Chapter 8 Su Yu's death

Su Yu, who was used to getting up early, fell into a coma that morning due to a ruptured cerebral blood vessel.The remaining sanity made him slightly open his eyes, and with extremely weak eyes, he sent a final cry for help to the world. With the last light of his life, my friend looked at the room where he lived for many years. The world finally presented him with such a narrow appearance.He vaguely felt Suhang's sleeping appearance on the bed, like a huge stone, sealing his exit.He was sinking into the bottomless abyss, and it seemed that some dim light caught him and slowed his sinking.At that time, the bright sunshine outside was attracted by the dark blue curtains, making it shine by itself.

After Su Yu's mother got up, she walked down the stairs.The sound of his mother's footsteps made Su Yu's dying life pulse briefly in pursuit of health.The mother found that Su Yu didn't go to the teahouse to fetch boiling water as usual. When she picked up the empty thermos, she immediately expressed her dissatisfaction with her son: "It's outrageous." She didn't even look at my struggling friend. The second one to get up was Su Yu's father. Before he had washed his face and brushed his teeth, he received an order from his wife to fetch water.Then he cried out:

"Su Yu, Su Yu." Su Yu heard a powerful voice coming from a distance, and his sinking body rose rapidly, as if a breeze lifted him up.But he couldn't respond to the life-saving voice.The father walked to the bed and looked at his son. When he saw Su Yu's slightly opened eyes, he reprimanded him: "Hurry up and get up to fetch water." Su Yu was unable to answer, but just looked at his father silently.The doctor has always disliked Su Yu's taciturnity, and Su Yu's demeanor at that time annoyed him.He walked into the kitchen, picked up the thermos bottle and said angrily:

"Who does this kid look like?" "Not like you." Everything disappeared, and Su Yu's body sank again, like a stone falling in the air.Suddenly a strong light swarmed over and grabbed him immediately, but the light disappeared instantly, and Su Yu felt that he was thrown out.After my father went out with the water bottle, the house seemed to be filled with fog.The sound made by his mother in the kitchen was like a sail in the distance, and Su Yu felt his body floating above the watery thing. At that time, Su Yu obviously had trouble distinguishing what the noise from the kitchen was. When his father came back, his body rose for a moment due to the short-term sunlight outside the house.The conversation of his parents and the clashing of bowls and chopsticks made him stay in the darkness.My friend lies in the peace before it's all over.

After Su Yu's parents had breakfast, they walked past Su Yu's bed one after another. They didn't turn their heads to look at their son when they went to work.When they opened the door, my friend was lifted up blissfully by the light, but they closed it immediately. Su Yu lay for a long time in the gloom, feeling his body slowly sinking, it was the exhaustion of life approaching the end.His younger brother Suhang didn't get up until ten o'clock. Suhang came to his bed and asked strangely: "Did you sleep in late today?" Su Yu's eyes had already dimmed, and his demeanor made Su Hang feel incredible. He said:

"what do you mean?" After speaking, Suhang turned and walked into the kitchen, began to brush his teeth and wash his face slowly, and then finished his breakfast.Suhang walked towards the door like his parents did. He didn't go to see his brother and opened the door. That was the influx of the last ray of light, which brought back light to Su Yu's life. He uttered an inner cry to his brother, and the answer was the closing of the door. Su Yu's body finally entered an unstoppable sinking, faster and faster, and began to spin.After a lengthy suffocation, he suddenly obtained a disappearing tranquility, as if a general breeze had blown away his body very comfortably, and he felt that he had turned into countless water droplets, disappearing into the air crisply and melodiously.

I came here after Su Yu's death. I saw the doors and windows of Su's house closed tightly. I stood outside and yelled a few times: "Su Yu, Su Yu." There was no movement inside, I thought Su Yu might have gone out, so I left a little sadly.young friend In my last year in my hometown, one afternoon when I was walking back to the south gate from school, I saw three children fighting in front of a dim sum shop.A little boy with a nosebleed tightly hugged the waist of a big boy with both hands.The hugged child pulled his wrist vigorously, while the other threatened: "Are you letting go?"

