Chapter 48 The forty-eighth chapter is Qingchang.Uncover the velvet cloth

If what the illusion gives is to provide a violet velvet cloth for the reality in front of you to cover, cover, conceal, camouflage, then when you lose this thin cloth, there is no shielding protection, everything is naked and your eyes are clear, you will see the flesh distance from the abyss.A fine line.The rule of the game is that even if you know what's behind the velvet cloth, pretend you don't know anything about it.And keep going with enthusiasm. The movie heroine in hippie denim flares, in a coffee shop, casually tells the man that I'm moving out of my ex-boyfriend's house because he has a gas stove in the kitchen, which is always tempting to me.If we could end our lives with the flick of a finger, at least half of the world's population would be lost in an instant.

Objective laws never provide assumptions, even if it is just a handy joke.Man has long recognized that the means of self-termination are extremely difficult.On the contrary, the way to survive is easier.The determination to try to break through the rules of reality must be tested and defined by a certain force.You can't do this easily.You, undo all balance bars and illusions.You, have to accept the real helplessness.You, have the courage to jump into the abyss and pierce the darkness with your body.This courage is contrary to the direction of life.Such betrayal is to be warned. therefore.Barring wars, epidemics, disasters, birth control and other interfering factors, the world is always overcrowded.Assuming that technology and politics can finally make jokes come true, that's a freedom humans don't deserve.The world will be messier and dirtier for it.Being able to choose to die freely means that more people will choose to live without scruples.The loss of deterrence and taboo will only accelerate the coming of a will: raging fire or torrential rain and flood from the sky.Scrub it all up again.

Time is short, and the time comes when you will finally be stripped of all your equipment, and you need the courage to become one with it. Even if he loses the privilege of being protected by the velvet cloth of illusion, he still strives to rely on the illusory thread to put it aside, grope for the steel cable in the sky, and believe that the will in his hand comes from a legitimate source and is firmly supported.In a humble situation, he may fall into the abyss at any time, but he seems to overcome obstacles and move forward.This is not a voluntary journey but a predestined course, and repeated calculations cannot be delayed or avoided.You have reached departure time.

Even if fear can break your heart, you must take the first step at this critical point. From a distance, she saw him coming out of the passage.A tall and strong man with a crew cut and a dark blue shirt, clear and determined.He is especially dignified in the crowd.At the airport, how many people should pass by like flowing water every day.She is here just to wait and meet a man.Only this person and her life are closely related, interpenetrated and connected.This is the fate bound and involved by the cause and effect of previous lives.What other things in life are more important.she does not know.

She only knew that when he approached her with a smile, when he put down the suitcase in his hand and hugged her tightly with his arms, when he warmly kissed her hair, forehead and eyebrows in the hall, when he Said in a low voice, Qing Chang, I thought about meeting you on the plane, and my heart trembled like it fell to pieces.When his emotion, like a flame, envelops and burns her.At this moment, in this dark and impetuous world, she has a sense of existence with sharp edges and corners.She knows she is alive.She is loving and being loved.There is no doubt about it.This confirmation will be more important than the existence of life itself.

He usually stays in expensive hotels by the river for business activities.This time she proposed that he come to her house. She didn't like being with him in the hotel.Even in high-end luxury hotels, you can smell strange smells on pillow covers, sheets, bath towels, and towels. The smell mixed with disinfectant and bleach hides the smell of strangers' skin and hair after repeated printing and dyeing.Everyone comes and goes in a hurry, and only regards this place as a stopover.A room that is decorated exactly the same, looks clean, spacious, and cheerful, with every furnishing and object devoid of emotion.People live in it and don't cherish it.Things are placed randomly, and used towels are thrown around.The suitcase is open, ready to pack and go.No matter how magnificent the rented place is, it is full of haste and sloppiness inside.Just like the exquisite meals in the restaurant, they cannot be compared with the food made by hand at home, because they lack the real feeling.

Qing Chang is a person who is sensitive to the authenticity of life. She believes that the emotions between them are flesh and blood, and they should not depend on each other in a cold public environment.She resisted. He stayed in Shanghai for two weeks this time. First, he had various arrangements for work, and second, he wanted to accompany her for a longer period of time.He accepted her decision and followed her to rent a house near Jing'an Temple.She lives on the 28th floor.This high-rise building is old and dilapidated, the corridor walls are full of stains, and the smell of stale garbage remains in the corners. Both sides of the narrow and winding corridors on each floor are densely packed with residents.People with sloppy clothes and tired expressions came in and out.The elevator is narrow, noisy when running, and there are dog urine and water stains.Qing Chang is a very flexible person, he can haunt any place.The clean ornate, the expensive, the dirty, the poor, can stretch freely.Although Qing Chi looked calm, he seemed out of place.This is not a suitable environment and aura for him.As soon as his tall man entered the 40-square-meter house, he suddenly seemed cramped everywhere, and it was difficult to turn around.

