Chapter 35 Section thirty-fifth

There was a rhythmic knock on the door. please come in.Jian Fangning said. Zhuang Yu pushed the door open in response, but leaned against the door and did not go in. He looked at the whole thing and said that he did not expect the dean's office to be so simple. Jian Fangning said, I am a poor man who only treats the rich.Being rich is not necessarily a good thing, and being poor is not necessarily a bad thing.Please sit down.She pointed to the chair across from the desk. I don't like sitting face to face like this, there is a smell of interrogation.Is it okay to sit sideways?Zhuang Yu said arrogantly.

Can.It is not how we sit, but how we live.right?Jian Fangning smiled slightly. Zhuang Yu unceremoniously arranged the chairs that were originally facing each other at a 90-degree angle, as if she were having a heart-to-heart conversation with the dean. It is a great honor for patients in this hospital to enter the dean's room to talk with you.I never thought that I would be treated like this when I was about to be discharged from the hospital. Thank you very much.Zhuang Yu said.She has been very nervous since she informed the dean that she was going to talk to her.The result of being nervous is that he is extraordinarily fierce and introverted, and the conversation is very aggressive.She said what she thought was the worst ending first, showing a kind of heroic spirit that came and went freely and didn't care.

Who notified you that you were going to be discharged from the hospital?Why doesn't my dean know?Jian Fangning asked peacefully, and with one sentence, Zhuang Yu was pushed into the position where she should stay. Yes... yes... Zhuang Yu couldn't take the fight, and then felt that the patient and the doctor were arguing, and they would never gain the upper hand, because you are playing away, and if you haven't played against each other, you have to bow down.But after all, she is extremely intelligent, and she quickly reacted and said, who else needs to tell me this?Your hospitalization rules are very clear, private drug users will be automatically discharged from the hospital.

Jian Fangning said, thank you for remembering our rules so clearly, it seems that you committed a crime knowingly?But the rules say "automatic discharge", you didn't leave.I didn't notify you to leave the hospital, you are still sitting here, you are my patient. Zhuang Yu said, people say that the dean is great, and it really is.I was not automatically discharged from the hospital, what do you think about this matter, dean? Facing Zhuang Yu's counterattack, Jian Fangning said calmly, I think you still cherish your own life, and you still want to quit drugs in your heart.You're just taking drugs because you can't handle the momentary pain reaction.There are also loopholes in our ward management. If you can't get drugs, even if you want to smoke, you have nothing to eat.Since you already know our rules, and you didn't slip away after the incident, it means that you still want to continue the treatment.

Zhuang Yu's thoughts were revealed all at once, and he was moved and ashamed, his arrogance was no longer arrogant, and he couldn't help but say, big sister, how do you know me so well? Jian Fangning said seriously, I'm not a big sister.I am the dean. Zhuang Yu's heart, which had just warmed up, cooled down again.Say yes.I don't deserve a big sister like you. Jian Fangning said, it doesn't mean that they are worthy or not.I'm talking to you about work. Zhuang Yu said dejectedly, then you can talk, I will listen carefully. Jian Fangning said, you and your husband have seriously violated the hospital's regulations and should be dealt with.However, considering that you are conducting an experimental treatment of traditional Chinese medicine for detoxification, in order to verify the results, if you are willing to continue to stay in the hospital, you can continue to stay in the hospital after writing a written inspection and accepting a fine.What is your opinion?

Zhuang Yu said, Dean, do you really want to hear my opinion? Jian Fangning said, I want to know your opinion. Zhuang Yu said that relapse hooked up the addiction, and he would commit it immediately.If you don't want to see me lying here like a dead dog, I don't know who I am, get me some fans first.Let's talk about it later. Jian Fangning picked up the internal phone on the table and gave instructions to the nurse.After a while, Li Qiu brought a cup of blue syrup. You drink it.Jian Fangning said gently. what is this?Zhuang Yu didn't understand. If you stay and continue the treatment, I will give you this medicine.A new detox drug is so powerful that 1 mg can fight twice as much as heroin.Jian Fangning explained.

Is there such a good medicine in the world?Then why don't you give it to me earlier?As Zhuang Yu said, he swallowed the medicinal liquid into his mouth without hesitation, even licking every drop of the blue water from the mouth of the cup. If your husband and wife... Jian Fangning was about to continue talking, Zhuang Yu waved her authoritatively at her, as if she was the owner of this house, and then narrowed his eyes slightly, expressing that he was not interested in talking. Jian Fangning understands that drug addicts are capricious, so he doesn't say anything else.Zhuang Yu was fighting with the feeling in his body.After a while, she said to Jian Fangning, your medicine is not bad, it can deal with heroin.

