Chapter 16 Sixteen Cao Yuefang's second narration

(seventh bullet missed) It should be said that Dong Lin rushed out of Yu Dacheng's office that day with a strong feeling of loss and despair. It should also be said that this feeling of loss and despair almost brought his spirit to the verge of collapse.Don't think that I am deliberately exaggerating in front of you.If you can understand the almost "sacred" respect and yearning for "organization", "comrades" and "leadership" of our generation, and understand that in order to go to Taurigan to carry out this mission, Donglin once had a lot in his heart. After all the struggles, you can understand why he fell into such a loss and despair that day, why he left Yu Dacheng's office and forgot to close the car window in such a thunderstorm, letting the heavy rain In that way, I drove around the city aimlessly for almost an entire hour, making myself so embarrassed...

... Then, when he returned to Taurigan, he locked himself in the room, refused to see anyone for two or three days, and refused to go to work in the company.He called in sick.His situation at that time was indeed the same as that of a serious illness. His face was gray and he lost weight rapidly. At the beginning, he didn't even have the thought and strength to speak, and he refused to see a doctor. It really frightened our family and made us anxious.During those two days, the provincial light industry company called me every day to urge me to go back to the provincial capital.They held a training class for advanced technicians, and they are eagerly waiting for me to start the class.But with Donglin's appearance, how could I just leave with a wave of my hand? And I dare not tell Donglin's wife and daughter.I am afraid that they will be worried, and I am even more afraid that the matter will become a big problem, and it will become more difficult to explain clearly.So, I asked the leader of the training class to move my class back, and insisted on guarding by Donglin's side for two days.Donglin's condition suddenly improved that day. He who hadn't eaten all this time actually drank half a bowl of minced meat porridge and half a steamed bun.In the evening, I still took a walk in the yard.In the evening, I, who had been anxious and angry for several days, was exhausted.Finally able to breathe a sigh of relief, I wanted to take a rest earlier; I didn't expect that as soon as I lay down, I heard Dong Lin coming out of his room, as if he wanted to say something to me.Walking around in front of my room hesitantly.I was exhausted and forced myself to get out of bed.Open the door = He said to me apologetically that he hadn't shaved in a few days and wanted to borrow my razor.I quickly prepared hot water and some utensils for him, but he just sat there.Didn't mean to shave. "What's wrong? What's wrong?" I asked = he smiled wryly.He patted the sofa next to him and said to me: "Stay with me for a while... These two days have ruined your family. I really do..." While blaming himself, he smiled bitterly again smiled.His wry smile made me sad.I have been with him for so many years, and I have never seen him so humble and blamed himself so much. "Forget it. Yu Datou has Yu Datou's difficulties, so you just want to open it up..." I took the opportunity to persuade him. "Sit for a while..." He begged again: Give me an obvious feeling, after being alone in the room for a few days, he wants to talk to someone, wants to vent = I think.This is also good.Simply asking him to talk about it would help him calm down and cheer him up, so he immediately followed him and said, "If you really don't want to sleep, I'll accompany you to my study to sit for a while?" In the other corner, no matter how you talk there, it won't disturb other people's rest.Sure enough, he happily followed me to the study.Sure enough, they sat down without chatting a few words.He began to tell me about the background of this secret investigation in Taurigan when he accepted the mission: he never told me about these situations in detail.It's also inconvenient for me to ask him.Unexpectedly, today he took the initiative to confide.

He said that he still had some concerns when he received the task from Yu Dacheng at Xing'an Hotel that day.He didn't come home right away.After leaving the gate of Xing'an Hotel, I drove the old "Poussin" in the detachment, and went back to the old catalpa tree in the southwest corner of the central square in the city center, looking at the square and the square that gradually became deserted under the heavy night Opposite the sturdy and huge reinforced concrete building built during the Japanese Puppet Period, looking at the cars driving in and out from the quiet and dark street next to the building.The traffic of bicycles coming and going, he asked himself, is it necessary to get involved in such a big thing? Even if it is "still necessary".Now that he has reached this age group, is there still a possibility to "fight against" some people? He knows.In this matter, what I will face is not an ordinary criminal, otherwise people like Yu Datou would not have made things so mysterious and cautious.He also knows that such a thing is often a series of cases - it will definitely involve a series of people, and it will be a series of very remarkable people.In order not to lose the vested interests in their hands, they will definitely set off a huge vortex to fight back.Although from a common sense analysis, there must be an expert behind Yu Datou - the old secretary is supporting him, but the old secretary himself has left the center of power; although people still maintain a high degree of respect for the elderly, but, Relying on that bit of "respect" alone is ultimately powerless to calm down those major whirlpools.This should be a very simple physics formula: in the confrontation of forces, one always ebbs and another grows.This is also a very common social and political common sense.And experience tells Mr. Lao that in a small remote place like Taurigan, the rules and regulations in all aspects are not perfect. If it expands and develops so rapidly in a few years, there will definitely be some people and things that violate the rules.It depends on whether you want to investigate; whether you have the strength to investigate; when to investigate; and to what extent.As long as you go to check, it can be said that every check is accurate.As for who the problem will be found out in the end, it's hard to say, so we have to check it out.The water is clear without fish.But the water is too muddy, and the fish will die in the end. How to determine the boundary between "Zhiqing" and "Too Hun" and how to grasp the proportions are indeed being tested all the time, and also test the cleanliness of each ruler's heart and conscience, courage, wisdom and skills in politics.The problem now is that a "Taurigan Group" has emerged. (Please forgive me for borrowing this folk saying.) One of its important "members", the deputy mayor of the provincial capital, shot and killed; The secretary and mayor of the municipal party committee, the current acting governor, and one of the main leading members of the provincial party committee.And the current acting governor was chosen by the old secretary.The old secretary felt uneasy about this, and wanted to find out the "fame" here, and wanted to send one or two reliable and capable people to go quietly to the "water" first, find out the details, and then decide what remedial measures to take .As a former "big border official" who loved this land deeply and once dominated the fate of this land, his mood and intentions are of course completely understandable.But this matter is not something that can be "stopped" after a "taste".Once you poke the hornets out of the nest, the situation will no longer be controlled by your wishful thinking! He is the old secretary, no matter how far things go, no one can touch him.And what are you, Lao Donglin? The deputy captain of a small major case detachment.If it is really a swarm of "hornets" that you stabbed out, and if you can't deal with them, then this swarm of "hornets" will definitely sting you half to death if you are not killed.

