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Chapter 39 Chapter Thirty-Eight

life and death fatigue 莫言 5252Words 2018-03-19
I almost jumped up from the wicker chair, but I restrained myself.I lit a cigarette and smoked slowly to calm down my emotions.I peeked into Da Tou'er's faint blue eyes, and saw the indifference and hostile expression of the dog that had lived in my home for fifteen years and was dependent on my ex-wife and son.But in a blink of an eye, I found that those eyes were very similar to those of my dead son Lan Kaikai, the same indifference, the same hatred, and the same refusal to forgive me. …At that time, I had already been transferred to the county supply and marketing cooperative and served as the section chief of the political engineering department. Speaking of which, I was also a person who played with words. I often published small articles in the middle of the provincial newspaper, nicknamed "General of the Middle Seam".At that time, Mo Yan had been seconded to the reporting team of the Propaganda Department of the County Party Committee to help with his work. Although he still had a rural household registration, he was ambitious and famous throughout the county.He wrote manuscripts day and night, his hair was fluffy, and his body smelled of smoke. Whenever it rained, he took off his clothes and took them out to drench.My ex-wife Huang Hehe has a good impression of this sloppy guy, and every time he comes, he treats him with smoke and tea.My dog ​​and my son seem to have a grudge against him.Every time he came, the dogs jumped and barked wildly, and the chains around their necks rattled and rattled.Once, my son secretly untied the dog from its chain, and the dog rushed towards him like lightning. Mo Yan gained strength in a hurry, like a habitual thief, he jumped onto the roof of my house.Not long after I was transferred to the County Supply and Marketing Cooperative, the cooperation was also transferred to the station restaurant that the county society belongs to.Her job is to fry fried dough sticks.There seemed to be a smell of oily smoke all over her body, and the smell was even stronger when it was rainy.I never said that Huang Hehe is a bad woman, and I will never say that there is anything bad about Huang Hehe.When I divorced her, she asked me with tears: What is wrong with me? My son also asked me: Dad, what is my mother sorry for you? My parents scolded me: Son, you are not yet How about a senior official, what’s not good enough for you to cooperate? My father-in-law and mother-in-law scolded me: Lan Jiefang, you little bastard with a blue face, take your piss and look in the mirror! My leader also persuaded me earnestly: Comrade Jiefang , People must be self-aware! Yes, I admit that Huang Hezuo has no mistakes at all, and she is more than enough to be worthy of me.But me, I just don't love her.

That day, the mother separated the children from the dogs, and Pang Kangmei, who was the deputy director of the organization department of the county party committee at the time, asked her driver to take a photo for us.We, four couples, four children, and four dogs, gathered under the apricot tree in the courtyard of Ximen’s house. We seemed to be in harmony, but in fact we each had our own secrets.Many copies of this photo were printed and once hung on the walls of six families, but now, probably none of them can be found. After taking a group photo, Pang Kangmei and Chang Tianhong asked us to squeeze into their car and leave. I was hesitating, but the cooperation refused on the grounds that we would stay overnight at my mother's house.When Pang Kangmei's car drove away, she picked up her child and dog and insisted on leaving.Don't listen to anyone's advice.The old bitch broke free from my father's arms, and the black cloth covering its eyes fell loosely around its neck, like a black collar.It came straight for cooperation, and before I could react, the dog's teeth had already bit deeply into her right ass.She screamed and almost fell, but she held on so she didn't fall.She still has to go.Baofeng ran back to get a medicine box to treat her wound.Jinlong pulled me aside, handed me a cigarette, and lit one himself, the smoke covering our faces.I saw Jinlong frowned, rolled up his upper lip, blocked one nostril, and let a puff of thick smoke come out from the other nostril.Although I have seen him smoking countless times, this is the first time I have seen him.After putting on this grimace, he took a deep look at me, and said in a tone of sympathy or sarcasm:

"Why, can't you go on?" I don't look at his face, I look at the two chasing dogs on the street outside the gate, and I also look at a man riding a red motorcycle in the empty square.On the dilapidated stage, a group of people were bluffing and hanging up banners, on which were written "Southern Girl Breakdancing" in eight crooked characters.I said coldly: "No, it's great!" "That's good," he said, "it's all a coincidence. But you're a man of honor, woman, that's all..." He twirled the index and middle fingers with the thumb of his left hand , and used both hands to draw a black gauze hat with wings above the ears, and said, "As long as they have this, they will come when they call."