He didn't express any discomfort, and he was content with it.Put down the suitcase and take off the suit, first visit her room.Tiny kitchen and bathroom.The bedroom just fits a 1.2-meter bed, a workbench, a row of wardrobes, two chairs, and a low cabinet.Dry clothes on the terrace, overlooking the buildings and city view.The old furniture belongs to the landlord, and the books are densely packed, stacked or arranged to occupy most of the bedroom.Only books and computers are important in her life.There is no desire to possess worldly material things.She released hot water for him to bathe in. The bathtub was so small that he could only stand in it to shower, but it was wiped clean.She said, take a shower and I'll make coffee for you.She has a coffee machine and bought ground coffee for him.Prepared new slippers and bath towels for him.

In the kitchen, there is a narrow wooden table for two people, which can only turn around.They sit down and drink coffee.On the table is a bouquet of fresh peonies she bought, inserted in white enamel cups, some are in full bloom, and some are still round.The cotton tea cushion on the table is self-sewn, with elegant patterns on both sides and dense hand-stitched edges.Collected or picked up objects are scattered in the room, such as weaving cloth, old bowls, picture albums, small cast iron Buddha statues, tea sets, dried flower branches, pine cones, bergamot, cicada sloughs, pebbles, etc.The environment is simple, but the feelings of a woman with an aesthetic heart can be seen everywhere.

One wall is pasted with dense postcards and photos, many of which were taken by her during her travels, with unique views and characters.She went to many ethnic minority areas, most of which are extremely remote.He saw the photo of Guanyin Pavilion Bridge.She may have been living in her own world, disappointed with the world, but never complained.He walked over, hugged her, and kissed her hair.He said, Qingchang, I love you very much, you know that. He asked her why she married Dingshan, but she never lived with him.She said that even if she gets married, she and Dingshan will remain independent.Dingshan is a man with a unique personality, calm and at ease, and can understand her personality and status.For them, emotional and physical closeness has never been there before.Never been in love.Just try to be with each other in this city.They are all from other places and have no relatives or friends in Shanghai.Dingshan cooks, eats with her, and cleans the kitchen together after the meal, after which she works and he watches TV.This is how they usually get along.She said that if you get married, such a person is fine.

He looked at her and said softly, Qing Chang, you have a keen and profound understanding of this world, and your heart is rich, subtle and beautiful, but why are you so careless about your own marriage and relationship. She said I wasn't being careless.I respect emotion.So I tell you, I'm getting married.I am not someone else.I am Zhou Qingchang.I can't get along with you any other way.Qingchi.We may need some time, but there is no middle course in my relationship.Either one or the other, black and white, clear.This is my way. Even if the present and the future are mixed, unknown and unsolvable, every moment is still worth cherishing.He left behind his work, family, and situation in Beijing, and came to her side alone.Maybe there is not much time between knowing, the reality is complicated, only the emotion is simple and strong, let's live a day is a day.After all, I decided to give the other party time and try to confirm the relationship again. For two whole weeks.together every day. There are indeed differences in living habits.He drank only cold water, and all cold beverages.For breakfast, bacon and bacon omelets with tangy root beer sauce and long cups of coffee.She likes hot tea, porridge for breakfast, and light dishes. She doesn't like greasy meat and eats vegetables and fruits.He had to close all the curtains when sleeping, the room was so dark that he couldn't see his fingers.She likes to open the curtains to let some dim floating light and shadows in the room, so that she feels peaceful and easy to fall asleep.He pays great attention to the cleanliness and flatness of his clothes, and all clothes need to be ironed.She often goes to poor areas and is used to wearing dry clothes directly on her body.She was still the same as when she was in Zhanli, curled up sideways and fell asleep alone.Gradually, I got used to being asked to hug each other and fall asleep holding hands. In the morning, he was going to work and got up early to take a shower. She had already set up his shirt, suit and tie for him, and prepared coffee and breakfast in the kitchen.He finished eating, picked up his briefcase, kissed goodbye and went to work.She cleans up at home, washes and irons his clothes, goes to the market to buy fruits and vegetables, and does housework.Turn on the computer and work.He would text her during work breaks, and expressing passionate emotions has always been his forte.He likes meat, and she compares recipes, starts stews at dusk, and makes desserts in the oven.The small room is filled with the smell of hot food, and they are working in the kitchen, listening to classical music on the radio while waiting for the men who are off work to return home.