Chapter 11 Chapter 7.1

In the overly polite relationship between the two, the days when they gradually began to become carefree, unknowingly passed for more than a month.Zheng Lan cherishes her secretary job even more and is more competent and happy.If there was anything unsatisfactory, it was because the boss Wang Qizhao was too polite to her.His politeness could almost be described as a kind of politeness that is careful not to offend her inadvertently.He didn't know how many times he would say "thank you" to her during the day, maybe just because she refilled his teacup.So in more than a month, she didn't know how many times she said "you're welcome" to him.She felt that between her and him, it became like two Japanese men and women who cooperated and demonstrated in a ceremonial venue.But to others, he is always laughing and joking.

Yes, she began to hope, no, not just hope, but a secret need in her heart—that is, he would do the same to her.Even if it's only once or twice a day.That would actually make her work quicker and more enjoyable. One day, on a Saturday to be precise, after nine o'clock in the evening, it occurred to her that the fax machine might have been left on.I remembered that before he got off work on Friday, he had ordered that several documents would be delivered on Saturday morning.She had already lay down, so she quickly put on her coat and went to the company again by "hitting".She has a key to the chairman's office.When she opened the door and walked in, she was stunned for a moment by what she saw—two naked bodies were inseparably glued to each other on the floor, and the long piece of paper spit out by the fax machine had already dropped to the ground; The part that hangs down to the ground has already been broken by four legs, so it can no longer be kept as a fax document...

After she saw clearly that one of the faces was that of her boss, she suddenly realized that the first thing she could do at that time was to quit immediately. She did that. Standing outside the chairman's office, she was in a daze, not knowing what to do next.Hesitating, it’s not right to go, it’s not good not to go. Moments later a woman came out, her ex. While cutting her hair, her ex said, "Xiao Zheng, you came at such a bad time!" After speaking, he laughed mischievously. She angrily snapped back and said, "There is a bed in the inner room, why do you have to be on the carpet?!"

The woman who called her Xiaozheng said: "Oh, I didn't feel embarrassed, but you were embarrassed first! On the bed, there is the feeling of being on the bed. On the carpet, there is also the feeling of being on the carpet. Pursue different feelings Well!" After all, walk away. Then the door opened, and he said inside the door while fastening his belt, "Wolf, wolf, what are you doing here so late?" "I'll take two faxes!" She replied in a vicious voice, and after that, she didn't know what to say. He glanced back at the fax machine, and said a little angrily, "Don't worry about it!"

So she also walked away. As soon as she appeared before him on Monday, he was as humble as ever again.As if a seriously ill person suffering from a sense of shame, he explained in a low voice. He said, "Please forget about that, forget about it completely. It made both of us feel that way at the time, but isn't it a regular thing between a man and a woman? Isn't it? ..." As she typed, she said, "I think you have the ability to arrange that kind of thing to be done anywhere, not in the office, and it's not on the carpet. An office is an office. A clean carpet can never be better than a clean carpet." The bed is cleaner. Your sheets are changed every three days, but is the carpet washed often?..."

San Niang's tone of voice like a godson, a sign of hating iron but not steel. He murmured repeatedly: "Yes, yes, you are right to criticize. But... I don't have a home either! It's been many years, and I'm used to where I work and where I live! Besides Well, it would be inconvenient in any other place. Think for me, if someone who hates me wants to punish me, deliberately make me ugly, and deliberately treat us as a prisoner of prostitution and whoring. A few days, then how can I raise my head to meet people in the future? Wouldn’t the consequences be more serious for her? There is no better place than my own office in my own company..."

After hearing his plausible words, she became angry again, and said in a reprimanded tone: "If you still can't let go of your relationship with her, then you can spend some time with her to go abroad a few times! It’s not like someone hates you, someone wants to punish you, someone wants to make you ugly, right? I won’t bump into you doing that kind of thing, right? Then I can’t see or worry! " He didn't say anything anymore, and let out a long sigh of depression, but he didn't leave her side. She couldn't help but stop typing, turned to look at him, and saw that he was staring at her intently.There was a deep resentment in his eyes.She immediately understood what that kind of resentment was, and found an excuse to get up and walk away.