I seemed to understand his hint, and tried my best not to think about the past. Baofeng walked towards me with the support of Hezuo. My son held Gou Xiaosi in one hand, and grabbed Hezuo's clothes with the other hand, looking up at her face.Baofeng handed me a box of rabies vaccine and said: "Go home and put it in the refrigerator. There are detailed instructions on the box. Remember, you must inject it on time, just in case..." "Thank you, Baofeng," cooperating, she gave me a cold look and said, "Even dogs hate me." Wu Qiuxiang chased and beat the old dog with a stick.The old dog crawled into the den, baring its teeth, with green eyes, showing its power at Qiuxiang.

Standing under the apricot tree, Huang Tong, who was already hunched over badly, pointed at my father and mother and cursed: "People in your Lan family don't recognize their relatives, and dogs don't recognize their relatives! You strangle it quickly, or if you don't strangle it, I will set fire to the dog's kennel." My father took a worn-out bamboo broom and stabbed it hard into the doghouse, and the old dog barked miserably. My mother ran up and said apologetically: "Open up his mother, I'm really sorry for you, this old dog is protecting its cubs, it didn't mean to bite you..."

Regardless of the persuasion of the two mothers, Baofeng, and Huzhu, Hezhu insisted on leaving.Jin Long raised his wrist to look at his watch and said: "The first bus has already passed, and the second bus has to wait for two hours. If you don't think my car is broken, I will take you there." Huzhu gave him a sideways glance, didn't say hello to anyone, took the child's hand, and walked towards the back of the village leaning his body.Our son opened up, hugged his puppy, and looked back frequently. My dad caught up and walked side by side with me.As he grows older, the color of the blue side of his face is no longer as vivid as when he was young, and the slanting sun shining on his face shows his age even more.I looked at my wife, son, and dog walking ahead, stopped, and said:

"Father, you go back." "Hey," Dad sighed, and said dejectedly, "If I knew this mole could be passed on to the next generation, I might as well be a bachelor." "Father, don't think so," I said, "I don't think there is anything disgraceful about it. If you open up and complain, you can give him a skin transplant when you are older. Now that science is so advanced, there is a way." "Golden Dragon and Baofeng are separated by one floor after all, and what I am most concerned about right now is your family." Father said. "Dad, don't worry, you take care of yourself."

"These three years have been the best days of my life," said my father. "There are more than three thousand catties of wheat and several hundred catties of miscellaneous grains at home. Even if we don't harvest grains for three years, we won't be able to starve your mother and me." .” Jinlong's jeep came bouncing over from the east, and I said, "Father, come back, I'll come back to see you when I'm free." "Liberation," Dad paused, staring at the ground, and said sadly, "Your mother told me that in life, who will marry whom is predestined." Dad paused again, and said, " Your mother asked me to persuade you not to have a different heart, your mother said, people who mess around in the officialdom, 'divorce their ex-wife and lose their career', this is the experience of the old life, you have to take it to heart."

"I understand, Dad." I looked at my father's ugly and solemn face, and suddenly felt a pang of sadness in my heart.I said, "You can tell my mother so she can rest assured." Jinlong stopped beside us.I opened the door and sat in the passenger seat. "Please Tangtang—" I said, Jinlong tilted his head, spit out the cigarette butt he was holding in his mouth through the car window, interrupted me, and said, "Dick Tangtang!" I couldn't help laughing, and said, "Wait Be careful what you say in front of my son." He snorted and said, "Actually, it doesn't matter, a man should let him learn sexual intercourse from the age of fifteen, so that he won't whine about women. "I said, "Then let's start with Ximen Huan, and see if we can cultivate a big man." He said, "It's not enough to cultivate, it depends on whether he is the material."

