the toilet was ajar, and the strong wind blew it loudly.I wanted to call her, so I called her, Lian An.But the voice was extremely small, and it seemed difficult to make a sound.Snowflakes whirled inward along the crack of the door, and there was silence, only the sound of snowflakes.This silence between the heaven and the earth is too majestic, it seems that everything you know and hear is just an illusion, it is unreal, there is a kind of falsehood. I pushed open the door, stepped in, and saw a place of bright red blood.