And she heard him mutter behind her: "Anyway, I did it, and I haven't touched a finger of yours until now..." It sounds like he clearly has a big grievance in his heart.As if you have performed commendably, you should be praised instead of ridiculed and sarcasm, you should be understood in your shoes, and rewarded instead of reprimanded. She couldn't help but stop for a moment, and suddenly felt pity for him... One day half a month later, before she got off work, she heard him talking to someone on his mobile phone on the balcony. "Okay, okay, don't mention the word money, okay? Why are you girls like this? Before you arrive, let's talk about your worth! As long as you serve well, I can't lose you! Just mention money! How much more? Why don't you come here at all!..."

He was like a caged animal, as if the balcony was a cage, pacing up and down particularly angrily. She understood it as soon as she heard it—he was recruiting "Miss". He then urged her to leave.Said it was nothing important, why didn't she get off work earlier? But she deliberately tidied up here, flipped over there, and stayed late to leave.Seeing him glance at his watch from time to time, she remained calm, but in her heart she had already made a decision that could almost be described as resolute, and because of this she secretly felt stimulated and excited. She blocked the "Miss" in the corridor who had come to answer the call with heavy make-up and flashy clothes.She thought she could send the other party away unceremoniously with just a few words, but she didn't think that she would not accept her tricks at all. "Miss" said that she drove a private car, so she had to compensate her for gasoline; said that in order to be in a hurry with Boss Wang, she refused another boss's paging, and had to compensate for economic losses; she also said that in order to arrive on time, she drove illegally on the road. Yes, if you are fined, you have to pay compensation.Moreover, he really showed a fine sheet to Zheng Lan.All in all, not only the economic loss must be compensated, but the spiritual loss must also be compensated!Helpless, only compensation.

But the "Miss" felt that 200 yuan was too little, so she froze and refused to leave. She said in a business-like manner, "Miss, are you dismissing amateurs? Let me tell you, I am a professional!..." "Don't call me miss!..." Zheng Lan was so angry that he reprimanded him sharply. "What do you call that? Are you happy to call your mistress? I'm not fucking negotiating with you anymore. Don't stop me, I want to see Boss Wang and negotiate with him face to face!" The "Miss" also became tough immediately, and was about to rush forward after bypassing her.

Seeing that the other party was a mess, she obediently took out her wallet again... After finally dismissing the "Miss", she turned around and entered the chairman's office, and locked the door from the inside. "Hey, dear lady, you are not punctual. You are ten minutes late, and I will deduct money!..." In the suite, which is the lounge, her boss' words came out, in a half-joking, half-serious tone, and she sounded in a good mood. Without responding, she silently took off her suit, shoes and socks; and calmly folded the suit and put it on the sofa; placed the high-heeled shoes in front of the sofa; put the stockings on the armrest of the sofa. "Hey miss, what are you dawdling about? Hurry up, hurry up!..." The voice was a little impatient and anxious. When she silently appeared at the door of the suite with bare feet, the man who swore in front of her that he would be grateful to God only for admiring her beauty, and would never touch a finger of her, looked at her. Her white and graceful body, with only a bra and silk shorts on her body, was as if her soul had come out of her shell, and she was stunned for a moment.Eyes wide open, mouth wide open, unable to utter a word. At that time, he was already lying on his back on the bed, covered with a white sheet, with his head and shoulders leaning against the bed... She watched him walk over, got into bed without a sound, and lay on her back beside him without a sound.It's just that the head is resting on a soft pillow, not leaning on the head of the bed, and lying flat and straight.Then she did it herself, removing the bra from her chest... He quickly covered his eyes with his hands, as if otherwise, he would be stunned by the beauty in front of him and roll off the bed. She said calmly: "You are a person of status, you have to respect yourself. If you call those dirty girls here