Chapter 99 third quarter 4

When everything becomes irrevocably true, my story will be over.In the rosy morning light, I finally found our household registration booklet. Her name was written on the first page, and on the other column it read: head of household.My name is on the second page, and another column says: Husband of Head of Household.I know her name at last, but dare not say it now; for fear she will jump on me and cry: You know my name too!How did this happen!Now is not the right time for celebrations, but sooner or later I will say so. You've seen how the story ends: I merged with my old self and became one person.The woman in white merged with the girl from the past and became one person, and I merged with her again, so it became less and less.The so-called truth is such helpless vulgarity.

Although my memory has recovered and I have a story of my own, I still want to go back to Chang'an City──this has become a long-standing habit.It is not enough for a person to only have this life, he should also have a poetic world.For me, the world is in the city of Chang'an.I finally walked into my own house—the waterside pavilion in the middle of the lake, among the white paper walls on all sides, there were dark red eyes—the brazier exuded a sour charcoal smell in the house.Outside the room, there was a heavy sound of waves, which carried the weight of wet snowflakes—the water was stirring the snow, and the snow was stirring the water, and finally it became a pot of porridge.I sat down in the dark, lifted the lid of the brazier, and a red and blue flame stretched between the black coals.On the felt under the legs were bundles of paper, from strong parchment to soft Goryeo.In the middle of the paper is my bedroll.I lay down among the clutter without lighting a lamp or unrolling my bedding, with eyes looking hopelessly into the darkness.This is because, tomorrow morning, I will embark on the road of no return to Fenghuang Village in Xiangxi.Xue Song will go there to meet the red line, and I will go back to Wanshou Temple to meet the woman in white.Everything in Chang'an City is over.Everything is heading irrevocably towards vulgarity.