Chapter 6 Section VI

In May, the weather is changeable, cloudy and clear, hot and cold, and influenza spreads in Fengjiatan.Feng Caicai, a country doctor, went out of the gate of the east house and entered the small courtyard of the west house. She gave medicine and injections to the peasants who were sore from the flu and lay on the kang moaning in pain. They dragged their tired feet until the dead of night. Ears filled with warm and sincere words of gratitude from the patient's relatives, I walked back to my small courtyard. There are two dilapidated buildings, the grandma lives in the south room, and she lives in the north room. The medicine shelf against the wall is full of medicine bottles and paper bags.

"Caiwa, I'll stuff a letter for you through the window." Just as Caicai walked in, the voice of grandma came from the south room next to the wall. Grandma always fell asleep after she came back.Caicai caught a glimpse of a letter on the table by the window.From the sideways writing, it can be seen that it was written by her fiancé, Feng Wensheng, a doctor at the county hospital.She put down the letter, took off the "ten" leather bag from her shoulder, washed her hands and face. "Is it Vincent's letter?" Grandma asked through the wall. "No." Caicai coaxed grandma.

"It's a letter from my cousin, isn't it?" "No." Grandma stopped asking, and besides these two people, grandma couldn't think of anyone else who would write to her granddaughter. After washing her hands and face, Cai Cai sat down at the table, tore open the colored envelope with the portrait of a lady in ancient costume, and took out the letter. There were three pages of green letter paper, densely written, all written in a slanted pen facing the left. This is a heartless letter. After reading the last line, Caicai was stunned for a while, then threw the letter papers on the table, and then there was a mocking sneer between her brows and eyes.In this case... there is no need to write three pages at all, so why bother!In her heart, she sneered at Feng Wensheng, a doctor in the county hospital, and said so many unnecessary words in a hypocritical manner; it seemed that Feng Caicai would jump off a cliff and fall into a well immediately if she left him, as if she would die of pain.

She was mentally prepared.During Feng Wensheng's six months of working in the county hospital, his increasingly indifferent attitude towards her had clearly shown his intentions. This letter was just the expected ending that would come sooner or later. Even if it is an unexpected blow, Caicai will not lose her mind and seek life and death after being abandoned by an unmarried man who is lucky enough to enter the university threshold (or eat commodity food instead of Lao Tzu) like ordinary country girls.Her unfortunate childhood life has forged her cold character to deal with all misfortunes.

When Caicai was five years old, the biggest turmoil occurred in Fengjiatan since liberation.More than 20 members of the "Siqing" work team with southern and northern accents rushed in and upset Feng Jiatan. Caicai's father is the key figure that the work team will not let go of.He couldn't stand the test of this "revolution" that was said to be the "second land reform", so he stuck his finger into the socket of the electric light and ended his life in his twenties.The work team was not allowed to hold the usual burial for the traitors who had cut themselves off from the people, nor did they allow their only daughter, Caicai, to wear a cloth to perform filial piety. Only two militiamen pulled them out of the village with a shelf cart and buried them in the most remote ditch behind Fengjiatan. Poly.

The father bid farewell to the villagers of Fengjiatan in a fit of anger, but left the unbearable disaster to his daughter who didn't understand the world.The mother remarried and went to a village on the North Ridge. Caicai and her grandmother lived side by side in the increasingly chaotic Fengjiatan. The burden of guilt, in the ensuing ten years of turmoil, has increased its weight, weighing on the head of the orphaned grandson and widow... The colorful girl's figure is not threatened or suppressed by any evil, and it gradually appears in the eyes of Fengjiatan people.People secretly guessed that the beautiful lips belonged to her mother, and her father's rare high nose bridge belonged to her father. Only those eyes, it is hard to tell whether she looks like her mother or more like her father.Her parents' eyes are always full of joy; while their daughter Caicai's big black eyes have complex expressions of patience, indifference and reason that are not commensurate with her age.