again, I won't be able to look down on you. Don't break the ties with Zhao Nana anymore. She They are all wives. It would be immoral to destroy someone’s small family. As long as you listen to my advice and concentrate on managing the company to a higher level, I will meet your needs at any time. I am worthy of you More than enough. And I don't plan to get married within ten years. And I'm alone in this world, no one can interfere with my wishes..." Listening to her talking, he slowly lowered his hands from his face. He suddenly threw his arms around her, hugging her so tightly that she couldn't breathe. He said incoherently: "Oh, oh my mother! Oh my God! You... I... I never dared to have this kind of... God sees, this is not me..." At the same time, he secretly rejoiced in the overall victory of the tactics of playing hard to get.The tactic he employed most seamlessly, whether against government officials or business colleagues or the women he wanted to capture, was playing hard to get.Of course, referring to the past.As a tactic to defeat the enemy, he has not been used much in recent years.A government official is too impetuous and has no patience to play around with him.They all became straight to the point and straight to the point, and the final decision was made quickly.In a word, everything is advancing with the times.The pace of power-money transactions has become unprecedentedly fast, and every time he secretly feels that he can't keep up with the situation.There is a worry of falling behind.As soon as he "freezes", the opponents don't want to play with him until he catches them.Now he often adopts "bitter tricks" against government officials, Wang Zuo's tactic of breaking his arm.Whichever one you want to capture, you have to make a decisive decision, and first dedicate the passbook to the other party respectfully.I have to say a few hundred thousand yuan, please accept a little bit of affection first; the company's economic turnover is a bit tight recently, so I will make up for it later.The same goes for your business colleagues.If you don't see a rabbit, don't scatter an eagle.As for the women, of course it refers to the women who caught his eye, and they have also become unprecedentedly smart.As soon as the first move of his play-to-get strategy started, people saw through it all, and instead said sarcastically——Brother (or Mr. Wang) wants to explain clearly what he wants, okay?How boring is it to go round and round?It's not that he's acting in a pure love movie... so he's always bored.Without the "things" that are too easy to obtain in the tactical process, it is often boring to get them.Oftentimes, although you get benefits right away, you never get emotional appeal.Ever since Zheng Lan became his secretary, his inner pursuit of flirtatiousness has revived again.For this man who only has a junior high school education, but easily controls millions of huge sums of money, his pursuit of romance in the relationship between men and women is always accompanied by his application of tactics.There is sentimentality with tactics, and no sentimentality without tactics.He thinks so.But Zheng Lan was so different from the women he had eyes for before.She has no initiative at all.Make him dare not act rashly.He faced a tactical test.After thinking about it, it seems that other tactics are not very sure of victory.Only playing hard to get, which has not been used for a long time, can be refurbished for her.So I applied it step by step steadily... The man got great satisfaction that day.Satisfied both physically and mentally. Zheng Lan didn't stay with him that day. After more than two hours, she left. Although her whole body was sore and weak, she still left as soon as she said she would. After she left, the victorious man was still immersed in the joy of victory. He thought carefully about every aspect of his play-to-get tactic, and thought it was the one he used most skillfully.In the hospital, she did all the formalities for her. Her clothes were wet from the busy work, but she turned around and left without saying a word. What a clever move!In fact, doing those formalities for her would not make him sweat.He was accompanied by an acquaintance in the hospital, and he didn't stand in line once, not to mention how smooth it was.The sweat was mainly due to the heat of the day, but also because he was fat.If Zheng Lan didn't stop him, then he would go to the hospital to visit her mother with flowers in his hand the next day.In short, once he was amazed by her beauty, he didn't intend