Do you want to do it? ... This night, Mr. Lao couldn't sleep.Of course, his wife Quanying also really felt this point.He sat up from the bed several times, lay down several times, put on his slippers several times, and quietly went to the dark balcony to smoke.Quanying didn't ask him what happened.for many years.She is used to it.Either there are no clues to the case for a while, or the existing clues are suddenly interrupted, or there are major differences in the direction of solving the case with most leaders.Donglin will toss himself like this.But tonight was decidedly different.It's really "several times and three times", which is rare, and it is a long time in a daze on the balcony, it seems so lack of self-confidence, and there is a gloomy blackness in the brows, as if a catastrophe is about to come .But she didn't dare to ask questions.She wasn't afraid of anything else, but she didn't want to bother him. Besides, what can I do if I ask? Could it be possible to help him solve the case? Experience told her that at this moment, don't ask, don't move, just keep A kind of quietness, a kind of normality.Let him toss himself in the kind of thinking and reasoning he must; and wait until daybreak.He has also figured out a little bit of tricks, and at that time, quickly make him a cup of strong coffee (or a cup of good jasmine tea), and prepare a large bucket of hot water, let him sip the coffee slowly ( or tea).While soaking in a hot bath thoroughly, in the middle of "rinsing inside and outside together", completely relaxing, it is better than anything else.That's all he needs from you.Donglin is indeed quite machismo in front of his wife.This is his usual style.

Since it is so difficult.Why didn't you simply reject this "appointment"? Yu Datou made it very clear: the big idea is still up to you: why didn't he refuse? This point may be unknown to outsiders: as an old police officer, Lord Lao Get used to "obedience" and "execution".In the face of all kinds of "errands" pressed down from above, it is often difficult for him to shirk, and he will not shirk.For decades, I have been used to such a situation: if you can do it, you have to do it, and if you can't do it, you have to do it.also.It is also very important, as an excellent old criminal policeman, he has a natural and almost irresistible longing for "big and important cases".This can also be said to be driven by a "sense of responsibility".This "sense of responsibility" is reflected in Lord Lao.Sometimes it becomes a kind of blind "conceit": no one can do this except me. "Who else is it?!" He has suffered from this "conceit" all his life, and he has always wanted to get rid of this "conceit", but he has never been able to change it, and at the same time, he secretly thinks that he can have such a "conceit" And proud...

There is another reason, which is deeper.If he didn't say it himself, I would definitely not be able to analyze it there.In his early years, he was punished, expelled from the party, and revoked the title of second-level hero model.Although the party membership was restored later, the pain and shock left by the punishment obviously affected his life in the second half of his life, and it can even be said that he changed his way of life in the second half of his life.You may have already learned about Dong Lin's personality.In fact, before he was punished, his personality was ten or a hundred times more prominent than it is now.Enthusiastic, unrestrained, generous, smart, capable, good at making friends, good at fighting injustices, and quite self-willed.There is also a fatal "weakness": I have something in my heart, and I can't hide it.As the saying goes, this kid is a real man who dares to speak and act.It was young and smooth sailing.The great honor came to him, the flowers applauded, the clouds and mountains were shrouded in mist, and indeed he couldn't control himself a little bit.On the one hand, I didn’t handle the relationship with my direct leader well, on the other hand, I did indulge myself a bit in some details of life, and made some friends that I shouldn’t have made, including some friends of the opposite sex who didn’t behave so well.He didn't take the leader's exhortations seriously, and a fall was bound to happen.However, it was he and many people who never expected that things would go so far as to be "expelled from the party" and "revoked the title of hero model".Suddenly fell from heaven to hell.Only then did he begin to understand the necessity, cruelty, and enlightenment of the phrase "behave with your tail between your legs" in contemporary China.It took him many years to regain his confidence in life, and he finally became one of the top ten detectives in the province and the deputy captain of the major case detachment of the corps, bringing his career and life back on track.But the "Lao Donglin" at this time is definitely not the "Lao Donglin" in the early years, and has already become the "Lao Donglin" who deeply understands the importance of "being a man with his tail between his legs".There has been no sign of straightening him as the "deputy detachment leader" in the hall, and he has been reminded from time to time that this "tail" must continue to be "clamped", and there must be no relaxation for a moment...

Since then, he has indeed learned to be obedient, to look forward and backward, to look left and right.Especially on major issues, he will never "make his own claims".He became easygoing and humble.The only thing that still makes people feel a little uncomfortable is that there are slightly more marriages and divorces.But there was no way around it, because everything happened within the scope permitted by the law, and once or twice, the woman was the first to ask for divorce. In this way, from the age of forty, to fifty, and then to fifty-five... Everyone, including himself, thought that "Lao Donglin" would definitely live like this for the rest of his life.Then retire, and then someone will come back to hire, or find a place to continue to play the remaining heat.But I didn't expect that such a one would be "killed" in the end."Cheng Yaojin" and asked him to secretly go to Taoligan to do investigations. Although he was worried at first, it made him excited. He was very gratified that his value as a human being was finally fully appreciated over the years. Secondly, things The unconventional form he has also inspired the impulse and passion in his heart that he had forcibly suppressed for many years. Why didn't he dare to do it again? Since there is a "tail", as long as it does not hurt others, why must it be Want to let it be caught? Why can’t I decide my own way of life? Why do I have to live by looking at other people’s eyes?

Yes, do it as you wish! After passing this village, there may be no more shops like this.Do it!! This is Lord Lao. Through a night of repeated thinking and inventory.He moved himself: Don't hesitate, go to Taurigan first.It's no good, can't we just ring the gong and withdraw the troops in time? The boat will go straight when it reaches the bridge.Can a living person be suffocated by urine? Really! While comforting himself in this way, he found a way out for himself, but at the same time he knew in his heart that as long as he took this step, the way out would be automatically cut off.This is like an arrow shot out, there are only two prospects: either it hits the target and hits the target as it wishes, or it passes by the target, and then staggers in the air to exhaust the last bit of strength. Struggling to the last moment and falling to the ground, and honorably dedicating: other than this, there will be no third ending, and there will never be a chance and possibility of turning back...

A tragic life path is both what he yearned for and what he was afraid of; what he was afraid of, but also what he longed for... This is Mr. Lao... From what he said, you can see that when he decided to go to Taurigan to conduct this secret investigation, he went through a major ideological struggle, made various mental preparations, and imagined the worst consequences. Yes, but I just didn't expect that the old secretary would suddenly fall ill and be in a coma from then on. I didn't expect that the old secretary would leave any "last words" on this matter before he passed out, let alone that Yu Dacheng would be so He quickly chose himself out of this matter, and "abandoned" Lao Donglin so quickly... Abandoned Lao Donglin without hesitation ...