She had learned to endure, the way widows and widows survive.She became indifferent and looked at all the changes and events that happened in Fengjiatan indifferently.She has reason, because her special life situation has taught her the ability to restrain her personal feelings.Even when it comes to matters of marriage and love that are of great significance in life, she has made her own choice with the power of reason! Feng Wensheng's father, Mr. Feng Da (teachers and doctors are both called Mr. in the village) was expelled from the county hospital because of his history as a Kuomintang military doctor.When Mr. Feng Da returned to Fengjiatan, he belonged to the remnants of the Kuomintang, and of course it was included in a separate volume.Mr. Feng Da's youngest son, Wen Sheng, was in the same situation as Cai Cai in Fengjiatan, but he secretly learned a little medical skills from his old father, and was often in urgent need of farmers, so he had to be polite to him.Mr. Feng Da didn't dare to show up, so he asked his wife to come forward, and asked Liu Hongyan, who specializes in matchmaking in Feng's family, to quietly walk into the small courtyard where the mother-in-law and grandson live at night... After almost a month of intermittent discussions, waiting In retrospect, the mother-in-law and grandson finally controlled their complex emotions and obeyed rational considerations: Marrying into Feng Wensheng, a family whose situation is similar to their own, at least the members of their family would not look down on "Suicide in Fear of Crime" "The daughter of the former Captain Fengjiatan...

What Caicai really loves in her heart is the amiable and respectable brother Ma Ju, who joined the army far away on the border of Xinjiang... Life has made a cruel joke - the suicide case of Feng Zhiqiang, the former captain of Fengjiatan, has been screened, not only is he innocent and dreadful, but he never got a real and reliable penny or a catty of food when the case was finalized. Materials... Poor Caicai, only at this time can she wear a white cloth filial piety, with a long cloth on her head, rush to the grave where only a pile of stones and sour jujube thorns remain, and cry loudly for her father... She cried so hard that she flicked her finger Scratching the stones and soil on the cemetery, blood stained the dry grass branches and leaves red.

Mr. Feng Da also resumed work, and went to work in the county hospital again.The former Kuomintang military doctor exchanged tears and shouted "Deng Qingtian" loudly in the yard!After working for half a year, Mr. Feng Da received an honorary retirement certificate, received 75% of his fixed monthly salary, and returned to Fengjiatan to spend his old age in peace.His youngest son, Feng Wensheng, took the place of Lao Tzu and went to work in a local hospital in a white coat, and was then sent to the provincial Chinese medicine school for further studies... Caicai was blessed by misfortune and became the fiancée of a young doctor in a local hospital. Some vulgar girls in the movie are jealous of her good luck.

Cai Cai's heart was as calm as before.Yes, no matter whether Wen Sheng was a son of a bitch in Fengjiatan, no matter whether he is now a doctor who earns a fixed salary by eating commodity food, she can't burn enthusiasm for this person in her heart.This slender, white-faced Feng Wensheng often showed an obedient face and flattering smiles in front of those crooked and evil cadres in the village, which annoyed her.He often comes to fetch water for her house.When the vicious cadres criticized him and her as "five kinds of black people who share the same stink", he didn't dare to carry water during the day, and only secretly brought water to her home at night.She could understand his situation, but she didn't like the frightened look in his eyes when he brought water into the door... But in all honesty, there is nothing wrong with this person, and now that she is engaged, Caicai doesn't want to go back on it.