to let it go.Thinking carefully about the "truth" he told her, You Qi became complacent.Those "truths" are so well spoken!He has strong thoughts of painful self-torture towards her, which of course must be expressed to her face-to-face-how would she know if she didn't reveal it in her heart?She didn't understand, didn't she know that if she played hard to get, wouldn't that be "indulging" in vain? But never touch her with a finger! So I put myself in a pitiful situation. So - in the end, the underdogs will win! This man who was born a tactician and took pleasure in successfully applying tactics in everything, the more he thought about it carefully, the more he felt that every link was impeccable, remarkable and emotional. What I was looking forward to was a "Miss" called, but it was Venus who slept with me!Isn't that romantic enough? ... When Zheng Lan returned to her rented "home" that day, she felt extremely satisfied both physically and psychologically. That "home" was just a one-bedroom, but the kitchen and bathroom were quite large, which was very much to her liking.She arranged her "home" very comfortably.A veritable comfort zone. She returned from her boss' bed to her own bed, curled up slightly, and lay quietly on her side, recalling some past events... She remembered that when she was studying in university, the teacher had talked about Yu Xuanji, Xue Tao, Li Shen and several female poets of the Tang Dynasty in class; The men in the Tang Dynasty felt astonished by the poem, the last two lines are "Since you have a glimpse of Song Yu, why blame Wang Chang." Of course she knew that Song Yu was a handsome man. Are beautiful men really that worthy of women's love? After that class, the girls in the same dormitory had a lively discussion in the dormitory.The seven words and eight words are all about the unique opinions of the beautiful men in the world. Although Yu Xuanji's husband can't be called a handsome man, according to unofficial history records, he is also a talented scholar and celebrity with a very good image! How is the result?He divorced her! If she was not divorced, how could she end up in the sad end of being stabbed and beheaded? And that famous Ruan Zhen, Xue Tao loved him so much!How many embarrassing infatuation poems have been written for him!But how quickly he abandoned Xue Tao! There is also Li Shen, who is just a man's concubine; when a man dies, he is ridiculed by Bai Juyi's poems and dies as a martyr! The conclusion is—beautiful men are generally unreliable in terms of emotions; quasi-beautiful men are also likely to be courteous towards Qin Muchu. Then her female classmates also talked about some famous contemporary beauties, and found a rule, that is, they all married rich men in the end, not some beautiful men.Everyone said that regardless of who is married to a beautiful man now, it won't last long! Then came another conclusion—beautiful women with money, the iron law of ideal love. Once such a conclusion was formed and formed, they all turned their eyes to her. She didn't participate in the discussion that day, but just listened in silence throughout. Seeing the questioning intent in their eyes, she said solemnly: "In the future, I will at least find a handsome man, and I will never fall in love with a man just because he is rich." So she was besieged by everyone. They all said: Zheng Lan, there are many handsome boys and handsome men pestering you all day long, why are you not attracted to anyone? Zheng Lan, tell me, what is a man's demeanor?If a man has a million-dollar property and you think he lacks grace and therefore is not worthy of your love, then one day he will tell you that he is actually worth tens of millions?Worth over 100 million?How many billions are you worth?It's still the same man, I'm sure you'll look at him differently all of a sudden, and you'll be surprised to find that he's full of grace the day you thought he lacked grace! ... Originally, you wanted to cover your ears when he sang, but that day you would also feel that although his voice is not very good, his singing expression is very good, which makes you love to watch it! ... At first you thought he was too short, but one day you will definitely look at him with admiration, thinking that for a man like him, if he is a little taller, it will make you look wrong! ... Zheng Lan Zheng Lan, do you think Bill Gates has style?If he is also considered to have grace, then more than half of the men in this world have grace!If you say he has no manners, then all the women in the