Jian Fangning said, don't think everything is so simple.Drugs are not a panacea. In the later stage, if you want to quit the drugs, you will feel a sense of suffering. Zhuang Yu said, isn't it just using our couple as experimental products?He uses Chinese medicine, and I take Western medicine.A pair of hard-working couples.Dean, I admire your personality and your medical skills.Also, your demeanor... Jian Fangning said, what a digression!Demeanor... what does this have to do with us? Zhuang Yu said, it's a big deal.When patients are in the hospital, they cannot see other people, only doctors and nurses are around, studying you all day long.If a patient doesn't admire his doctor, will he trust the medicine he prescribes?Everything about a doctor is important to a patient.Seeing how hard it is for you to be the dean, I would like to give you a piece of advice. You have a lot of villains under your command, so be careful.

Zhuang Yu would not have said these words in normal times.Now that I have taken the medicine, I am in a very euphoric state, and if I want to perform well, I will come out freely. Jian Fangning smiled calmly, thank you for your advice.I believe that everyone has flaws.But do you know that many great undertakings in the world are made by countless flawed people.The main issues have been discussed, let's stop here today, I didn't find you so meticulous before. Zhuang Yu said, there are still many things you haven't discovered, and you will gradually realize that I am not a bad drug addict in essence.In other words, a drug addict does not necessarily lose his intelligence and moral sense as most people imagine.

Jian Fangning said, I don't like to hear you describe yourself like a "drug addict".I saw a term in the literature that day, calling this condition "substance abuser", and thought it was very good. Zhuang Yu curled his lips indifferently, and said that people who think they are noble think how precious their self-esteem is, and think that changing a name will be effective.In fact, we are used to it.No one really knows our hearts.Including doctors like you who treat us. Jian Fangning said, I sincerely hope that a girl like you can get better every day. Zhuang Yu said, don't rely on the old to sell the old, don't use the milky word girl to disgust me.I have slept with at least ten men, which is a frightening thing for a woman like you.