The kid named Lulu looked at me, his dark eyes didn't have the slightest intention of asking for help, it seemed that he didn't care about the threat just now. The boy in the arms said to his companion: "Pull him away quickly." "If you can't pull it away, you should turn around." The child turned around, trying to throw Lulu out.Lu Lu's body was lifted off the ground, but his hands were still tightly hugging the opponent's body.He closed his eyes to reduce the dizziness.After the child turned around a few times, he didn't fall off Lulu, but he was so tired that he was out of breath. He shouted to his companion:

"You—pull—him." "How?" cried his companion, equally helpless. At this time, a middle-aged woman came out of the snack shop, and she called out to the three children: "Are you still fighting?" She saw me and said to me: "It's been playing for two hours. There are such children." The held child pleaded to her: "He won't let go." "You two bullied a young one." She began to accuse them. The boy standing next to him said: "He hit us first." "Don't lie to me, I can see clearly that you guys bullied him first."

"Anyway, he hit us first." Lulu looked at me with dark eyes again.It never occurred to him to defend himself, as if he had no interest in what they had to say.He just looks at me. Middle-aged women start pushing them: "Don't fight in front of my shop, go away." The boy who was being hugged began to walk forward with difficulty, Lulu hung his body on him, and slid his feet on the ground.Another boy followed with two schoolbags.At that time Lulu stopped looking at me, but tried to turn around, he was looking at his schoolbag.His schoolbag was lying in front of the dim sum shop.They walked about ten meters away. The boy who was being hugged stopped, reached out to wipe the sweat from his forehead, and said to his companion angrily:

"You haven't pulled him away yet." "Can't pull it away. You bite his hand." The hugged boy lowered his head to bite Lulu's hand.The dark eyes were closed and I knew he was in pain as he pressed his head against his back. After a while, the boy who was being hugged raised his head and continued to threaten weakly: "Are you letting go?" Lulu's eyes opened again, and he turned to look at his schoolbag. "Damn, there are people like this." The boy standing aside raised his foot and kicked Lulu's ass hard. The boy who was hugged said: "You pinch his testicles to see if he lets go." His companion looked around, saw me, and said softly: "Someone is watching us." Lulu's head was thrown back all the time, and as a man walked towards the pastry shop, he yelled: "Don't step on my schoolbag." This is the first time I've heard Lulu's voice, that kind of crisp voice that reminds me of the bright bowknot on a girl's head. The boy who was hugged said to his companion: "Throw his schoolbag into the river." The boy walked to the door of the snack shop, picked up his schoolbag and walked across the street to the concrete railing by the river.Lulu kept watching him nervously, he put his schoolbag on the railing and said: "Are you going to let go? If you don't let go, I'll throw it down." Lu Lu let go of his hand, and stood there looking at his schoolbag at a loss. The liberated boys picked up their schoolbags from the ground and said to their companions standing by the river: "Give it back to him." The boy by the river threw his schoolbag on the ground, stepped up and kicked it, and then ran to his companion. Lulu stood there and called out to them: "I'm going to tell my brother, my brother will come to you to settle accounts." After shouting, Lu Lu went to her schoolbag.What I saw was a very handsome boy, whose white undershirt was dripping with blood from the nosebleed.The child squatted down next to the schoolbag, took out the textbooks and pencil case inside and rearranged it again.The child squatted in the twilight hours, his body was loved because of its fragility.After tidying up, he stood up and hugged the schoolbag to his chest, and wiped off the dust with the corner of his clothes.I heard him say to himself: "My brother will come to settle accounts with you." I saw him raise his arms to wipe away his tears, and he walked forward weeping silently. After Su Yu died, I was alone again.Sometimes when we met Zheng Liang, we would stand together and say a few words.But I know that the only connection between Jung Ryung and me, Su Woo, is gone.So the relationship between me and Zheng Liang is dispensable. My thoughts were clearly confirmed when I saw Zheng Liang happily walking with his new factory friends. I always recall Su Yu bowing his head and thinking when he was waiting for me by the river.Su Yu's death made friendship no longer a beautiful expectation in the future, it was already in the past.I bowed my back at that time, and walked alone by the river with my back bent, just like Su Yu in his lifetime.I started to like walking, which is a hobby left by Su Yu.The continuous