However, when Ma Ju was demobilized from the army and returned to Fengjiatan, she saw his tall and burly body, his handsome face darkened by the desert wind and sand, and the black beard around his vigorous mouth, revealing a strong spirit Her dark eyes, her heart was beating wildly in her chest... Lying on the small kang in the north room at night, she persuaded herself rationally that Ma Ju had already been engaged to Xue Shuxian, a private teacher at Xuejia Temple, and that man was educated. She is also pretty, and Brother Ma Ju is satisfied; she is also engaged to Wen Sheng, so she can't think about it any more. Like a townsman, talking to the pony and saying hello... This kind of psychological conflict is very painful, especially when Ma Ju's fiancee Xue Shuxian put forward harsh marriage conditions, she can't control herself.She despises that snobbish private teacher very much, and now she has a pretty face!She imagined that once the relationship between Ma Ju and Xue's family was torn apart, she would propose to terminate the engagement with Wen Sheng, but before she made a final decision, Feng Wensheng had already proposed to her to withdraw from the engagement.it is good!Feng Wensheng, Feng Wensheng, you have become an official doctor and look down on farmer Feng Caicai; don't you know that farmer Feng Caicai doesn't keep you in his eyes! Cai Cai opened the drawer and took out a thick bundle of letters.This is Vincent's masterpiece.Even in the same village, how many letters he had slipped in for her through windows and doors!She struck a match without hesitation, and reduced those letter papers filled with sweet words and love letters of each other to ashes.In the yellow flame, the colorful and indifferent eyes saw such a vivid and hypocritical face! "Cai, what are you burning in the house?" Grandma was still asleep. "Bad...paper..." Caicai hurriedly replied. "Go to sleep." "Oh!" The last page of the letter burned, the last flame died out.The night wind blowing in through the window.The paper dust was blown on the ground.She was too lazy to clean, so she pulled the door bolt open, facing the starry sky, tears welled up in her eyes, and an uncontrollable call surged in her heart: Brother Ma Ju... the true feelings that have been controlled by reason for many years burst out.Trembling with excitement, she almost wanted to run to the west of the village immediately, beat Uncle Feng Jingfan's street gate, and throw herself into the arms of the pony... What is she afraid of now?The daughter of Feng Zhiqiang, a dignified Communist Party member, is now as equal as any young man and woman in Fengjiatan!She wants to choose the man she admires according to her own heart. She is upright, so what is she afraid of? A burst of chaotic and hasty footsteps sounded from the east of the village.Caicai was surprised: Who would not wait until dawn if the condition got worse?She wiped away her tears and took a look. In the dark, someone was carrying someone on her back and was walking towards the door of her house. When the electric light at the door was turned on, she saw, ah!It is Brother Ma Ju who is lying on someone else's back! "What's the matter?" Cai Cai asked in shock. "The pile of bricks fell and smashed Brother Maju's foot..." Without saying a word, Caicai helped the pony sit on the bench, propped up her injured left foot, turned around and fetched cotton wool and tweezers.What a pair of dirty feet!The brick dust and dust were completely stained by the blood from the wound, ah, hurry up and stop the bleeding, lightly and lightly, but don't hurt Brother Ma Ju!She scrubbed the blood around the wound over and over again, applied anti-inflammatory powder, and wrapped it up with cotton wool and gauze.Even though all this was done with great care and impeccable agility and accuracy, Caicai still saw the corners of the pony's mouth twitching. It was because the alcohol had irritated the wound, and it was a pain that could not be relieved. She gave him another injection to prevent tetanus infection. Holding the needle tube, she breathed a sigh of relief, only to realize that she was already sweating and feeling too nervous. "Okay." Ma Ju pretended to have nothing to do, put his arms on the shoulders of the two young men, "Help me back..." "Don't move." Caicai was rinsing the needle tube, turned her head, and said in the strict tone of a doctor treating a patient, "It will bleed when you move." "Then...how long will I have to wait?" Ma Ju asked indifferently, "Is it not bleeding?" "At least two hours." Caicai thought, usually, this brother Maju hardly visited her medical station, as if he avoided it on purpose.This evening, what a coincidence, when she was anxious to see him, he came to the door by himself.She purposely prolongs the time so as to distract the two young men.The two young men said a few words of warm-hearted care to Ma Ju, and hurried back to the brick yard. This narrow building seemed to expand several times at once, and Ma Ju was a little uncomfortable sitting here.The open door let in the warm breeze of a May night in the country.He couldn't find anything to say, and he wasn't used to being silent like this, so he sighed and said, "It's so messy! I'm busy..." Caicai silently packed away the used medicines and equipment beside the medicine shelf, making the porcelain boxes jingle.Brother Ma Ju is sitting beside her now, talking to himself without words.Thinking of the madness that surged up in her just now, her heart was beating wildly in her chest again, her face was hot, but she couldn't find the right words for a while, don't forget, Ma Ju and that snobbish Xuejiasi The private teacher has not completely broken off the engagement!Ma Ju's parents are still urging the matchmaker Liu Hongyan to make a match!However, Ma Ju is a hard-headed person, and will not say lowly words to beg private teachers.The marriage was virtually hopeless.Since this is the case, why should she worry! Caicai turned her head and saw Ma Ju sitting bored, picked up Wen Sheng's letter she had thrown on the table, glanced at it, and hurriedly put it back where it was, making her look even more cramped. "Look at it." Caicai wanted him to know about her marital status, so