Jian Fangning sneered, you underestimate me too.The youngest doctor knows more than the oldest patient.I checked for AIDS patients and sent them to death.There are many STD patients in this hospital.I just can't bear to watch my beautiful life being swallowed up by drugs. Zhuang Yu said, don't mention drugs to me, as if you are superior to me because of it. Jian Fangning said with a look of sudden realization, so you really don't want people to mention drugs? Zhuang Yu said, you don't have this basic awareness? Jian Fangning said sincerely, that's good.As long as drugs are hated, there is hope in the world. Zhuang Yu said that the most common mistake for people who think they are noble is to despise others. Jian Fangning said, are you willing to completely break free from the sea of ​​drug addiction? Zhuang Yu said, you are right.Sometimes I don't want to quit drugs, it has become a part of my life, like my siblings.I want to quit it completely, just like Wang Zuo lost his arm, it must be for a worthy goal.Drive it away and I'll miss it.To be honest, in the circle I was in contact with before, I don't see the point of continuing to live?Drunk life, dreaming and dying, intrigues, people who live to be 60 years old, but they have twice as many sins as people who live to be 30 years old. Jian Fangning said, Zhuang Yu, you should know that there are countless non-drug addicts and traitors living there.When you go to a dark place, of course you can only see moss.When you are in the sun, you see flowers. Zhuang Yu said sensitively, are you comparing yourself to a fragrant flower and treating me as a poisonous weed? Jian Fangning said, I don't like your habit of contacting yourself whenever there is trouble. It's a bit like the infinite outline in the Cultural Revolution.I found that among the generation that did not experience the Cultural Revolution, the legacy of the Cultural Revolution was even stronger than those who experienced it. Zhuang Yusong smiled happily, you are right.What I have experienced is that once bitten by a snake, I am afraid of well ropes for ten years.On the contrary, he hates evil like a hatred and never commits it again.Those who have never passed by think that they have nothing to do with themselves, but they are familiar with the road. Jian Fangning smiled and said, you are right.However, I have never discussed anything other than drug recovery with my patients in such depth. Zhuang Yu said very concerned, then I am an exception? Jian Fangning said, yes.want to save you. Zhuang Yu said, why did it come again, in the tone of a savior. Jian Fangning said in confusion, I don't know what other relationship there is between us? Zhuang Yu stared at Jian Fangning challengingly and said word by word, friend. Jian Fangning was stunned, as if she encountered a difficult case.In ordinary hospitals, doctors are of course happy to be friends with patients.In this special hospital, no drug addict patient dared to propose to be friends with the drug rehabilitation doctor. Zhuang Yu didn't wait for her to think of a more thoughtful answer, so he squinted and said, how about it?Scared back?Are we not as good as a dog for animal experiments? Zhuang Yu felt that her eyeballs were slippery than usual, and she was very angry with herself. Since she ran away from home, she bid farewell to the weak feeling of crying.Of course she shed tears sometimes, it was all because of the addiction to cigarettes, an involuntary reaction, nothing to do with emotion.She squinted her eyes desperately, relying on the rotation of the eyeballs to dry the excess water. This action was very effective. The careful Jian Fangning was immersed in her own problems, and did not notice the subtle changes of the patient. I would like to be your friend.Jian Fangning said firmly. You think I'll be grateful?Zhuang Yu was annoyed at his mother-in-law just now, annoyed at Jian Fangning's delay in answering the question, so he asked back with extra ferocity. Just to answer your question.Jian Fangning was calm. She remembered that Professor Jing Tianxing mentioned in the materials that in all TCs and NAs, the staff and counselors are all former drug addicts, and they will speak out from their own experience.Why can't we have a try?This work should be done now.Zhuang Yu might be a suitable candidate.Because she is so typically rebellious against discipline and treatment, so intelligent and sensitive.If we can change from evil to good, it will be a powerful impetus to other patients.Of course, wishful thinking is useless.The other party must have a strong demand for drug rehabilitation.The internal cause is the most important condition in all the transformation of contradictions.Jian Fangning suddenly didn't want to end the conversation soon.She followed the lead and said, Zhuang Yu, after you are discharged from the hospital, how do you plan to start a new life? Dialogue is a game in the dark, they attract each other and repel each other.Everyone's world is unfamiliar to each other, and everyone wants to know each other, but they are in constant misunderstanding.They kept explaining, explaining, defending themselves, and trying to understand each other better.As the saying goes, it's wrong to say more than half a sentence without speculation.When the words are not speculative, it prompts people to talk more, because the desire to speculate and persuade the other party becomes a powerful speaking action. I have nothing new in my life.I can only go back to my old life.Like a fish, it jumps to the surface for a while, do you think it will turn into a frog in the future?You are so naive, when it is back in the water, it is still a fish.And it cherishes water more than before, because it already knows that only water is its home.Zhuang Yu spoke plausibly. Jian Fangning said earnestly, there is another life in this world that is different from yours. If you want to finally get out of the devil's palace, you must start a new life. Zhuang Yu suddenly shouted, saying that I don't need you to scold me like a virgin, I am much clearer about my affairs than you are!If I go back, I will fall, but what can I do? !I can't live in your hospital forever! Jian Fangning followed her words and said, you can live in the hospital forever. Zhuang Yu was taken aback at