"Chilling... Yuefang, it's really chilling... This Yu Datou is young, but he is already a senior cadre of our party. How can he do this? Ah? How can he do this?" That night, Donglin repeatedly asked me this question. "Hey... what can't be figured out... Let's put you in the position of Yu Datou. Once this happens, what will you do? You will scramble to take care of everything. To yourself? It involves a reigning acting governor, can you handle it? Who dares to handle it?!!" I said. "According to you, Yu Datou is right to do this? He can only do this? He must do this? Should he do this?"

"That's not..." "What should that be?" "Maybe there is nothing here that should or should not be said." "For him, there is nothing that should or should not be said. What about me? I should bear all this?" "Hi……" "He can treat me like this, can I treat others like this?" "Donglin Donglin Donglin, why do you look like a third-grade elementary school student? Why are you arguing with others?" "..." He stopped talking, lowered his head, and sat still. The next day, he went to work.I also hurried back to the provincial capital.According to what my family told me, he didn't often come to live in my house afterwards.When I went to Taurigan to see him again, I found that his situation had changed a lot in all aspects, and he became less talkative.Sometimes you will suddenly give me a cold look as if looking at a stranger, which makes you feel uncomfortable.Later I found out that his looking at people like this seemed to be a subconscious behavior.Because, in an instant, this indifference and suspicion will be replaced by the usual easy-going and calm, and everything seems to be more or less the same as usual.It's just that in the middle of "almost", you often feel a little abnormal. This abnormality is that he looks at you, an old friend, more and more frequently with the eyes of looking at strangers.It does make you uneasy.Then I heard that his night life became more and more "rich", and I also heard that he was more and more "indulgent" when he participated in or organized various activities in those nights... Regarding this aspect, I think You must have heard some... (Speaking of which, Cao Nan knocked on the door and wanted to come in to give her father an injection. Cao Yuefang has suffered from diabetes for many years, and now she has to rely on insulin injections to maintain her daily maintenance. After the injection, Cao Nan reminded her father, do you want to rest for a while before continuing? I’m tired of talking so much in one go; I can’t stand listening to you talking for so long without moving. Cao Yuefang waved to his daughter and said, “It’s alright, alright, comrades in the working group have precious time. Take a break and wait for them Let’s go and rest. You have to be kind and make some snacks to fill us up. Then, he continued.) As far as I know, the first time Dong Lin came back to Taoligan to check the situation, he got some information, which also prompted him to make up his mind to "do a thorough job" in Taoligan, that is to say, at that time he made up his mind to The matter between the "Governor Gu" and the so-called "Taurigan Group" was "discovered".Otherwise, he will not resign, nor will he take off his police uniform: let an old policeman, when he is about to retire.How easy is it to resign from the police uniform?! He really took this matter as a big deal.That's how he is, either he doesn't do it, he does it well, and he does it to the end = there is such a taste of a desperate Saburo. At that time, there were two things that everyone paid special attention to = one was the relationship between Gu Dai Governor and Rao Shangdu, the boss of Far East Shengtang Company.The other thing is the relationship between the Acting Governor Gu and the Deputy Mayor Zhu.Rao Shangdu "blindly flowed" to Taoligan more than ten years ago.He claimed to be a "Beijing native" and his father was a cadre in the capital.How old are the cadres? He purposely spoke vaguely and mysteriously: he later said that his father did this.After a while, he said that he was doing that, and finally he said that he was the former deputy director of the North China Bureau.But in the end, it was found out that all of this was made up by him casually: but someone believed it at that time.This aspect has something to do with the shallowness of people in this small place of Taurigan who are easy to deceive.On the other hand, he is tall and tall, fair and clean, speaks an authentic "Beijing accent", and has a good conversation.And it has something to do with being generous; especially