world will think that there is something wrong with your eyes! She sneered at their siege at the time, thinking that they were all vulgar, and their thoughts were all despicable. She thought of the son of the deputy secretary of the county party committee she had loved, and she was very glad that she did not become the handsome guy's wife... She also thought of all kinds of men she had received with him since she became the secretary of Wang Qizhao, an unattractive man—division directors, bureau chiefs, government officials with higher positions, literati, university professors, so-called celebrities; In front of this unremarkable man, what a wretched posture he often has!They flattered him, praised him, and pleased him.It's just to make him happy and to achieve their respective interests.At that time, it was just the opposite, and the powerful men were humbled by the rich men.Even though she still pretended to be reserved on the surface, the signs of psychology revealed in her speech and behavior were particularly disgusting to her, the female secretary of a rich man.Especially those "public servants" above the director, they didn't even dare to meet him openly!The time they met with him was probably after eight o'clock in the evening, and it was probably in some mysterious and secretive place.He made a wink, and she avoided him knowingly.At that time, the situation was not like what he often complained in front of her-it seemed that he, a rich man, had to pretend to be a third grandson in front of a powerful man.No, not at all.At the very least, he is the one who absolutely holds the initiative between the two parties in the transaction, so he has the psychological advantage.He even uttered insults unscrupulously, and threatened them with overtones.She couldn't quite understand the subtext of his words, but she could tell that he was indeed threatening them.The result is that the powerful man is at a loss and silent in front of him, a rich man.At that time, her secretary felt very happy.Because what she always wanted to do but couldn't do, he did it for her.It seemed that if he did it for her, it was equivalent to taking revenge on the son of the deputy secretary of the county party committee for her, and indirectly taking revenge on the boy's father who was the deputy secretary of the county party committee.So she once again recalled the discussion that took place in the dormitory of female college students back then; so in her eyes, Wang Qizhao, a man who is rich but only has a junior high school education, and these men who not only have rights but also have a college education or above Among the men, it really seemed that her boss, Chairman Wang, Mr. Wang Qizhao, was more temperamental, more demeanor, and more confident like a man.Moreover, this unremarkable man seemed to be pleasing to the eye everywhere.At least he wasn't an ugly man like he said.It's not like what he described as a woman who regrets after accidentally looking at it.At that time, she had looked at him carefully, and felt that there was nothing particularly wrong with his facial features on his dark face, but they were just too general... However, all the above reasons, or all the above-mentioned psychological changes she had towards him, were not the real reasons why she committed herself to him.Not all of them. The real reason or the main reason is that his tactic of playing hard to get has induced her kind of mentality that women often inevitably have a bit of jealousy. She, a beautiful little girl, was jealous of the woman named Zhao Nana who had also been his secretary.Zhao Nana is three years older than her.Naturally not as beautiful as her.Not as pure as her.But also a very attractive woman.He has a plumper figure than her, so he is a little sexier than her.When she smiles, she gets used to turning her head and covering her mouth with the back of her hand, very charming.Very feminine. Yes, even she herself did not expect that she would be jealous of her ex. It's fine to just be jealous of Zhao Nana, but she is also jealous of the "Miss" he summoned.From that "Miss", she imagined all kinds of women who had slept with him. So she couldn't help comparing herself with Zhao Nana; with that tacky "Miss"; and with all kinds of women she imagined. The more you compare, the more you feel that you are the woman that men yearn for more. However, there is such a beautiful woman like her by his side, yet he has broken up with the married Zhao Nana and kept sneaking around!But he chose to call such a rotten "Miss" to quench his hunger and thirst! It made her feel like she was ignored. "I will never touch your finger!"