Chapter 6 chapter Five

I finally couldn't bear to write a letter to my eldest sister, repeating it over and over again, just to remind him of his responsibility to his children.The reply letter was not written by the eldest sister, but in Bisi's handwriting. He said that the elder sister was very sad after reading my letter and didn't know what to say. Bisi wrote in the letter: There are many lovers in the world who have vows of mountains and seas, but few can have a long-lasting relationship.There is no love, only hurt couples, staying together reluctantly is just a kind of destruction, and it is completely useless to the family and children!If divorce is a chance for a new life, we should at least try, shouldn't we?Bi Wen!I don't know how you feel about "love"?However, it is such an empty and ethereal thing that comes and goes unconsciously.When it happens, any hindrance is useless; when it disappears, any retention is useless. "Responsibility" is just a kind of ideal, sometimes with a cruel essence...  

Unexpectedly, they received a letter from a publishing house in Taipei, and they intend to select twenty of the fairy tales "To Xiaotong" and publish them in a volume.It was an exciting afternoon, Xiao Yiheng and I were chatting and laughing by the sea. "My book is called... what is it called?" I looked at him. His eyes looked at the sea, the calm, beautiful water, surging onto the beach wave after wave. "Xiaotong likes the sea, so let's choose a name related to the sea!" We talked a lot again, a strange and bewildering atmosphere permeated between us, in his eyes, there was a strong, unbearable tenderness and affection... When did this happen? Woolen cloth?I subconsciously wanted to escape, but I was very unwilling.

"It's been a long time." He whispered like a dream: "In those few years, I worked as a Taibao, and I was down and out. No matter whether I had money or not, I was in a state of embarrassment! No one in the village looked down on me. Even my playmates who grew up together were like avoiding the plague. Running away from me, only you who have noodles in clear soup, every time you see me, you call out Brother Xiao frankly! Only then, I feel that I am a respected person..." Bisi once said: "In Biwen's heart, no one is a bad person." At that time, I was too young to believe that there were bad people and bad things in the world.Unexpectedly, it also gave a prodigal son spiritual comfort.I listened to him tell his own story, his mother who died young, his father who was a heavy drinker and a gambler.

"After my mother passed away, I often ran away from home. It was rare for me to go home. I was caught by my father who lost the bet, and he beat me hard! He beat me when he lost the bet, and he beat me when he quit gambling. The beating was even worse without alcohol! At that time, I couldn't survive. So, I left home and went to the city. For more than three years, I did many bad things that you can imagine and unimaginable, and then, I was inexplicable I'm rich." His eyes turned to me, but his eyes had already penetrated me, landed in a distant place, and continued: "So, I swaggered home, and before my father was ready to do anything, I scattered the banknotes all over the floor, and his face turned into a flattering, pitiful smile in an instant... I don't have to run away from home anymore, I can Staying at home yelling and drinking, but the sadness in my heart is indescribable—my father loves banknotes far more than me!" He lowered his head, but I have already seen the tears in his eyes Light.

"I once tried to communicate with him, but a normal father-son relationship seems to be a luxury for me. Before, I was a doormat, and he was a tyrant; later, I became a rich young master, and he was an old slave.... Not long after, the money ran out, and I slipped away quietly, for fear of becoming a doormat again. He was ill at that time, and I went to prison not long after, and I didn't care about him. I was inside, blaming him in my heart He didn’t even look at me, and he planned to do another bill after he went out, and then, when he got home, he would scatter money all over the ground—but he didn’t know that he was already dead. When he died, he had no relatives around him, and left behind Now that I’m in this world, I don’t have any relatives anymore. Only now do I feel: We should be so close and love each other, but we have completely wasted this father-son relationship..."

He stared at me, with a sour smile, said softly: "Biwen, you are crying." Only then did I realize that there were tears running down my cheeks, and I hurriedly wiped away the tears, and I said, "I really... really didn't expect that there would be such a family! Such a father!" "Yes!" He took a deep breath: "I heard too much in prison... If parents can make more sacrifices for their children's happiness, there won't be so many misfortunes and regrets." He stood up, patted the sand away, then pulled me up, and I said, "Yeah! I'm really worried about Xiaotong. I talked to him on the phone the day before yesterday, and he asked me if I don't like him anymore?"

"Why, what happened that day stimulated him so deeply?" "Yeah! I thought children were forgetful, who knew... Hey! Xuexue got mumps and was arguing for her mother every day. Xiaotong said that he wanted to find her mother for his sister. He said he was going to Hong Kong go." "This kid is too sensitive, he pushed himself too hard..." Yiheng said. We rode back home, looking at the blue sea, my heart moved, and I shouted: "The sea is really blue! The sea is really blue, okay?" "What?" he was confused. "That book happened to coincide with Xiaotong's eighth birthday when it was published. I think this book is called Sea Water is Blue. Xiaotong loves the sea the most!"