when someone asks him to go to Beijing to do something.Don't tell me, there were a few times when he managed it.But then it was revealed.Someone from Beijing came to investigate his responsibility for a financial fraud incident and took him away.As one of the participants in the financial fraud, he was sentenced to one year and three months in prison.Later, after serving his sentence and being released, he returned to Taurigan, spent a few days hanging around, and crossed the river to seek development in Russia.This kid has enough brains.Seeing the trend of keeping pets started to rise in China, it didn't take long to open up the "passage" from Ukraine, Moscow to Vashensk, and sell "European famous dogs" to China from there, making a lot of money.Then hired a group of "thugs" to "clean up" and monopolize the local famous dog market.At that time, many Chinese people were also doing dog business on the other side.Because of his bullying and dominating the market, he was beaten, and he wrote letters back to complain to the relevant parties in the country.Due to the relationship between China and Russia, Beijing pays more attention to it and directs instructions. It is hoped that the provinces, prefectures and counties will attach great importance to this matter, and unite with Russia to crack down on "underworld forces among ethnic Chinese" and fight for the legitimate rights and interests of compatriots doing business in accordance with the law on the other side. .Under the guidance of the provincial and local public security organs, the county party committee and the county government immediately mobilized personnel from the public security, procuratorate, and industry and commerce departments to form a joint working group to work on the other side.At that time, Gu Liyuan was still the deputy chief of the county government office in Taoligan County.He was sent to this "Joint Crackdown Working Group" as the deputy team leader.It was during that crackdown on gangsters that he met Mr. Rao Shangdu.One is the main force in cracking down on gangsters, and the other is the main target of being beaten. How did they become "good friends"? This has always been Taoligan's "mystery through the ages".The fact is that Rao Shangdu later played an indispensable and important role in several major events in which Gu Liyuan changed Tao Ligen's appearance.For example, Gu Liyuan's first action after he assisted the leader in winning the "border trade rights" was to exchange fruit for the opponent's fertilizer, and the iron barge used for transportation was rented for Gu by Rao Shangdu.Later, when Gu Liyuan developed the large shopping mall in the center of Taurigan City, everyone said that this idea was good, but no one dared to spend money to implement this idea. Mortgage, borrowing from the bank for risk development, practiced the second step of Gu Liyuan's strategic conception of "turning Taurigan into a famous border city in high latitudes".Of course, Gu Weirao also created an amazing "source of wealth".One thing that everyone in Taurigan knows is that with the help of Gu Hezhu, Rao Shangdu once obtained hundreds of acres of land in a prime location near the riverside wharf at a price that was many times lower than the market price.Then, in the ensuing upsurge of Taurigan development, the land prices along the river rose several times and dozens of times.With the money he earned from selling these lands, Boss Rao has developed several hot-selling properties in several hotspots in the city. He also obtained a license to develop affordable housing from the city government. Treatment, reduction or exemption of many additional costs, but the best market sales rate.On the first day of the opening of the affordable housing complex, almost thousands of residents and foreign merchants lined up all night to get the number plate for buying a house.On this day, an unprecedentedly brilliant page in the history of real estate development and sales in the Taurigan area was written... Rao Shangdu then became the number one rich businessman and celebrity in the Taurigan area, and then became a member of the CPPCC in the Taurigan City.It is said that the funds used by Rao Budu to purchase the land at that time were all borrowed from the bank with the help of Yi Hezhu.Take the words of the common people in Taurigan.It was the "Communist Party" who "paid the bill" for him, using "the hard-earned money of our common people."In the eyes of Taurigan people, there is an inexplicable relationship of interest between Gu and Rao, Gu and Zhu, Rao and Zhu after starting a family.People