——This vow he swore in front of her seemed to be insulting to her. Most women can hardly stand such a test - her boss's man showed her a god-like worship of beauty; and he told her that she was the girl of his dreams; In front of her, she always looks tormented by lust and is in a very pitiful situation-but she would rather have sex with other women! The severity of this kind of test for women lies in that it makes them who are originally normal in psychology often begin to doubt whether they are really attractive to men; they also begin to doubt that the man who is their boss praises him Did the words really come from the heart... I want to test how much restraint you have! I want to see if you touch my finger! I'd rather let your oath unravel on its own! I didn't force you to make such an oath to me, it's you who want to make things difficult for yourself!If I don't do something about it, it's as if I'm not a woman but a witch with the intention of seducing men and finding pleasure in torturing them!I am free from that accursed sin! ... The above-mentioned psychological changes in her were also the reasons why she took the initiative to commit herself to him.Of course, that may not be the real reason, and it may not be the main reason. In short, she would not do such a thing without a reason.Which kind of reason is the real reason and the main reason, even she herself can't tell the difference.Taken together, it is relatively comprehensive. That night, the beautiful little girl Zheng Lan, like the unattractive man Wang Qizhao, was also immersed in the triumph of victory.Both of them are proud of each other, the difference is just—he is a little tired; she is a little hurt.Tactically speaking, if her approach can also be called a tactic, then he won the victory of playing hard to get; and she won the victory of approaching the city. Of course, she didn't think she used any tactics.To her, it was just an act of indulgence.From childhood to adulthood, she has never indulged herself once.He has always followed the rules and behaved carefully.It's not just an indulgence once, it's simply a wave of indulgence!When she commented on her behavior in her heart, she couldn't help but smile slightly.At the same time, she thought, it feels so good to be unrestrained!It felt like I was on a roller coaster.For a while, it goes straight up to the sky, and for a while, it dives down quickly, which is exciting and exciting.For whom did I restrain myself all the time?She asked herself but could not answer herself.For a certain man who will become her husband in the future?Who knows what kind of man he will be!The ghost knows if he restrained himself all the time before he became his husband!If not, wouldn't he be at a disadvantage if he behaved like a normal person?If he remained the same after becoming his own husband, wouldn't it be a bad thing for him to be strict with himself all the time, but also a very stupid and wronged thing?Then on reflection she found an entirely justification for her brave action.And, blame yourself for realizing it too late!Even though there was no sentimentality to speak of, and there was no foreshadowing of sympathy, but that kind of pure physical pleasure alone was enough to make her die.But its purity makes it extremely satisfying.It was as if he was a well, and he drained the water recklessly within more than two hours, and it bottomed out.But at this moment, the well water gradually seeps out from the bottom of the well; gradually overflows upward; gradually overflows to be higher than the original water level.Moreover, the water quality is clearer.So the whole body and mind feel extremely relaxed.It's like 100% new blood flowing in the veins.A new blood drawn from the veins of many newborn babies and injected into their own.After graduating from graduate school and entering the society, specifically, after going to work in Beijing, every time she heard some men get together and said shamelessly, doing that kind of thing in the dark, she silently thought about which beautiful woman in her arms. It looks like whoever is hugging.She always blushed and bowed her head when she heard this, and she protested strongly on behalf of the women in her heart.When she got into his bed, she unexpectedly turned off the bedside light.She did it subconsciously, because at first she was, after all, somewhat instinctively shy.Although he took off his clothes on his own, he took off