Chapter 58 30．don't treat yourself like a human

Yuxiu decided to die anyway.What are you doing with your life like this?Why is it so bloodless?Why do you let yourself look down on me like that?Death is your last face, and it is also your child's last face.Yuxiu, show some face.Yuxiu came to the pier again.The weather was not very good, with a strong night wind blowing.Surrounded by the whistle of the night wind, the night looked even more stern and hideous.As soon as Yuxiu went out, she became a little bit timid.Still, Yuxiu was much calmer.This is also the attitude that a person who dares to die should have.Yuxiu stood by the water of the cement pier. After all, she had her first experience. Yuxiu didn't panic, but calmed down a lot.The first time is raw, the second time is familiar, this time it seems to be successful.Yuxiu thought, it's better to take off the belt on the stomach first, so that the little baby can relax and walk around, otherwise the child will be too wronged.Just as Yuxiu's front feet entered the water, there was a sudden commotion in her stomach.The little thing was shocked, angry, furious, and beat him.Yuxiu stopped her feet and blurted out, my poor child.The little thing threw all his anger at Yuxiu.Yuxiu stood there stunned, her iron determination weakened again.The little thing kept moving, but his hands and feet were slowly softening, like a helpless pleading.Yuxiu felt her body lifted upwards, and something surged up and rushed towards her mouth.Yuxiu let out a "wow" and spat it out.Yuxiu vomited and retreated to the bank.After vomiting, Yuxiu's eyes became hard, straight, and angry.Yuxiu raised her head and said viciously, I will be shameless!I just don't die!If you have the ability, you will kill me!

Once the heart is dead and numb, life will be easier.There are no knives in the sky.Let it go.Days are not a millstone, you don't need to push it, it will move forward day by day.let it be.Yuxiu just regards herself as a child's bed, a quilt, and nothing else.Yuxiu thought, as long as you don't treat yourself as a human being, the gods can't do anything to you. In the blink of an eye, it was already March, and Yuxiu didn't think about anything, but she was getting sleepier every day, and she could doze off while sitting behind the weighing scale.In the afternoon of this day, his father, Wang Lianfang, came to the gate of the grain purchasing station.He came to Broken Bridge Town by taking the boat from Wangjiazhuang.Wang Lianfang came to Yuxiu with a handbag made of artificial leather, smiling.Yuxiu looked up, saw her father, and woke up.Wang Lianfang stretched his neck very long, smiling at Yuxiu.There was that proud look on his face.Yuxiu never expected to see her father in this place again, she felt strange and very happy, but, in front of so many people around her, she didn't like her father's intimacy, so she purposely put on a straight face and said "Why are you here?" Wang Lianfang didn't answer. He stood on the scale and said, "Look, how heavy I am." Yuxiu looked around and said, "Come down." Wang Lianfang ignored the question He said, "Look, how much do I weigh?" Yuxiu was upset, and said, "Come down." Wang Lianfang still didn't come down, and smiled, and said, "How much do I weigh?" Yuxiu said, "Two hundred and five." Wang Lianfang smiled With a face full of flowers, he said: "What a dead girl." Wang Lianfang just stood on the scale, turned his head, and explained to the people around him with a lot of leeway: "My daughter, my third girl." The tone was proud, It is also loving.Wang Lianfang got off the scale, distributed a circle of cigarettes, and started chatting with Yuxiu's colleagues.I asked him about his background, age, which year he participated in the revolution, how many brothers and sisters he had.The answers are all satisfactory to him.smiling.Wang Lianfang waved his arm in mid-air and called on everyone, "You must unite!" The tone was already a political report on the situation and tasks.Everyone just smoked and looked back at Yuxiu in silence.Wang Lianfang didn't move, took out his cigarette and smoked it again, smiling.

Wang Lianfang lives in his daughter's home, which is the compound of the agency.Guo Jiaxing was upset, but it was his father-in-law, so he couldn't say anything.He keeps a straight face all day long.Because Guo Jiaxing's face is usually serious, but he can't see his true thoughts.It doesn't matter if Guo Jiaxing ignores him, and Corn ignores him, which also doesn't matter.Now that Wang Lianfang has a granddaughter, let's have a heart-to-heart talk with her and read "People's Daily" to her.The granddaughter was lying in the cradle, and gradually got used to Wang Lianfang's voice. As soon as Wang Lianfang's voice of reading the newspaper stopped, she would cry and make trouble.When Wang Lianfang read it, it was good again.Wang Lianfang read newspapers as a matter of course, and would sit next to the cradle, raise the newspaper in his hand, and say, "Comrades, pay attention, hey, good boy, it's a meeting. It's a meeting."

It was a warm Sunday afternoon, and Maize, Yuxiu, and Wang Lianfang were basking in the sun around the children in the courtyard.Guo Jiaxing doesn't have Sundays. He likes the office, the desk, and stays there whenever he has nothing to do.The patio is full of spring.Yuxiu is still wearing her yellow overcoat, which is a bit like "covering a corpse".Yuxiu's frame is small, mainly because she is young, her body shape has not changed much, and her body is tight, so she really can't tell from the appearance.Of course, there is not nothing that makes corn suspicious. In fact, there are still quite a few signs.For example, for a while Yuxiu really lost weight, for a while Yuxiu gained weight slowly again, for a while Yuxiu was especially able to eat, for a while Yuxiu was always in a daze, as if she couldn't wake up, and occasionally chopsticks When it fell on the ground, Yuxiu never bent down to pick it up, but picked up a pair of chopsticks from the table, and then used the chopsticks in her hand to pick up the ones on the ground.These are all symptoms, and problems can be found along any of the clues.Corn just didn't take it to heart.The key is that there is no such muscle in the mind.Many things are like this, and when you think about it afterwards, you can make it right, and the more you think about it, the more problematic it becomes.The biggest problem for Yuxiu to be fooled for so long is still being with corn every day.Let's just say that Yuxiu is fat. In fact, Yuxiu is much fatter than before.However, this kind of fat does not come out in one bite, but step by step, gradual, and not sudden, with the characteristics of combining movement and stillness, which is not easy.