naturally want to ask, why all the money in the bank is used by Boss Rao and not me? Why can’t I get so much money when I go for a loan? Is it because Boss Rao is more courageous than me? It’s not just that Right... So all kinds of legends, all kinds of guesses, all kinds of stories, all kinds of grievances... like the poplars in early summer, appeared in the streets and alleys of Taoligen one after another.If you don't brush it away, it will come again after you abandon it. Arguments come to an end, but the mountains, rivers and fields of Taurigan are still beautiful, and they are becoming more and more beautiful and attractive.The river water is clear.The sky is blue, the trees are towering, and the horizon is always so clearly and calmly displayed in the unattainable place... As for the relationship between Gu Liyuan and Zhu Lei, it should be said to be quite normal.Many of Zhu Lei’s circumstances are similar to Gu Liyuan’s: he was born as a commoner, graduated from university, and “unfortunately” failed to stay in a big city to realize his life’s dream, so he had to return to his hometown in a small county to make a living, and he was a teacher in the county experimental middle school at the beginning...they left Getting together seems like an inevitable thing to happen.The difference is that Gu Liyuan is generous, hot and tough.Zhu Lei is introverted, thoughtful, and careful.Gu Liyuan insisted on going into politics.Go official career.I didn’t work as a teacher in the experimental middle school for a few days, so I entrusted some people and became a clerk in the county government agency. Zhu Lei was keen on education. If it hadn’t been for the series of accidents that happened later, he might have become a clerk. Quite an excellent education expert.people say.During Tao Liman's time, Zhu Lei was Gu Liyuan's "Military Adviser" and "General Manager", helping out ideas.Handle and implement specific matters.At that time, the two of them still did a few great things that people praised.The above-mentioned "replacing fertilizer with fruit" and the development of the central shopping mall in Taurigan City...including the bold use of people like Rao Shangdu who are energetic, courageous and business-minded, but have a few criminal records. The "strategy" formulated after repeated "secret business" by people.A major turning point in Gu Liyuan's fate was his appointment as Party Secretary and Mayor of Taurrigan City.This enabled him to obtain a platform and necessary power to fully display his talents.At that time, he hoped that Zhu Lei could stay in Taurigan as his deputy and realize a "sprint" in life together.However, Zhu Lei still persuaded Gu Liyuan to become a lecturer at the Provincial College of Finance and Economics. He fulfilled his wish and studied for more than a year. He published several textual research papers on the history of Sino-Russian border trade, and he was brought up again. Associate professor; after a while, Gu Liyuan became the deputy governor of the province, in charge of industry, transportation, finance and trade, and urgently needed someone to "assist", so regardless of Zhu Lei's "opposition", he was transferred to the office of the Economic and Trade Commission as the deputy director. Since then, Zhu Lei has completely left the education circle and officially embarked on an official career, until he was appointed as the deputy mayor of the provincial capital.It should be said that Zhu Lei's rapid improvement has a lot to do with Gu Liyuan.Therefore, everyone in the provincial capital knew that Zhu Lei belonged to Gu.But how did such a "Vice Mayor Zhu" get into the situation of "shooting and killing"? And how could his shooting and killing have something to do with Gu Liyuan? I'm not quite sure about this.After Mr. Lao came to Taurigan, he put a lot of effort into this aspect, and it should be said that he has mastered some situations.I also asked him insinuatingly.But he always found some plausible words to deal with me, and never told me the truth. (Shao Changshui interjected: "I'm sorry, I have to interrupt you. I suddenly thought of a question. I was afraid I would forget it later, so I had to ask it quickly. You mentioned last time that Mr. Lao was in a hurry to find Yu Dacheng, but he was not received. , I was greatly stimulated. But there is one key issue, which you seem to have not explained clearly, that is, why did Master Lao rush to find Yu Dacheng at that time? Did he encounter any major problems at that time? ") Didn't I make it clear last time? Then I'm really confused.In fact, I learned the details of this