so resolutely, as if he had no hesitation.And at this moment, she suddenly realized what the "dream lover" meant.Since all the media are openly talking about those four tacit words, what shame is there for anyone who learns and uses them in real life?Since men regard it as experience, why not women?She felt that was indeed a good experience.Although a little self-deceiving, it makes that purely physical pleasure seem to be not purely physical.And it's kind of psychological too.It’s like a blind person eating food stalls, as long as he imagines that he is enjoying a full feast of Manchurian food, the real difference is not too big for the blind person. A student, especially a female student, if she is too pure a female student on campus, it is easy for the society to indoctrinate her negatively.Just like a pigeon with pure white feathers or other birds, once it flies over the industrial area with a lot of chimneys and lands on the eaves or balconies full of polluted dust, its feathers will not change color.Gradually it will get used to its feathers turning from pure white to stained, gray to black.Even if there are still a few stems of feathers that have not changed that much, it often uses its own small beak to pluck them off.In comparison, those girls who were not very pure or even completely lost their purity on campus rarely behaved differently after breaking into the society.For she had deconstructed her innocence to the fullest of her own accord before society, as a rule, deconstructed it completely.She indulged and indulged; she rebelled and rebelled; she was cynical and cynical, so she has no regrets.So fearless.So go ahead.However, Zheng Lan, a beautiful peasant girl with a master's degree and no relatives who is alone, has no plan to confuse her life with that ugly boss named Wang Qizhao on that day, and she always looks very awkward in front of her. A humble man's life is tied together, and he has no intention of becoming his woman for a long time.Be it wife or lover... It was nothing more than an act of indulgence. It started out of jealousy. It ends with the triumph of victory and the first taste of physical pleasure. Also, my own positive evaluation of my bravery and determination. And I betrayed my self-confidence. People sometimes can and need to build a different kind of self-confidence from their own betrayal of themselves.When that self-confidence is felt by oneself, people are very pleasantly surprised.If the process is accompanied by adventure-like excitement and excitement, people will not doubt whether their actions are worthwhile. The encouragement of that kind of self-confidence is often more than the praise of others. And more often than not, I want to experience it again... ... That night in the midsummer season; after the opening ceremony of Jinding Leisure Resort was grandly, pompously and successfully completed; in the most exclusive room in the whole resort that they reserved for themselves; And when they shared the same bed; she had already stopped turning off the bedside lamp.She has long been used to accepting his short stature under the soft light, accepting his tobacco-yellow complexion and accepting his unattractive face.Moreover, she has long been used to accepting everything he loves about her body without any psychological barriers.She still makes him fascinated and carried away.And she has already begun to look at him again with an appreciation.If it is not measured by the overly harsh standard of love, then it can be considered that they are indeed a pair of man and woman who love each other.The question of whether to be a lover or a wife has long been out of consideration for her.She is willing to do anything.But in his place, every major decision and action is basically out of responsibility to her and all kinds of thinking for fear of disappointing her and possibly wronging her in the future.Sometimes you tell her, sometimes you don't.To say or not to say, the starting point is the same.She sometimes asks, sometimes doesn't ask, and whether she asks or doesn't ask, she completely believes that his starting point is that.Even if he couldn't help asking, it was just a desperate thing to worry about what he was too risky for her.Afraid that he was too eager for success and things backfired.As long as she asked, he would tell the whole story without reservation, and listened to her opinion very humbly.As long as she raises an objection, he is convinced every time he adopts her opinion.It seemed as if some god was helping them in the dark, until