extension of thinking while walking can always make me easily reach the past, and smile at the old Su Yu. This was the inner life of my last year in my hometown, as I approached adulthood.I got to know Lulu this year. I know the kid's name three days after the fight.At that time, I was walking on the streets of the city, and I saw this child rushing over with his schoolbag in his arms. Five or six boys of the same age chased him from behind, shouting in unison: "Lulu, Lulu," "Stubborn." Lulu turned and called to them: "I despise you." Then Lulu ignored their shouts and walked forward angrily.The anger in the child's heart was bigger than his body, and his body swayed as if he couldn't bear it.His little butt twisted and walked among several adults. In fact, I didn't expect a close friendship between Lulu and me at that time, although the child had already made a deep impression on me.Until I saw Lulu fighting with others again.That time when Lulu fought with seven or eight boys of the same age, the group of children buzzed like flies and attacked Lulu.The final result was still Lulu's failure, but he shouted to them as a winner: "Be careful that my brother will beat you up." The child's face full of confrontation with everyone, and his always alone and helpless, made me think of myself vividly.It was from that moment that I really started paying attention to him.Looking at the childishness of this little boy when he walks, I often have a warm feeling flowing in my body.What I saw seemed to be my childhood walking. One day, when Lulu walked out of the school gate and walked towards home along the sidewalk, I couldn't help shouting from behind: "Lulu." The boy stood still, turned around, looked at me very carefully for a while, and then asked: "Did you call me?" I nodded to him with a smile. The child asked, "Who are you?" This sudden question made me panic.In the face of this young child, the advantage of my age is gone.The boy turned away, and I heard him mutter: "Don't know me, still call me." My courage was thwarted by the failure of this attempt.After that, when I watched Lu Lu walk out of the school gate, my gaze became cautious.At the same time I had the joyful feeling that I had his attention, and he would often look back at me as he walked on. The confrontation before my friendship with Lulu came to me felt like a repetition of what happened with Su Yu on the way home from school two years ago.We were all secretly watching each other, but neither of us spoke.Until one afternoon, Lulu came straight to me, his dark eyes shining with lovely light, and he called me; "Uncle." I was startled by the child's sudden cry, and then he asked: "Do you have something for the kids?" Just now, the in-depth communication between us was still so difficult, but Lulu's voice made all this a reality with ease.It should be said that hunger started our friendship.But I was ashamed and uneasy. Although I was close to eighteen years old, in Lulu's eyes, as an uncle, I was penniless.I can only touch the child's hair with my hands and ask him: "You didn't have lunch?" The child evidently understood that I could not help him overcome his hunger. He lowered his head and said softly: "No." I continued to ask: "Why didn't you eat?" "My mother won't let me eat." When Lu Lu said this, he didn't mean to blame his mother at all, he just stated a fact calmly. Before we knew it, we started walking, my hand on the child's shoulder.I thought of Su Yu in the distance, he often put his hands on my shoulders and started our intimate walk.Now I treat Lulu the same way Su Yu treated me back then. The two of us walked with others who dismissed us. Later Lulu raised his head and asked me: "Where are you going?" "What about you?" I asked back. "I am going home." I say? "I'll take you back." The child made no objection, at which point my eyes began to blur.I saw a vision of Su Yu, who was standing on the wooden bridge leading to the south gate and waving goodbye to me.What I experienced at that time was the feeling that Su Yu sent me home when he was alive. We walked into a long and narrow alley and came to a dilapidated building. Lulu's shoulders were out of my hands. He walked up the stairs with a full body swing. Halfway through, he turned his head and looked like an adult. He waved his hand to me and said: "You go back." I waved to him and watched him go up the stairs.Not long after his body disappeared, I heard a woman scolding loudly, followed by the sound of something falling.Then Lulu appeared at the stairs again, this time he ran down.I saw an angry woman chasing it out, throwing the shoe in her hand at the fleeing Lulu.The shoe missed Lulu and rolled to my feet.At this time the woman saw me, she straightened her agitated hair, turned around and walked in. I was shocked when I saw this woman, because I recognized who she was. Although her image had been ruthlessly tampered with by the years, she was still Feng Yuqing.The