Yiheng nodded, and said, "Okay! I hope Xiaotong can have a happy birthday!" The sea breeze filled my clothes, and my heart was filled with a hazy joy. Xiao Yiheng drew illustrations and cover design for "Sea Water Is Blue" before school started, so we spend more time together.That afternoon, a typhoon warning was playing on the radio, my mother was steaming steamed buns in the kitchen, and my father was rushing out to buy spare items such as candle batteries.Outside the house, thin rain began to fall, and it was said that strong winds would make landfall at night.Xiao Yiheng took wooden planks and slats, and carried tools to help us do the work of defending against the platform.I helped him, handing it up and down. On a whim, I chose a wooden strip and nailed it up like him. He jumped down from a high place and ran over nervously:

"Miss! You'll hurt your hand by nailing like this—" Needless to say, he took the hammer from behind me and began to strike, and I was surrounded by him. He may not be aware of it—I told myself—don’t make a big deal out of it!I can't move in front of his chest, I can only look at his slender hands, are they the hands of an artist?I thought.His hand stopped and the nail was finished.However, he didn't move and still circled me. "Brother Xiao! Thank you... Thank you!" When I said this, my face was red and my heart was beating wildly.But he still didn't move, and after a while he said:

"You've already called Brother Xiao too much! We've grown up, we can change our name!" "Why... why do you want to change it?" He should be able to hear my heartbeat, which has already shaken my eardrum. "As long as we are willing, many things can be changed!" His voice was gentle, and then his hands fell on my shoulders, turning me around, facing him, his eyes were full of tenderness: "School starts, I have to go back to Taichung, let me take a good look at you! Bi Wen! Look at me..." I couldn't help but look at him, and suddenly—time, space, wind, and rain all stopped, and all my thoughts also stopped.He stopped talking, I also shut my mouth, he didn't move, I also remained still, and this moment, only this moment, is so peaceful and beautiful...  Suddenly, the phone rang in the hall, and we were both startled. He reluctantly let go of his hand. I hung my head, walked quickly, and picked up the receiver.Brother Lu's voice came from the other end, and the tone was not very good:

"Is Xiaotong here?" "He's not there!" I responded immediately. "Little sister!" He said patiently and depressedly, "He has been away from home for almost three hours, you don't have to hide it from me, I just want to know, Xiaotong—has he arrived yet?" My mind is often not clear enough to keep up with his hasty words. "Did you call them here? No one with them? How...?" "He ran away from home!" He interrupted me loudly, with uncontainable anger in his voice: "He ran away again! Your good nephew! He stole money from Miss Gao and me, and said he was going to Hong Kong. Find Biying!" "Ah!" I opened my mouth and couldn't make a sound, how could it be?how can that be possible? " "There's no way he's going anywhere but your place...." "He may also go to his grandma!" My thoughts began to turn, Xiaotong!Run away again. "My mother went to the United States to visit my eldest brother and sister at the end of last month!" Brother Lu said. Xiaotong once said on the phone that he would never dare to come here alone again. "Because, grandpa, grandma, and little aunt can't protect me..." We love you, and we absolutely want to protect you!only……. "He really didn't come!" I said powerlessly, "He won't come either, Xiaotong doesn't believe us anymore..." "I know, you always blame me in your heart for not being good enough to him." "You are his father!" I tried my best to suppress the tears in my eyes: "What he wants is not new clothes! Not a car! A small plane! Not even money! He just needs love! Give him a little more love...." "I am his father! No one in the world loves him more than me. Before, we had such a good relationship between father and son, I don't understand! Once Biying left, Xiaotong's heart also left! He only thinks about his mother all day long. I Staying by his side, I try to accompany him as much as possible, it is useless! Biying is not here, but she completely occupies Xiaotong's heart! My efforts are all in vain! Why? Little sister, why?" His voice choked There, my chest was filled with a pain I didn't know came from. "I asked Ms. Gao to take care of them so that they would not be affected by the broken family. I want them to adapt as soon as possible, and then they can live a normal life. Am I wrong?" This is him!Xiaotong's good father!He should have let us understand, and Xiaotong should also understand. "I hit him! But, hitting him is just to let him quit, to cut off the pain and depression that should not be borne by him! No matter what, I shouldn't hit him..." "Brother-in-law!" I couldn't bear it in my heart, so I somehow called out: "Brother-in-law! Xiaotong won't blame you! He may still be near your house and dare not go back! Or... maybe he will come soon. I will tell him well, and then send him back!" "Thank you, little girl! I'll go out and look for it. If Xiaotong gets to your place, let him stay for two more days!" After hanging up the phone, both mother and Yiheng came to check.I told them, my mother clasped her hands together and muttered to herself: "God bless! The boy will be safe and sound!" Yiheng frowned deeply, walked to the window, and said, "He has nowhere to go! He should come back." Outside, the wind and rain intensified.I walked to the table, in the picture Yiheng drew for Xiaotong, Xiaotong was smiling with her face up, with a bright smile on her face...Come on!Xiaotong!We will no longer let you cry and beg and be powerless!Yiheng is right, as long as we are willing, many things can be changed!Can be changed!As long as you come!Xiaotong, as long as you come--