that day, everything was showing good signs for them, and it couldn't have been smoother.In his words, everything is developing according to their plans and wishes, and everything is under their control.Land is rising in value.Housing prices are rising.Their original fixed assets are doubling.The leisure consumption pattern of the tourism industry is being driven by the big economic environment. Their Jinding Leisure Resort has a good prospect and a bright future. There is almost no doubt about it.A few days ago, they even talked about whether the company should go public.It doesn't seem like such a difficult task if they want to.Because almost all provinces in China are enthusiastically supporting the listing of private enterprises, this northern province is naturally not far behind.But in the end they unified their opinions and completely dispelled that idea from their minds.She loves him dearly and does not want him to change from a man to a shaft horse of a listed company.He himself didn't want to be like that.They still think the original plan is wiser and better—pay off the loan, sell off the assets, and take tens of millions of dollars abroad.Enjoy a rich life.In the process of helping him in the same boat, her thoughts changed a little.That process made her see a lot of ugliness up close.The ugliest of all ugliness is the transaction of power and money, the transaction of power and sex, the transaction of money and sex, the cross-trading of power, money and sex.It also made her see clearly that this society is like rivers, lakes and seas, with different layers of water.Different shades and therefore different water pressures.Therefore, various types of aquariums that adapt to different water pressures, different water lights and temperatures are separated.Aquarists living in the shallow water layer can't see the biological chain phenomenon of interdependence, mutual defense, mutual utilization, and mutual cooperation that is happening all the time in the deep water layer.Its dangers are far more than those in shallow water.There are also more silent and vicious incidents.Like a fish that has already adapted to the deep water layer, he guided her, a small fish, to dive to the deep water layer meter by meter.At first, she, a small fish who only adapted to living in shallow water, was frightened by various phenomena in deep water.Thrilling again and again.她也曾一度觉得他这一条鱼是一条可怕的怪鱼，但是亲眼目睹了他在深水层所施展的种种堪称高超的生存本领以后，她逐渐地钦佩他了。逐渐地崇拜他了。她头脑中也曾产生过一种特别自不量力因而特别冲动的念头，那就是通过利用他而向那社会的深水层发射一枚鱼雷，炸得水柱冲天；过后看形形色色一般人们在社会水域的表面轻易看不大到的深水层的丑陋水族仰翻漂浮，或死或伤，解解自己这一条浅水层的小鱼的心头之恨。我们都知道的，特别适应在深水层生存的水族们，总是以丑陋凶恶的家伙居多的。而她那一种狂妄的念头，乃是一个平常发现的丑陋有限，一下子猛然发现了太多丑陋的人内心里的必然反应。尽管他一向伪装得像是一个头脑简单，胸无城府，凡事喜欢直来直去的男人，但实际上却是何等的睿智啊！某天他同她进行了一次严严肃肃的谈话。他告诉她，她头脑在想什么他一清二楚。他承认他自己的头脑里也曾产生过同样的念头。他说那很愚蠢。那除了是将自己当成一颗自杀炸弹，不再意味着是别的念头。他说：“你既然打算那么做，你现在就可以做。你对于我本人和公司里的事，不是已经了解得不少了吗？你去公布某桩内幕吧。那么我必定完蛋了。那么许许多多的人，也必定会因为我完蛋了而跟着完蛋了。如果这么做真的能使你感到痛快和解恨，你为什么到现在还没有按照自己的打算去做呢？”而她承认她不忍。沉吟片刻，抬起头看着他又说：“我已经有点儿爱上你了。”“但是我爱你爱到了事事处处为你着想的地步！不是为了你，我现在做的一切又何必？我身上有几国护照，我哪天携一大笔巨款出逃就像出国旅游一样容易！” 她知道他的话绝对不是夸大其词。 她感动了。 她噙着泪偎在他怀里了。 而他温柔地搂抱着她说：“痛快了，解恨了，那又怎么样呢？一批人完蛋了之后，一切现象还会继续存在。适者生存。适者英雄！有些事我为什么不避讳你不隐瞒你呢？就是要引导你看分明了啊！你看分明了。适应了。具有了利用那些现象的经验了。我才好依重你。你才能当好我的高参啊！我们的方式方法那肯定是全都摆不到桌面上的，但是你总不至于因而也怀疑我们的目的是良好的吧？我们得感谢那些现象啊！没有那些现象存在着，可以被我们加以利用，我们的目的又怎么能够达到呢？……” 于是她向他发誓，再也不起那种对他们十分可怕的念头了。 她也说到做到了。 ... 在那一个仲夏之季的夜晚，他们的关系已经可以说是一种爱人加同志的关系了。 是的，若仅仅将男人和女人之间的爱当作爱来分析的话，他们已不但彼此爱得很铁，而且彼此爱得相当无私。他们的关系证明，一个漂亮的女人和一个其貌不扬的男人之间，真爱是完全可以发生的。只要那个其貌不扬的男人除了其貌不扬，还有令一个漂亮的女人另眼相看的方面。哪怕那一方面或那些方面，只有她一个人的眼看到了…… 他们因为共同的目的而堪称同志。志同道合。 在他们那一种同志关系中，他有时候是导师，有时候是良友；她有时候是学生，有时候是高参。 现在，他睡着了。 在这一个夜晚，在这一个时候，在这一处一切一切都那么气派那么崭新的度假村里，在此处一套最高级最隐蔽的房间里的舒适的卧室里，似乎再也没有什么忧患之事妨碍他高枕无忧了。起码相当长一个时期内大约没有。 他的一条手臂搂在她腰间，偶尔发出几声鼻鼾，睡得很香。 而她点燃了一支烟，缓缓地一小口一小口地吸着。 不是由于她的头脑里还有什么烦恼她心里还有什么放不下的事。 No, it is not. 她也和他一样，身心大为轻松，了无忧患。 她在思考如何调动她已积累得挺丰富的经验，利用一切可以利用的人和条件，为身旁这一个男人进行一番空前的包装。 既然他不反对；既然她自信能够做得效果良好；既然他们都一致认为也有必要那么做一番，那又为什么不开始思考如何去做呢？ ... 回到了南方回到了家里的刘思毅，一觉睡到了初一上午的十点来钟。醒了还懒得起床，半卧半坐，将一只枕头垫在腰后，靠着床头浏览家乡省的各报。 他的家已经搬出了省委领导们住的院子。在那全市地段最适合居住活动空间最大文明程度最高因而最出名的大院里，作为省委书记，他家住的曾是一幢独体的三层小楼，面积约四百平方米左右。并且前后都有小花园。而现在住的是一百九十几平方米的商品房，也在较理想的路段，楼里住的也基本上都是省委省政府的干部。 妻子脚步轻轻地走入卧室，问他想不想吃点儿什么？ 他摇摇头表示什么都不想吃。 妻子又问他想见谁不？说如果他想见谁，她就先替他用电话和人家联系好，免得短短的几天节假里，人家的时间都安排得满满的，却没见上。 他再次摇头。 “真的谁都不想见？” 妻子在床边坐下了。 刘思毅放下报纸，笑了。 他说：“我最想见到的人，已经见着了啊！” “昨天快半夜了才到家，今天上午还没出过门，你见谁了？梦里见到的吧？” 妻子认真起来。 “我最想见到的是你。昨天一到家我见着你了。此刻，你就坐在我身旁，我还想见谁呢？再谁都不想见了。我初五就得回北方去。连来带去才六天，以后的几天，我宁愿天天呆在家里。” 他的话说得也很认真。 刘思毅的妻子是市里一所重点中学的校长。省市两级领导们的儿女，只要不是太笨的，几乎全是那一所中学里的学生。 刘思毅指着一份报印在头版上的标题问：“这一篇关于你们中学的调查报告你看了吗？” 妻子瞥了一眼，说当然看过了；说春节前，老百姓街谈巷议，指责多多。