aspect from Mr. Lao after the fact.At first, Master Lao didn't tell me anything.He is really a criminal investigator, and he has a tight mouth.It wasn't until he was stimulated by Yu Dacheng that he became "seriously ill" that he slowly told me a little bit about the situation at that time.He said that he went to Yu Dacheng because he was particularly conflicted.On the one hand, as the investigation in Taurigan deepened, more and more information was obtained. Many things that I did not understand before are now beginning to understand; What was once vague, is gradually becoming clearer now.However, my mood became more and more restless and contradictory.Many problems were not solved, but made him feel even more confused. (Shao Changshui interjected: "For example, what problems?") For example, how should we view Acting Governor Gu? How should we view the rise of "private entrepreneurs" and groups of private entrepreneurs like Rao Shangdu? How should we view the "task" I did in Taoligan? Just how necessary and legal is it? Wait, that is to say, he began to doubt the rationality of his coming to Taurrigan, and began to doubt that he had resigned from the police uniform and paid such a high price. Is it worth it... (Shao Changshui was startled, and hurriedly interrupted: "Why?") ... go deeper.He didn't want to say it again.He said.For more, you don't need to ask, don't ask for those unhappiness.Besides, I really don't know very well.If I could explain all these clearly, why did I have to go to Yu Datou crying and shouting? (Shao Changshui hurriedly asked: "In your estimation, who else might he tell about this matter?") To whom? It is possible to tell no one... If you want to say... I think it is possible to tell two people, one.Of course it's Su Tae-gu... (Shao Changshui asked again: "Is his relationship with Shou Taiqiu so close? Even more than you two?") of course.I am more of a life friend with him.Just an old friendship.When he first arrived in Taurigan, he was unfamiliar with the place.I provide him with housing, food, reliable interpersonal relationships, and clues to solve problems... But the relationship between him and Shou Taegu is more about this (he pointed to his head as he said) ). (Shao Changshui interjected: "Why did he get involved with Shou Taiqiu? They are not in the same circle or on the same level in any way. Ordinarily, even if they are holding a lantern and a magnifying glass , these two people may not be able to take the picture above.") Who says no? But the situation in this regard.You really have to go to Shoutai and ask about it.It depends on whether Shou Taiqiu is willing to tell you the truth.Now that he is the boss of a large group company with tens of billions of assets, it is hard to say whether he will easily get involved in such a thing.Look at that Yu Dacheng, isn't that the case? They understand too well that in politics, as long as they don't have a personal stake in them, and they don't directly issue orders from their superiors, they absolutely follow the principle of "one thing more is worse than one thing less". .You really can't blame anyone for this.These are the current rules of the game.Unwritten, but climatic rules of the game. (Shao Changshui asked: "Who is the other one?") Hmm... this other one... You should go to Shou Taiqiu first.The person surnamed Shou really refuses to say anything, and I will help you find the "other one". (Shao Changshui laughed and said, "What's the matter? Are you still playing with us?") Not to keep one hand, definitely not to keep one hand.Don't get me wrong.It's just a little inconvenient.It's all about personal reasons, personal reasons.If we can not find that one, let's not look for it.If it doesn't work, let's talk about the next step. Here I would like to add a situation that Dong Lin knew about Zhu Lei's shooting and killing, I was the first to provide him with it. (Shao Changshui asked: "Where did you get this information?") This is a long story to say, and I will "explain" to you step by step in the future.Why do I have to talk about Zhu Lei's "shooting and killing people" first? Because this may be of great help to you in understanding Donglin's inner changes at that time.When Dong Lin heard about this situation, he was greatly shocked, which may have deepened his inner conflict and pain. In fact, since Zhu Lei's accident, there have been rumors circulating in the society: Zhu Lei shot and killed people out of "helplessness", because he was "framed" by some serious and fell into a hopeless situation from which he could not escape. The "impulsive actions" and "radical actions" are completely typical examples of "rabbits will bite people when they are in a hurry".The actual situation is probably the same: in order to obtain the support of some leaders in the province in terms of financing and engineering project bidding, a listed company in Taurigan privately gave hundreds of thousands of employee shares to some leaders.This relationship was entrusted to Zhu Lei.The reason why they approached Zhu Lei was nothing more than the following reasons: first, because he was a "Taurigan"; second, his relationship with Gu Liyuan was "very strong", and Gu Liyuan had already entered the provincial government He is also a member of the Standing Committee of the Provincial Committee, and it is also rumored that he will replace the original governor to preside over the work of the provincial government; third, his ears are relatively soft, which means that he is easy to speak and can speak well.This is also a major characteristic of our people in Taurigan: it can be called an advantage or a disadvantage.Taurigan people value friendship.You just have to ask him well.Use emotions to impress him, and they will often settle down and do things for you that they shouldn't have done.Zhu Lei really didn't want to get involved in such "embarrassing things" at first. He knew what the consequences would be if such things were exposed.But as others have analyzed him.他的耳朵根比较软，经不住来自家乡的人的一再“软磨硬泡”，他妥协了。案发后，他万分后悔地总结道，千不该万不该，最不该的还是我自己的那点私心。陶里根那家上市公司老总除了“动之以情”．还使了另一招：带着市政府秘书处的一位秘书一起来找祝磊。这位年轻的秘书也是陶里根人，而且是祝磊把他从陶里根介绍到省城来的．勤慎，机敏，很快就熟悉适应了机关工作和上层政治生活中的许多门道。他反复劝祝磊，帮这家上市公司一把=他说了不少理由=但大部分都被祝磊否了。其中有两条却把祝磊说动了。一条是。别人求您带他们引见一下省领导，顺便捎一点好处去。您不去。假如这些领导的原则性和党性真的像他们平时在公开场合表现出来的那么强，那倒没什么。万一不是，消息又传到他们耳朵里．对您就很不利了。他们会暗自怪罪您堵了他们的财路，觉得您对他们不贴心，不会办事，不替他们着想，不是他们的人。current.省委正在考察市里你们这几位副市长，确定下一任市长的继任人选=在这关毽时刻，您要得罪了某位省领导．他不仅不替您在常委会上说话。相反再说您几句坏话，在竞争如此激烈的情况下，您觉得自己有可能被确定为市长人选吗?以您的年龄来计算，在这两三年里如果不能被提到副省级的市长位置上．那么您的仕途也就到此为止了=这可是关键的一步啊。这一步跨得上去，前程无量。这一步要跨不上去，不用我说，您也明白，这副市长就是您人生最后一站了=您甘心就此停下自己前进的脚步吗?再说了，这殴票又不是您自己吞了。您只是起一个引见的作用。引见到领导跟前．领导还不一定会拿这股票。这样，您方方面面的人情关系都照颐了．也没做什么特别出格的事。何乐而不为呢?祝磊沉默了。他当时真还挺感谢这位小张秘书的，觉得，只有“老乡”才会这么“知心”。他沉默，是因为他很清楚，顾立源这些年变化不小，虽然干事还是那么的风风火火，还是那么的富有进取心和开拓精神，但有一点变化是让祝磊“噤若寒蝉”，又感到“触目惊心”的，那就是他绝不容忍身边的人不跟他一条心。用他的话来说就是：“你们要不愿跟我合穿一条裤子，我干吗要把你们搁在我身边?”还有一个变化就是有一点“忘乎所以”。那还是在陶里根时期，在市委书记兼市长任上，有一回祝磊从省城回陶里根找顾立源办事。当时祝磊已经担任财经学院副院长了，为建立学生毕业实习基地的事，来找顾市长、顾书记帮忙，一走进顾立源办公室，就听到他正跟某公司一位女老总在吼叫。那个女老总大概是来纠缠顾立源，想承包市政上一项灯箱广告工程，把顾立源缠烦了。顾立源冷笑着训斥道：“你说我凭什么要把这块肥肉送到你嘴里?你说你是跟我上过床，还是给过我别的啥好处?”那女老板忙迎合道：“顾老板，只要您有这话，这事就好办了。上床，我想就算了，我这黄脸婆别上赶着让人恶心了。别的好处，有您今天这话， 我立马去办……您就甭管了。”“行啦。”顾立源又大声吼叫起来，“上一回把爱国路到卫国路那一段街面绿化美化工程包给了你。你他妈的净捞了多少?工程还没结束，你就把你闺女送英国去了，还听说花了好几十万英镑在那儿给你那位十九岁的宝贝闺女和她的未婚夫买了幢房子。市里搞希望工程捐款，你他妈的捐了多少?我特地去查了一下，捐了一千五百元。哈哈。一千五百大元。你寒碜谁呢?打发哪个叫花子呢?'，“那不是刚把闺女送出去，手头有点紧不是?这回我一准把你们市委几个主要领导的孩子的出国经费都承包了……”“你给我歇着去吧!”大概是看到祝磊来了，那女老板就赶紧住嘴，不再说下去了。可顾立源却不管不顾地仍然当着祝磊的面把她训了个一溜够。等那个女老板灰溜溜地走了，祝磊笑着跟顾立源说：“你老兄咋跟人家女同志说话来着，一口一个他妈的，还说啥上床不上床的话?”顾立源却满不在乎地说道：“她也能算'女同志'?”祝磊忙说：“嗨，嗨，那又怎么的了?按十五大精神，这些民企老板不都是我们的同志?你看咱们那位饶大哥……”顾立源又吼了起来：“你怎么拿她跟饶大哥比?饶大哥咋做人?上一回我让电视台和日报同时发了个号召．让全市人民施援手救助贫困山区学生，他带了个很好的头，一出手就掏了五十万。市政府大楼翻修，他又蔫不唧地掏一二百万。你现在看到的大楼里的所有的灯具，都是他掏钱买的，还不让媒体宣传。啥叫'同志'?啥叫'自己人'?这才是哩。咋比嘛?!告诉你祝磊，你别跟我来这一套，我不管他十几大还是多少大，不管他是哪种精神，只要是只进不出、只吞不吐的王八蛋，我肯定让他一边捎着去。 ”“那你也不能跟一个女人说啥上床不上床的话=她要故意掇弄你，把这话传出去，你说你一个市委书记……”“怎么了?让她上大街上嚷嚷去，说顾书记要跟她上床。你说咱陶里根有几个人能信她这鬼话?跟她上床?哈哈……你瞧她刁蛮猴子样儿，脱光了送到我跟前，我都不想瞧她一眼，还上床呢?哈哈……”祝磊说：“那你也得注意一点说话的方式方法……”他立即显得非常不耐烦地打断了他的话，很不高兴地说道：“行啦行啦，祝副院长。有啥事要求我，快说。我下边还有个挺重要的外事活动在等着哩。 " 顾立源以前确实不这样。虽然干事风风火火，但在他血管里多多少少地总还是流淌着一些他那位小科员出身、一辈子谨小慎微的父亲的血，内心的卑微和颐虑．还是在私底下支撑着他所有那些大大咧咧的行动。但现在，早就应该消失的那种卑微固然消失了，但必要的谨慎和分寸感似乎也跟着一起不见了，几乎成了一个完全得罪不得，也冒犯不起的人了…… 考虑到这些情况，祝磊最后决定替那个上市公司引见顾立源。为保险起见，他先断然拒绝了这家公司原本要给他的那二十万份职工股。同时，他认为为他们引见顾立源，比引见别的领导更保险。因为他觉得依自己对颐的了解．他是不会收受这些职工股的。因此，即便带他们去见了顾．今后也不会出什么事。又为了今后能有个人来证明自己没有拿这些股票．他让张秘书陪着，一起参与了全过程。一切似乎都盘算得非常嗣密．却万万没有想到，接下来的事情偏偏就坏在了这个张秘书身上。顾立源果然如祝磊预料的那样，一分都没收受那些股票。但中纪委还是很快就收到了这样的揭发信，说这里有人给省领导送职工股行贿。那段时间，中纪委已经发现了几起类似的事件。少数转制中的国有大企业，为了争取上级领导的支持，以增强自己克服困难的能力，纷纷拿“职工股”做行贿手段。为了遏制这股歪风，中纪委立即派人到省里来查实此事。查下来，顾立源铁证如山，一分没有收受。其他领导也基本没有收受。但这家公司的职工股账面上确实少了七十万股。哪儿去了?居然有人揭发，这七十万份职工股全落进副市长祝磊的腰包里了。而且有人证明这一点。证明人就是参与全过程的那位小张秘书。先是市委和市纪委的主要领导和风细雨地找祝磊谈话，希望他能主动说清问题。祝磊一开始根本就没把这当一回事。他很坦然嘛。压根就是子虚乌有的嘛。在市委领导再次找他谈话后，他开始有点紧张了，但仍然认为这是能够说得清楚的。他立即给张秘书打电话，希望他出面向有关领导把事情给澄清了。但连续打了好几次，这个张秘书莫名其妙地找不见了。这时祝磊才真正有点紧张了。市委和市纪委领导第三次找他谈话时，态度已经很严肃了，话甚至说到了这个份上：“事情如果拖到非要让中纪委的同志出面来解决的话，恐怕就不大好办了。还是争取主动吧。”后来他听说，不仅是那个张秘书，就连那家公司也一口咬定，这七十万职工股是他祝磊拿走了。这时，他不仅紧张，而且开始有点慌了神。就在听说中纪委的同志要找他谈话的前一天晚上，他终于设法找到了那个张秘书，并把他带到市政府设在市郊的一个宾馆里。先是在房间里谈。后来又把他带到宾馆后院小树林中间的一个空地上谈。几乎谈到声泪俱下的地步。七十万份职工股啊，按市值计算，相当于五六百万元人民币。这笔“黑心账”如果真的全部坐实到他祝磊头上，三开(开除党籍、开除公职、开除干部队伍)一移交(移交司法部门处理)的结局肯定是逃脱不了的。这样，自己一生都完了，甚至都还有可能免不了一死。“我到底怎么你了?