shy girl back then has become a mother who has no scruples. Lu Lu, who had just escaped from her mother's beating, came over to pick up her mother's shoes, and went upstairs again.He wants to send back his mother's shoes.He held the shoes like his schoolbag, writhing his thin body towards his own punishment.Feng Yuqing's voice reappeared: "Get out." I saw the child bowed his head and walked down full of grievances.I went up and stroked his hair and he immediately turned to escape my friendship.The tearful child walked towards a bamboo forest. My friendship with Lulu grew rapidly. Two years ago, I experienced the warmth of friendship with the older Su Yu. Two years later, when I was with the young Lulu, I often felt that I was Su Yu, watching The me in the past. I like talking to Lulu, although he half-understands a lot of what I say, but his demeanor of concentration, especially the sparkling black eyes, looks at me full of joy and admiration.I feel myself in the complete, unconditional trust of another person.When I finished speaking and smiled at the child, Lulu immediately opened his mouth with missing front teeth and returned the same smile to me.Although he didn't understand me. Later I found out that Lulu didn't actually have an older brother, but I kept silent about this fact so that the child wouldn't feel that I noticed his fabrication.In times of isolation, the child seeks support from his imaginary older brother.I know the importance and necessity of imagination and hope for him, and indeed for me as well. Lu Lu is just like I was jealous of Zheng Liang because of Su Yu, and he was also jealous of Zheng Liang because of me. In fact, when Zheng Liang met me on the street that time, he didn't express any intimacy to me that would cause Lu Lu to be uneasy.As a friend who was not close in the past, Zheng Liang just came over and said a few friendly words to me.Zheng Liang, who has many new friends, made no secret of his surprise that I was with a child like Lu Lu.While we were talking, Lulu, who had been snubbed, said loudly: "I am leaving." He seemed very angry and walked alone, I immediately ended the conversation with Zheng Liang, and caught up with Lu Lu.But his unhappiness has been kept more than 20 meters away. During this period, he turned a deaf ear to my words, and then he warned me with a crisp voice: "I don't like it when you talk to him." Lu Lu's single-mindedness and overbearing friendship made me feel uneasy when we met Zheng Liang together, and I often pretended not to see Zheng Liang and walked over quickly.I didn't feel restricted by it, and I knew that Zheng Liang didn't belong to me. He was a friend of the smartly dressed young workers who walked with a cigarette in their mouth and talked loudly.Only Lulu is my only friend. Almost every afternoon after school, I would stand at the gate of the elementary school where Lu Lu was studying and watch my friends come out of it.The young Lulu is already a child who can control his emotions. He never expresses excessive excitement and excitement to me, and always walks towards me calmly with a smile.It wasn't until one time that I wasn't standing where I used to be that Lulu revealed his true emotions to me.I remember the time he walked out of school looking panicked because he didn't see me right away.He stood there blankly as if he had been hit by a sudden blow, disappointment and anxiety alternately appeared on his face, and then he looked away, except for me.When the child walked towards me in frustration, he still looked back from time to time, and then he saw me smiling.I saw Lulu running towards me suddenly desperately, he squeezed my hand tightly, his palm was full of sweat. However, my friendship with Lulu didn't last long.Lulu, who is out of tune with all the children, let me see him fighting with other children for the third time.Just at the gate of their school, when Lulu walked towards me, a group of children mocked him from behind: "Lulu, where's your brother? You don't have a brother, you only have a fart." Those children raised their hands to their noses and fanned them around, frowning as if they really smelled bad farts.I saw Lu Lu approaching with a livid face, his little shoulders were shaking with anger.When he came to me, he turned suddenly and rushed towards the group of children, screaming in his mouth: "I beat you." He rushed into the group of children with both hands and feet. At first, I could still see him fighting with two children. Then all the children rushed forward, and my eyes were in chaos.When I saw Lulu again, the group of children had stopped fighting. Lu Lu got up with a face full of dust and scars, and rushed forward with a punch, so the group of children still rushed forward.The dust and blood on Lulu's face made me tremble all over. I rushed up at this time. I kicked one child's ass hard, and grabbed another child's collar and threw it aside.When the first few children who were hit found