first, and immediately smiled knowingly, saying that you, the dean, are not stupid. I have clearly quit my addiction, and you still keep me in the hospital.I don't need to take any medicine, living here can generate income for you?But I am not at a disadvantage in the calculations. Although the hospitalization fee is not cheap, it is still less than the money for buying powder every day.Economically, it is also cost-effective.But I don't know how to do it, how boring it is here, one day is just a nurse with a dejected face like a curtain, and then there is a doctor who wants to ask for a tip... Jian Fangning asked alertly, who wants to ask for a tip? Zhuang Yu said, I have everything wrong with me, I just don't betray others.Check it out yourself, I'm telling the truth anyway. Jian Fangning took this matter down in his mind and said, okay, you can continue. Zhuang Yu said, it's over.I don't want to be your cash cow. Jian Fangning said, what if instead of you paying me the money, I send you the money? Zhuang Yu said, is there such a good thing?I do not believe.And I'm the one who doesn't care about money the least. Jian Fangning said, let's not go around in circles, let's keep it short.If after you are discharged from the hospital, I hire you as a staff member of our hospital, which is the status of Friday.We happen to be short of a woman for admission and related work.What do you think? Zhuang Yu's face was full of confusion and surprise, and he said, you are not afraid that I will take advantage of my work to pass drugs to patients?That was so easy! Jian Fangning said, of course I am afraid.But I don't think you would do such an outrageous thing.You yourself have suffered a lot from this kind of private drug, are you still going to harm others? Zhuang Yu said, Dean, I was afraid of you at first, and then I hated you.Now I start to adore you.When I was hospitalized here, I saw how you work, and I was really touched.I would very much like to be your friend, although you promised, but I know it is impossible.At least not now.Because friends must be like flock together, we are not the same people.Dean, just because I like you, I advise you to say a word, you are familiar with the physical changes of drug addicts, but you don't know our hearts. Jian Fangning didn't know why Zhuang Yu dragged the topic so far, and was eager to bring it back, so she said, thank you.But I just want to know your answer to my suggestion. Zhuang Yu said, I will answer you when I am discharged from the hospital. Jian Fangning said, of course you have to discuss it with your husband. Zhuang Yu said, he can't be my master.I think about it myself. Just as he was talking, the door was knocked open.A woman in a hospital gown barged in and said, Fang Ning, I've had enough.I saw the Yexing you are proud of, let me tell you the latest news, his bone marrow is full of poppies.And Zhang Da shirtless... Jian Fangning said, Fan Qingke, speak slowly. Zhuang Yu is a vigilant person, seeing the situation, he quickly withdrew. The cold and quiet dean's room seemed to have a soothing effect on the nerves. Fan Qingke gradually calmed down, but she still covered her head, as if she had received a deep shock there. Fang Ning, I'm leaving the hospital.I can't take it anymore, you are hell here, the world is full of ugliness and desolation, the work you and your colleagues put their best into is just a drop in the bucket, I haven't seen a single cured patient, I am highly stressed , It seems that a hydrogen balloon that is overfilled and roasted on the fire may explode at any time.I would rather not have you as a friend, and never know all this, and this dirty and helpless corner of the world.In that way, my heart will be much cleaner and more stable than it is now, and I will be full of hope for others.From you, I have seen too many birth defects in people, and the deception and incompetence of medicine.I have seen that justice does not necessarily defeat evil, and I have seen that human beings may be strangled by their own endless desires... Shen Ruoyu continued speaking in one breath, pouring out the melancholy and fear accumulated since she was hospitalized. It was only after a while that she realized that Jian Fangning kept silent and turned his back to her silently. Shen Ruoyu walked up to Jian Fangning.She saw two lines of transparent water winding on Jian Fangning's haggard face. Fang Ning, are you crying?Why?Because of my words?I didn't mean to hurt you, I really can't bear the suffering here.please forgive me.Shen Ruoyu said sorry, and gently wiped Jian Fangning's eyes with a piece of clean gauze. No, Ruoyu.you're not wrong.What you said is all the truth, they are exactly what I have thought about countless times in my heart, if there is a chance, I will also escape from here, but this is my post, I must stick to it here.I will issue a discharge certificate for you right now, you can go now, I should have thought of this earlier, if you stay any longer, it will cause a normal person to have a nervous breakdown.Jian Fangning's tears dried up quickly, and she regained her composure. Fang Ning, I'm sorry, I may stay with you here longer.Although it can't help much, there is always an extra talking partner.Shen Ruoyu feels guilty. Don't be such a mother-in-law.I'm used to it, my mood is calloused, and ordinary things can't hurt me.Psychologically speaking, three birds hatch out of weakness—depression, despair, and sorrow.My heart is a bird's nest, I'm constantly battling them, and sometimes I feel like I'm invincible.Jian Fangning put her hand in Shen Ruoyu's, wanting to convey confidence and strength to her friend. But Shen Ruoyu only felt that her fingers were cold. Shen Ruoyu gradually calmed down, and reported all the information obtained these days, no matter whether it was useful or not, to Jian Fangning in detail, so as to slightly alleviate his guilt of escaping. Fang Ning, don't pay attention to this woman Zhuang Yu!She has an evil charm, don't try to save her, she is a poisonous snake.Even if you tear yourself apart and refine it into a golden elixir, you won't be able to save her.The nerves of drug addicts are different from ours. Some places are thick and some places are thin. They will entangle you like a spider's silk, and they will pull