she took the initiative to persuade him, "It's okay, you can watch it as you like." "No, no, no!" Ma Ju shook his hands again and again, smiling embarrassedly, "How can you read other people's letters casually!" Caicai walked over, simply picked up the letter paper from the table, stuffed it into the pony's hand, stared boldly into his eyes, and said enthusiastically, "I was just looking for you, so I asked you to take a look!" Ma Ju took the letter paper, stared at Cai Cai suspiciously, and couldn't help wondering: Whose letter should she ask him to read? Caicai walked to the medicine rack, leaned against the table, and stared intently at Brother Ma Ju who was sitting across from him, with his head down on the brick crumbs and dust, and spread the letter paper on his lap with one hand, watching.A special aura of a strong man filled the space of the small building.She wanted to see the change in his expression when he read the letter, but he lowered his head and could only see his thick black hair. Suddenly, the pony raised his head, threw the letter paper on the table, stood up suddenly, and realized that his feet After seeing the pain in his body, he sat down again, his face was purple with anger, and he cursed rudely: "Speaking of fucking bullshit! Dog! How can you feed such a thing from Fengjiatan's food..." Caicai was startled, Hastily pointing to the Jianjian room, said in a low voice: "Hush, don't tell my grandma to hear..." Ma Ju closed his mouth angrily, took out half of a cigarette from his pocket, and put it in his mouth. With trembling fingers striking the match, he took a sharp puff and exhaled a thick puff of smoke.His anger was almost instinctive.His fiancée, Xue Shuxian, only has the possibility of becoming a public teacher, but before she becomes a full-time teacher, she will divorce the farmer Feng Maju; it is said that after she becomes a full-time teacher, it will be difficult to arrange her life with the farmers.Feng Wensheng, who had just put on a white coat, also said in a letter that he and Feng Caicai, a farmer, had a difficult life arrangement...Farmer, farmer!Regardless of male or female, regardless of appearance, ability, or character, in contemporary love life, they are at such a disadvantage... let alone Cai Cai, a bitter girl who died of her father and left her mother when she was young. , carrying the scapegoat left to her by her dead father, and growing up from the persecution of the "Gang of Four", she was just proud when the hateful Feng Wensheng stabbed her in the heart again! "Caicai, don't be in a hurry." Ma Ju's chest was full of righteousness, "I'm going to find Wen Sheng, tell him to take back this letter, and ask him to apologize to you..." He believed that he and Wen Sheng has been a good friend since he was a child. He has never discriminated against Wen Sheng, and Wen Sheng respects him very much.Ma Ju said confidently, "Wen Sheng...I can talk to him, and I dare to tell him nonsense." "Don't look for him, needless to say!" Caicai looked at the pony whose face changed color with excitement, but she herself was very calm, pointing to the burnt paper ashes that fell on the wall and table legs, and told him, It's all over, "Why should I be so humble?" "No. I want to ask him, does he still have a conscience?" Ma Ju still insisted on finding Wen Sheng.In his opinion, when a girl is impulsive, especially a girl with strong self-esteem like Caicai, when she is impulsive, she burns the letter and returns the token. Regret, "You have to calm down, don't make public first." "Why do you have to persuade him?" Caicai asked. "For your sake!" Ma Ju said bluntly. "Wouldn't my life be good without him?" Caicai asked, tentatively, implying, "There are so many girls in Fengjiatan, if they can't marry a man who earns wages and food, they won't be able to live well." ?" "No..." Ma Ju choked, he seemed to want to hear the inexplicable meaning in Caicai's words, but he was afraid that the meaning would be said clearly, so he was at a loss for words, "Then... ...You asked me...to read the letter for what?" "Just let you know about it!" Caicai shook her head, turning her slightly hot face away, so that Ma Ju could not see the blush on her face.She thought to herself that he had already realized that she didn't ask him to match Feng Wensheng.Why did she ask him to read the letter?Take your time and think about it!She had shown him that she didn't care about breaking off the engagement with Vincent, and that was enough.She calmed down, and then said: "You probably think I am pitiful! I have suffered since I was a child, and my marriage has problems... Are you sympathetic to me? In this way...you are wrong, I am living a good life! I will give to the folks We are not useless people to see a doctor, I appreciate your kindness. You also know that twisted melons are not sweet..." The foal bowed its head.He still can't fully understand Cai Cai's mind, so he doesn't dare to speak rashly anymore.After a while of silence, he smiled honestly and said sincerely: "When I see people who look down on peasants like this, I can't help but get angry... Of course, it's up to you to make up your own mind, but I think...you and Wen Sheng... It's pretty good..." "Aren't you and Xue Shuxian pretty good?" Caicai got angry when she heard Ma Ju's words.This honest and upright person is really frightening!She said sarcastically, "Do you want me to go to Xuejia Temple and persuade that private teacher?" "You..." Ma Ju immediately blushed, smiled bitterly in embarrassment, and stood up abruptly, "Probably... two hours have passed..." Caicai didn't want to keep him anymore, she stepped forward, supported the pony's thick arm, walked to the door, and said, "I'll take you back..." "No...don't." The pony broke free from Cai Cai's hand, grabbed a stick from the door, and said, still blushing, "I can walk back." Caicai stood at the door, watching the strong figure gradually disappearing into the street under the flickering moonlight. She turned around abruptly, walked to the table, opened the drawer, took out a stack of white paper, twisted the fountain pen, and gave it to her. Feng Wensheng wrote back - she wanted to completely erase this person from her heart!