me, they immediately fled in all directions, and then the remaining few also ran away.After they ran far away, they shouted at me angrily: "You adults beat children." I ignored them and walked towards Lulu, who had already stood up at that time.I walked up to him, no matter how many people around me were looking at me or accusing me, I said loudly to Lulu: "You tell them that I am your brother." But Lulu's terrified eyes dissipated my enthusiasm in an instant.I saw him blushing suddenly, then lowered his head and walked away alone.This made me dumbfounded. I watched his weak figure disappear in the distance, but he never turned around to look at me.I stood at the school gate for a long time the next afternoon, but I didn't see him come out. In fact, he had already returned home from the school's side gate.Later, when I saw Lulu occasionally, this child always avoided me nervously. I finally know the real status of this fictional brother in Lu Lu's mind.I was reminded of a story I told Lulu, a story my poor imagination made up at random.It is about the rabbit’s father fighting bravely with the wolf in order to protect his son, the little rabbit, and was finally killed by the wolf.The child listened with fascination.When he later asked me to tell the story again, I repeated the story, only changing the rabbit's father to the mother.The child listened with straight eyes.Later, I changed the rabbit's mother to elder brother, and I haven't finished talking about it that time.Lulu obviously knew that at the end, his brother was killed. He stood up with tears in his eyes and walked away, saying sadly: "I don't want to listen." After seeing Feng Yuqing, I often see Feng Yuqing hugging Wang Yuejin on the wooden bridge, and Lu Lu hugging the big boy, both of whom have the same firmness.Mother and son are so similar. After Feng Yuqing disappeared from the south gate on that moonlit night, until she reappeared in front of my eyes, a large period of life during that period was always a blank for me.I used to ask Lulu discreetly about his father, a kid who always looked away and then with great interest directed me to look at some boring ants and sparrows and all.I can't tell whether he really doesn't know anything, or is deliberately avoiding it.The search for Lu Lu's father, I can only go back to the distant memory, the man in his forties with a foreign accent, sitting on the stone steps of Feng Yuqing's house. Later I heard that Feng Yuqing came back on a cement boat of a farmer from another place. On a sunset evening, she was holding a worn-out travel bag in her right hand and a five-year-old boy in her left hand. ashore.I can imagine that her eyes were as gray as the night was coming, and the discrimination of fate made her stand on the shore and look around in embarrassment. Feng Yuqing did not return to live in the south gate, but settled down in the city.A man of fifty, recently widowed, rented her two rooms.On the first night, he sneaked into Feng Yuqing's bed. Feng Yuqing didn't refuse him. At the end of the month, when the man asked her for rent, Feng Yuqing answered him like this: "You'll be paid for the first night." Perhaps this is the beginning of Feng Yuqing's flesh and blood career.At the same time, she took up the job of washing plastic film. Feng Yuqing has completely forgotten me, or she never seriously remembered me.Then one afternoon, before Lulu finished school, I came here alone.At that time, Feng Yuqing was tying clotheslines between several trees in an open space in front of the building.She wore a plastic apron around her waist, and walked towards the well platform with a large bag of dirty plastic film.When the woman who seems to make a living from this puts the barrel into the well, she no longer has the vigor of the past.Her hair was cut short, and the long braids of the past remained forever by the well platform at the south gate.She started to brush the film, and the continuous sound was piercing on that sunny afternoon. Feng Yuqing, who was immersed in the mechanical repetition, showed a calm turn of a blind eye to me who was standing not far away.How to distinguish a girl from a young woman made me see Feng Yuqing in the past and the present at the same time. Later, she stood up and approached me with a film like a bed sheet. When she got to the rope, she waved the water droplets on the film without any scruples, and the water droplets splashed on my body.She seemed to notice this, so she took one look at me and let the film dry on the line. At this moment, I clearly saw her face that had been devastated by the years, and the wrinkles on her face were already clearly visible. When her eyes that had lost their youthful passion saw me, they were like gray dust floating towards me.She turned and walked to the well platform, showing me her sagging hips and thick waist mercilessly.I turned around and left at this time. The sadness that surged in my heart was not Feng Yuqing's