The jeep drove to the side of cooperation and openness, stopped, and Jinlong poked his head out and said: "Siblings, nephews, get in the car!" Kai Kai hugged the dog, and cooperated with him to lead Kai Kai. Although his body was crooked, he walked past the car with his head held high. "Hey! Such a personality!" Jinlong tapped on the center of the steering wheel—the jeep let out a short whine—and looked straight ahead without looking sideways, and said to me, "Dude, be careful, she has never been A fuel-efficient lamp." The car slowly caught up with them, Jin Long honked the horn again, poked his head out and said:

"His second aunt, do you think your brother-in-law's car is broken?" Cooperation is still walking so high, with hot eyes, staring straight ahead.She was wearing a pair of light gray trousers, sagging on the left side and rounded on the right side, with a blood stain or iodine oozing out.I do sympathize with her, but my heart is also filled with disgust for her.The blue and white neck exposed behind her short-cut hair, her thin ears without earlobes, the wart with two black hairs, one long and one short, on her cheek, and the smell on her body mixed with the smell of the whole process of making fried dough sticks. The smell disgusts me. Jin Long drove the car to the middle of the road ahead, pushed open the door, jumped off, and stood beside the car with his waist wiped, with an angry look on his face.I hesitated for a moment, then opened the door and got out of the car. In such a stalemate, I thought that if Huang Hezuo had the legendary spell, she would turn into a giant, stepping on me, stepping on the golden dragon, stomping on the jeep, and walking straight over.She doesn't turn corners.The sun in the west was shining on her face.Two overly thick eyebrows that almost form a line between the brows, thin lips, and two small black eyes that seem to be about to burst into tears.I sympathized with her and felt that it was not easy for her, but what filled my heart was still disgust. Jin Long's annoyed face suddenly turned into a playful smile, and he changed his title again, saying: "Brothers and sisters, I know that riding in such a broken car has wronged you, I know that you look down on me as a farmer, I know that you would rather go back to the county town than take my car, but you can go, and you can't go if you are open. In terms of face, give his uncle me a step down." Jin Long stepped forward, bent down and picked up Kai Kai and Gou Xiaosi.Co tore a few times, but was open with the dog already in his arms.Jinlong opened the back door of the jeep and stuffed Kaifang and the dog in, Kaikai called "Mom" in the car, with a bit of crying.Gou Xiaosi yelled "Wow, woof".I opened the car door on the other side, looked at her bitterly, and said in a mocking tone: "Please, sir!" She hesitated, Jin Long still said with a playful smile: "Aunt Huanhuan, if it wasn't for his uncle Huanhuan, I would have carried you to the car." Cooperation's face suddenly flushed red.She glanced at Jin Long with complicated eyes.Of course I knew what she was thinking of.The reason for my dislike for her has nothing to do with what she had with Jinlong, any more than I would dislike the relationship a married woman I fell in love with had with her husband.She actually got into the car, but not from my side, but from Jinlong's side.I slam the door shut.Jinlong also closed the car door there. The car started and rumbled forward.I saw from the rearview mirror on the side of the golden dragon that she was hugging her son and the dog tightly, and I was so annoyed that I couldn't help muttering: "The drama is too much!" At this time, the jeep was driving on the narrow stone bridge.She opened the car door suddenly and was about to jump down.Jin Long held the steering wheel with his left hand, and turned back with his right hand, grabbing her hair.I also leaned over suddenly and grabbed her arm.Children cry, dogs bark.Car to the bridge.Jin Long freed his hand and punched me in the chest, cursing: "asshole!" Jin Long jumped out of the car, wiped the sweat on his forehead with his sleeve, kicked the car door, and cursed: "You're a bastard too! You can die, he can die, and I can die, but open? He's a three-year-old kid, what's wrong?" Kai Kai cried loudly in the car, Gou Xiaosi barked wildly. Jin Long put his hands in his trouser pockets and spun around twice, and let out a breath with his lips "spitting".He opened the car door, leaned in, wiped away the tears and snot on Kai's face with a handkerchief, and coaxed, "Okay, young man, stop crying. When you come back next time, uncle will pick you up in a Santana car. He slapped Gou Xiaosi on the head and cursed: "Son of a bitch, what the hell are you calling?!" The jeep