a backrest when they are dying.Heroin has turned them into monsters who look exactly like us but are actually another animal.Only by dying is their greatest contribution to society. Ruoyu, I understand what you said.This is not a hospital, but an altar.Maybe our lives are dedicated, and the rain will not fall from the sky.But science is like this, which requires the dedication of generations. When I was young, I read Jingwei reclamation, and I thought it was such a stupid bird.Are there really such stupid animals in the world?Now I am the bird, but I have to fill in, this is my track. Two good friends sat quietly opposite each other. After a while, Shen Ruoyu said, Fang Ning, I was wronged in this drug rehabilitation hospital.I talk about white powder every day, but I have never seen it. Never seen good.It is your blessing.People who have seen it are either addicts, big drug lords, or drug rehabilitation doctors.These three kinds of people are all unlucky demons.As Jian Fangning said this, his eyes subconsciously scanned the safe. Shen Ruoyu immediately caught the mystery, why, it's still locked tightly like a baby? of course.If it is stolen by a patient, it is a crime. You can't even trust your old comrades who have fought side by side for many years? Jian Fangning said, are you that curious? Shen Ruoyu said, yes.Didn't you just say that, except for those three kinds of people, no one else has the chance to see them.I am the fourth type of person. Jian Fangning said that upon seeing it, she would be disappointed.There is no difference between pure heroin and soda noodles.As she spoke, she squatted down, turned left and right on the button, fiddled with it for a while, and the heavy dark green iron door jumped open. Shen Ruoyu sighed, the barriers are so strict. Jian Fangning said, what kind of place is this?Have to guard against.As he said that, he took out a few small paper bags with gray heads and faces, like the seasoning bags that were given away when fried roast chicken was sold on the street. The famous heroin is hidden in such tattered paper?Shen Ruoyu was astonished. Do you think drugs have very luxurious packaging?Kind and childish people.Jian Fangning opened a small package of rolled up newspapers, some dirty yellow powder appeared lazily, and looked at the two of them innocently. Shen Ruoyu approached it cautiously, as if it was a small but fierce animal.White noodles and white noodles, as the name suggests, shouldn't they be white?Why is it yellow? Jian Fangning picked up a little bit with her index finger and thumb, smelled it with her nose, and said that the product was not in good condition, and it was mixed with licorice mixture tablets. Shen Ruoyu said, that is to say, this medicine can not only relieve drug addiction, but also treat bronchitis? Jian Fangning said that people in the underworld adulterated, and this kind of pornography has killed many people.As she spoke, she walked to the faucet and washed the heroin off her fingers. Shen Ruoyu said, why don't you send all these horrible things to the sewer soon?What are you keeping?Want to grow poppies out of it? Jian Fangning said, if I throw them all away, what would a person like you want to see the true face of drugs for?Why don't you care about others as soon as you have your eyes full? Shen Ruoyu said, I'm selfish, I'm going to criticize. Jian Fangning said that it is not all for the exhibition as a sample.These drugs were all seized from the hands of patients. Don't look at them as dirty as poop paper. Each pack can sell for at least 1,000 yuan. Shen Ruoyu said, darling, it's true that people can't be judged by appearances, and sea water can't be measured.Unbelievable that it is worth more than gold. Jane Fangning said, this is the real reason I keep them.The analgesic effect of morphine is really very good. There are terminal cancer patients in the hospital who cannot afford expensive medical expenses, so I secretly give them to them.However, only I can master this size, that is to say, I only dare to send it to patients who are destined to die in a short period of time.This is called turning waste into treasure. Shen Ruoyu said, if it were me, I would rather die in pain than eat this kind of spoils seized from drug addicts. Jian Fangning said, don't be stubborn.It's because you didn't arrive at that time. Shen Ruoyu said, then I will euthanize. The two wanted to jump out of the initial sadness, but unexpectedly turned around and returned to a darker topic. They both felt unlucky and didn't know how to change the topic, so they were depressed for a while. After sitting down for a while, Jian Fangning said, go away and never come back again. Shen Ruoyu said, forgive me. Jian Fangning said that it is I who should ask for forgiveness.Let you witness so much human suffering.There are too many people, so let's go through the discharge procedures.I won't send you off.She turned away with difficulty, suppressing her feelings. The two parted reluctantly. Shen Ruoyu found the blood treatment room and said goodbye to the head nurse.The head nurse was busy operating among the instruments. The blood of the drug-addicted patient was sucked out and irradiated with light quanta. The whole room was shrouded in purple blood light. Normally, the head nurse should not be disturbed, but Shen Ruoyu was leaving, so she had to leave without saying goodbye. Sister, I'm sorry.I'm leaving...Fan Qingke, here, I have the feeling of a fear of death running away. Why is it like absconding in fear of crime?It's good to be discharged.The head nurse said loudly. I feel bad when I think of you suffering here.What Fan Qingkui was talking about was living in the heart. Someone has to suffer in this world.It's our turn, there's no way.The head nurse was also a little sad.Let's not talk about this, talk to our dean more in the future, you are good friends, you can tell.Although we also want to help her, it is a superior-subordinate relationship after all, and she will never tell us anything.Your original friendship is different from our assembled one.Well, goodbye.By the way, when doctors and nurses bid farewell to patients, they are not happy to say goodbye.Good luck, Fan Qingke!The head nurse raised her fat arms vigorously, as if the police were directing the vehicle.