forgetting of me, but the cruel withering of beauty that I witnessed for the first time.That Feng Yuqing standing in front of the house facing the morning sun with her arms raised and combing her hair has been covered with a thick layer of dust in my memory since then. Feng Yuqing is engaged in two types of labor during the day and night.A night job brings her professional enemies, and the presence of the police forces her to choose another life. At that time, I had already left my hometown, and fate finally showed me a grateful smile.My new life started in Beijing. At the beginning, I was so obsessed with those wide streets. I often stood alone at the intersection at night, and the tall buildings around made me feel that the intersection was as wide as a square.Like a lost lamb obsessed with the grass by the water, it is difficult to convince myself to leave. It was on such a night that in that dilapidated building in her hometown, the naked Feng Yuqing and her naked guest were exposed to the police who suddenly barged in.Lulu, who was sleeping, was awakened by the dazzling light and the loud reprimand, and he looked at everything that suddenly appeared with his wide black eyes in bewilderment. Putting on her clothes, Feng Yuqing said to her son: "Close your eyes and go to sleep." So Lulu immediately lay down on the bed and closed his eyes.The only thing he didn't obey his mother's wishes was that he never fell asleep.He heard all of their conversation, listening to their footsteps going downstairs, Lulu suddenly felt frightened that his mother might not come back. After Feng Yuqing was taken to the Public Security Bureau, this woman who didn't talk much began to talk calmly in front of her interrogators. She said to them: "The clothes on your body and your money are all issued by the state. You just need to take care of the affairs of the state. The things on my body are grown by yourself, not issued by the state. Whom I sleep with is my business. I will take care of things myself, so you don’t have to worry about it.” In the early morning of the next day, when the old man at the police station opened the gate, he saw a handsome child standing there looking at him sadly. The child's hair was already soaked in the morning mist.Lulu told him: "I'm here to take my mother back." The child who claimed to be nine years old was actually seven at most.Feng Yuqing obviously hoped that he would take on the responsibility of supporting the family as soon as possible, so when he was only six years old, he falsely reported that he was eight years old and sent him to elementary school.In the early morning of this day, he unexpectedly planned to take his mother home in a whimsical way. It didn't take him long to learn that his wish was impossible.At that time, he was faced with five adults in police uniforms, who lured him with sweet words, hoping that he could provide all the information on Feng Yuqing's prostitution.The clever Lulu immediately exposed them and said to them: "You guys are trying to lie to me by talking so nicely, so tell you." The child said fiercely, "I won't tell you anything." When Lulu realized that his mother would not be able to go home, but would also be sent to a labor camp, tears welled up in his eyes, but the child still showed an astonishing composure at that time, and he yelled to them crisply: "You can't send my mother away." Then he waited tearfully for them to ask him why, but none of them asked, and he had to say it himself: "You sent my mother away, who will take care of me?" Lulu left him alone as the last threat. When he was still standing outside the gate, he had already thought of this move.He thought confidently that they would have to give his mother back to him.But who would take the threat of the child seriously?Lu Lu's threats failed to save his mother, but instead sent him to an orphanage. After his mother was sent away, he didn't know at all that the child had to go to the police station almost every day to ask them for someone, and he bored them to the core.They told him that Feng Yuqing was already at Qiqiao Labor Camp, and that if he wanted someone, he could go to Qiqiao. Lu Lu memorized the place name Seven Bridges.He stood in the police station and wept bitterly because he was sad. When they were about to pull him out, he said to them: "Don't pull me, I will go by myself." Then he turned around, raised his arms and walked out wiping his tears.The child clings to the wall and walks away crying.Then he found that there was a sentence that he hadn't said to them, so he went back to the Public Security Bureau and told them through gritted teeth: "When I grow up, I will send you all to Seven Bridges." Lulu only lived in the orphanage for a week. He lived with a twenty-year-old blind man, a sixty-year-old alcoholic, and a woman in her fifties.The four widows lived in a broken courtyard in the west of the city.The alcoholic can't forget the woman named Fenfen who he