Chapter 57 fifty six

Si Yiwen's actions turned out to be a kind of momentum, courage, and arrogance towards Zhuang Shaojian.Zhuang Shaojian in suit and leather shoes finally entered Si Yiwen's room, but he just paced around the room.His pacing seemed uncomfortable, and he kept a distance from Si Yiwen. Si Yiwen casually added charcoal to the charcoal brazier in front of the bed, when the charcoal was added, the flames crackled and splashed, and the room became warm and cozy. Zhuang Shaojian finally went to bed in the warm room, and in the world Si Yiwen created for him and her, he still kept a distance from her. ——Si Yiwen is no stranger to distance, arrogant, annoying, dull, deliberate, condescending, and angry... Sometimes she overcomes distance, and sometimes distance defeats her.The distance that Si Yiwen received today was unusual, it seemed a rare kind of insignificance.This wretchedness made Si Yiwen show unprecedented magnanimity and unprecedented need for him.If Zhuang Tan's birth was the result of him pestering her that time, then it seems that she is pestering him now.In the end, just like she was no match for his entanglement with her that time, he was also unable to defeat her entanglement with him.

Zhuang Shaojian obeyed Si Yiwen's entanglement with him, but she got nothing after all.She gave up on him.Zhuang Shaojian had already turned around.She felt that he was blocking her with his back. Si Yiwen thought, all changes remain the same, although the feeling is new, the reason is old.To make love requires innocence, even without innocence and naked carnal desire.At this moment, Zhuang Shaojian has nothing.You look wretched, inferior, nervous, and timid. This is just a kind of performance you show to me.She didn't pester him anymore, just kept observing him.daily His eyes were dull and his expression was in a trance. She guessed what happened to him.

A few days later, Zhuang Shaojian left suddenly as if he came back suddenly.This kind of suddenness is easily reminiscent of escaping. He is like escaping from a preconception, and he is also like escaping from a conjecture that has been created by him, and that conjecture may have become a reality. The fact was soon confirmed by Si Yiwen.Si Yiwen suddenly felt a strange discomfort in his body: first, a strange feeling when urinating, and then he found red spots on the groin line on both sides of his thighs.She seemed to have been shocked by an electric shock, and she was dazed looking for the answer to the phenomenon. She remembered the "little red shoes" that Zhuang Shaojian said in Yangzhou and her place; The famous Yudli?she thinks.From this, she also thought of the advertisements posted in the dark corners of the streets and alleys in Beiping, the invisible advertisements for diseases that are difficult to see.It turns out that dirty diseases are all given the most beautiful words, "flower willow" and "red bayberry" are the collective names for such diseases.

Si Yiwen didn't blindly curse Zhuang Shaojian's uncleanness, she hated herself more, hated this clean and white body for entanglement with him, what this flesh needs is his uncleanness, right?From then on, as if she was punishing herself, she often waited quietly on the bed with her lower body naked and her legs spread apart.She waited for a moment, waiting for her clean soul to pass through the unclean vagina of this unclean body, and let that soul rise without any worries, to a place where there is no one and nothing. She is lying down, and she is willing to use this dissolute, free, unscrupulous and shameful posture to desecrate her carefully constructed bedroom and carefully constructed family.She is willing to forget herself, let herself rot in the ecstasy, the more thoroughly she rots, the better she looks.

Once she startled Mama Ding who came into the house carrying face water.Mama Ding couldn't imagine how the grandma she admired would greet her with this gesture.She threw the washbasin down, her heart beating wildly and she was speechless for a long time.She had never seen a naked woman in her life, not even herself.Now she didn't know whether it was surprise, wonder, or surprise.She stood upright in front of the bed and dared not speak or leave, but she made up her mind and chose to leave.But Si Yiwen stopped her, and she told Mama Ding everything. Telling Mama Ding made her think of the word “salvation” after all. Her soul could not bear to abandon this body, and she gave birth to the belief and strength to save herself.She began to let Mama Ding go to those dark corners, and find those life-saving advertisements on the electric poles in those corners on the walls of the toilets that were glowing with urine alkali.

They finally discovered a drug "606" that can bring patients back to life.used it. A few months later, Si Yiwen's symptoms disappeared, and she fell ill without anyone knowing and then recovered without anyone knowing.When she confirmed that the last trace of the virus had been completely eliminated from her body, she threw herself into Mother Ding's arms and began to cry.She has been looking for a place to cry for a long time but can't find it. She often feels that the world is big but there are few places for people to cry. She is looking for a space where the soul can swim, not a specific piece of land. The room was shaded by trees, and now Mama Ding's modest and simple mind finally endured the swim of her soul.This person who doesn't know a few big characters can only distinguish "606" for Si Yiwen.

"The country savage of the symbol didn't understand what was contained in the throbbing head in her arms. She just used her soul to perceive the sorrows and joys in this head. Si Yiwen is forty years old.She ended her first forty years with a wail. She is not like the kind of woman who has been tortured, burst into tears, and no longer thinks about it. She appears in front of her family again with a suspiciously charming figure.After all, Mrs. Zhuang did not understand what disaster his son had thrown on Si Yiwen, nor did he understand that Si Yiwen was his daughter-in-law who had just recovered from a serious illness.He only felt that she was fresher than before, and even his uncle felt that Si Yi's tattoo was full of brilliance.

The Si Yiwen soaked in the poisonous water bloomed in the dealer like poppies soaked in poisonous juice.Since then, she no longer treats herself in a mannered and pretentious manner, and often uses her accustomed posture to smash herself on the bed.She felt that this was the most natural position in the world. It had a fearless momentum, a breathtaking intimidation, which made those pre-prepared and beautiful positions that did not forget to pose during lovemaking. The women in the world are dimmed, and this kind of woman also includes herself in the past. Maybe it's the carelessness of the sickness towards the children, maybe it's the coquettishness after the illness, recently she often forgets the existence of Zhuang Chen and Zhuang Tan.This made them feel more deeply for Mrs. Zhuang. When they came back from school, they often went to grandpa's room and listened to grandpa reading "disciple rules, sage's instruction" and "rise at dawn, clean up the court" for them.Si Yiwen is not serious about this, now she is like a sensible daughter-in-law who can tolerate all kinds of troubles, a good-tempered sister-in-law, and a tolerant mother.But Si Yiwen, who has been soaked in the poisonous law, is brewing a dangerous plan. She is excited, short of breath but very happy by this plan.She is determined to use her own body to create a blasphemous fantasy against life. It is not love or hate, it is just a cynical trick.She chose her father-in-law, Mrs. Zhuang.