sped all the way, leaving the horse-drawn carts, donkey carts, four-wheel tractors, walk-behind tractors, cyclists, and pedestrians behind in the smoke and dust.At that time, only a strip of asphalt about five meters wide was paved in the middle of the road in Tuntong County, Ximen, and the sides of the road were still sandy.Now, the road in Tongxian County, Ximentun Special Development Zone has been expanded to a two-way eight-lane concrete pavement.Neatly trimmed holly trees are planted on both sides of the road, and there is also a pagoda-shaped thorn pine at an interval of ten meters.Clusters of yellow and pink roses are planted in the isolation belt between the upper and lower roads.The jeep trembled and creaked.Jin Long drove the fast car in a fit of anger, knocking on the steering wheel from time to time, and the whistle was sometimes short like a dog barking, and sometimes shrill like a wolf howling.I firmly grasped the iron bar in front of me, and fell silent: "Dude, are the wheel screws tight?" "Don't worry," Jin Long said, "We are world-class racing drivers." As he spoke, the speed of the car slowed down significantly.After the car passed the donkey shop, the road continued to meander along the big river, and the flowing water in the river was reflected golden.A runabout painted blue and white floated down the river.Jinlong said: "Nephew Open, Uncle, I am very ambitious. I want Northeast Gaomi Township to become a blessed place on earth, we want Ximentun to become a pearl by the river, and we want your poor county town to become a suburb of our Ximentun. Do you believe it or not?" Be open and silent.I turned around and said, "Uncle asked you something!" But the boy had already fallen asleep, and his saliva was dripping on Gou Xiaosi's head.That Gou Xiaosi stared dazedly, probably because he was dizzy! He Zuo looked sideways at the river, and turned the side with the wart to me, pouted, as if he was still angry. When approaching the county seat, we saw Hong Taiyue.He was riding a broken bicycle—an old thing from the days of “Da Qi Raising Pigs”—wearing a broken straw hat, hunched over, shaking his shoulders, pedaling hard up and down, sweat soaking the clothes behind him , The clothes are covered with loess. "Hong Taiyue." I said. "I saw it a long time ago," Jin Long said, "I probably have to go to the county party committee again to file a complaint." "Sue whom?" "Sue whoever catches you." Jin Long paused for a moment, and said with a smile, "He and our old man are actually two sides of the same coin." Jin Long patted the horn and flashed past him. But, again, "Taiyue is hard to be a brother, blue face is hard to be a brother, hard brother is hard to be a brother!" I turned around and saw Hong Taiyue's car swung a few times, but did not fall.He immediately becomes smaller.A burst of cursing followed sharply: "Ximen Jinlong! My ancestor! You son of a bully landlord..." "I know by heart what he scolded me by heart." Jin Long said with a smile, "He is actually a lovely old man!" In front of our house, Jinlong stopped the car, but did not turn off the engine, he said: "Liberation, cooperation, we have all thrown thirty and forty, and today, I finally understand something, that is, it's okay to make trouble with anyone, but don't make trouble with yourself!" "Speak the truth," I said. "Fart," he said, "I went to Shenzhen last month and met a beautiful girl, and she had a saying, 'You can't change me'! I said, 'I can change myself!'" "What do you mean?" I said. "Then you are confused!" He turned the jeep around like a bull hitting a red cloth, stretched out a hand wearing a white glove, and scratched us twice, with weird and childish movements, and then Then ran away.A yellow chicken from the neighbor's aunt's family got under his car and was crushed into meatloaf.He didn't seem to notice.I lifted the yellow chicken from the ground and knocked on the door of the aunt, but no one answered.I thought about it, took out twenty yuan, poked it on the chicken feet, and stuffed the chicken in under the threshold.At that time, it was still possible to raise chickens and geese in the county. The front neighbor of my house separated half of the yard, paved with a layer of gravel, and raised two ostriches. He stood in the yard and said to his son as well as to the dog: "This is our home." I took out the box of rabies vaccine from my purse, handed it to her, and said coldly: "Hurry up and put it in the refrigerator, inject once every three days, don't forget." "Your sister said that rabies is fatal?" she asked. I nod. "Then you just got what you want?" She said, grabbed the rabies vaccine, turned and went into the kitchen, where the refrigerator was.
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