slept with in bed with him when he was young, and he tells the story of the past to the blind but youthful blind man all day long.His narration was filled with erotic tones, that woman named Fen Fen might be a beauty with icy skin and jade skin.When the drunkard talked about his hands stroking the pink and clean thighs, he would open his forgetful mouth and go on and on.Let the blind man breathe tense and fidget.Then the drunkard will ask the blind man: "Have you ever touched flour?" After getting an affirmative answer, the drunkard pointed out to the blind man proudly: "Fenfen's thighs are as smooth as flour." The pale woman heard this almost every day, and being in such an environment for a long time made her suffer from depression and paranoia.She always felt that the drunkard and the blind were conspiring to hurt her.When Lulu just arrived, she nervously called the child to her side, pointed to the two men in the next room, and whispered: "They wanted to rape me." The woman in her fifties leaves for the hospital early every morning, hoping that the doctors will find out what's wrong with her so she can be hospitalized and escape a premeditated rape by a drunk and a blind man.But she always returned to the orphanage in frustration. Lulu lived in such an environment for a whole week. He went to school every day with his schoolbag on his back.At that time, he was no longer defending his fictional brother, but his actual mother. After this smart kid learned of the place name Qiqiao in the Public Security Bureau, he made up his mind.He told no one of his plans.In the orphanage, he learned the location of Qiqiao from the drunkard and the woman with few words.So in the early morning of that day, he quietly rolled up the grass, tied a rope and slung his back, carried his schoolbag and the large travel bag Feng Yuqing brought back, and walked to the bus station, full of his itinerary. grasp.He knew how much a ticket cost and knew that there were no stops at the Seven Bridges.After buying the train ticket with the five yuan left by his mother, he held on tightly to the remaining three yuan and fifty cents, and walked to a small shop next to the station. He was going to buy a Daqianmen cigarette to bribe the driver.But what he saw was that Daqianmen cigarettes cost two cents a piece, while three cents could buy two. My young friend stood there hesitating, and his last resort was to hand over three cents and buy two cigarettes. On the coming morning of that summer, Lulu sat in a car heading towards Seventh Bridge.With his left hand, he touched the three yuan bill wrapped in a handkerchief, and with his right hand, he tightly squeezed the two cigarettes.It was the child's first time in a car, but he was not ecstatic at all, but stared out the window with a serious expression.He kept asking a middle-aged woman beside him how far it was to the Seventh Bridge.Later, when he knew that Qiqiao was coming soon, he left his seat and moved the travel bag and straw mat to the door of the car.Then he turned to the driver, handed him a sweat-soaked cigarette, and begged him: "Uncle, can you stop at the Seventh Bridge?" After the driver took the cigarette, he only glanced at it and threw the wet cigarette out of the car window.My young friend looked at the driver's dismissive expression and lowered his head in pain.He planned in his mind to get off at the stop after crossing the seven bridges, and then walk back.But the driver stopped the car for him at Seven Bridges.It was almost noon, and Lulu saw a long wall not far away.The barbed wire fence on the fence made him believe that this was a labor camp.The seven-year-old child carried the straw mat behind his back, carrying the travel bag as big as others, and walked there in the dazzling sunlight. He walked to the gate of the labor reform farm and saw a soldier standing guard with a gun. He walked up to him and looked at the cigarette in his hand. Thinking of the scene where the driver threw the cigarette out of the car just now, he dared not Passed the cigarette up again, and smiled shyly at the young man standing guard.Then say to him: "I'm going to live with my mother." He pointed to the straw mat and travel bag. "I moved my whole family here." It was already afternoon when Lu Lu saw her mother.He was handed over to another man by the young man on guard, and after the other man took him for a walk, he was handed over to a bearded man.The bearded man took him to a small room. 身穿一身黑衣的冯玉青就这样见到了自己鼻青眼肿的儿子，年幼的儿子独自一人找到了这里，使冯玉青流下了眼泪。 终于见到母亲的鲁鲁，则是兴奋地告诉她： “我不念书了，我要自学成材了。” 这时冯玉青双手捂住脸，哭出了声音，于是鲁鲁也哭了起来。他们的见面十分短暂，没过多久，一个男人走进来要带走冯玉青。鲁鲁就急急忙忙提起旅行袋和草席，准备跟着母亲一起走，可他被挡住了，他就尖声叫起来： "why?" 那个男人告诉他，他现在应该回去了。他拚命摇头，说道：“我不回去，我要和我妈住在一起。”随后他向母亲喊道： “你和他说说，我不回去。” 可是回过头来的母亲也让他回去，他就伤心地放声大哭了，他向母亲喊叫： “我把草席都带来了，我就睡在你的床铺下面，我不会占地方的。” 后来的几天，鲁鲁开始了餐风露宿的生活。他将草席铺在一棵樟树的下面，将旅行袋作为枕头，躺在那儿读自己的课本。饿了就拿母亲留给他的钱，到近旁一家小吃店去吃一点东西。这是一个十分警觉的孩子，只要一听到整齐的脚步声，他就立刻扔了课本撑起身体，睁大乌黑的眼睛。一群身穿黑衣的囚犯，扛着锄头排着队从不远处走过时，他欣喜的目光就能看到母亲望着自己的眼睛。