小张，你说，你说呀，是我把你带到省城来的……我到底怎么你了?”精神近似崩溃了的祝磊突然掏出一支不知从何处得来的手枪，悲愤万分地追问着。“我没有……没有……”这位张秘书也突然慌张起来，他一边辩解，一边往后退缩．他那清秀的白皙的充满学生气的脸(正是这张看似充满学生气的脸．一直让祝磊误读了他的“真诚”和“勤谨”)这时表现出的全部的恐惧、哀恳和狡辩，只能激起祝磊更强烈的绝望和愤怒。这时．天色越发暗淡，小张突然瞅个空子，一转身就向林子稠密处逃去：祝磊一着急，慌忙中下意识地举起枪。那位张秘书见他举枪．本能地上前去夺枪。就在这一瞬间，枪声响了…… 枪里一共七颗子弹，祝磊一气打出了六颗。那一刻，他太恨眼前的这个年轻人了．完全控制不住突然涌出的一腔怒火。但他还是本能地给自己留下了最后一颗子弹。本来，顺理成章地，他是要用这最后一颗子弹来结束自己的生命的=但在面对小张的尸体默默地战栗着呆站了几秒钟后，他又决定不自杀了。自己已经干了件大蠢事。如果在杀了小张后．再自杀．这件事就彻底以“祝磊索贿受贿，枪杀重要证人，又畏罪自杀”告终，这才叫蠢上加蠢。He can't do that.既然已经错走了无法挽回的一步，现在，不管上苍还会给他多少在世时间，只要有一线可能，他也要搞清事情“真相”，并向世人说明这个“真相”。开枪致人死命。已然犯下了不可饶恕的死罪，但必须让世人知道，他．祝磊，没有贪污，没有受贿，在开枪打死这个卑鄙无耻的年轻人前．他祝磊还是一个干净的称职的副市长，只可惜一时问的私心杂念，让他堕入了一个万劫不可复出的陷阱，而经验和直觉又都告诉他，小张之昕以如此卑鄙地戳力诬陷他，甚至不惜置他于死地．个中一定有泵因，有背景。这里有这个年轻人本人秉性上的问题，一定也会有更复杂、更重大的因素搅和在里头。他要以自己耻辱地再活一段时间．促使(或“提醒”、或“恳请”)人们来帮他搞清“真相”…… 听我给他讲完这个“故事”后．东林他张大了嘴，睁大了眼睛，很长时间就那么一动不动地呆坐着．傻愣愣地看着我，眼神里流露着某种怀疑的神色，在这种怀疑的背后甚至还流露了一些恐惧，好像这“故事”完全是我捏造出来的．在我们的现实生活中根本不可能、也从来没有发生过…… 后来他对我说过这样的话：“我这一辈子可以说看到过人世间最残暴最肮脏最无耻最贪婪最没头脑最愚笨的人。跟这些人打交道的结果，我自以为我自己的神经早都麻木了，不可能再被搅起啥波澜了。但听了你讲的这些事，我的心总是在一阵阵发酸发涩，我总在告诉自己这些事不可能发生在我们这儿，不是真的，祝磊调到省城来当副市长后，也曾到公安厅来给我们讲过课，圆圆脸，细细的眉毛，一副文静从容的模样儿，讲起话来慢条斯理，特别有逻辑性，有穿透力。这样的人怎么也会出那样的事呢?怎么会呢?” 但是，即便在得到这样一些情况后，当时他仍然没有下定最后的决心，抛弃一切顾虑，“破釜沉舟”，去申请提早辞职，接手来搞那个“秘密调查”。最后促使他下这样决心的，是一次拜访：他去那位老书记家看望老人家去了。在初步了解到顾立源祝磊和饶上都的那些情况后，他越发感到事关重大，有必要当面去见见那位老书记。 老书记住在老城区的人民路上。一个从外表看绝无惊人之处的大院子。事后听东林讲，他还是托了一些关系，才跟老书记的秘书接上头，打上招呼。事先不打招呼，你是绝对没法进入这个院子的。院子正经由武警战士值勤守护。院子果然很大，但又挺简朴。三幢都呈方形的独幢别墅，分别住着三位不同时期退下来的省委书记。劳爷早就知道人民路上的这个院子，但他从来也没进去过。所以那天，在那位看上去已不太年轻的秘书带领下，走进院子，走进老书记的那幢独幢小楼时，他还真有一点点紧张和兴奋。客厅向南的那面墙整个都是用大玻璃建成的。厅里真是阳光明媚，但又多少有一点杂乱。这跟劳爷去过的许多老同志的家都有相似之处。陈设在客厅里的许多棵高大的桶栽观赏植物、大型木雕、石雕………单独看，都是好东西，甚至还挺昂贵。但放在一起就显得有点格调不统一，有点杂拌儿凑的味道。原因很简单，它们绝大部分都是别人来探视时送的。对于这些玩意儿，老人也说不上是喜欢，还是不喜欢。无所谓啦。送来了，就放着呗。但有两条，是死规矩。一，你别带钱来。掏钱者，滚。二，求老人办事，可以；但你别带东西，带东西者，滚。这“滚”字，可不是我给愣加上的，那真是老人的原话。老人家不高兴时，真拍桌子．真直着嗓门让人“滚”。这样的事都不止发生一两回了。您说，他都到这份儿上了，还怕谁啊?还有啥可遮遮掩掩的? 那天老人身体有点不舒服．下半身盖着一条薄毛毯，躺在一把宽大的木制摇椅里，在明晃晃的客厅里．Close your eyes and rest.劳爷给老人带了点补品。进客厅前，就悄悄地把那几盒东西交给了那个中年保姆，让她赶紧收起来。这也是人们“对付”老书记的一招。您不是讨厌人家提溜着东西来技您办事吗?得，咱提前把东西给了您家人，再“空”着手来见您还不成?现在哪有求人办事不送东西的?不提溜着一点东西，他(她)自己都觉得过意不去，比如在医院里，现在都折腾成这样了：大夫如果不收红包．病人都不敢上手术台去挨这一刀。不是人们生性下贱．更不是他们家钱真多得花不了了，喜欢给你送，实在是风气改变了人心和习俗，事情已经发展到这一步了嘛! 据东林后来对我说，一开始．他还真担心老书记不屑于见他(或者是没时间见他)，但事先把来意跟老书记的秘书说明了，秘书却答应得很痛快：“行。您不就是咱省那个著名的十大神探之一吗?来吧。我给老书记说一下．安排个时间。老书记特别关心陶里根的情况，也挺爱跟你们公安系统的同志闲聊的。只要有人从陶里根来，他都愿意当面跟他们聊一聊。”但那天，实际上跟老书记啥也没聊上。一是，那天赶巧又去了两拨人，等那两拨人走了，老书记已经有点累了，东林自己也觉得不能再跟老人家深谈了，就拐着弯地提了一下余达成，提了一下去陶里根做些“调查研究”。但对此，老书记却没表示任何态度．只是问了问陶里根街上有一家“曹不泉酒厂”的近况，又聊了一会儿陶里根特产的“壳里红”酸果，秘书就暗示东林该起身走了： 咋回子事?老书记为什么在听到余达成和“去陶里根做调查研究”时，没半点反应? 难道说，余大头在“骗人”? 劳爷倒吸一口冷气，刚想给余大头打电话质问此事，就接到了余大头主动打过来的电话。 “你现在在哪儿?”余大头问。 “我还能在哪儿?”劳爷没好气儿地答道。 “老前辈，好好说话，别跟咬着自己舌头似的!如果你现在还在老书记跟前，那就等你离开那儿以后咱们再说……”余大头吩咐道。 “你怎么知道我刚见了老书记?”劳爷问。 “听我说。你先出门，先离开老书记那儿。老书记最近身体很不好。别吵着他了。”余大头再一次重复道。 “我已经离开那儿了。在大门外站着哩。”劳爷说道。 “那行，你开着车吗?开着?好。那你马上到兴安来。我还在那个小院里等你。”说着，几乎不容劳爷做任何反应，余达成那头就已经把手机挂了。 不多大一会儿工夫，劳爷果然赶到兴安宾馆。 “劳神探，您可真是名不虚传呐，无孔不入。您是怎么敲开老书记家的门的?”一见面，余大头就跟劳爷开了个小小的玩笑，以缓和一下气氛，但劳爷却没有一点心情跟他打哈哈。他当然不知道，那天他到老书记家刚“聊”上，老书记的秘书就悄悄把他来找老书记的“动向”通报给了余达成。余达成事先还真没料到劳东林竟然会直接去找老书记。 “谈实质问题。到底是咋回子事?老书记根本不知道让我去陶里根搞调查……”劳爷却黑起脸，摆出一副警察审案时常拿的“公案”架势，冷冷地瞟瞥着余达成说道。 “我跟你说过这档子事是从老书记那儿分派下来的吗?你再回想一下，我说过这样的话没有?”余达成这小子声色不动，淡然反问。 “那……”劳爷略略一愣。是啊，余大头从来也没说过，这事到底跟老书记有啥内在关系。 “那个啥?”余达成依然平和地反问着= “但是……但是……”劳爷“但是”不下去了。 “你想让他跟你说啥呢?说他事先就知道这档子事?是他老人家预谋策划了这档子事?然后向你承认，是他派我去找你的?说他一个退休多年的老同志的确想派人去秘密调查一个在职的正省部级干部?是吗?你想从他嘴里得到这些明确的肯定的答复，是吗?”余大头一句不饶一句地逼问着= “可是……”劳爷这时已经明显感到自己有些“理亏…'气短”了。 “您还想'可是'个啥?啊?”余大头的神情渐渐严肃起来，“您想让我说您啥呢，老前辈，说您干了这么几十年，政治上怎么还那么幼稚?啊?” “……”劳爷张口结舌了=是啊．这件事即便真是老书记指使的，他老人家也不会当着其他人的面来公开承认这一点啊。这里不是简单一个愿意不愿意承担责任的问题=这里还牵涉到一连串更重大的组织原则和策略部署问题。自己怎么可以直接“杀”上门去，向老书记本人去“刨根问底”呢? 幼稚啊，的确幼稚。 “我的话是不是说得有些重了?”看到劳爷耷拉着个脑袋，好大一会儿都不吭声，只是在那儿怔怔地干坐着，余达成缓下口气，又在说些软话，往回找补了。 “没事……没事……”劳爷尴尬地笑笑道。这倒也是他的真心话。他这人就这点好，真要觉得自己错了．认错也快，一点就透。还不记仇。 “真没事?” “嗨，能有啥事哟?!” “那行。没别的事了吧?” "Gone……" “那就这样吧。希望今后再不会出现这样的低级错误了。那边还有几位同志在等着我，我就不留您了。”余大头说着，站起来送客了。 那天走出兴安宾馆，劳爷内心中涌动的岂止是羞愧和难堪。如果换一个人，经历了这样一场自我露怯后，又遭余达成如此这般地训斥后，也许就会知难而退，鸣金收兵了。但此人不是别人，而是劳爷。这时刻就显露出这位“劳爷”本真中那一点“与众不同”之处了，显露出劳东林之所以是“劳爷”的根本点了：我多次说过，他实质上是一个“很不安分”的人，一个终其一生一直在想超越自己的人，一个从来也不甘心为自己“画句号”的人，一个一直也觉得自己从没有得到过公平公正待遇、一直被“理想”和“现实”之间的那点千古矛盾折磨得“奄奄一息”，不断强迫自己向现实妥协，却又总在“蠢蠢欲动”中“死灰复燃”的人……那天他看到了自己政治上的“幼稚”，也在老人的“衰弱”中，看到了一种从未感受过的平静、寂寞、威严和坚守的高度和谐，或者还应该说是体昧到了某种从未体味过的“神圣”和“神秘”。余大头的倏而出现，倏而消失，老书记的声色不动，在意味着什么?一块正在孕育着狂风暴雨的天空?一部一直在我们身旁隆隆运转、但却又不被多数人觉察的巨大机器?一支正在原始丛林中做殊死跋涉的特殊小分队?所有这一切都在他心里点燃了一把火，正是这把“火”，让他跨出了决定性的一步，也决定了他在陶里根的这段日子，不可能是过得平静的，敷衍的， 得过且过的，只是在被动地完成任务而已。实际上在陶里根的这几个月，他的内心经历了一场彻底的自我涅槃…… (邵长水问：“那么依您看来，最后他摇摇晃晃走向那辆卡车，还是想自杀?”) 我还没有充分的证据来证实这一点，但我真的劝你们，不要排除这一个可能性。换任何一个人，在那样的情况下，也许都不会去自杀。但劳爷是有可能的。当然，最后如果真的要下这样的结论，那一定要慎重……只要你们不怀疑我“别有用心”，我会尽可能多地向你们提供我所知道的情况。随时想起什么，就向你们报告。尽快地把东林的死因搞清楚，也可告慰在天之迷茫的亡灵。今天是不是就谈这么多?你们听累了，我也说累了……